tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-84407599960505122024-03-17T20:04:11.003-07:00each day an adventure in alaskawith over 20 years in this amazing place. it's never dull. i hope to enjoy years of exploration here.Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.comBlogger2118125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-32604349796959970622024-03-17T16:01:00.000-07:002024-03-17T16:01:31.893-07:00the Iditarod is over for the season. <p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqzBGhEhd30AuVtoRTdOMQFwoamdLM1zirw26PNU1pTPrbG9KJbUbxtrdqDLyII0UXZ3Lgmg5DJQ2cgwuzhT2RFghMJtZRPzVg_s_5Q92X8qaiadAiihUKUUEQ6H0XsQqLEZgVVKkgrBqQy43DMZtikRySfQ3C6XLtWaTJML_vIwbJNUNua1fTLyJ5Ng/s1200/361613536_10161075687646197_2165875017190645011_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1200" data-original-width="800" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqzBGhEhd30AuVtoRTdOMQFwoamdLM1zirw26PNU1pTPrbG9KJbUbxtrdqDLyII0UXZ3Lgmg5DJQ2cgwuzhT2RFghMJtZRPzVg_s_5Q92X8qaiadAiihUKUUEQ6H0XsQqLEZgVVKkgrBqQy43DMZtikRySfQ3C6XLtWaTJML_vIwbJNUNua1fTLyJ5Ng/s320/361613536_10161075687646197_2165875017190645011_n.jpg" width="213" /></a></div>out at Gwenich Glacier last summer. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiok4bNAopA-O231-LtaD4zaMqYSHvk713iHcTKy4uA5s8eZnKOgnduSBu5Q9vI81BOCI8Mi1sid2Zx4A4vNPHJHe_o1gTXelum-Q7eJvau1OQky-N9n7pvE0iuxVpBiWzBW3hWyhpR3dU6i3SCOQs6o_jVRHsvzxKnJsp01_cI9N2r5CbUEKRx7zI5pw/s2048/361613208_10161075684361197_3920058549789226821_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiok4bNAopA-O231-LtaD4zaMqYSHvk713iHcTKy4uA5s8eZnKOgnduSBu5Q9vI81BOCI8Mi1sid2Zx4A4vNPHJHe_o1gTXelum-Q7eJvau1OQky-N9n7pvE0iuxVpBiWzBW3hWyhpR3dU6i3SCOQs6o_jVRHsvzxKnJsp01_cI9N2r5CbUEKRx7zI5pw/s320/361613208_10161075684361197_3920058549789226821_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>still July...how behind i am at posting. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguJBePdxUbuiEXX2J7Ynf989F8B_4kqGGBK_QzOog0dHXImZTEyySFPQQH2LwIxtWYrJV4LZ49wsHUCbh1_ipHQbQQc08pKPr2GizSJH3pVcYrCPbKjz1vXsVxI1-MZjq888uFLYHaMHql6awaA4m_bRgcBdExxxRI11e4Hw-e-vtE47Kb2ThQo3p_OQ/s2048/361613023_10161075571776197_5213743413039369686_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguJBePdxUbuiEXX2J7Ynf989F8B_4kqGGBK_QzOog0dHXImZTEyySFPQQH2LwIxtWYrJV4LZ49wsHUCbh1_ipHQbQQc08pKPr2GizSJH3pVcYrCPbKjz1vXsVxI1-MZjq888uFLYHaMHql6awaA4m_bRgcBdExxxRI11e4Hw-e-vtE47Kb2ThQo3p_OQ/s320/361613023_10161075571776197_5213743413039369686_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>this stretch off we have our lecture out at REI. Fish and Game will take the lead. hopefully, better than the first time i had fish and game take the lead. the guy was so nice but he literally put the application on the screen and then went line by line how to fill it out. people still came back the next year. haha. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNNt09PKlMDZuEspogcG3jnxVvT1cIa_Vrk-hkOPPVGcj_EYgpVnGEA8jkVU7smyIelLYh3gr1CEvH5yEEznPGSb3niWmzjR98yEW1wuEiEbPF0JxqQqRP-0dIa4tp40DIPQx2iNDd9IDRkVvEupvRZnjWKyaj7Br1TIF8P0G_ZmFlK8WzlBzBmTAFlw/s2048/361612017_10161075570956197_8643222348763099543_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNNt09PKlMDZuEspogcG3jnxVvT1cIa_Vrk-hkOPPVGcj_EYgpVnGEA8jkVU7smyIelLYh3gr1CEvH5yEEznPGSb3niWmzjR98yEW1wuEiEbPF0JxqQqRP-0dIa4tp40DIPQx2iNDd9IDRkVvEupvRZnjWKyaj7Br1TIF8P0G_ZmFlK8WzlBzBmTAFlw/s320/361612017_10161075570956197_8643222348763099543_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>hopefully, it will go off okay. i have goodie bags and i'll make some walrus cupcakes. they probably won't be the best as i'm no perfectionist but the goodies were always fun. one thing i did learn about my days as a mormon. food always helps. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgapkzKjaHwo_koOIB8JAwf4lE_gfCTxTUSok9ZVyT6DrLINGYdd7S_ZUCk-tZddw9N1UIdFUscbHcTAY3fuhKO3pPYVypxbmo3Iru6F1FNyrug-R7bAcyKWbg7omNb-x7vdx8mc8N0KJUvE88z-DVQrDFmSKhr-k7u4VyPdQiDrK8lAJcD3B-ShPeCsw/s960/361611978_10161075678751197_3936411212376504169_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="720" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgapkzKjaHwo_koOIB8JAwf4lE_gfCTxTUSok9ZVyT6DrLINGYdd7S_ZUCk-tZddw9N1UIdFUscbHcTAY3fuhKO3pPYVypxbmo3Iru6F1FNyrug-R7bAcyKWbg7omNb-x7vdx8mc8N0KJUvE88z-DVQrDFmSKhr-k7u4VyPdQiDrK8lAJcD3B-ShPeCsw/s320/361611978_10161075678751197_3936411212376504169_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>fell right down on my knee yesterday at the start of the walk. it's still a bit sore. we did manage a walk though so really shouldn't be an excuse for today. Ivy has also been limping on her non-surgical knee these past few days. she will go, go, go though. pay later. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj0fCkeucMrpV6EOgSoKVjI7KKkApWbvQGuybv93UEzWZ2WqcdDDqNZZZcAJ4IJvzXz-1GfKzgTtVaNzmzuX5gAYFlAfpjs7B7QQm5wOJRat-xPrcTmslXgE4Tb7bDlHzqGb2h0Y5KMfS9DuHTuBlX1mtwsBE7UvdAiFE2FtJA8T4Xf2rq-jNyBz30lZA/s1200/361611962_10161075687526197_6212029636893691603_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1200" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj0fCkeucMrpV6EOgSoKVjI7KKkApWbvQGuybv93UEzWZ2WqcdDDqNZZZcAJ4IJvzXz-1GfKzgTtVaNzmzuX5gAYFlAfpjs7B7QQm5wOJRat-xPrcTmslXgE4Tb7bDlHzqGb2h0Y5KMfS9DuHTuBlX1mtwsBE7UvdAiFE2FtJA8T4Xf2rq-jNyBz30lZA/s320/361611962_10161075687526197_6212029636893691603_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>we got out late yesterday as i was sucked into a book, "the women". Kristin Hannah. she'd also written a book i read recently and really liked, "the great alone" so clearly she has some great story telling skills. love books that make immerse you completely. this book was about a woman who signs up for Vietnam war as a nurse and how that goes for her, before, during and after her time in country. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiiJqbwKE5BUFL8Ts9H7tjFKJ95IjxuPYZRp05Ut7elx29by1HeQkNNOjUD8gYbLi7BOmjgZaZI3TaL8dNXiMo6RG6E_ZVMP015JPKA8OwV36w0V-qzGIuBDXV-Ve6d7zCSwtnBsPfuwx7SO5YOKnPGrl0nVhkhLAOkxDL1Es7V3m8OR89K8wEymm0JIA/s2048/361611936_10161095476916197_594434083420681501_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiiJqbwKE5BUFL8Ts9H7tjFKJ95IjxuPYZRp05Ut7elx29by1HeQkNNOjUD8gYbLi7BOmjgZaZI3TaL8dNXiMo6RG6E_ZVMP015JPKA8OwV36w0V-qzGIuBDXV-Ve6d7zCSwtnBsPfuwx7SO5YOKnPGrl0nVhkhLAOkxDL1Es7V3m8OR89K8wEymm0JIA/s320/361611936_10161095476916197_594434083420681501_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>it gets into how the veterans and women especially were treated. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPYhy4VK6sWaKYxYkULSfixD1HcQdtb-OillIsAfQ5FDIT_keH8fJ9ep-5mZqMlOoorX-TmHDOOu_ENcHLx_zz1Uwdq7m5pu_6HyjQdZl5PMTecQsMYS57HPwocninB498dfyLZFDuleIiHocfoCy53iYBYIL3xCD8IjOXU6k-ClTf7SA6otKT-4QBPQ/s2048/361611715_10161075574101197_1763088054789718579_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjPYhy4VK6sWaKYxYkULSfixD1HcQdtb-OillIsAfQ5FDIT_keH8fJ9ep-5mZqMlOoorX-TmHDOOu_ENcHLx_zz1Uwdq7m5pu_6HyjQdZl5PMTecQsMYS57HPwocninB498dfyLZFDuleIiHocfoCy53iYBYIL3xCD8IjOXU6k-ClTf7SA6otKT-4QBPQ/s320/361611715_10161075574101197_1763088054789718579_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>on todays docket is painting some walrus rocks. i'll make the cupcakes tomorrow evening. it's the first gathering since before covid and the staff at fish and game and rei have changed out. so hopefully all goes well. keep it simple. we will have our drawing after the lecture and questions. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Pow's, Hanoi Hilton, McCain, torture, Lieutenant Calley and the massacre at My Lai. it was not one of our nations finest moments. we treated those who served horribly, no welcome home at all because the war was so controversial. they were shamed because we were all ashamed i suppose. what were we doing? what was the point?<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhS-2ondW3sCAaPskscegXZhWCc_J3aTv-PpA_ogwuWPGNmSK6Lb9LKCc8adGVoTrwYcX-3ojYD-YDDMWNc70Ubq6Atdc3_t-YhyphenhyphenmiN9fddP2lnwCBkty7i7QKFihwysK6Ma-GD_HhHqSuM9YnDh3-nDpte3w_1QpMqX8GqI0O3aXYwvGFwWQfMooDAg/s960/361610210_10161075679051197_3202158193850017468_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="720" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhS-2ondW3sCAaPskscegXZhWCc_J3aTv-PpA_ogwuWPGNmSK6Lb9LKCc8adGVoTrwYcX-3ojYD-YDDMWNc70Ubq6Atdc3_t-YhyphenhyphenmiN9fddP2lnwCBkty7i7QKFihwysK6Ma-GD_HhHqSuM9YnDh3-nDpte3w_1QpMqX8GqI0O3aXYwvGFwWQfMooDAg/s320/361610210_10161075679051197_3202158193850017468_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>the war ended in '75, when i was 10-11 years old i think. it is how modern wars are being fought. off our land but involving a lot of people who aren't really in the game. just trying to live their lives. wars by proxy now i think they call them. keeps the wars off our land and keeps our nation safe from the horrors. we just supply bombs and war equipment, training. try to avoid deaths as there were so many US soldiers that died in Vietnam. over 300,000 US wounded. not to mention all the ptsd and drug and alcohol issues for those who "survived" the war itself. over 58,000 of our own killed.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikPfctq19Gvco6tdR3kUd8IqFcUhVPAIqL2ijVcMuo5PSUIaJzrfnqe84SKlEmDAQbtyHIXVobF9PHgdOiIvZMIx77gzB0iygKNHMvRAdsfYPSEV26eGAft8rUnBue45WXEw1ayD-dajkn5NYDlXuXqigoAoxdU5hWsu4i_-u2CmpxCF_KpPpsqajZSg/s2048/361609727_10161075676221197_7973119415805225362_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikPfctq19Gvco6tdR3kUd8IqFcUhVPAIqL2ijVcMuo5PSUIaJzrfnqe84SKlEmDAQbtyHIXVobF9PHgdOiIvZMIx77gzB0iygKNHMvRAdsfYPSEV26eGAft8rUnBue45WXEw1ayD-dajkn5NYDlXuXqigoAoxdU5hWsu4i_-u2CmpxCF_KpPpsqajZSg/s320/361609727_10161075676221197_7973119415805225362_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>that distrust continues on all sides now. one half seems to want to return to the time when they were lied to and life was simpler. that life never really existed. watching Openheimer and the dropping of the nuclear bombs...how much were those Americans told. what was the truth. i suspect they had just spent a lot of time and effort on these huge and destructive bombs and needed to test them out. like so many other things in our history...we were taught that dropping those bombs saved US lives and stopped the war from dragging on. maybe it did but at what moral cost. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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St Patrick was an Irish Saint. he was kidnapped and brought to Ireland as a slave. he escaped but later returned to convert them to Christianity. it seems like often in times past conversion could be less than kind. the US has altered the religious holiday into a secular, party. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWsGhSa4cTpiyLwUhDAJF7tkcx0aFJ_Wv7aEtR-TexCKYF6fH9RjeAmsE7uVtPnTnDg_fqeRP24haYW8Q0KTsDfdmT_6kIPzDX7-pGc8SxsLtCJrswI-GQxfEGrwZ4TR55llRiortxHdt5yj421VVy4iS_bFcaAEzZ-p5FtL1k4Fmk_lSIsNPzi26ERw/s1200/361608723_10161075684091197_7002265035269520777_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1200" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiWsGhSa4cTpiyLwUhDAJF7tkcx0aFJ_Wv7aEtR-TexCKYF6fH9RjeAmsE7uVtPnTnDg_fqeRP24haYW8Q0KTsDfdmT_6kIPzDX7-pGc8SxsLtCJrswI-GQxfEGrwZ4TR55llRiortxHdt5yj421VVy4iS_bFcaAEzZ-p5FtL1k4Fmk_lSIsNPzi26ERw/s320/361608723_10161075684091197_7002265035269520777_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>are we Irish. our grandparents/great grandparents came over from Ireland. at least on my Mom's side. they had moved to Ireland from Germany? at some point they had joined the Joseph Smith cult of Mormonism and these connections got them from Ireland to the US. i believe during the time they came, the Irish were not welcomed with open arms. i do recall being told my Grandmother quickly got rid of her Irish accent as the kids teased her..perhaps that teasing was really more of a bullying. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfORBuxLqD4rSyeI5h0sqIa-seDu58DdvqACCENfITnCYHlrybPBpjdLG0acbTn9YOYXSY1mGjx5WexlQKoNTGbkpiqQaJHQEOD4hI6US_cKPM-Bp1tv1KXwYKc9V5vs03ozthZMwe8bS4_o-CDNEltL5kFMz48UoznsisQb1ekUi8Sy3ixbVnfN3vLg/s2048/415714808_10161417093326197_897102585842062578_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfORBuxLqD4rSyeI5h0sqIa-seDu58DdvqACCENfITnCYHlrybPBpjdLG0acbTn9YOYXSY1mGjx5WexlQKoNTGbkpiqQaJHQEOD4hI6US_cKPM-Bp1tv1KXwYKc9V5vs03ozthZMwe8bS4_o-CDNEltL5kFMz48UoznsisQb1ekUi8Sy3ixbVnfN3vLg/s320/415714808_10161417093326197_897102585842062578_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>we never ate cabbage at our place and we certainly never drank green beer, but we did wear green. that was really the extent of our Irish celebrations. Irish dance classes were not the rage so i was pushed to ballet. i did not excel. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhg_JLEgWqF2V8wwrV2cgCA8cUOW2vwjyk9zfi9GVdZ8UF57sWyvltBKOwU56n4vINcAm5AQw7qEHwjT4ulw_rAHl3DjjGM_o-YreT7tRhT7zXE11V4s3hN2rfM73p7ALuiPyAqT-UKhtcsaKf6QKjxh55JXwefdpCJqth6XzkoRq1NZMX3qs3jy4kufQ/s2048/415712955_10161417095126197_4336219852477142747_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhg_JLEgWqF2V8wwrV2cgCA8cUOW2vwjyk9zfi9GVdZ8UF57sWyvltBKOwU56n4vINcAm5AQw7qEHwjT4ulw_rAHl3DjjGM_o-YreT7tRhT7zXE11V4s3hN2rfM73p7ALuiPyAqT-UKhtcsaKf6QKjxh55JXwefdpCJqth6XzkoRq1NZMX3qs3jy4kufQ/s320/415712955_10161417095126197_4336219852477142747_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>the Irish dance wasn't something i ever heard of. maybe in places were there were larger populations of Irish immigrants? maybe it's a newer fad. happy i never had to wear those horrible wigs. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhk_8AAsvItF3-nmyTZVPUsirIGHxgTYSeBtRh_Td0fObAD0nOkbx357z6qH4C4uvxCLApnqxwWSl7-l4X7rGvoqIF6O0YIoBynkWbDN7FqKeHbqVcEJPUViyRoYMTBUdUWZZZQqI11eRcXFys8V9qgvhHoiW_vVYcsAPQ7Ixt0uNa7ZzO-4lIMUJs4hw/s2048/415676035_10161420334846197_7183608624607290670_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhk_8AAsvItF3-nmyTZVPUsirIGHxgTYSeBtRh_Td0fObAD0nOkbx357z6qH4C4uvxCLApnqxwWSl7-l4X7rGvoqIF6O0YIoBynkWbDN7FqKeHbqVcEJPUViyRoYMTBUdUWZZZQqI11eRcXFys8V9qgvhHoiW_vVYcsAPQ7Ixt0uNa7ZzO-4lIMUJs4hw/s320/415676035_10161420334846197_7183608624607290670_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>so reading the first part of this stretch off. my paycheck was shorted since one of my swipes didn't go through or was removed. no clue. there was a strange incident where my vacation that had been approved, disappeared. turned out a manager in another unit went into my Kronos and deleted it. there are not a lot of Betsy's in the world but there is one that works in PCU. the mix up was corrected but it does make me wonder if the other thing happened when this person was in my Krono's. will be picked up next paycheck. my paychecks will be less now since i'm cutting out another shift. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj97ikBNlhudAUzVD6VhLAZbfnttdGAT_K3ZvPsl08j_-uHQ3gCSu8AeH_oZpQSGGmlmZ4FnxfDtKkbwOBMj4zwNv6rIv0UnYRjkmNYcvqArk9cYOwO9jsiC6kChmBvlVQI4Vp5t9bHOONCcVsWrSmNhlQxtSSDF-XVhJ40KZCR2LKHHsRuv3lX86A0pA/s2048/415642710_10161417093106197_3065595255922337005_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj97ikBNlhudAUzVD6VhLAZbfnttdGAT_K3ZvPsl08j_-uHQ3gCSu8AeH_oZpQSGGmlmZ4FnxfDtKkbwOBMj4zwNv6rIv0UnYRjkmNYcvqArk9cYOwO9jsiC6kChmBvlVQI4Vp5t9bHOONCcVsWrSmNhlQxtSSDF-XVhJ40KZCR2LKHHsRuv3lX86A0pA/s320/415642710_10161417093106197_3065595255922337005_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>at some point i'll need to take up another job, pick up extra shifts with bonus pay or just retire and find another job. saw a house in Homer on the market. makes another part of me ponder packing up and making a move again. bottom line...i'm still in a state of flux and confusion about my next move<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjdWBe66YHizxDAdt-qps0dj0cizZE9xfpwlrBgZrm6LISxuM8TFGwOFzpYr42HqIK14_O4gItUHpYjavXelAmTc-esHWzwVViQtL3zCb_gU2TD6ZapI2nhRuJMTcedrWJJLcXPPPdnvWjbkWfSx9v6RNNfBUSa4e_LGDcq_aXuOKuZ9hSz5NVeUoEN1A/s2048/415635429_10161420334986197_231039059571212949_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjdWBe66YHizxDAdt-qps0dj0cizZE9xfpwlrBgZrm6LISxuM8TFGwOFzpYr42HqIK14_O4gItUHpYjavXelAmTc-esHWzwVViQtL3zCb_gU2TD6ZapI2nhRuJMTcedrWJJLcXPPPdnvWjbkWfSx9v6RNNfBUSa4e_LGDcq_aXuOKuZ9hSz5NVeUoEN1A/s320/415635429_10161420334986197_231039059571212949_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>we've had warmer weather. even if a bit chilly in the morning by the afternoon it's up in the 30's again. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGmBVq8-UH07hxuM6vTjc26-nblU444XCRO6FbRMYLxJnpR6AoZevu01oORggrpy9N_Tk-5HQdhST9jYB7A9IggVmbgHHwpKCep3zsilRngm8X7XmLLzpEx8FyGZNtSScZDt2NDVAc6sz39xlGEVLiG_ZXeeAp_-vZ0p1BfbTjkYueHzDHAVsaoIp3mw/s2048/415634166_10161417091716197_631381192311484253_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGmBVq8-UH07hxuM6vTjc26-nblU444XCRO6FbRMYLxJnpR6AoZevu01oORggrpy9N_Tk-5HQdhST9jYB7A9IggVmbgHHwpKCep3zsilRngm8X7XmLLzpEx8FyGZNtSScZDt2NDVAc6sz39xlGEVLiG_ZXeeAp_-vZ0p1BfbTjkYueHzDHAVsaoIp3mw/s320/415634166_10161417091716197_631381192311484253_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>no further moose encounters. i've stuck to N. Biv quite a bit. not that there are never moose there, but there does tend to be less moose there, why, who knows. also now it's the weekend and the trails can be pretty crazy. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBsqEua1D11hpigAol5PLnJu22pvH8T_Bvk8IBQcCTGDI1qdHR5h05cUtzlwqt9G1ATM1vBUJp6jkMAO610P3WJHz7X1fxt0h2lU7XtFFwtA7yzAX-Ufny2RuZEqVnDhYBq4cS2iQbZBy7l485UUIO5pmqjG7GWXzMKN7y2yruvkFghQEBtYC6IOmGpQ/s2048/415628245_10161420334726197_3682765943883231891_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBsqEua1D11hpigAol5PLnJu22pvH8T_Bvk8IBQcCTGDI1qdHR5h05cUtzlwqt9G1ATM1vBUJp6jkMAO610P3WJHz7X1fxt0h2lU7XtFFwtA7yzAX-Ufny2RuZEqVnDhYBq4cS2iQbZBy7l485UUIO5pmqjG7GWXzMKN7y2yruvkFghQEBtYC6IOmGpQ/s320/415628245_10161420334726197_3682765943883231891_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>pets are good. lots of nice snuggle time with me reading. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEil07wTwhJNzLFRAz9goEfLmxrR9E9Byv4CXm6n-4N43xb6oV0gJ_GYQ0N0NnGiPtop6bntqdN82r8Ny73Ox5C6X5IODaHqxBPsB_Cy39FQa1RV99cYL6XUg0PYQwNpRLsJjrdxiEUaNpbPTIZtJbYc5bfvWd12fETxApMXJqmG-EZt_CoMPCp0ecvQkw/s2048/415622761_10161417094816197_7115139166856689029_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEil07wTwhJNzLFRAz9goEfLmxrR9E9Byv4CXm6n-4N43xb6oV0gJ_GYQ0N0NnGiPtop6bntqdN82r8Ny73Ox5C6X5IODaHqxBPsB_Cy39FQa1RV99cYL6XUg0PYQwNpRLsJjrdxiEUaNpbPTIZtJbYc5bfvWd12fETxApMXJqmG-EZt_CoMPCp0ecvQkw/s320/415622761_10161417094816197_7115139166856689029_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>no sunsets until 8 pm now. crazy! summer is fast approaching . well first break up and then spring but summer is coming. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEwuCUZ00VANE1SojpqPQF95Ugo_OVzkdupEFIGzcaDEmdB4NG65vfmZNAs3JrfgyreUgX5EcwvJGc2rBkSpenMOnzU7EPaBQ1f7xaMrQu7sLEq-FP95aKAo2d_gdWWb3lqZUvd2Iltv5BU8WZb9RytryEMQbG4aBKS8BtcHhxylAlmbDAnQmxLS2uTg/s2048/415622742_10161420334891197_3714583888697430548_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEwuCUZ00VANE1SojpqPQF95Ugo_OVzkdupEFIGzcaDEmdB4NG65vfmZNAs3JrfgyreUgX5EcwvJGc2rBkSpenMOnzU7EPaBQ1f7xaMrQu7sLEq-FP95aKAo2d_gdWWb3lqZUvd2Iltv5BU8WZb9RytryEMQbG4aBKS8BtcHhxylAlmbDAnQmxLS2uTg/s320/415622742_10161420334891197_3714583888697430548_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>the Iditarod, it's over. Dallas won. some controversy, as always. had he stayed long enough harvesting the moose he'd killed on the trail. it was left on the trail. was he docked enough time. why didn't he go back to another, closer check point since he had an injured dog...the controversy seems to have died off. there were a few dog deaths out there though. not moose related. it's always disturbing. gives me a bit of a love/hate relationship with the race. overall, those dogs are bred to run and they love running but it's also stressful on the dogs. over the years the race had been changed repeatedly to improve life for the dogs. still deaths happen. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjGwq_gkBmsgVdFDVm_pyDb25xvT8QyyENAVs1LWaaJnbpp6S9tT2hyphenhyphen9GWV5QZ8IOcrRDEm4sguIA-TvjCBbIRLRUOJryx9cr60BhhckG7WxqPZCBbP8gPLiW9f-ssLa68UHW1bDBzz40eOXSA-HItBCiVA0MZVmqzrJkWvHXaQQrr7K8p_9QjPlMWNmw/s2048/415620702_10161417093366197_1041819437247222325_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjGwq_gkBmsgVdFDVm_pyDb25xvT8QyyENAVs1LWaaJnbpp6S9tT2hyphenhyphen9GWV5QZ8IOcrRDEm4sguIA-TvjCBbIRLRUOJryx9cr60BhhckG7WxqPZCBbP8gPLiW9f-ssLa68UHW1bDBzz40eOXSA-HItBCiVA0MZVmqzrJkWvHXaQQrr7K8p_9QjPlMWNmw/s320/415620702_10161417093366197_1041819437247222325_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>there weren't as many teams either. more rookies though. was their lack of experience a factor. were they dozing off on the sled...my feeling is if you are caught sleeping you should be taken out of the competition. when you are too tired you could easily miss signs of an issue with a dog. dogs mostly pass from gastric bleeds and/or pneumonia. they do necropsies but the cause of death is generally vague and not prominently displayed in the news. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6ND-6dpHgIRO2bqrelCHWTovMtjaNAY6GlUefKJhyphenhyphenTbQBvFyOC_VMQ6ByIbVwMl7C586vp7A1bhZZOThT-8g3xXH0hwz-UUwKRcvLBmghhIJRsln1p33Hu2G-MLzUJKMzSRgqXaVTYlO-zHDXIfKJFl0j-tEfsXgjCp1PXmJq208GF3ARnGX9pXi3-w/s2048/415616499_10161417091531197_7277833618417453347_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjX43Vsu_d7XcjB1xzey6aim9hljWewp_fnY-HmaPmgsv4a2hao5J7OCSiCmjBuVvdFhV4Unez2Hxq_-F6yNLYQX_QRQ7Hn63RV7gP9VrDnhobEOW6o69oIoYy2sN0hJePGGcOzOqIfk1opwviYZcaifXb43WQQsW5QgAA6bNgix-3IFtwePjXvx-4i1A/s320/415605059_10161417103011197_5024577051577644926_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>still feel like i'm in recovery mode. family, religion, politics, covid. we've all had a lot of turmoil in the past few years. we've all felt a bit anxious. i feel like there's been some global anxiety these past years. we are not out of it yet for sure. some things do seem to have cleared up for me. covid and work are getting less anxiety inducing, family, i've just backed away, which can bring on anxiety on it's own. that realization that you stopping calling was all it took. knowing that you were the relationship. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhM74KL5tPF-sORu3Z8MEnlqtZCUTSkFEEpDPMQHuiGHqREYRbypoMLZs3SYqmZRoPJiRg0O5aRXlCXWQivq_4aeE2yBqlW3up2lVssmr6S4SeQzxAK85qEgLy5QDNd_FAxKKktm0uW9Gm2EqxW7U-HTwKIDgW67t6WY4P_JrsZn4ZN23x20-wyKO1Ttg/s2048/415604534_10161420334621197_710186516986454617_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhM74KL5tPF-sORu3Z8MEnlqtZCUTSkFEEpDPMQHuiGHqREYRbypoMLZs3SYqmZRoPJiRg0O5aRXlCXWQivq_4aeE2yBqlW3up2lVssmr6S4SeQzxAK85qEgLy5QDNd_FAxKKktm0uW9Gm2EqxW7U-HTwKIDgW67t6WY4P_JrsZn4ZN23x20-wyKO1Ttg/s320/415604534_10161420334621197_710186516986454617_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>another quote that has hit hard these past months because of it's truth,"if your absence doesn't bother them, your presence never meant anything to them". <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhLWdjDhFpKs48a1N5KWJMo92Xqv7Nh2xUkf8A-a4waEbCMOt9cmnuFBmK3cv3DgQxfwubwa7kejYDt_CuNsnCHzqtoDpUBts_VLOIKYCS5csGg_Dt2T2GYtr15ojE37ETXTtnZlMQfnp5qJXShr94u1jSD2YmkYdm-lLY2iG29YPzMFe2HOqfPOCbLw/s2048/415604268_10161417092721197_7722529681888260790_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhhLWdjDhFpKs48a1N5KWJMo92Xqv7Nh2xUkf8A-a4waEbCMOt9cmnuFBmK3cv3DgQxfwubwa7kejYDt_CuNsnCHzqtoDpUBts_VLOIKYCS5csGg_Dt2T2GYtr15ojE37ETXTtnZlMQfnp5qJXShr94u1jSD2YmkYdm-lLY2iG29YPzMFe2HOqfPOCbLw/s320/415604268_10161417092721197_7722529681888260790_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>you want to try but i'm understanding more how one sided it was and has been for decades. i was still bought into the family forever crap. lol. some are too focused on preserving family in the next life and ignore those same folks in this life. i always joked it was "family first, after the church". it is a truth that i knew and yet convinced myself i could change. they make covenants in their temples promising all to the church. no blood oath to blood, just to a religion. should be a sign. these last years more and more is out there. i never did that next level temple stuff, never wore the garments...now all of those silly ceremonies and clothing are out there on the internet. i know it offends them when that it's out there but purely as an outsider. it would have creeped me out if i had gone through it all. the strange outfits the chanting, the secret handshakes and names (which are actually only on a revolving chart, i guess you can look up the secret name if you know the date/year you went through). <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhM6mQyoICpyhHJWD8XIuRV6qUkTpM5WqQQUcx6dcXnGr2Q0fubWeSnH5n6ufpfmAgaCbyH95m4HxJaWVZccXBAzJZ2hsriFstKR3XaUdMCggMlu7CWZZPv5BVJnKiWPF8XCZzgFhjP8aWOemm8djmCzOqrZo9GhFNAt4J_AKzAN0JGQtiim4jmnuLTGA/s2048/415595145_10161413410416197_6637467670173132035_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhM6mQyoICpyhHJWD8XIuRV6qUkTpM5WqQQUcx6dcXnGr2Q0fubWeSnH5n6ufpfmAgaCbyH95m4HxJaWVZccXBAzJZ2hsriFstKR3XaUdMCggMlu7CWZZPv5BVJnKiWPF8XCZzgFhjP8aWOemm8djmCzOqrZo9GhFNAt4J_AKzAN0JGQtiim4jmnuLTGA/s320/415595145_10161413410416197_6637467670173132035_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>pulling the ice balls off the feet. we stop often for this on the trails. they do not like booties. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjfY1ZlpY1raJ6aUekDThCX2EsquJmShWfsroRzzsN6yFmD-GIvzzSzdyc1uDo0zCUxOo-zAGWToluAEHa-aFbNA9vzP8eXI_uxd4I9cDm9iNn_uWWYAhaa3E6S1xkCmzJ2WC_CUr3Cno9bGLz2HXFwM6D6q6Er7IUr6JE6AC1dowCew4A_1N5XdgsEvQ/s2048/415594352_10161417092876197_4440334361050143591_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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Dallas is back in this year. will he get another win...he's hard to beat. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrgcMfoSTvASx-vaGhni_6G9w_IYgUYg24-uQiSlTLKW4BsiRAUcvlEp0RpNLQeNDyBBQyVjjVQP8DJsg-T0kONL3PfXStdDilN5_OCOg74iBlLSt1QclC7xblXGZcvSK1sa-SPnOTgDlzjqkBSYSezfi36J8MmKDbUWzc8Lvja5-kGvgGU_YQNK0QUw/s960/414889680_10161406884231197_6831971169865210844_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="720" data-original-width="960" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrgcMfoSTvASx-vaGhni_6G9w_IYgUYg24-uQiSlTLKW4BsiRAUcvlEp0RpNLQeNDyBBQyVjjVQP8DJsg-T0kONL3PfXStdDilN5_OCOg74iBlLSt1QclC7xblXGZcvSK1sa-SPnOTgDlzjqkBSYSezfi36J8MmKDbUWzc8Lvja5-kGvgGU_YQNK0QUw/s320/414889680_10161406884231197_6831971169865210844_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i get the Iditarod insider on their web site so that gives me access to videos. last night i watched the restart in Willow. not too exciting. one dog seemed to get loose as the team took off. never heard anything about that so they must have got it caught and back in line. another time a guy, who was helping hold the team, got pulled under the dogs as they were getting excited to take off. as the dogs took off he got pulled out the other side by other crew. no mention of that. the announcer seemed to be doing this for the first time. she had difficulty pronouncing some of the names. i mean names of veterans, she was just reading. she'd even start with "this says...". oh well. hopefully, a new generation of crew are getting installed. the race has changed over the years...like most stuff, kinder, gentler. less wild like it once was. more safe for dogs and humans overall. always a risk though<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8c8mmZDrnKmSe2oDMvy2YwQs_2E2fj2Bpa-hHnonwPzTAAbxHV-9aeV00b79kxLuleyoReGxY8mjWPV6gbUaAmXIvjrDhSwDK0oAgcTSigSGZ7ykLqcJeSJiXkqnwXiiy4DZxLLtoFt7NsD-uqEgzB8l3gY2pdWP_ahN-TMg4ymYWFPSzUnQIlEhHBQ/s960/414920664_10161406884101197_3350991740877110362_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="720" data-original-width="960" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8c8mmZDrnKmSe2oDMvy2YwQs_2E2fj2Bpa-hHnonwPzTAAbxHV-9aeV00b79kxLuleyoReGxY8mjWPV6gbUaAmXIvjrDhSwDK0oAgcTSigSGZ7ykLqcJeSJiXkqnwXiiy4DZxLLtoFt7NsD-uqEgzB8l3gY2pdWP_ahN-TMg4ymYWFPSzUnQIlEhHBQ/s320/414920664_10161406884101197_3350991740877110362_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>the moose are always a risk. near where i was it looked like a moose held up the teams for the ceremonial start. i suspect it was the same moose that i encountered later that day at the dog park. that is where i have my spot. right by the park. i went home grabbed the dogs and headed back. Sunny took off...there was a moose. that moose was annoyed and Sunny got charged a few times. i yelled and ran the other direction which got Sunny to come back. he was leashed the rest of the walk<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgl6A_btE9IVRbllcuIoGBDtutpnoZTTh9MUoZq3G9H25IfbIYPELvBwa_GeYuKrQzpojKHaOtubJglON6EhIIMDTYSCvTlk1dSqHiKbG_mT-8XA0mMvzCEfcKOdUvAn6eAMtTxHR9FaaSNHeafpq-2agKInDH-_pJLRR5fTxkrfYHUYX9yd6Ek1obo1A/s960/414925291_10161406884461197_7113248563010545250_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="720" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgl6A_btE9IVRbllcuIoGBDtutpnoZTTh9MUoZq3G9H25IfbIYPELvBwa_GeYuKrQzpojKHaOtubJglON6EhIIMDTYSCvTlk1dSqHiKbG_mT-8XA0mMvzCEfcKOdUvAn6eAMtTxHR9FaaSNHeafpq-2agKInDH-_pJLRR5fTxkrfYHUYX9yd6Ek1obo1A/s320/414925291_10161406884461197_7113248563010545250_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>every so often i question...should i let them run free or should i leash them. dogs have short lives and i really do not want them to have an even shorter life. it makes me nervous any close encounters like this, in the summer there are also bears out there. i lean towards more off leash fun for them than not. more in winter than summer. the bears...they can kill me to. those dogs run much faster than me. i suspect humans have these sort of issues with human kids. how much freedom? when do you protect, when do you let them learn? i would be heartbroken if anything happened, but i think their lives would be less joyful if i let fear of what may happen limit their activities at all times. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4I7bB-Zf0X49CTRK15_kqeFEDRaJ_X1Nt_042XD24l7HXCBfiClNraRVNiI64TPAbBmqYZl7VjYWoimUZ6I5yRwnBdTWJ39pa2q_RUtSpg1uIW02C-0maMHk6KDiI3EELmqesZ_Px0sjNtMsjhwQDNrkxeRRbEpEv8OjbL0GdyiZYiIyGzm9cefX0cQ/s960/414938117_10161406885211197_391015513169869011_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="720" data-original-width="960" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4I7bB-Zf0X49CTRK15_kqeFEDRaJ_X1Nt_042XD24l7HXCBfiClNraRVNiI64TPAbBmqYZl7VjYWoimUZ6I5yRwnBdTWJ39pa2q_RUtSpg1uIW02C-0maMHk6KDiI3EELmqesZ_Px0sjNtMsjhwQDNrkxeRRbEpEv8OjbL0GdyiZYiIyGzm9cefX0cQ/s320/414938117_10161406885211197_391015513169869011_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>Dallas had another run in with a moose rather quickly on the trail to Nome. i guess an angry moose was giving the teams grief out there. one musher slugged the moose in the nose. makes me think the moose was close but passing. Dallas much have had a more dangerous encounter. one of his dogs ended up having to be shipped to the ER in Anchorage. Dallas shot the moose. the rules are that you dress the moose out i guess. anyone that comes behind helps. the moose blocked the trail anyway. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0AxFnwC55UsDvJujCk2e-GM_Sn3tV4uHd5XPL2Lh1yAhEOONHIY_yX9CwoLoUzQ9B36suGMM4x41QcjQ8nrM_qMlofwBu34o0MJ9esSpyDdoAiBSwzxg0bfcfjWqdUnNcIuO_MMWlgHZym0-ie5jhSyAAUr0ixKfMClDsBciyk3rvjacQXGFS_ZEeNQ/s960/414956828_10161406885001197_6785198760828160348_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="756" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0AxFnwC55UsDvJujCk2e-GM_Sn3tV4uHd5XPL2Lh1yAhEOONHIY_yX9CwoLoUzQ9B36suGMM4x41QcjQ8nrM_qMlofwBu34o0MJ9esSpyDdoAiBSwzxg0bfcfjWqdUnNcIuO_MMWlgHZym0-ie5jhSyAAUr0ixKfMClDsBciyk3rvjacQXGFS_ZEeNQ/s320/414956828_10161406885001197_6785198760828160348_n.jpg" width="252" /></a></div>the dog has been discharged from the hospital, the moose...just discharged. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwYbOxaGmbjs26wdQMO4AsyDg9vRtBkOS9UwWqibvEdRcZZaYYoUHmmjz0ojDMB4QdRJF0jM5QidjbHXOT4uMjff0xqblFUDofbaH18-EbyIUmW5yZl2zOm3HrDvu9EUVlV8AjOjMG2urKBUW5dX9xeKXeHo7qPbF6FaHzSlW02HGV1GtHPc_81qGssw/s2048/415543349_10161411682811197_4033222002716916558_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwYbOxaGmbjs26wdQMO4AsyDg9vRtBkOS9UwWqibvEdRcZZaYYoUHmmjz0ojDMB4QdRJF0jM5QidjbHXOT4uMjff0xqblFUDofbaH18-EbyIUmW5yZl2zOm3HrDvu9EUVlV8AjOjMG2urKBUW5dX9xeKXeHo7qPbF6FaHzSlW02HGV1GtHPc_81qGssw/s320/415543349_10161411682811197_4033222002716916558_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>watched a series about these "schools" for difficult teenagers. many of them are by the same guy but he rebrands them and restarts them when the cruel and abusive stuff gets places shut down. the girl who did this series was at one that's been shut down. they just walked away from the place and so this girl and others who had been forced into this place have gone in there and removed records and video. crazy it was all just left behind. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Utah is like the point of origin for much of it. the programs cost little to operate as they often feed very little, use the kids for labor, have poor or no training programs for employees. it's a cash cow. now they are even doing programs focused on adopted kids/foster kids so they can get government money. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKUMO3JuS1RHtqLzfvXJOop2ZU7btpTbIAboxyPwmazrZYXvvnYbqzOezVm_ld85EtmwfAgh5GF8is013lSX2rpRjbUERBoawEUHeM8s9qBWjWJ_Kl-rfhIWaPUOZMPQ0wO4iuL1eWFduLYtCBM7gfcKqZIjOqkjETjXZnZd_J3C1P3A80SbHZy9O0yw/s2048/415549966_10161413409871197_6699987560395674488_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKUMO3JuS1RHtqLzfvXJOop2ZU7btpTbIAboxyPwmazrZYXvvnYbqzOezVm_ld85EtmwfAgh5GF8is013lSX2rpRjbUERBoawEUHeM8s9qBWjWJ_Kl-rfhIWaPUOZMPQ0wO4iuL1eWFduLYtCBM7gfcKqZIjOqkjETjXZnZd_J3C1P3A80SbHZy9O0yw/s320/415549966_10161413409871197_6699987560395674488_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>it's almost like the parents are duped. sounds almost like the parents are the cult members, believing all the hype of a fix. giving over power/control of their kids. not being allowed to really have much contact/visits. the kids are just the victims. often the kids get taken from their homes by staff that literally kidnap the kids. strip searches, violence, abuse, which is mental, emotional, sexual and physical. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1R0TmQ7BcaClT0R4uA1DTxxPhj44hFapQzQAlv8TImkkpIY3t1_qDOmVkxMoR-1zyMYjTbrEffhZrhu_cwFUdgOrvI499rTZw0iFGuMKIgZnsNkoxMXWEfKfUgD4luDZOljl6GiS-Y3qL3v4WyOsEzVgpQNvmvKTYB1q0XeH3l1-yUBozsiZmxxsouw/s2048/415555539_10161413409941197_6810349433976859396_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg1R0TmQ7BcaClT0R4uA1DTxxPhj44hFapQzQAlv8TImkkpIY3t1_qDOmVkxMoR-1zyMYjTbrEffhZrhu_cwFUdgOrvI499rTZw0iFGuMKIgZnsNkoxMXWEfKfUgD4luDZOljl6GiS-Y3qL3v4WyOsEzVgpQNvmvKTYB1q0XeH3l1-yUBozsiZmxxsouw/s320/415555539_10161413409941197_6810349433976859396_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>lot of post program suicides, drug overdoses. so whatever "fix" they say they give is generally temporary. these kids later will be hesitant to get help since the help turned out to be a hell. anyway, i think it was called Program, con, cult...something like that. interesting. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzQZaYUW6zGXRYZp57EfX12pDLuQaeLYqpfjf1uve8OvViud-JwsZNPZ1f_1TN6jWEiBEeRJBpGnjaUb6h5a3IdBVVBxfNiugvL0kXX_SckL2mNfHw7bCCIkD9DKZno7PAb2C_Gzearf48HVsf6bZgkTivc4bpLeQaHR7Dc_FQ_HuOwSJ7WL30v5ELkg/s2048/415558769_10161417092886197_6370867049419759987_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgzQZaYUW6zGXRYZp57EfX12pDLuQaeLYqpfjf1uve8OvViud-JwsZNPZ1f_1TN6jWEiBEeRJBpGnjaUb6h5a3IdBVVBxfNiugvL0kXX_SckL2mNfHw7bCCIkD9DKZno7PAb2C_Gzearf48HVsf6bZgkTivc4bpLeQaHR7Dc_FQ_HuOwSJ7WL30v5ELkg/s320/415558769_10161417092886197_6370867049419759987_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>today was beautiful. i ended up going out to N. 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B. friends to hang out with. C. dogs, dogs and more dogs. <br /> <p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-77866663498871068672024-03-01T12:41:00.000-08:002024-03-01T12:41:43.230-08:00Fur Rondy time...<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6PuQjKjE8XhMGjW1v7Rn5UqbniieAt06HX-XqM_iUbKC1bZz7N_dmoPLmHBQ-QeC6KcEXVgZdHeuhDwppMGdF8VOfmdPRRZJiLHZuR-e8ZjmOJehdhb2-wUJ5ZNsKueCiwzcjmrAtDDn_mYPYj4t_rpERWGFE_KGRgcJOGEd1bVyHiVMKA4Lf7C5ryQ/s960/414871474_10161406884426197_5928578915526370533_n.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="750" data-original-width="960" height="250" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6PuQjKjE8XhMGjW1v7Rn5UqbniieAt06HX-XqM_iUbKC1bZz7N_dmoPLmHBQ-QeC6KcEXVgZdHeuhDwppMGdF8VOfmdPRRZJiLHZuR-e8ZjmOJehdhb2-wUJ5ZNsKueCiwzcjmrAtDDn_mYPYj4t_rpERWGFE_KGRgcJOGEd1bVyHiVMKA4Lf7C5ryQ/s320/414871474_10161406884426197_5928578915526370533_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>last stretch with 3 shifts in a row, hopefully anyway. i suppose it could happen again. i'm officially .6 part time so 2 shifts/week required. will be great. i'm just slowly backing out of the current job. hoping this makes things much better. if not...then it will just push me closer to straight up retiring. it is nice to have the option really. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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B. dogs, they are just so amazing. C. the artistic gifts all around us. </div>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-81492573601087720732024-02-16T22:28:00.000-08:002024-02-16T22:28:13.608-08:00the days are getting longer, lovely warm weather...! 30's<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqMth1guU-8CyWLR8Y0M13KBGpJoIsOXldEo7KkL0sVuvo7rOZQAB1T_p7CsovVJafRbUyZP7twnCmyZGPfxBVSQgYQ2sE88-o-vobS0Lp-PaWDM9ZrYmnwfbDfJf606hmb12Uf5IhtKO9Id7OHnBo2twrpV81lyip6mi6cwEdx3QkIZmNjO7t3oWiIQ/s1200/361597696_10161075687591197_5180556582450803538_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1200" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqMth1guU-8CyWLR8Y0M13KBGpJoIsOXldEo7KkL0sVuvo7rOZQAB1T_p7CsovVJafRbUyZP7twnCmyZGPfxBVSQgYQ2sE88-o-vobS0Lp-PaWDM9ZrYmnwfbDfJf606hmb12Uf5IhtKO9Id7OHnBo2twrpV81lyip6mi6cwEdx3QkIZmNjO7t3oWiIQ/s320/361597696_10161075687591197_5180556582450803538_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i'm really behind now in these blog posts. it's okay. that generally means my brain is calm. calm is good. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqvjgUwGUkJ1YXzZyDgiQLpxnCDwInESBzdEByMLDXCa_YkDf04gVPBC6eDvyOFLYQHRgKsJL0UbnmY4cYYMW0wXb5DNcIAxutbGwgPZKcbbmtvrrXto1KcQ-uPfRPk4cmlnA_MwzIDBrbKGLwoeMfzaUozOc0-J8OwoATQIa9hweg7-1OxGnBTkWc-w/s2048/361597187_10161075570796197_5416316657450492812_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqvjgUwGUkJ1YXzZyDgiQLpxnCDwInESBzdEByMLDXCa_YkDf04gVPBC6eDvyOFLYQHRgKsJL0UbnmY4cYYMW0wXb5DNcIAxutbGwgPZKcbbmtvrrXto1KcQ-uPfRPk4cmlnA_MwzIDBrbKGLwoeMfzaUozOc0-J8OwoATQIa9hweg7-1OxGnBTkWc-w/s320/361597187_10161075570796197_5416316657450492812_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>these are still from July last summer with my nieces. Matanuska glacier, Orca Island, walk to Gwenich Glacier. it was a real Alaskan holiday. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiebINvOikERfF7Msyd_R6QBDIzS33MOrDA0oagCeaXEex0qTvR3b_RkYtkvTSlpAi5_zfy7iXqlPhLW7MJ5XCnwz-QqwRrSxMwPaCnfbdB6K-NTe4OiGaNxxo0iN5cvCnXHd1aa7kYdL_2MxBQtwfjOK8YskQHKAp1voEzDtHtKFFzF7MOCICyqnbaLw/s2048/361596519_10161075684001197_4260309575842263502_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiebINvOikERfF7Msyd_R6QBDIzS33MOrDA0oagCeaXEex0qTvR3b_RkYtkvTSlpAi5_zfy7iXqlPhLW7MJ5XCnwz-QqwRrSxMwPaCnfbdB6K-NTe4OiGaNxxo0iN5cvCnXHd1aa7kYdL_2MxBQtwfjOK8YskQHKAp1voEzDtHtKFFzF7MOCICyqnbaLw/s320/361596519_10161075684001197_4260309575842263502_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>this lake, like all others, is frozen. we have had warmer weather. it started the day after we paid to have the roof shoveled off. that is how it goes. today the road crew came and widened the street, hauling off tons of snow. it was mostly a one lane road. this has happened so many times this winter. neighbors are great at taking turns passing.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZyGfW0ZK16bpacDSX5gxztpemNEgzeMysU9H8TTPcGsY8EXsbwKlcUsUmy57NOsR24tvpB6D5CfMVfpQAS_2bqUmD9cAst4niXk_qJA1UbS-sda7gOXhc8H-LtB3ujXbKTOk01q7EwlzGG6MCaLcZMOKj_opICNB3kQlOSCEMRLJMC0swTsT43-KpeQ/s1200/361596305_10161075687251197_6574806431452011953_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1200" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZyGfW0ZK16bpacDSX5gxztpemNEgzeMysU9H8TTPcGsY8EXsbwKlcUsUmy57NOsR24tvpB6D5CfMVfpQAS_2bqUmD9cAst4niXk_qJA1UbS-sda7gOXhc8H-LtB3ujXbKTOk01q7EwlzGG6MCaLcZMOKj_opICNB3kQlOSCEMRLJMC0swTsT43-KpeQ/s320/361596305_10161075687251197_6574806431452011953_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>we are all enjoying these warm temperatures though. 20's-40's F. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEih2nFIK-zaKnNY3fBYkS7L9_aUsjq23-JLEnLEltBkxCs0bmw_B8JRZp0FprXHIquuOcGT5EgbwVZkaTYgfqdg2pIcFiEH_s-w6Ttce48LyaTZABWvn0QKt_nmvAHa6Yst1mDQRPT9VPw2-_Wi_YXKpDiW868l3lu75KSp6lwwj080X4QR4Fez09QEOQ/s1200/361595964_10161075687991197_8234475158052238664_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1200" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEih2nFIK-zaKnNY3fBYkS7L9_aUsjq23-JLEnLEltBkxCs0bmw_B8JRZp0FprXHIquuOcGT5EgbwVZkaTYgfqdg2pIcFiEH_s-w6Ttce48LyaTZABWvn0QKt_nmvAHa6Yst1mDQRPT9VPw2-_Wi_YXKpDiW868l3lu75KSp6lwwj080X4QR4Fez09QEOQ/s320/361595964_10161075687991197_8234475158052238664_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i thought i'd get at least 24 hours notice on the roof crew. instead i found out they were coming just as i was leaving for work. ended up in the ER. it was such a crazy and strange night. we started with 23 holds, people just kept getting rooms but the waiting room was packed. oddly, the place cleared out and by around 4 am we only had like 5 holds left? anyway. i got to come home early. so between 5am and 6 am i was charging up the Element and digging it out. had to have the cars out of the driveway. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4RklKE-q7ptd7TKURIGOll4LUJZJXNt45T_NHQmzGAZewMQ1BeoQNa2EFML6sKp7eZ-jD4Duz0Rk4gI1Eh-ZoiG6mMRTNUzN_ElGsYBkiELFFUH-SjdJBpn6XKRHERM66BZm2gi_PExO1Rh9NHmqKqKpgAllXItURRujsVIfMhSu0PkAzYZaJmoFMKA/s2048/361595884_10161075680806197_7433498904991945273_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4RklKE-q7ptd7TKURIGOll4LUJZJXNt45T_NHQmzGAZewMQ1BeoQNa2EFML6sKp7eZ-jD4Duz0Rk4gI1Eh-ZoiG6mMRTNUzN_ElGsYBkiELFFUH-SjdJBpn6XKRHERM66BZm2gi_PExO1Rh9NHmqKqKpgAllXItURRujsVIfMhSu0PkAzYZaJmoFMKA/s320/361595884_10161075680806197_7433498904991945273_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>sleeping was impossible. i slept a few hours before the crew was supposed to arrive. woke up as the dogs were not going to just allow a crew to walk around the roof and not let everyone know about it. they finished by afternoon. i think i slept another hour or two. then went outside to try and make it so i could put both cars side by side again. no go. too much snow. got cars back in the driveway though. Element battery is dead again. oh well. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjvhuHlVs97hdfeqPttXFMoWFO8wPqXUxZXkqUGIZ4EivUyDkf7rcCogJG7IVd0eE6kPNSduUnCeRVa6DE3uRdIO3Ip-ocu6HQt95n7jrd9TQaJJg865l8xgkfnuWMMD1xSmfXvJv4uGgxJhgm88p6vPR9IUmzj9MmG8T_2hl6eX5BWLUjA0e-z6eHrzQ/s2048/361595080_10161075674976197_4882693668825976023_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjvhuHlVs97hdfeqPttXFMoWFO8wPqXUxZXkqUGIZ4EivUyDkf7rcCogJG7IVd0eE6kPNSduUnCeRVa6DE3uRdIO3Ip-ocu6HQt95n7jrd9TQaJJg865l8xgkfnuWMMD1xSmfXvJv4uGgxJhgm88p6vPR9IUmzj9MmG8T_2hl6eX5BWLUjA0e-z6eHrzQ/s320/361595080_10161075674976197_4882693668825976023_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>at that time i also discovered that so much snow had been shoveled in to my side yard that i had two dogs looking down at me from over the fence. i started to dig a moat and lower the level of snow on the other side of the fence. i needed to get ready for work so i had decided i'd just shut the dog door rather than risk having the dogs escape. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Sunny Boy had a vet appointment. got medicine in his ears. hope it's not toxic since i had to keep stopping Ivy Rose from cleaning his ears. he was a hit at the Vets. he charmed them all and got loads of compliments. he really is a great puppy. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQhmjJ1M0p4jIA0aD9dugzn0rzHg3Q77945kIx_8Q5CrSwBeQzp6Ob0lBdVGP2d5Ovh99-uRzSmaGLuDmbIg0FnGOCudQpKJcVHoM_NUxVGFq16bZIJd48qsCngI1Z4t5Zlm5juSeqkmJfLfOPNUAF-RoDILu0cGy_81J1nFdEcJLFixmkbBsMb0OzEA/s1200/361590505_10161075683991197_4377824505868843138_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1200" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQhmjJ1M0p4jIA0aD9dugzn0rzHg3Q77945kIx_8Q5CrSwBeQzp6Ob0lBdVGP2d5Ovh99-uRzSmaGLuDmbIg0FnGOCudQpKJcVHoM_NUxVGFq16bZIJd48qsCngI1Z4t5Zlm5juSeqkmJfLfOPNUAF-RoDILu0cGy_81J1nFdEcJLFixmkbBsMb0OzEA/s320/361590505_10161075683991197_4377824505868843138_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>we hit the dog park first. did a nice run out there. a few moose. one sleeping on the lake, easy to avoid and another surprise one back in the woods. Sunny did make a run over to meet the moose. thankfully, he returned after i called "leave it" and "here puppy". whew!<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqHeWNbbNcNp_t3fGqL_CE5KWLFdMDPPrvKvny1017UEq0Cue2bsXImYhlRr-l1WszH30MC7BSxG0HrJQ8nsb58lgjXTQM-edujE_qC2W0IlyCBksE0RKZjUCqkEIBzmxiNHU06x6mnVRolwDmxDMofxpRFZ-696hAegUe5f4cDNAu69RgUHn0Km_tig/s2048/361588980_10161075571421197_2606369540478661800_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqHeWNbbNcNp_t3fGqL_CE5KWLFdMDPPrvKvny1017UEq0Cue2bsXImYhlRr-l1WszH30MC7BSxG0HrJQ8nsb58lgjXTQM-edujE_qC2W0IlyCBksE0RKZjUCqkEIBzmxiNHU06x6mnVRolwDmxDMofxpRFZ-696hAegUe5f4cDNAu69RgUHn0Km_tig/s320/361588980_10161075571421197_2606369540478661800_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>after the Vet appointment we headed to Ruth Arcand. the rocks are starting to show up again. i'd cared for a patient that i know i've met out there so i was kind of avoiding the area for a bit for the patients comfort. eventually, we may run into each other. it's a pretty small state human wise for how big it is. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Taylor had flown off to Australia to perform to more sold our crowds. she is rocking life right now so she seems happy with her football player. not sure that guy will be the one but you never know. people and relationships are not that easy to predict, love makes people do unpredictable things. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0E9_ZSAhCurUUjY5qYbP3lWk9F-J0-xFtvo2EvyjyBoLfbdO37YEmPbh0PeXnLdiyglyOKwUm8LrgS6ek7TOtNtn_jmWdUSnjfxRFP88tXsj1uPLGIJ_ZeIyHqGajAH5R94wHlBI2WVLyJK1Ande7dz2OXs-szEPVZVfLkmwbRyPbzAwz3N-j3njreA/s2048/361586193_10161075680766197_7865677437172028196_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0E9_ZSAhCurUUjY5qYbP3lWk9F-J0-xFtvo2EvyjyBoLfbdO37YEmPbh0PeXnLdiyglyOKwUm8LrgS6ek7TOtNtn_jmWdUSnjfxRFP88tXsj1uPLGIJ_ZeIyHqGajAH5R94wHlBI2WVLyJK1Ande7dz2OXs-szEPVZVfLkmwbRyPbzAwz3N-j3njreA/s320/361586193_10161075680766197_7865677437172028196_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>it's been lots of swift drama as the grammy's were right before all this and she got the album of the year award. once again, there was someone who believed the award should go to Beyonce. years ago i think with one of her first awards, Kanye came up on stage as she was accepting the award and literally grabbed the mike from her and said Beyonce deserved it. this time Beyonce's cheating husband used some random award he was given to just say that she needed to be respected and be giving the award. i think she already has a crazy number of grammy wins...just hasn't gotten the album of the year. a bunch of rich spoiled fools from my view point. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIFKFc0yRgPXcFTEHjTI-B6iDx-K1VUUiaorhlb5_g9PF-E0vTQ25xh3kFLWcIRi3wNufi-j4YmmDYOERZ4N80LRNcjIMU1wzVQ-BKl1xF3vaDJLIEZMc11M6625WVYqJPzYKViFvmhK5d3lbrRG-sxsaaGa_YAY9hERqbclxpSEQvbIZsdoXDonLTDg/s2048/361581684_10161075684426197_3854812137633663456_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIFKFc0yRgPXcFTEHjTI-B6iDx-K1VUUiaorhlb5_g9PF-E0vTQ25xh3kFLWcIRi3wNufi-j4YmmDYOERZ4N80LRNcjIMU1wzVQ-BKl1xF3vaDJLIEZMc11M6625WVYqJPzYKViFvmhK5d3lbrRG-sxsaaGa_YAY9hERqbclxpSEQvbIZsdoXDonLTDg/s320/361581684_10161075684426197_3854812137633663456_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>the politics and election run is bonkers. as the orange idiot battles to delay all these court cases, he's had a few losses of late. he won't go to the supreme court to argue that he should have total immunity because he was potus. he got fined $355 million+interest i think in the fraud case in NY. he also got fined in the repeat case over smearing the name of the women he raped. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5EA-j0KoTlcRtMtBWJOQH_d6i6xFFbTo49ZOniRWM837E7Zq8zMvqKC3ZDsO7v3CTmsC1_cEhyphenhyphenHH2lEV8nYf9t9h1ujR6m0oKFXbdPzGBeGr4K6bvj-cooT6IEP2xli8NDzzExioUs-D0OmlMOtS3aV5Guu6v4KFR_gjAFAu9VwzwsjtqCw5YS6CKZg/s2048/361580578_10161075571051197_6554110041179912134_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5EA-j0KoTlcRtMtBWJOQH_d6i6xFFbTo49ZOniRWM837E7Zq8zMvqKC3ZDsO7v3CTmsC1_cEhyphenhyphenHH2lEV8nYf9t9h1ujR6m0oKFXbdPzGBeGr4K6bvj-cooT6IEP2xli8NDzzExioUs-D0OmlMOtS3aV5Guu6v4KFR_gjAFAu9VwzwsjtqCw5YS6CKZg/s320/361580578_10161075571051197_6554110041179912134_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>his friend F-ER Carlson went to Russia and gave put a long platform. put even mocked him. right after that aired. Navolny ( the guy who put jailed for trying to run against him, after the guy survived put poisoning him) he died suddenly in prison in some remote and brutal prison. he'd actually been in a court room the day before looking pretty good so hmm. put kills people all the time. they need to send all puts held money to Ukraine. it's sitting in banks in Germany i think. they also need to pass the damn bill to send money/supplies to Ukraine. it passed the Senate but the new idiot in charge on the house refuses to even vote on things. they just want to waste time trying to impeach people. their star witness was just found to be lying. of course, they followers are so in the bubble that they never hear any actual news. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjH0kj-molBGyAiR77E37ng3Odu3QfVR-UW5sDeX4zjiBjlwXAvBZ_UYYKESeF4p9D55TYK2iS5p6HAq0Ejg20EtD-MRRXzqAPRs8YJTFOg4NGWmGrKjc1nGC6Z9XTJ5SU6lhngd7DShEBouKATt06EXFpNUxbTgw1VA2GDvcK_gL9sySirsV7UpDwG-A/s960/361580567_6636893839664053_7765115904367857460_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="720" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjH0kj-molBGyAiR77E37ng3Odu3QfVR-UW5sDeX4zjiBjlwXAvBZ_UYYKESeF4p9D55TYK2iS5p6HAq0Ejg20EtD-MRRXzqAPRs8YJTFOg4NGWmGrKjc1nGC6Z9XTJ5SU6lhngd7DShEBouKATt06EXFpNUxbTgw1VA2GDvcK_gL9sySirsV7UpDwG-A/s320/361580567_6636893839664053_7765115904367857460_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>it's just all sorts of insane. you can't possibly keep up. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQjnPm8czDoG16VFnx66SvCNYz9g7HJY5v-uXnaj-5d3iLZNQbS0cQcVCBRyZwyQR0RgKBYna64LSfuFPWJFvhb3ouqH6l-g2hc-EIT492NcU2TFmVYJSLT2Y0M2d8fhI_nEcuDMzGV3oVkhnl4cXUbLfDhrn8jB8p0REtxDI1JD7USqo9WF0y-dIQ8g/s2048/414421169_10161406888411197_5158196211405604103_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQjnPm8czDoG16VFnx66SvCNYz9g7HJY5v-uXnaj-5d3iLZNQbS0cQcVCBRyZwyQR0RgKBYna64LSfuFPWJFvhb3ouqH6l-g2hc-EIT492NcU2TFmVYJSLT2Y0M2d8fhI_nEcuDMzGV3oVkhnl4cXUbLfDhrn8jB8p0REtxDI1JD7USqo9WF0y-dIQ8g/s320/414421169_10161406888411197_5158196211405604103_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>as for Israel and Palestine...omg. it's just brutal. what happened on Oct 7 was horrific...also a lot of the crap happening in Palestine is horrific. it's all just bad. Hamas still has hostages, many of those hostages have now been reported as dead. i think like 30 of them. the people of Gaza just seem to be pushed from area to area. none of the surrounding nations want them or hamas. they say it's because those refugees would never be allowed to return...so i guess they are okay with them just being slaughtered as well. that seems fairly telling. it's a huge disaster that we are sucked in to. of course, biden gets trashed for helping Israel but you better believe the orange fool and his followers would happily drop a nuclear bomb on gaza. something about the second coming and zion...i don't know. it's all way too out of my brains ability to comprehend it, but it's all horrific and brutal. death all over. so much hatred out there. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEimAid11VZnva3dQVHwtfb918gkVXaj_9X_BQWBijZvQ2n6tsskYIuS52mnEfnx97h4Atk2vta5F20lU_Z4hMwFlT7xnro004N_WYSnpoY0IETNLf9ZCdzhJQ9iTqs0aAQ5kY3dcg2JwNSfsBiHaSlZLvOF3OU85cLyDdHLU2wcHXkDmJ9y2OEhK5P4mQ/s2048/414420974_10161411681996197_5108716101046237140_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEimAid11VZnva3dQVHwtfb918gkVXaj_9X_BQWBijZvQ2n6tsskYIuS52mnEfnx97h4Atk2vta5F20lU_Z4hMwFlT7xnro004N_WYSnpoY0IETNLf9ZCdzhJQ9iTqs0aAQ5kY3dcg2JwNSfsBiHaSlZLvOF3OU85cLyDdHLU2wcHXkDmJ9y2OEhK5P4mQ/s320/414420974_10161411681996197_5108716101046237140_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>from my viewpoint all religions cause so much hatred. ours is better than yours attitude...when all along it's just about money and power. where ever you are born, to whom you are born...that is the religion you mostly stick with. they can't all be right but for sure they can all be wrong. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5sYjgTuz5tztcW9igcYR170V6NNwuuX7AiMPiXHHPuKZ_CNT5TM-wGJXsyzy0B-90KVi4htDa3HqYiTDXGwch225c_pExY1eIZHGrcUwoRyqjyzCijkk6TP978jf-L-sJPR40l_KIZ3ITgoC2igBnc_k-8Tc8Mk7rxyRMA8KsYFMT3BiIh5RUsxR76g/s2048/414420276_10161406889391197_8873632914885253658_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgol3JUHoWfXOMCz_yegM_sG8NsLlM6wUI6TFUHPL7ZrpSx5Qrv3_QdmETOGULAAqkqac8xLXsekaj_-K-vxovTLKr12groHoe6zYZfQV3uFBAbZ7yz8Y_4KHXqhyphenhyphen5QpFnzENhzl2y9clTiZSug8akn6H1OYkD9I-c26lHtjT3QhH-2JU8iYflEG-4UsA/s2048/414406873_10161406888116197_8869046511663357953_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgol3JUHoWfXOMCz_yegM_sG8NsLlM6wUI6TFUHPL7ZrpSx5Qrv3_QdmETOGULAAqkqac8xLXsekaj_-K-vxovTLKr12groHoe6zYZfQV3uFBAbZ7yz8Y_4KHXqhyphenhyphen5QpFnzENhzl2y9clTiZSug8akn6H1OYkD9I-c26lHtjT3QhH-2JU8iYflEG-4UsA/s320/414406873_10161406888116197_8869046511663357953_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i'd rather have less drama in my life and enjoy the drama of others...let them have drama. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhiJYUrYsQAgJj967zN4ozlvBus1VG7zoq8CWpyBzks5ZcEFO12jyLwZwOZhGMJnafzK7L0mi_KEfJFt0Hyc1XHGL1ZLEFtkHRKIHPi3wbHwbULlmw8sxAOk6ywuT9xqCMvOB7BdyxiI2JtBPK9va2wuB-96D1JHu9y_SGIUtdTWT6DCT4CeY2DOdn1JA/s2048/414402674_10161406890346197_4008308980739368269_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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Wilford Woodruff. he apparently would have dead single women sealed to him for time and eternity on his Birthday each year. "single women" could include children who had died. 267 ? total number of brides to be enjoyed in the next life. the upper leadership have been gifted a second annointing so they can do no wrong as their place in heaven is assured before they die...that is the doctrine and practive. the second annointing stuff is pretty hush hush. can you imagine gifting yourself with dead wives. sick perverts is all i can say to that. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj44cGKA2wMtz7WcXl37sspb1MKJga-vwqEGdBQcgvQEfLi9IL6-UtT8ip8TljlmXhVk8LI0QPUlTHLgYyaG1N1_3rAy-V5H3bbHx_RJuHku2bySoM-XLB9OqZVcKBWlSdKhMDB2SJDbC4JFVFOJgEIsF6ZZnfZAfKh9bycl-7F7609YQI8c7o-y2jAug/s2048/414398526_10161406889096197_3924830419298262220_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj44cGKA2wMtz7WcXl37sspb1MKJga-vwqEGdBQcgvQEfLi9IL6-UtT8ip8TljlmXhVk8LI0QPUlTHLgYyaG1N1_3rAy-V5H3bbHx_RJuHku2bySoM-XLB9OqZVcKBWlSdKhMDB2SJDbC4JFVFOJgEIsF6ZZnfZAfKh9bycl-7F7609YQI8c7o-y2jAug/s320/414398526_10161406889096197_3924830419298262220_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>also ran across an interesting quote...lots of truth in it though. "if your absence doesn't bother them, your presence never meant anything to them". <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjUtV0hrZ64Uv5TebV3T827EjceM999lLla1Is0JXUHVEwcoFl9u-y4H_zMx492RObAB1NTH9Yx5R8sEMw8_wRfq_RluG8TeST58lI8UNzbW9UJ0143MJ2qNCkVxrJDOW4I1fg7fUHbSsJps05JELTPRzR_EzKmmw6rVbEJQt_osr-vANSue3J6n-2tcg/s2048/414397211_10161406890201197_5642823168230612973_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjUtV0hrZ64Uv5TebV3T827EjceM999lLla1Is0JXUHVEwcoFl9u-y4H_zMx492RObAB1NTH9Yx5R8sEMw8_wRfq_RluG8TeST58lI8UNzbW9UJ0143MJ2qNCkVxrJDOW4I1fg7fUHbSsJps05JELTPRzR_EzKmmw6rVbEJQt_osr-vANSue3J6n-2tcg/s320/414397211_10161406890201197_5642823168230612973_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>bill paying, laundry and dishes...just doing the stuff that always needs to be done. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Anchorage got a lot more. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqRmBHPULYKQYsoLyZ12F2AoMmiODIo2kTu-K3ogygDaYzuPmGTHEruH6NO_tCkinAQRhT5N41gYVuC2-ALi6De183tXnkekPVcCFdnP5fC_aiP6ayqc9OWocHCA_NavUr4DuPdNPlLCnl-Bui1lxURwbQTB7bOnXoIe1rZXaWQMZ5oMr7K5Ej093P9w/s2048/361571253_10161075574051197_3136635594930300294_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqRmBHPULYKQYsoLyZ12F2AoMmiODIo2kTu-K3ogygDaYzuPmGTHEruH6NO_tCkinAQRhT5N41gYVuC2-ALi6De183tXnkekPVcCFdnP5fC_aiP6ayqc9OWocHCA_NavUr4DuPdNPlLCnl-Bui1lxURwbQTB7bOnXoIe1rZXaWQMZ5oMr7K5Ej093P9w/s320/361571253_10161075574051197_3136635594930300294_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>both trips were really fun breaks in the winter. i have a lot of good friends and for that i am forever grateful. Sunny seems to get a bit nervous. he gets on the sleeping bag and just panics and is immovable. the second night i got in before he did so i was able to get my space better. i woke with him on one side and Ivy settled in at my feet. it was so sweet and snuggly. we brought a lot of wood to keep the fire going for Eklutna and LS brought a space heater. we made at least 2 trips for that one. had to bring more out there. Manitoba is more stocked up. wood and mattresses. we were warm in both cabins though. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1oJ3IOPmm1VKl74tX8746EejmTj3XqRYDkZ82kGb7SoJtw2avqftbUnVhyHBe4Ysld6Pld_f3y2ZCPn5MOTI7J9h5HDLRVJVKV6sOxxSVuPrw_j7Cw_62Oi_lC4KQX_Tu7Ynwt1tja2ZeYZ3ps6tk6uPRSYY9DQr4yeHI1zQNqq_vGBrx2TS2Ovcu6w/s1200/361569510_10161075687796197_749566372714803006_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1200" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1oJ3IOPmm1VKl74tX8746EejmTj3XqRYDkZ82kGb7SoJtw2avqftbUnVhyHBe4Ysld6Pld_f3y2ZCPn5MOTI7J9h5HDLRVJVKV6sOxxSVuPrw_j7Cw_62Oi_lC4KQX_Tu7Ynwt1tja2ZeYZ3ps6tk6uPRSYY9DQr4yeHI1zQNqq_vGBrx2TS2Ovcu6w/s320/361569510_10161075687796197_749566372714803006_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>we left the wood we didn't need at the cabin. that is what you do in Alaska. just in case the next folks are less prepared or have colder visits out there. there is a ranger out at Eklutna. my friends brought cross country ski's. i just chilled and read. got through a few books these past few weeks. time to start another one. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Portage lake has been frozen these past few weeks. tons of ice skaters out there. it's usually a short window that you can get out there. i know the snow dumped on top of it. i may have missed the window for this year. i'm sure people are snow shoeing/skiing and fat tire bike riding this weekend. the wind chill can be really bad on that lake on a good day. with these cold temps it may have been pretty miserable out there today. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh46v-_kvMYOTEJ2dG2OmVLRSThi2wSJF1kB67X2MLAUhz9POTQ1rMz3oEdh69f863JOMmBlmOzGm0LsQ01RF3LSGmsKRgNi0TouO-1UXPUbZIMi4epJXLpjUEr1lLHDLdi3jjDeuIlFmRHo9i-0I6AaNCZswMFvTh0n4LyqdPWfzB9eupTbxVlYj4PeA/s2048/414353844_10161406888711197_2720850612329004102_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh46v-_kvMYOTEJ2dG2OmVLRSThi2wSJF1kB67X2MLAUhz9POTQ1rMz3oEdh69f863JOMmBlmOzGm0LsQ01RF3LSGmsKRgNi0TouO-1UXPUbZIMi4epJXLpjUEr1lLHDLdi3jjDeuIlFmRHo9i-0I6AaNCZswMFvTh0n4LyqdPWfzB9eupTbxVlYj4PeA/s320/414353844_10161406888711197_2720850612329004102_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i am just happy that i get out there each day. i have been so much better at getting motivated...well, less so today. next...web page. then the taxes. it's that time of year. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOupOig32ya4lUirL7povUQXbc-YdDup9l0vX7lnCffjKbzpm3rP3jRy_YfVX69OWvWTz9NdIcEGWx3eqL369CAP9lax9Hcog_uHCS9sLd6hgjd3MeFiFeS7I5nDDPi3XjTmGsHaFQaQ21Bzt7emWPjIJYRe64_SWzFY5Zvt6SjRBN1ei0gTg-pSMj8Q/s2048/414353732_10161406890411197_3457144204740281139_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOupOig32ya4lUirL7povUQXbc-YdDup9l0vX7lnCffjKbzpm3rP3jRy_YfVX69OWvWTz9NdIcEGWx3eqL369CAP9lax9Hcog_uHCS9sLd6hgjd3MeFiFeS7I5nDDPi3XjTmGsHaFQaQ21Bzt7emWPjIJYRe64_SWzFY5Zvt6SjRBN1ei0gTg-pSMj8Q/s320/414353732_10161406890411197_3457144204740281139_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>below is one of those little cairns i make<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjt-qOvgvVQaTK1ty7GZXR9M90I6MUe5tX_8ok7ky6ictGMMIs1dF8qDKrLnuUblMazQGiv4CbWkcR_J78a2dvkov_G4nw_8glYDpqVdFi9hcD7B18n-N4_ELo1LcnkltBdcTtMNYwvwiunjcmQ-wcgq-7q9LoSd4LDhl74H0I11Q_bi0QqAyHvyCCQw/s2048/414353272_10161406899576197_6729808555716115165_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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Sunny Boy also has his check up coming up. will have them check his ears. wax. poor guy. he let me do a good cleaning recently . such good patients. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYlWRU6ABCQ8eYQ5ST-deHgAe2J_817dcQLE6gpprp4fDQmRVko5Tee2alGOERJtLUmwBmi2RDVZZ1tl9-yzh-UJL1R2zGWQkqE-LhhZBmP30zVFjasWIgYnbfbD0twmtxw947ZcME0DIc5QX1N6RNYhrCP7UkF92Aa9gPnQ-jliwItTGntpTkZ8R9vw/s2048/414345872_10161406889981197_8716047771583455701_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjYlWRU6ABCQ8eYQ5ST-deHgAe2J_817dcQLE6gpprp4fDQmRVko5Tee2alGOERJtLUmwBmi2RDVZZ1tl9-yzh-UJL1R2zGWQkqE-LhhZBmP30zVFjasWIgYnbfbD0twmtxw947ZcME0DIc5QX1N6RNYhrCP7UkF92Aa9gPnQ-jliwItTGntpTkZ8R9vw/s320/414345872_10161406889981197_8716047771583455701_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i have cut back on excedrin and ibuprofen. my neck is in knots right now. i'll do some of the massage thing in a bit. the gastritis is improving for sure. watched a few good things on netflix and as i said read a few good books. time to dig into the next book. anyone have a few must reads?<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNw7GWvQ_vOAkoNEKcR6MAY_sZ8lslrQXkc7KFdntgQW3HrnvLO71yO22SC6lnm3GvdalFAu16ZD-nkfxMjw5p21g8t4G8Ucled0o_4Z0xwPjoqc_siDXAGqRUiM6KO37F9PdUmDb5lKugOxwy2BxVNnjD52RfjVv8syWlkUlDrV-HwRDaI89m_ACAVg/s2048/414340007_10161406888316197_3315507449518257707_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNw7GWvQ_vOAkoNEKcR6MAY_sZ8lslrQXkc7KFdntgQW3HrnvLO71yO22SC6lnm3GvdalFAu16ZD-nkfxMjw5p21g8t4G8Ucled0o_4Z0xwPjoqc_siDXAGqRUiM6KO37F9PdUmDb5lKugOxwy2BxVNnjD52RfjVv8syWlkUlDrV-HwRDaI89m_ACAVg/s320/414340007_10161406888316197_3315507449518257707_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>next planned trip is in April so i'm sure we will look for some other cabins, Bore Tide is always a good spring trek. need to look at tides and maybe plan a spring Homer/Seward trek. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhj1qCzK_ycZFbD2n_kigsat5SX9s2Wj3tOSEqhatW21fxmcOvyES0NwrorSNuwe5mwEBliWNapsQy-msWvlyRFwVYpCeySGzjsXXDcocunSa0U1HlfM5w-2S3y0PuIeET5IDS6m7o1asf7hMt72x82pBYnn8SLHrfkFnkBZXy5kxJHCJmBJ_GeE-dRyw/s2048/414339578_10161406890021197_7396418255726295790_n%20(1).jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhj1qCzK_ycZFbD2n_kigsat5SX9s2Wj3tOSEqhatW21fxmcOvyES0NwrorSNuwe5mwEBliWNapsQy-msWvlyRFwVYpCeySGzjsXXDcocunSa0U1HlfM5w-2S3y0PuIeET5IDS6m7o1asf7hMt72x82pBYnn8SLHrfkFnkBZXy5kxJHCJmBJ_GeE-dRyw/s320/414339578_10161406890021197_7396418255726295790_n%20(1).jpg" width="240" /></a></div>winter is going to linger. we have so much snow!! it is always amazing to me how fast it melts. this place is so dramatic. it changes so fast spring to fall. wonder if the lupine will be totally late again this year. all the wildflowers were late last year. we had a lot of snow last year too. i think this year may be more. as i arrived at my driveway to nearly 2 feet of snow i felt a bit defeated. it's just hard to get that snow up over the berm anymore. the little snow blower was able to get up and over. have some piles to work out still...but we may get more snow tonight. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg8AO75DhT2jWdvM80plQsrByFZ6CalFLBmvX2poUDnLyI7Qgdkc0XghfPJ-RjVIDTaou5k7YgkTBlabI8P03ohrUVrheIFZ3ntxGZ7DRglNOz5Fui918bEkDD5RNGYLGVbC-LZjzXy74Za38OVJ3KI2pnDQ38j8lOL6qk9tToaT9e3lDTSsEYWpv1h7w/s2048/414338826_10161406890561197_3656489104625508912_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg8AO75DhT2jWdvM80plQsrByFZ6CalFLBmvX2poUDnLyI7Qgdkc0XghfPJ-RjVIDTaou5k7YgkTBlabI8P03ohrUVrheIFZ3ntxGZ7DRglNOz5Fui918bEkDD5RNGYLGVbC-LZjzXy74Za38OVJ3KI2pnDQ38j8lOL6qk9tToaT9e3lDTSsEYWpv1h7w/s320/414338826_10161406890561197_3656489104625508912_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>Covid Cat has been inside a lot this winter. he's not a fan of the snow. i'm sure he will make up for it this summer. Miss Breezy Chatterbug, my other cat has never shown any interest in being outside. she knows how good she has it inside. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgP23T91spIM7Kzs_p-TwX-1LtW7ml3CJsCIuFpgUrXe0ughbxYuc9hvPtQlIT7DVPGnEIHzT_2ySGTmvAkOPdET3lBwum47Qc9v4rqhiS4iqc3Qs2NhsT3qfbJ4RUFni_m2SRWqGRaFKQwHMmyGYr_AW1aNvTqFv5014JNdCu8CSVhaLeOh8vqOUU8hw/s2048/414308951_10161406888196197_7610996680715288437_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgP23T91spIM7Kzs_p-TwX-1LtW7ml3CJsCIuFpgUrXe0ughbxYuc9hvPtQlIT7DVPGnEIHzT_2ySGTmvAkOPdET3lBwum47Qc9v4rqhiS4iqc3Qs2NhsT3qfbJ4RUFni_m2SRWqGRaFKQwHMmyGYr_AW1aNvTqFv5014JNdCu8CSVhaLeOh8vqOUU8hw/s320/414308951_10161406888196197_7610996680715288437_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>it's only 9:30 and i'm ready to crash for the night. lol. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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B. more happy days, play time and regular walks. C. my new mini snow blower. <p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-14657547512838195502024-01-20T00:27:00.000-08:002024-01-20T00:27:08.163-08:00you are being ridiculous...my new mantra<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQcR2Juhyg9IT5KMXJhUd-FtarMY0yoZEqt2dRYqtgOkXk9FeNsyX_JSa_1_RIWybeKKEJa0WKr9oB3Mtd_PUnXWGcOWGMJDqkDbr-sUsQ4B2YxE3MRrHFZ2OnyZF630rGbUAoc7hTtwq_4LfDYB30JivnzSOJBX-tJH7Ltarv6kDO4A76A1MUXfrzMQ/s960/420735346_10161442369241197_6359460747898192747_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="720" data-original-width="960" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQcR2Juhyg9IT5KMXJhUd-FtarMY0yoZEqt2dRYqtgOkXk9FeNsyX_JSa_1_RIWybeKKEJa0WKr9oB3Mtd_PUnXWGcOWGMJDqkDbr-sUsQ4B2YxE3MRrHFZ2OnyZF630rGbUAoc7hTtwq_4LfDYB30JivnzSOJBX-tJH7Ltarv6kDO4A76A1MUXfrzMQ/s320/420735346_10161442369241197_6359460747898192747_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>followed by you are doing good. repeat. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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B. coming into a better place C. the beauty that brings us renewed energy. <p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-33622410126879418132024-01-09T01:40:00.000-08:002024-01-09T01:40:36.654-08:00Anxiety is normal....<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjgKbBGbNrLaHhrciMcpod9tgsEKp9u7dW3xOmO-nfFa51q_uvoKcdfJJ_5znUlYhNh3i-Qyr7RJllsFm2C88LgLbvptzJ20e-G2d1_sVe3UVG4RExzl5yQGLLsLelRmtPc6U2ymxTluAxYviguXU2c51pzuW4VyOkLYNELTTxmo9ftkSZbpid0kkq0Lw/s2048/359818687_10161063155871197_3293566087105328795_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjgKbBGbNrLaHhrciMcpod9tgsEKp9u7dW3xOmO-nfFa51q_uvoKcdfJJ_5znUlYhNh3i-Qyr7RJllsFm2C88LgLbvptzJ20e-G2d1_sVe3UVG4RExzl5yQGLLsLelRmtPc6U2ymxTluAxYviguXU2c51pzuW4VyOkLYNELTTxmo9ftkSZbpid0kkq0Lw/s320/359818687_10161063155871197_3293566087105328795_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>when you are in a car and a grizzly bear is trying to get in that car, being very anxious is normal. when you are on a trail in Alaska in the summer, it's reasonable to be anxious about bears. when you are on a trail in Alaska in the winter you probably don't need to be that anxious about bears, if you are in a mall in Alaska, you don't need to be anxious about bears at all. we all get anxious. we get anxious before we give a speech, we get anxious when we are doing new things. we get anxious when we are female and are walking through a parking garage at 2 am. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqERnv-WhGAYTIziWyS9JQLPge6CbUczoz6X3xZwNoWATTCxyw6Bg3uc8Xt9y-9aDJ-hH-4SD1sHaTm6LoXhQ316ApDuyIPa_TQgRS0BS78k09Z9J8AeWc9daU3iahkZFoehsLmZcu04_koiNF21ZCh_MyoKAZ9pZLSmidiKhIANRUNcL9KiSbz4dPMw/s960/359818183_10161067954106197_186315033248208107_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="720" data-original-width="960" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqERnv-WhGAYTIziWyS9JQLPge6CbUczoz6X3xZwNoWATTCxyw6Bg3uc8Xt9y-9aDJ-hH-4SD1sHaTm6LoXhQ316ApDuyIPa_TQgRS0BS78k09Z9J8AeWc9daU3iahkZFoehsLmZcu04_koiNF21ZCh_MyoKAZ9pZLSmidiKhIANRUNcL9KiSbz4dPMw/s320/359818183_10161067954106197_186315033248208107_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>what is not normal is hyperanxiety. i think too often. these books, like i'm reading, don't describe it like that. how you get in your own way by talking yourself into things that are really more like the bear in the mall scenario. sure there is a slight possibility that a bear could make it's way into a mall but it's pretty small and really not worth the worry. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirYRal92OlFKPUfedKCmdjFQoRX_EWpI0qMiup_k0SXEYP_dcM_3gr9q1Uyz0KehcRta7H8wKpIo5wNKA8vEcfsZ88PQ10w46JBC8MF7YP6JycLMNAX8dyD1YN3JMI9LDgigeuWUl1LAQEYKPBes043q-lrZ-qV4_fDNkfrJcuoW4d3jXa0JVel4rONg/s2048/359817302_10161063106311197_4182502079956935241_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirYRal92OlFKPUfedKCmdjFQoRX_EWpI0qMiup_k0SXEYP_dcM_3gr9q1Uyz0KehcRta7H8wKpIo5wNKA8vEcfsZ88PQ10w46JBC8MF7YP6JycLMNAX8dyD1YN3JMI9LDgigeuWUl1LAQEYKPBes043q-lrZ-qV4_fDNkfrJcuoW4d3jXa0JVel4rONg/s320/359817302_10161063106311197_4182502079956935241_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>most of the stuff we worry about or become anxious over in daily life...not really worth the worry. the first part of the book i'm reading has some interesting insights. the second half....how to become less anxious....not as much. at least not for me. he is married, kids, majorly in debt...just very different lives. so i need to extrapolate what he's saying and find a way to use things in my own life. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZKVwQLC-_vUvTaH4taHJnvLgcjCsXY3sS15p5S7wHv9nteCmhJivVl5U-gFhUvcw_FEleG77NMWF9znxf9tqBzTN5e5yZ-ni1c8Jgirq8RHdkSCXkZsbNfKIwNwGd7lcHyv0dXerlsgq1bBIw9ZcBdod1azEhsdRognqAw887cBJdjk-Ic6U3qMyMYw/s2048/359814518_10161075676126197_8344503221166245871_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZKVwQLC-_vUvTaH4taHJnvLgcjCsXY3sS15p5S7wHv9nteCmhJivVl5U-gFhUvcw_FEleG77NMWF9znxf9tqBzTN5e5yZ-ni1c8Jgirq8RHdkSCXkZsbNfKIwNwGd7lcHyv0dXerlsgq1bBIw9ZcBdod1azEhsdRognqAw887cBJdjk-Ic6U3qMyMYw/s320/359814518_10161075676126197_8344503221166245871_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i had heard around Solstice of people who make notes through the year of things that made them happy or brought them joy. on Solstice they take the time to read through all those things from the past year. so a few weeks ago i decided that Sundays would be the day i would ponder about the week and write down some of those moments. simple happy things. for many of us it would also help to watch less news and scroll less. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgrt-H2nOJtYHlrOf0rFctBpMvEg0xfhNtkJUQ23_ldsBZTj9_SLdVqOwmvi4j7bSYZ-AuCZV6Yy4tB8T1nwLa2OIG6I6g-vIm723Pd4nLzcXd5laPoNy6MaCpLi_Ix6OsNJ1CMVhxQ168dASlaXDunuBdU3fwx7zDQmMTy_iyHH06MCmK2NQZ4S-uYoQ/s1800/359808557_10161075684136197_4922856460739225382_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1800" data-original-width="1350" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgrt-H2nOJtYHlrOf0rFctBpMvEg0xfhNtkJUQ23_ldsBZTj9_SLdVqOwmvi4j7bSYZ-AuCZV6Yy4tB8T1nwLa2OIG6I6g-vIm723Pd4nLzcXd5laPoNy6MaCpLi_Ix6OsNJ1CMVhxQ168dASlaXDunuBdU3fwx7zDQmMTy_iyHH06MCmK2NQZ4S-uYoQ/s320/359808557_10161075684136197_4922856460739225382_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i am dealing with random hyperanxiety. i got anxious today because we had 5 more inches of snow to shovel. i am supposed to be "not exerting myself". well as a singleton you have to exert yourself a bit on days like this. with the ectopy so fresh and concerning in my mind as i shoveled on an empty stomach i began to imagine symptoms. was i really having a heart attack now? i'm almost 60 so things that you would have totally ignored in your 20's, well you do have to focus more on. i'm overall pretty healthy though. i was tired and headed off to the walk. so now, i haven't eaten anything but some cottage cheese, i just burned some calories and now i'm headed off to walk in snow. perhaps, it was really the anxiety that made me feel so exhausted...overthinking is exhausting. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjV0rvROwuMvMEGRNajBJlILEvO1LJaT2djQ705qtFk6_M13eJmY2uJmBabFM45C4XYJ0vj0aLl2-3h-Rk6uXmkv_VXU8ByQG4_44iBQcqxA2BiVo17lXsHlAJGSTZJGFsOJpUOminEM_w4WzsNv9RCi4w8dvs3D4x2D67SMy8uDHbPtMGI1j28nyTfEw/s1200/359806503_10161075687906197_2570552359018643362_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="800" data-original-width="1200" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjV0rvROwuMvMEGRNajBJlILEvO1LJaT2djQ705qtFk6_M13eJmY2uJmBabFM45C4XYJ0vj0aLl2-3h-Rk6uXmkv_VXU8ByQG4_44iBQcqxA2BiVo17lXsHlAJGSTZJGFsOJpUOminEM_w4WzsNv9RCi4w8dvs3D4x2D67SMy8uDHbPtMGI1j28nyTfEw/s320/359806503_10161075687906197_2570552359018643362_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i'm healing. i really feel that way. i know it sounds nuts since i seem to be having increased bouts of this random anxiety. i really believe that as we heal from past trauma's our bodies find ways to release that stress. that stress has to leave us for us to move forward. when the bear tried to get in the car with me, i was very calm and taking action. a week or so later, i burst into tears. sobbing and crying for no apparent reason. i didn't feel sad or upset, but i was incapable of stopping these tears. i actually had to call off sick, blubbering away. my boss just thought i had a terrible cold. my body was simply releasing this stress that i had held in<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBbDEofsdcFDoJh6MqPFK8NaN8ju5cpZh_v05TqYGwde-oZ6R7UxlJvumAxRYtws7qwYg0NabM8sRYOUb8-9ckaDTDxdhyphenhyphenGSbYFx5sRr8P6SIMz-tE6gXdonDTrEKeCPLvici3SW-sPDI-pQY5l67hee2LDtdvUqsJNu9A6ffhR8_C8s_UNRLlzjPZuw/s2048/359803982_10161075684266197_6204489264499280428_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBbDEofsdcFDoJh6MqPFK8NaN8ju5cpZh_v05TqYGwde-oZ6R7UxlJvumAxRYtws7qwYg0NabM8sRYOUb8-9ckaDTDxdhyphenhyphenGSbYFx5sRr8P6SIMz-tE6gXdonDTrEKeCPLvici3SW-sPDI-pQY5l67hee2LDtdvUqsJNu9A6ffhR8_C8s_UNRLlzjPZuw/s320/359803982_10161075684266197_6204489264499280428_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>our bodies naturally do flight, fight or freeze. we forget the freeze part. if you've seen video of the flight that lost a "door" you will notice nobody is screaming and panicking. they are in freeze mode. i went into freeze mode when our flight was slated for possible crash landing. i went into freeze mode on a boat that was at risk to capsize. the flight was silent, the boat was silent...we were all in a state of a freeze mode...except the pilots/captains i guess. like me, with the bear, they calmly take action. when a patients heart stops at work. there is a moment where you freeze. you are like, oh shit their heart stopped, it's not restarting, they are in v-tach, are they breathing? then you calmly take action. we do this all the time, <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOXrwOtR0cmoJRJRC6FW9jTCI_rreF-h1Hsn2Bc4mqjt80DSeJG9VA40i5AN4PFvH7554w8LND2HjWD7iUcSKNu2qe91oPQ5H10yMOlmxZpxBxLhfONLHtIv5T1brNXBw6CIvu1CSk2vyZxtDzseZ4DM_d_oO0M5EXe7kEt-7eDJh_v1k7nuMviDRCLQ/s1286/359803054_10161075684401197_7465417487174919834_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="965" data-original-width="1286" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjOXrwOtR0cmoJRJRC6FW9jTCI_rreF-h1Hsn2Bc4mqjt80DSeJG9VA40i5AN4PFvH7554w8LND2HjWD7iUcSKNu2qe91oPQ5H10yMOlmxZpxBxLhfONLHtIv5T1brNXBw6CIvu1CSk2vyZxtDzseZ4DM_d_oO0M5EXe7kEt-7eDJh_v1k7nuMviDRCLQ/s320/359803054_10161075684401197_7465417487174919834_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>eventually all of that, the stress catches up to you and you have to deal with it. for some people, like me i guess, we have increased anxiety over the what if's. i think many of us have been in a suspended state of anxiety for a few years. things are normalizing as far as covid and for me, the trump years were just this constant state of stress, every day what hell had happened. other things happened in this same time frame. myself, like many, just did what needed to be done. we got a bit lost in the negative haze and the realities that we weren't wanting to face. who people really were, which relationships were solid, what we believed. it was a global existential crisis. now we have people like me with hyperanxiety, we also have some that are raging and filled with hatred. some kill themselves or isolate themselves more. some over eat, do drugs, alcohol. stress is released in many ways. most of those ways are damaging.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDaAUXxNIHbz2sOUeDJ5j3avmaLOt76GI7QFUH-6k_UrYmlZtbZtiyWaYLAoRPuNfd0CXDWpOx9cijZzkSgWtqCwtNMM3GxFJLMtBpMbFqEihcbScD9ujf89xEQpSIru7VSG3gmStuyoaiEHvixISlGKvEx70eQeV3aJ1-76NfBn45dJ4ACzx7zvbN4w/s2048/359801625_10161075684231197_7021555727201515849_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgDaAUXxNIHbz2sOUeDJ5j3avmaLOt76GI7QFUH-6k_UrYmlZtbZtiyWaYLAoRPuNfd0CXDWpOx9cijZzkSgWtqCwtNMM3GxFJLMtBpMbFqEihcbScD9ujf89xEQpSIru7VSG3gmStuyoaiEHvixISlGKvEx70eQeV3aJ1-76NfBn45dJ4ACzx7zvbN4w/s320/359801625_10161075684231197_7021555727201515849_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i do appreciate the calls, texts and messages. i am listening. i bought some magnesium because a few recommended that. it is important to have people in our lives. we have gotten away from those connections. we have come to believe that clicking like on a social media post is the same as a relationship. we have forgotten how important it is to be live and real. we need each other, we need to allow others to help us and we need to help others. all. people we know, people we don't know. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgxDH3XxDZhgEHJnqwDAg5xr8-QgjmQzN46EBz2LAtcSOczhcIij1L7ec4JYWmFw5lK6mpDOuULX8gD_GRjwQvJVMX4UHGNI4iibwlbbgQ9vKbQWrk0xxTYi7biHpxJt3IUuDw0nzCVM8pc4JBGEasb7As0Rzu88wcN_Al8eQRu0W35wi_dyIrc1oyo2w/s2048/359776946_10161063103461197_4162610002979524876_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgxDH3XxDZhgEHJnqwDAg5xr8-QgjmQzN46EBz2LAtcSOczhcIij1L7ec4JYWmFw5lK6mpDOuULX8gD_GRjwQvJVMX4UHGNI4iibwlbbgQ9vKbQWrk0xxTYi7biHpxJt3IUuDw0nzCVM8pc4JBGEasb7As0Rzu88wcN_Al8eQRu0W35wi_dyIrc1oyo2w/s320/359776946_10161063103461197_4162610002979524876_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>freedom is another aspect he focused on. for me part of that is just admitting that i get overly anxious at times, that i have flaws. we spend so much time trying to put up these appearances. guess that is part of the reality. being who we really are. the people who accept you will still accept you, those who don't or don't want to deal with you will walk away. in truth i walked a few miles with ectopy debating whether i should get checked out or not. years ago, i had all this bronchitis in Los Angeles. finally went to a Dr when the Vet i worked with encouraged me to. my respiratory issue was real...the crazy thing, we were never taken to a Dr when we were kids, rarely anyway. i did not believe i was worthy of being taken care of. i know that sounds nuts. we never got check ups, can't waste money unless the kid is really sick or bleeding. that is how it was for most of us in that time. my parents had 7 kids, you can't waste money taking kids to a Dr for every sniffle. it had to be bad. it took me thinking i was bad ass for biking a 50 mile Rosarita to Ensenada event while taking many hits on the inhaler, for me to finally get it. my pulmonologist wasn't impressed with what i had just done like i thought he would be, he threatened to hospitalize me if i did not go home immediately and rest and take care of myself. what i had was real, that was the first time i understood that fact. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVcQCDG0xdKisubQnTOmTMSjaJeecEbo537i5ChuX8asjoG5GElWrwWrLkxEIwz90IjRcx2pdDQ1jhLJbFWhnp-bd_FHjSnzWjeWOEkOtgTaJcXhLDPHKmLqnxG6tqD_Xql1t62aKDcB5yFTQfh1G3Mo61ZRXP4qWHQ_gttQ1vCdFJBuJ5_PNytDnC6g/s2048/359752236_10161063104016197_5392637085359474131_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1446" data-original-width="2048" height="226" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVcQCDG0xdKisubQnTOmTMSjaJeecEbo537i5ChuX8asjoG5GElWrwWrLkxEIwz90IjRcx2pdDQ1jhLJbFWhnp-bd_FHjSnzWjeWOEkOtgTaJcXhLDPHKmLqnxG6tqD_Xql1t62aKDcB5yFTQfh1G3Mo61ZRXP4qWHQ_gttQ1vCdFJBuJ5_PNytDnC6g/s320/359752236_10161063104016197_5392637085359474131_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>focus more on the people who are there, who want to be there. who see you, who accept you. you will know who they are, it's obvious. i spent far too much energy trying to make relationships with people who i believed i was supposed to be in relationships with. i can't say it was a total waste. i think there are people you try and try with because you value them, but in the end. that has to be reciprocated and if it isn't you have to have the courage to walk away or step back. you do not need to be hateful but you do need to accept the facts of what is and what isn't for your peace and for theirs. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgx6tYqmPHGumbr_SbOTunnuThb5_DBddrwRReDlXkNlBHmbKcjrJd5dMr81F-4D-2_MWnhT5ljYMyZDzaaX9XS26DMZNz1PxXIqnHmOY6Z0QDDe097Ayf6gmsj2AKRph3JV4KNKTxNc83r918CeHwiLhUUrFbjRhhVvgTV65q0Qqojm-e6XhQ-PgW5JA/s960/359741234_10161071165761197_1811102345683870648_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="720" data-original-width="960" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgx6tYqmPHGumbr_SbOTunnuThb5_DBddrwRReDlXkNlBHmbKcjrJd5dMr81F-4D-2_MWnhT5ljYMyZDzaaX9XS26DMZNz1PxXIqnHmOY6Z0QDDe097Ayf6gmsj2AKRph3JV4KNKTxNc83r918CeHwiLhUUrFbjRhhVvgTV65q0Qqojm-e6XhQ-PgW5JA/s320/359741234_10161071165761197_1811102345683870648_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>things i think i need to do more of is the stuff that i used to enjoy but got lost in the day to day. i need to get the instruments out, write more bad poetry, paint rocks. i love my pets and like i said all the little, simple things in life. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQyFsmOw-0dSq-itQbn4EJHxdaqWN4SBK-lH2YdcrzWT0G0gUJSeRZMEMteVs8ebTUtRy64iziiLT9M5Pd9UMEoqpmg17VVV7jvoqZO6W2LFIZrSKPQl7M7KOw8h3VF2qa2fC13ff2dJsh7KxqOYbVY2bKxm2U9-KpW6BkcgaW9kcD2IDpWdLjRCoeNg/s2048/359722263_10161071166186197_4549420947139684427_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQyFsmOw-0dSq-itQbn4EJHxdaqWN4SBK-lH2YdcrzWT0G0gUJSeRZMEMteVs8ebTUtRy64iziiLT9M5Pd9UMEoqpmg17VVV7jvoqZO6W2LFIZrSKPQl7M7KOw8h3VF2qa2fC13ff2dJsh7KxqOYbVY2bKxm2U9-KpW6BkcgaW9kcD2IDpWdLjRCoeNg/s320/359722263_10161071166186197_4549420947139684427_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>get out of my own head before i waste these days...we all end up where these folks are, buried or scattered. all these people lived lives, survived tragedies, loved, lost. they all experienced things, many the same as i have. a walk on the beach, sitting in front of a fire. we are all the same in so many ways.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTR3mAQngPP0VGeLzuNBuU_tBnYlr6CMUfcMPVYCWUtBqniVNQyQUo-J45DJIxbo1AQSPeKvBDpd-LG0eX8Lq9Lv6ad5CS-Qsa7X3dgV8RYtGE_NDs-ke60jl3V_nVWo_bvoTIuxicAqKWhyphenhyphenGE-umMmNnGZ4b2Yn9QCKqEIYdaXsXuSbpu6vWSYr0_2g/s2048/359718342_10161071164021197_494449483268421580_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTR3mAQngPP0VGeLzuNBuU_tBnYlr6CMUfcMPVYCWUtBqniVNQyQUo-J45DJIxbo1AQSPeKvBDpd-LG0eX8Lq9Lv6ad5CS-Qsa7X3dgV8RYtGE_NDs-ke60jl3V_nVWo_bvoTIuxicAqKWhyphenhyphenGE-umMmNnGZ4b2Yn9QCKqEIYdaXsXuSbpu6vWSYr0_2g/s320/359718342_10161071164021197_494449483268421580_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>we are also all very unique. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiRfwR6AHAcTRaCzVkgB4pmyViSOAXqgE8kLO3FXVa0dHZtrM5HtTLttpId-3Yb2CMoiPGoGeb1R9aRng32qhuxfPf5Y509f90riLPm9E9WW1pwq3BbdJTg6Ugd7euj8bD3obOhNxoqXGrkzPa7J_6t6Cs5Vl5M5axZgmQ93_Is7nXWk6GjRfEsqmFEcA/s2048/359714544_10161071164101197_7260831586758497534_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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Ivy has bad knees and so i don't like to strain her more than i should. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiVIPnfkJaZqxg9oz4WV035ZOg8q_3jMKQKTnc8wfAL7fFpNSNu4X1pEWvZqLwXJ0GjZ9-9bg2Lqb3bbon0r45_PQldMA6K1g8Y5aNMYHAp9avw9MaihhipoMQ8Km4AVWRkFmoUab8ll5Avy6DKBLS6llTnhBW8jk1rThqI46FWkZ9SFmfkNwGGONwtPg/s2048/359345435_10161067950866197_6982487386220821251_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiVIPnfkJaZqxg9oz4WV035ZOg8q_3jMKQKTnc8wfAL7fFpNSNu4X1pEWvZqLwXJ0GjZ9-9bg2Lqb3bbon0r45_PQldMA6K1g8Y5aNMYHAp9avw9MaihhipoMQ8Km4AVWRkFmoUab8ll5Avy6DKBLS6llTnhBW8jk1rThqI46FWkZ9SFmfkNwGGONwtPg/s320/359345435_10161067950866197_6982487386220821251_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>just takes me longer for sure. i tend to be walking alone a lot more lately as well. more risk in being out there on your own so i am sure i take more of a cautious walking route when i am alone. gas prices were a bit wild for a bit as well. so you would have to consider if you wanted to pay $50 for a hike or just hike local and save that money. in the end, the dogs really don't care where we go. they just like to get out. i suspect the cats really appreciate their dog free time as well.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEibpLrBCC0T9ZV4XUs3Con6xGAUYooKdf0sy_BcZ9lnoHchSEF6zswwvFMwUZBVyQqZETxamVpwPFkcFBsWVi4e5-45z73SMarNPszZv-1a6v-IQxinFFCHa1BOkKN-9lijywKLlZvIf6rFchhSH7XPyK8qrYXDuFsMLNhGDC15KROWkvrVW1YZhcBeYw/s320/359325656_10161067965381197_2184657986642267424_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i still have some anxiety. part of it does seem to be a twinge of agoraphobia, social phobias. home is a comfy spot for me. i think being around so much death makes you fret about your own end. the truth, we all learn in medicine, is your time will come when it comes. you can fret about it all you want, it will come or not come. you can be the healthiest, eat the best, exercise, but shit happens and it's best to not live a life planning on extending your life or crazily risking your life. just live your life and accept what comes. it's so easy to fret about things that may or may not ever happen and harder sometimes to just live and forget it all. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Ivy was not at all happy. she runs from the harness. she was excited today since it was like 2 degrees out there and the clasp for her seat belt was frozen...she snuck up to the front seat. she looked pretty proud of herself. all i could do was laugh. she is the sweetest. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjt2hBw5TTF_R4Xbf6hyphenhyphenkYKYoi3cK4X_mS1HXsdsukbysfeU3B2640L8q2_8Bxx2IBuA_SOIbV5RH7TYU8awyS9a2wFXSK538ekmjeEpOuUWGx72_w_Q-QAXnHqVp1UWC86PLXRmJzyqPE9fOByGq8-3u9MWFCwuWs06Ntf-Xlz0hBdgV6QqotwYckyBw/s960/289719062_10160178220871197_222364536258299686_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="718" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjt2hBw5TTF_R4Xbf6hyphenhyphenkYKYoi3cK4X_mS1HXsdsukbysfeU3B2640L8q2_8Bxx2IBuA_SOIbV5RH7TYU8awyS9a2wFXSK538ekmjeEpOuUWGx72_w_Q-QAXnHqVp1UWC86PLXRmJzyqPE9fOByGq8-3u9MWFCwuWs06Ntf-Xlz0hBdgV6QqotwYckyBw/s320/289719062_10160178220871197_222364536258299686_n.jpg" width="239" /></a></div>i ended up staying in bed super late Christmas morning. apparently, Sunny Boys gift to me was a lovely snuggle session. couldn't say no to that. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmoW5zZkUmLIFMinhKmp5q6gocukZhgA0X5mYCF3xzP1QRyvBOYEihef7woVMzPbGNPZUQV3LPj-GvZcpR0Pyw8M9bhdg7af23DI6-v1LzfrH4zxIX5x6NzFO0mpq2FKZyQnnLtO4hjKT5RfmbgSmBWkyFL5tZXa_6MzpONzUB5G8MAO4G-JOsupRxDQ/s2048/289718177_10160178219556197_5655897339045221868_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmoW5zZkUmLIFMinhKmp5q6gocukZhgA0X5mYCF3xzP1QRyvBOYEihef7woVMzPbGNPZUQV3LPj-GvZcpR0Pyw8M9bhdg7af23DI6-v1LzfrH4zxIX5x6NzFO0mpq2FKZyQnnLtO4hjKT5RfmbgSmBWkyFL5tZXa_6MzpONzUB5G8MAO4G-JOsupRxDQ/s320/289718177_10160178219556197_5655897339045221868_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>no big gifts though i do think this old computer is getting on it's last leg...may need to back up everything and transfer it to a new computer at some point. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBwOjYxAxf7Jm4CyOp-StyPp3nXUGsp7QWHmAhTo29EMec5sJZRGmJ0CSmJjc9drF8I26w0lD_DGs1JpnBzywxm_0I-hN_lEYbtUzJ5G47A2Gl8bCgd1S_bAjJtaOBz6tctsJMwgq9LBHf-SUNJRbuXIlKwbPNDW3SYumNAXRwBnw14A3obL-jDo3uXQ/s2048/289715717_10160178222101197_5449980482162607705_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBwOjYxAxf7Jm4CyOp-StyPp3nXUGsp7QWHmAhTo29EMec5sJZRGmJ0CSmJjc9drF8I26w0lD_DGs1JpnBzywxm_0I-hN_lEYbtUzJ5G47A2Gl8bCgd1S_bAjJtaOBz6tctsJMwgq9LBHf-SUNJRbuXIlKwbPNDW3SYumNAXRwBnw14A3obL-jDo3uXQ/s320/289715717_10160178222101197_5449980482162607705_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>well, i guess i should get some bedtime snacks and hit the hay. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWg-00YhpMUj_vhgHmV6j9SEZN-gHkQTEz8xABmM3K2ghkd_LyH9eKYRMLbFLxD8VmOltU7L-fOndV7TDqHX1wa2Mz-_thOQE7Yp2i83NiccBXMY9LEqNoczvFJ29Me0rfnh_JAdtuMjtH6QxnyaOfgY93WMqOuDejuqdbbL3xIz8Djj-PGLHR82-17w/s2048/289707857_10160178226876197_6074168236719326111_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWg-00YhpMUj_vhgHmV6j9SEZN-gHkQTEz8xABmM3K2ghkd_LyH9eKYRMLbFLxD8VmOltU7L-fOndV7TDqHX1wa2Mz-_thOQE7Yp2i83NiccBXMY9LEqNoczvFJ29Me0rfnh_JAdtuMjtH6QxnyaOfgY93WMqOuDejuqdbbL3xIz8Djj-PGLHR82-17w/s320/289707857_10160178226876197_6074168236719326111_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>grateful for A. puppy companions and Christmas snuggles. B. friends who get me and accept me and watch out for me. C. each and every day i get to be on this planet living this life. it's not perfect but it's a lot of fun!<p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-13187182452368378342023-12-10T10:31:00.000-08:002023-12-10T10:31:45.951-08:00Early morning ramblings...<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh2dw_pOvIydL1ItsR5jVVbn-6Q34RYcZIxPdhMV9Gc3l5stXJUNw-8WOg04QC29zh4xWrUr46VMmWuJsyqXXpB4nXd0uaj29rFvn7ShpVBAa1n30WocikY9BnmSkBAgG1jTnI5hnLdIALfGLyrLtZEiMxZeT7MQtbCHSDz2FYLBYFfPZ1oFGOSjqLmqw/s2048/289668808_10160178218861197_2641883782005002158_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh2dw_pOvIydL1ItsR5jVVbn-6Q34RYcZIxPdhMV9Gc3l5stXJUNw-8WOg04QC29zh4xWrUr46VMmWuJsyqXXpB4nXd0uaj29rFvn7ShpVBAa1n30WocikY9BnmSkBAgG1jTnI5hnLdIALfGLyrLtZEiMxZeT7MQtbCHSDz2FYLBYFfPZ1oFGOSjqLmqw/s320/289668808_10160178218861197_2641883782005002158_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>woke up early. looked like emergency lights coming down the road, but it was just a guy plowing driveways. a little reminder, as if i needed more, that it's time to change careers. felt a twinge of anxiety with the idea of an emergency vehicle on the street. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjfoaG2kqE0IwkIrUK3wyfVy_kGjmw8lOLP_A9PXaAx52m_h4Ha-nGIfzxT_DuejjStXAaXhlgXnFDzHpzm30uM8S_2vWGVaeoPMm3PH7xlLMXj-zvYON-jPWglHP-tzAKtgUIWP5O4X9oWVkHDsAIzloQTvIRtKFsIhMcU9O8pu7rGjWUFZmIngyxO2g/s2048/289654098_10160178226741197_1928415149901360126_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjfoaG2kqE0IwkIrUK3wyfVy_kGjmw8lOLP_A9PXaAx52m_h4Ha-nGIfzxT_DuejjStXAaXhlgXnFDzHpzm30uM8S_2vWGVaeoPMm3PH7xlLMXj-zvYON-jPWglHP-tzAKtgUIWP5O4X9oWVkHDsAIzloQTvIRtKFsIhMcU9O8pu7rGjWUFZmIngyxO2g/s320/289654098_10160178226741197_1928415149901360126_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i have been watching "young sheldon" this past few weeks. in a few episodes a physicist professor takes a job in a grocery store. he enjoys it. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnTXiPCX5WULjcHsfDzDS6dpilK19D2p6-0qqmU6arBtQUrVhjtAEt5vYtrv8vAaSorb_RcV-Rg1EF6ravwR7jE_gtKafo4zVemug1Pl9bIFw4p4CqhAaqPHlUkJv4-h0Y7y2dVVUY9JbfbbK9jDCdM8FU9SN50RUSg2nqiIkT1koYQNmplH9Pb23bWA/s2048/289652569_10160178216241197_3638101737742115029_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjnTXiPCX5WULjcHsfDzDS6dpilK19D2p6-0qqmU6arBtQUrVhjtAEt5vYtrv8vAaSorb_RcV-Rg1EF6ravwR7jE_gtKafo4zVemug1Pl9bIFw4p4CqhAaqPHlUkJv4-h0Y7y2dVVUY9JbfbbK9jDCdM8FU9SN50RUSg2nqiIkT1koYQNmplH9Pb23bWA/s320/289652569_10160178216241197_3638101737742115029_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>a change in scenery can be good for all of us. a break in what has been our normal can help us see the world differently. i'm having the internal debates that come prior to a major change for me. i'm told not everyone has a constant internal conversation...is this true? hard for me to imagine. my brain is constantly having a discussion...of course, my brain is unable to pull up images of things so we all have different life experiences apparently based on how our brain functions. my brain discusses, other brains imagines things through images. this is why i blog...it helps me externalize the internal. as you can see from the ramblings on many of these blog posts...it's crazy town in there sometimes. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0Lygb3vcv-gkDo7RBEiSbEHuCnaHjqAB_uX4EF05cXdO9WxVr5qv6xT-goUWsR7HYqUM6CljYu4LabX3XpMbIgdGACbAPVBeGf3Ncu5IIZHzEqs0EtmCpFvxziZ3m1OiRTyRqqEtLezAog5OBrpXLv0WxeqE7zwu1q9aZiXQcWor-nSee7hxC1dnGew/s2048/289622575_10160178226596197_7886056811449486410_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh0Lygb3vcv-gkDo7RBEiSbEHuCnaHjqAB_uX4EF05cXdO9WxVr5qv6xT-goUWsR7HYqUM6CljYu4LabX3XpMbIgdGACbAPVBeGf3Ncu5IIZHzEqs0EtmCpFvxziZ3m1OiRTyRqqEtLezAog5OBrpXLv0WxeqE7zwu1q9aZiXQcWor-nSee7hxC1dnGew/s320/289622575_10160178226596197_7886056811449486410_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>this is one of the things about religion that has been frustrating for me. i've read the new testament and the supposed words of Jesus and this figure, whether real or fictional, seems to have been very against religion for profit and instead believed in using extra wealth to help those less fortunate. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiXtcNBMZtqenwz9txSDOsnf50VRmrEcUsshjyWSQbRK75wSVnQurYDhSEGlIen0AZ10-lG9NJTcvHEjpkvFlFmmHPma20Wbj2tx7MVwXbprsZVC5eLn2KcREsjT-bavfGUCWSlj3XkNyTPK3wLd8nuRa-ColzJU8mKXzeH39fodD0Jh0AgCqdJCMeKFA/s320/289618177_10160178212466197_3673807749398166196_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>this is a multibillion dollar organization that takes in 10% of their own members salaries, no matter their age or financial ability. i was "shaken down" as a mere child over whether or not i'd paid a full tithe by Bishops at our annual meetings(tithing settlement). we were asked by an authority figure if we'd paid a full tithe. as a kid it scared me. i had no idea if i was being fully truthful in that meeting. what kid itemizes every dime they make ironing or pulling weeds? <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisW8gJvN_S_PmAFWvZyjUVHtftTZhXXQpi9VmrRF9SsXolaPDiNFxkoptSYSMK2O8gcT_cpnc9gAPimxET4UiEfzjGffmtqnmMZdB5omdxHOl66HcznE9BcSZmSFENpqdUHDP7vl9rT558o3VS1-uKljcUpf8V65A6Un9JyFd47ZgRmbj5_P1-9Qphkg/s2048/289605920_10160178219086197_8676173469978115931_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjX29xMcuaGdfeqoPkwAevMzbtMc5-BzG3ec18NHYWC0vVKjEMziq5JjVuNigFkx0Ga4YcGs-TmNGZ-hNosZmooUPmvvcn97wSHWRHCUK_FOMWZSfhF8EaimJ7Un0rmm-pGrbctAbAMFOm9YTD7DfA8hPCpAC63PW5oW3anK239aoid-PgGJJ7g5zIqQ/s2048/289605063_10160178216041197_6735343194740779546_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjX29xMcuaGdfeqoPkwAevMzbtMc5-BzG3ec18NHYWC0vVKjEMziq5JjVuNigFkx0Ga4YcGs-TmNGZ-hNosZmooUPmvvcn97wSHWRHCUK_FOMWZSfhF8EaimJ7Un0rmm-pGrbctAbAMFOm9YTD7DfA8hPCpAC63PW5oW3anK239aoid-PgGJJ7g5zIqQ/s320/289605063_10160178216041197_6735343194740779546_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>as usual, it's difficult to find facts about how this all works. supposedly all the money goes to the non-profits...i believe all the money is funneled through a church account though. do they take credit for these donations as their own in the big picture..when you itemize for your taxes, who are you really donating to. the small print says the church ultimately has discretion on the final division....that if you purchase a donation for a goat it may not really be a goat. does the church get to collect all the interest incurred from this. i imagine that interest goes back into all the advertising the church is doing for these machines. it's a huge PR boon for them as well. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_Lp2JhlhPtgO3Hr7d18Sh7_7zLarZ-s_OSFhu-g4czgnO84iSYgzUkmkzTy31uLgkNQByCpMPqbtMuyCaCanx2fLmTTci5pswZ5zPO8i82U3H7Hwiv4CPsE2XITzmO0GSZOY4v7tOOpEI4eZhAalBTB9O3ad8tsw7m9kWcfLohHhbt4Z0NIuKOE6iNA/s2048/289587705_10160178211936197_500112765573530856_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_Lp2JhlhPtgO3Hr7d18Sh7_7zLarZ-s_OSFhu-g4czgnO84iSYgzUkmkzTy31uLgkNQByCpMPqbtMuyCaCanx2fLmTTci5pswZ5zPO8i82U3H7Hwiv4CPsE2XITzmO0GSZOY4v7tOOpEI4eZhAalBTB9O3ad8tsw7m9kWcfLohHhbt4Z0NIuKOE6iNA/s320/289587705_10160178211936197_500112765573530856_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>in some nations religions are not granted tax free status. that is apparently true in Australia. the church got around this by creating a non-profit organization there for their members to donate to. this has not gone over well with the government in Australia and last i heard they are taking action. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiS7OGVrCMRHdPUCQNT8zpnczCwApweC5kCLYvOFeAUH_5Hk4Or4Nku8huaV7-nZcTX53Bq0uvkCY_gCsIAEUS5kvcVJK6C0y6j8WTGtXXppkTEw5spgPd75dpXWZEYdP5jUppImj_iDxuHNuJZXYRiy4MVv0zOKClurcolcp_s7UQPpfXPdIUCGzEhAw/s2048/358717608_10161067968996197_9149963411698297489_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiS7OGVrCMRHdPUCQNT8zpnczCwApweC5kCLYvOFeAUH_5Hk4Or4Nku8huaV7-nZcTX53Bq0uvkCY_gCsIAEUS5kvcVJK6C0y6j8WTGtXXppkTEw5spgPd75dpXWZEYdP5jUppImj_iDxuHNuJZXYRiy4MVv0zOKClurcolcp_s7UQPpfXPdIUCGzEhAw/s320/358717608_10161067968996197_9149963411698297489_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>feeling like i'm coming full circle on the deconstruction of the religion of my youth. why has it taken me so long? i'd say there are several factors. the internet for one, the culture was another. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4dlqdOCgRB4PrtEnIsCn8E9QkbSp4XuNIMrnxFIe7WmWHADmxjrYdB6SnznM_DgxoRGEcYXRCdnWCBICWki6o2XqiZU9aqKDbWIcURfUmUpH1qccEv3wEWVAyZsHFsXe3yyVUXVqNx2tsq_rA_YvhXep1qA0_Q2ka9dJ132qguuCwhEtIZEp3mkjAHQ/s2048/358716570_10161067968461197_7164345869039927428_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4dlqdOCgRB4PrtEnIsCn8E9QkbSp4XuNIMrnxFIe7WmWHADmxjrYdB6SnznM_DgxoRGEcYXRCdnWCBICWki6o2XqiZU9aqKDbWIcURfUmUpH1qccEv3wEWVAyZsHFsXe3yyVUXVqNx2tsq_rA_YvhXep1qA0_Q2ka9dJ132qguuCwhEtIZEp3mkjAHQ/s320/358716570_10161067968461197_7164345869039927428_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i did not have all that much information when i initially deconstructed. there was no internet, there was just me, reading and praying and asking questions. questions that weren't really answered adequately. those thought terminating cliche's i speak of. there was so much i was not settled with in the church but i guess the "shelf breaker" for me was the proclamation about polygamy. in that polygamy itself is not denounced. it is only announced that it will no longer be practiced on earth so that Utah could become a state. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHAFywmvaOp54Sb2NTeOLk_FRQaNprgnfC3ZCcEgOW99O2agRHS3zlMK4PVqTo0unsHTgaYgi210JHy9mKAlpSw_2Fj9kzDdMygk6tnjrJ5NOX8rwqjOjQjjLcdRpfw0JJj2pSm7b50dzqnxgDIBeSV-ECiw4lBPsCTCEZ5DKPIfXf9HMyyMQoXcUKMQ/s960/358709105_10161063124386197_5789665956226001179_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="720" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHAFywmvaOp54Sb2NTeOLk_FRQaNprgnfC3ZCcEgOW99O2agRHS3zlMK4PVqTo0unsHTgaYgi210JHy9mKAlpSw_2Fj9kzDdMygk6tnjrJ5NOX8rwqjOjQjjLcdRpfw0JJj2pSm7b50dzqnxgDIBeSV-ECiw4lBPsCTCEZ5DKPIfXf9HMyyMQoXcUKMQ/s320/358709105_10161063124386197_5789665956226001179_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>there is just so little we can agree on or even speak about without it becoming controversial. it's too difficult to not speak up during conversations. so i have been backing off more and more. give them their peace though i do not agree with the bubble they chose to live in...they do not believe in the world i live in. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFa1jZKTzJY3DoQlfcpTgugce_iBfsQtOqMjOG3SKkmcw4unJgSmbQ5UmPnlJm9Hbrmt9qBml1aNBK4kap0OTbT4Q8cJ2FFORJUdrCAadKm_-sK8pElLTN4BxOnY7o9GanKDS9ltVclF4cI-hxmb1qMyD4xX1oEoos3opRy0WqSAlt68IMjf9HDyuhVA/s2048/358708768_10161067969226197_6584979630002517682_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFa1jZKTzJY3DoQlfcpTgugce_iBfsQtOqMjOG3SKkmcw4unJgSmbQ5UmPnlJm9Hbrmt9qBml1aNBK4kap0OTbT4Q8cJ2FFORJUdrCAadKm_-sK8pElLTN4BxOnY7o9GanKDS9ltVclF4cI-hxmb1qMyD4xX1oEoos3opRy0WqSAlt68IMjf9HDyuhVA/s320/358708768_10161067969226197_6584979630002517682_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>in truth i do feel more peace. i'm sure they do as well. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYY2uwk-_pnwXA-ryO4hTGjYNAKG0DhyphenhyphenK6vtVA4kJScGr-FgNt6ifzuv4H3KfdB7QHLSZk3VzgpDUhw49rkEPmlDqRBE27WrWydqWw0P0HPmwL6KvW0WyIhpYkUMoD96Mnu9TnjpqOsx0-58ufAfdRQifIgpzl-ENSf7zBzdr9h5B3GQ-zIWIr545Fbg/s2048/358708254_10161067971231197_1488232784549695013_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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C. acceptance<p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-6438358993269347812023-11-25T01:47:00.000-08:002023-11-25T01:47:43.505-08:00post Thanksgiving brain ruminations<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAjWMVCMmhQHpoUVJA346ZQTnDqvb_ibMg2fRlhe065R-PReWSU9OlMKXNRGHmvwnOykLPJZwl0M8xsEQFf9vr1QVZb1xQkSbFl88-pKomjJnVR19YD8N6yOU17LIhvh8ZaJ6pCJr2J23aKDEPEnKf7NGCLpiqDwEjKhiX3ChyphenhyphenFHEzxiA7Irt5LSZSIw/s2048/289510663_10160178221826197_8441446855401292872_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiAjWMVCMmhQHpoUVJA346ZQTnDqvb_ibMg2fRlhe065R-PReWSU9OlMKXNRGHmvwnOykLPJZwl0M8xsEQFf9vr1QVZb1xQkSbFl88-pKomjJnVR19YD8N6yOU17LIhvh8ZaJ6pCJr2J23aKDEPEnKf7NGCLpiqDwEjKhiX3ChyphenhyphenFHEzxiA7Irt5LSZSIw/s320/289510663_10160178221826197_8441446855401292872_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>more from summers past now. we are deep into winter, although it was raining last night. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9VROlcxdRwDFgx2ndCoBskbQoV-JHii0XDUaaj4woMN1Dd9UezWf1VCSupeJeaupmlh9xkqkltia0snC8QyImVfIBNiopCGMse5trMHFuaC32hyphenhyphen-NEpEu7LmJAXKNSKjHx2JqmJf9651wh-HFOoSbBdYwO26iiyfWdXVPORjDj185gnmPs3F1adtKkg/s2048/289486214_10160178216126197_7203573769871393811_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9VROlcxdRwDFgx2ndCoBskbQoV-JHii0XDUaaj4woMN1Dd9UezWf1VCSupeJeaupmlh9xkqkltia0snC8QyImVfIBNiopCGMse5trMHFuaC32hyphenhyphen-NEpEu7LmJAXKNSKjHx2JqmJf9651wh-HFOoSbBdYwO26iiyfWdXVPORjDj185gnmPs3F1adtKkg/s320/289486214_10160178216126197_7203573769871393811_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i do like to get the business stuff of Christmas out of the way so i can enjoy the season and feel of the season more. it's not a religious holiday to me. just an extended reminder of kindness and giving...oddly, the things that Christ actually taught that seem to have been completely lost of many of his followers. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgc6b7zi9eQMQOIooOE2_h7R_Vw47heSHXekC5uDzA0cB8gMKUx6LqJGGboiyxSF21IRxuamD7FG344mdYHKUz6N0yqEckgvQKRxO5Fqz_LmeWc0KvXCpwHE9ZPC9zqmyEruefIoxoYu6VBdPeA1UakMQAnQFw0nUcSSrzMgaDam6W-GfvxQkaJVrkZHw/s2048/289485327_10160178218826197_6029323388938955111_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgc6b7zi9eQMQOIooOE2_h7R_Vw47heSHXekC5uDzA0cB8gMKUx6LqJGGboiyxSF21IRxuamD7FG344mdYHKUz6N0yqEckgvQKRxO5Fqz_LmeWc0KvXCpwHE9ZPC9zqmyEruefIoxoYu6VBdPeA1UakMQAnQFw0nUcSSrzMgaDam6W-GfvxQkaJVrkZHw/s320/289485327_10160178218826197_6029323388938955111_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>always so odd that what i read in the New Testament was basically saying all the crazy rules from the Old Testament were not necessary really. Jesus basically was simplifying it all. be good humans, love one another, help each other, do not judge....but from what i see people have returned to complicate it all. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiE3n2hVzCjRGPuH-mI0Oyu6GuCIYiWH-xxbZPqek1tblg4QzLlaP3u-TK_t_FduTRDbsIWWFyZBl9Qk5ldqTJv-Qs9sGuRzx1QgQOlrBThpyGcUmABKQfKDCY6toA0hyphenhyphenkWdMryWh7ntUA1szMKjR_sx9HI3rEG-M70miXWJIlvRxwpeY2zwFkFxm6shw/s2048/289477420_10160178212191197_1479366955670310748_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiE3n2hVzCjRGPuH-mI0Oyu6GuCIYiWH-xxbZPqek1tblg4QzLlaP3u-TK_t_FduTRDbsIWWFyZBl9Qk5ldqTJv-Qs9sGuRzx1QgQOlrBThpyGcUmABKQfKDCY6toA0hyphenhyphenkWdMryWh7ntUA1szMKjR_sx9HI3rEG-M70miXWJIlvRxwpeY2zwFkFxm6shw/s320/289477420_10160178212191197_1479366955670310748_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>it's like the conspiracy theorists, who are frequently the same people who have complicated religion. not sure why this happens. in complicating it all does that make people stop asking questions because they believe only certain humans can really understand it all. they allow themselves to be spoon fed these complicated routes back to heaven. a complicated heaven. they are then taught to utilize these thought terminating cliche's or thought numbing cliches as i see it. they learn to stop asking those questions and instead accepting the most bizarre, fantastical explanations of something that is no doubt much less complicated. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-qpau3my_v1HVFyia46iKydst3q-ZrTERa6KtkS9eLmxV7pcOeKrsuq2oRnj4bKByThI0bRiXXkoCPHKEX9sU3uRzAQy8hAs4hD8M028i5fuAopvkHOV2k6IGXCtcqgpziipaqBtElBw8ShP8sauV94Vfb1oa9MKmvZNGAIKb5t2k1LanBisIvw5O8A/s2048/358707339_10161067951271197_4114178943319215391_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi-qpau3my_v1HVFyia46iKydst3q-ZrTERa6KtkS9eLmxV7pcOeKrsuq2oRnj4bKByThI0bRiXXkoCPHKEX9sU3uRzAQy8hAs4hD8M028i5fuAopvkHOV2k6IGXCtcqgpziipaqBtElBw8ShP8sauV94Vfb1oa9MKmvZNGAIKb5t2k1LanBisIvw5O8A/s320/358707339_10161067951271197_4114178943319215391_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>people do believe it though. hard as it is for me to accept that, they are happy living that life. they prefer to have things all tied up. they want the most convoluted answers to be the answers. they like believing they had a leg up in the previous life and will quite possibly live in a better place than most of the other humans that have ever existed on earth, simply by following these rules. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhH-sLCXKywaWrkQ5QBCKKpkBt7iVhz1xjJNUygzQoD2qmojhn1hYBa2fOe_b0edzjrZ4T6M7jLPOtj6lkn9wENZDZy4ckchM5W84CWFLfjIQpHW8sJDELKKKaY5ltpl0tufFyxxw8p0p9meM8NpPlZUDfc3bDC4uJArZ6Cn2_s_xgJTLLAC1BlX19hmQ/s2048/358706945_10161067950981197_1032547921752275426_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhH-sLCXKywaWrkQ5QBCKKpkBt7iVhz1xjJNUygzQoD2qmojhn1hYBa2fOe_b0edzjrZ4T6M7jLPOtj6lkn9wENZDZy4ckchM5W84CWFLfjIQpHW8sJDELKKKaY5ltpl0tufFyxxw8p0p9meM8NpPlZUDfc3bDC4uJArZ6Cn2_s_xgJTLLAC1BlX19hmQ/s320/358706945_10161067950981197_1032547921752275426_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>luckily for me, this is a simple process. they have proven over decades to have little interest in any real relationship with me. it was only me who believed it was possible. it was me trying to make weekly calls or holiday calls. most of which weren't answered or returned. i just do less of that now. give them the peace they want while allowing myself the truth and therefore peace myself. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjAAo46tqC-wL-D4j3X3BAh5kKQN06nNrnoisSgAEqqlTRR_q6c_-3EC6-vfu53kncysIPnJ8I5EdBhPLn0ZvRRHVnte01gbFJhNlE2vdOSEhh4rFNbWBxIbs-mMGB_MHi-jvyWmPeEIw54Sis4giiheM4ZUDoxOZGT-TQFOC1T6XG2t9a1x72waRFTfg/s2048/358705009_10161067950551197_6782683788935161832_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjAAo46tqC-wL-D4j3X3BAh5kKQN06nNrnoisSgAEqqlTRR_q6c_-3EC6-vfu53kncysIPnJ8I5EdBhPLn0ZvRRHVnte01gbFJhNlE2vdOSEhh4rFNbWBxIbs-mMGB_MHi-jvyWmPeEIw54Sis4giiheM4ZUDoxOZGT-TQFOC1T6XG2t9a1x72waRFTfg/s320/358705009_10161067950551197_6782683788935161832_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>hope/expectations can be painful if not managed or realistic. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilmOx-Fm5Uuyj5Q0ZPIlLrBFDIZegqE383lodwsxC_0cX5EVHaIRcpeVY6qRH6M5BqZ2dIgLu6uNnk5kKAaltjig8vrL_Fl_qQtgp3iVFdPexGJMml_lDOxBk41nIJeLzDpiumLCdZgBLgZ5iiGsbdT0AIArspsbCoE5TSP3l0Va5OYqa_5uhKI-JPXg/s2048/358704907_10161067969186197_987797518035620422_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjmYYX5jqDKGGFLoyC-opP2qpuFtgn7zvNMpVqqkaQXC4iEPI9EcJoY0acSjJQD5d09SlGdqMkLskcNE96DqVAuVz1qto_JPuQ7w-DIYHOJA57_nTfsTjDyi02WGNg2DcfZ7cqGTMRD89GsCj6j8-BZ19UlVH-Bv2FAAl-jKkYAX8PTY-mqsPZf4yOePQ/s320/358702558_10161067969116197_8701110926341351924_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>it's been a stressful few years but i do feel i have grown immensely. we are always growing if we allow ourselves to. i personally, fear that religion also can stunt some. acceptance of the bizarre with complicated and impossible goals and outcomes. nobody can really measure up. i never could for sure. the goals are not within our grasp. for me letting it all go was so freeing. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWg_uGtbI7idc9-dNzPke7WPT_josRDCXKjxXLoxqyoTy4rwt_Xjszj_gsTHQFchVsK1JppJGT35FW6I34JvfIjExfHRxfhve6gOjw_d2PXseCOGRkZLDEwQaK9x0H8YVJIlVrTltIY6q1aleZ6wGWmfpbQHtvGzGGnIIDjzToyP9YgHs6gdwfdgiFPw/s2048/358702466_10161067964121197_1538393651264986816_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWg_uGtbI7idc9-dNzPke7WPT_josRDCXKjxXLoxqyoTy4rwt_Xjszj_gsTHQFchVsK1JppJGT35FW6I34JvfIjExfHRxfhve6gOjw_d2PXseCOGRkZLDEwQaK9x0H8YVJIlVrTltIY6q1aleZ6wGWmfpbQHtvGzGGnIIDjzToyP9YgHs6gdwfdgiFPw/s320/358702466_10161067964121197_1538393651264986816_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i do not know the answers to many of the big questions in life but it's much more comforting to me accepting a lack of knowledge than trusting the craziness. i could never make it make sense because it never can make sense. there are things we don't understand...some of those thought terminating cliche's have that right...it's just that for some of us we accept the nothing and for others they have to have something to fill the void. that something that they fill that void with is so outlandish as to be forever indiscernible. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEzXrkG5ltPTUUs69u0_YoylDbnQchxcGIa06Bt1nuk-l6GtP3MzNI8rb9kCYMncy5xm4AZfDgA90ZxO_JuHXuXBI6BlY8LmFDnaZF-A07m2v3Y8powziAcpkIyeIrqBsaHUdCFwbtJquuCe6y3jtlLILoZF56T1F6zO2vHWmHSfFWQlot07TSfvd9qw/s2048/358701850_10161067968346197_8872877918760695432_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEzXrkG5ltPTUUs69u0_YoylDbnQchxcGIa06Bt1nuk-l6GtP3MzNI8rb9kCYMncy5xm4AZfDgA90ZxO_JuHXuXBI6BlY8LmFDnaZF-A07m2v3Y8powziAcpkIyeIrqBsaHUdCFwbtJquuCe6y3jtlLILoZF56T1F6zO2vHWmHSfFWQlot07TSfvd9qw/s320/358701850_10161067968346197_8872877918760695432_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i do much better in smaller groups as well, that includes family. being around so many was never comfortable. we were talking about big thanksgiving meals. for us, every Sunday meal was 15-25 people. i was never comfortable in the crowd that was family. it was just way too many people. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDqEqtmR-ni80wyCtDLBbkdHSIa3teBKE0X_ggzxg-6rXQrH1McPcp688mscXh9OWWkct12uv3OcSnkr3Fn2pVjPvajDbjHB0wQl9sV1ZV2I8P2VTvnISpcT20f2o4FTpoz9ERvLMsVSXA0VEuEp3gW4Qu920lGMl4rPqaM7VXAUnyhn6nKjmPyhQr0Q/s2048/358701006_10161067969086197_951737346747722193_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDqEqtmR-ni80wyCtDLBbkdHSIa3teBKE0X_ggzxg-6rXQrH1McPcp688mscXh9OWWkct12uv3OcSnkr3Fn2pVjPvajDbjHB0wQl9sV1ZV2I8P2VTvnISpcT20f2o4FTpoz9ERvLMsVSXA0VEuEp3gW4Qu920lGMl4rPqaM7VXAUnyhn6nKjmPyhQr0Q/s320/358701006_10161067969086197_951737346747722193_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>add in all the entire wards/stakes...we are not all built to be around crowds. all those activities, trying to make nice with people i couldn't always relate to. it was always awkward and uncomfortable. to me just another reason why religions are wrong...we do not all fit in the box that we are meant to fit in. nothing can be right that only works for a small number. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi3MufoSiJX3x69OfWXBRnmH5Qyz_lo_tpUtCW9sjQaEyHPVq24cT2fta_QMip-QkRykCslKKHqwfrID4Fc8OHlqhUdxfF8m0MzNvYU2HFsTEQSHoMTxK6eKShqHVBqbuvcfEUX_9WthhC2Yh2NjbHcg_2V9Cz5GFRFz_omFguuUEMAwEAFlWZCTDu_kA/s2048/358700714_10161067968946197_1026219384921478864_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi3MufoSiJX3x69OfWXBRnmH5Qyz_lo_tpUtCW9sjQaEyHPVq24cT2fta_QMip-QkRykCslKKHqwfrID4Fc8OHlqhUdxfF8m0MzNvYU2HFsTEQSHoMTxK6eKShqHVBqbuvcfEUX_9WthhC2Yh2NjbHcg_2V9Cz5GFRFz_omFguuUEMAwEAFlWZCTDu_kA/s320/358700714_10161067968946197_1026219384921478864_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i am thankful though. it's the holiday to give thanks...a holiday, like many others, that comes from bull really. the spirit of it i like. the spirit of being thankful, like Christmas to me is more about the spirit of kindness and generosity. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuEsRrBlKUTa0r8EUKx1z7oOp1gPhGFZsTLGa9nLqXyJBcn4Xe8ANSivPxEjfsdSn6Ewt6F68KzFONG1NBs05M8VU_jyfudh7hrsxL8-9c3JdpNfUJ2YFjXUdOYNTIzp1uMWVbZ4Q6-SRWhqEcDQis40ZvGcPRy8DpiJiGfjm8Pf5Ni-jnOHT4sB99gQ/s2048/358699082_10161067970881197_7851825103809685593_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuEsRrBlKUTa0r8EUKx1z7oOp1gPhGFZsTLGa9nLqXyJBcn4Xe8ANSivPxEjfsdSn6Ewt6F68KzFONG1NBs05M8VU_jyfudh7hrsxL8-9c3JdpNfUJ2YFjXUdOYNTIzp1uMWVbZ4Q6-SRWhqEcDQis40ZvGcPRy8DpiJiGfjm8Pf5Ni-jnOHT4sB99gQ/s320/358699082_10161067970881197_7851825103809685593_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i'm thankful i asked a lot of questions. i'm thankful i met people who would not accept crazy thought terminating cliche's from me and instead kept pressing me to use my mind. i'm thankful that life brought me to Alaska. i'm thankful for all the people i've met along the way. i'm thankful for all the animals that have shared me life with me. i'm thankful i have been lucky and haven't had to deal with some of the torture and atrocities that others on this globe have to live with far too often. i'm thankful i've had the health and freedom to explore this beautiful place and other beautiful places. i'm thankful i've been able to have independence and freedoms that were not always granted others. i'm thankful i had a career that i didn't alway love but was a constant reminder of what i have that others do not have. that it's allowed me to meet people from so many places and spaces. thankful that the bubble of the world i was expected to live in was blasted apart and i have been able to peer into others lives. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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A. turkey noodle soup like Mom used to make after Thanksgiving B. chocolate chip cookie dough. B. a friend who takes in strays and cooks for us. :-) never thought i'd be a stray human, but here i am. <p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-91630751327149815912023-11-13T00:03:00.000-08:002023-11-13T00:03:03.591-08:00Alaska....no gym membership required. <p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7sCEhfntoXE91IuDMVPYJ8zDeKzSzcAbxM3795vSIRYsPpkzZJMvg2zHpNZbU8x-tPMOpd3XIg8vb1W6K6BugLisT2zROqWON5M0KqF_0Q56Y_96eat_rFJs0dIPDVhdgP1sXgymI-GyrI8G4TI_7pbOs1uoiT3gWvlsU6Y_eRUjZ1spg3Z5hM1SCSg/s2048/358694962_10161067971066197_5309638497658705723_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1950" data-original-width="2048" height="305" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7sCEhfntoXE91IuDMVPYJ8zDeKzSzcAbxM3795vSIRYsPpkzZJMvg2zHpNZbU8x-tPMOpd3XIg8vb1W6K6BugLisT2zROqWON5M0KqF_0Q56Y_96eat_rFJs0dIPDVhdgP1sXgymI-GyrI8G4TI_7pbOs1uoiT3gWvlsU6Y_eRUjZ1spg3Z5hM1SCSg/s320/358694962_10161067971066197_5309638497658705723_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>after a little float down the Kenai River. i had never done this. always fun to get visitors and add a few things to my list to see and do. we had a great trek that week. the memories will be in my heart and bring me joy for years to come i'm sure. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhigXKY6U3UNn5adqv_yDOkjHYQ1mqb4BDTuVp7D4sTqhA65-x9_UwjpqlVQL2FMFL8_-JyJuqNigJP9HEJg660sV7xJ7HhjLDXHs9D_foWtV1LUpE3CTvKM1Ppb5KNlX9pcxDk9lI48CcmC6LavXyTqrSYZgxe0jmMvbwgj0PWYdHfp3jA5-SAEKr_rQ/s320/289396494_10160178219161197_1518627298295298391_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i'll probably continue pulling back from several members in the family. they are happy being Mormon and i'm happy not being Mormon. i told someone recently that in truth, it probably would have been better to have just been shunned or disowned. all the pain up front over the false hope i had for some family that is just not possible. they haven't really noticed that i have backed away anyway. they never did call me, it was 95% all me, these relationships, so i'm not missed at all. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgOfpeDdVHh-qD8cVlOwBgzxHDLNWfFxRStYxPNF5ZuFegAMRDgZ6d66odgIVxYZuSVxTFSjydon9dLBkiSYZI5jFxJqbRhkrBbbz4DpuGaDmroZEApTa-CYG8pu07N35mLgC4NVwB2wFv4W74gsAv9yOxj46C6heLICGW_jBTTDAhw6v6vDyGowUGZzQ/s2048/289340512_10160178211886197_1136600369635256519_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgrtfTDFcYCQel2opdGNt6KkdmXqk0nXD333QY0ggaQBBy2xAvRlMFapzwTC0fCR02Ge-a6LtGZ907fyFQeTNeMMoMQn_zfchhnM79gkOo0F8GVaGP3A9_dv6CmmdtOVuF_mdCxz1zU_5gASuctOYot2U4b5QZRosu_F0i_57sN9IFNWdaoeqyLS_mMQw/s320/289335275_10160178212536197_8931261444712748126_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>people are there for different aspects of life some times. some stay, some go. better to not force it with anyone. if they want out, go. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNBG5RzhowOilCG0VyLNQGvZvlRiAAMTz7WbIl4SBUuWQnxm9pHQgLnDOBtDTTwx4UhcuHgQ4wQgc_4R2J__FtjJKg0daJdznhbIqf_nB7qJICjKXMtu_qbs8Jw4s0aFBijRLGupniCXtKmohfZ_tcvuRKQJXDw2dpXN8g5At1j0AlkyujkfbpV8Y6ZQ/s2048/289264670_10160178222221197_4740143342171727056_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNBG5RzhowOilCG0VyLNQGvZvlRiAAMTz7WbIl4SBUuWQnxm9pHQgLnDOBtDTTwx4UhcuHgQ4wQgc_4R2J__FtjJKg0daJdznhbIqf_nB7qJICjKXMtu_qbs8Jw4s0aFBijRLGupniCXtKmohfZ_tcvuRKQJXDw2dpXN8g5At1j0AlkyujkfbpV8Y6ZQ/s320/289264670_10160178222221197_4740143342171727056_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>starting to feel that about the Monday walks. better to not force it. perhaps it's just run it's course? i have never liked feeling like i'm begging people to be around me. the people who want to be in your life, find a way. those who don't, they slip away. it can be tough to not take it personally, but generally it isn't personal. people just have different things going on. you are not their priority.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6lxsCAt1Kl7sso5xQfo7Y2PswR14E38zvCmQBmzmkANdTQH8FC3-g8T3NcdvnSpeZ0Vg017RZRVmEO-mTlb06XzoQhp958ZXCJJFrPb9hs9qAvK8plQMh0WvXb3kCMEKxM_KkXOhnfqpTwaZ9esFhWnkae4rI8CLGm1QW6_TLXEz2d52pSUxdMjmWIA/s2048/288598713_10160166970816197_9206312851391912963_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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B that i was able to help get 2 people unstuck...you get help and you give help. C. the companionship of dogs. where would i be without the pets? it would probably not be good. <p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-66720879708026723772023-10-30T23:42:00.000-07:002023-10-30T23:42:17.020-07:00Halloween Eve....<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcsFjhdLK5pmLCtjhPINWAUwP4qCjKR4IWW5E4wuaGYDhPU08lSE3TFnE5KRh6TjbRMlwj0rNpJX8h2i-V4k-72imhnxBXZlDvcPQ0-HIy0ogP-9Yx3I_etp15u15AZhu6FEJ1511ZAGph4g2GKsg4EYWJ3wx7I6X6MAifuIQNSr4pLX22CwbdpAt0SA/s2048/288416067_10160166971161197_3016403690494601222_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcsFjhdLK5pmLCtjhPINWAUwP4qCjKR4IWW5E4wuaGYDhPU08lSE3TFnE5KRh6TjbRMlwj0rNpJX8h2i-V4k-72imhnxBXZlDvcPQ0-HIy0ogP-9Yx3I_etp15u15AZhu6FEJ1511ZAGph4g2GKsg4EYWJ3wx7I6X6MAifuIQNSr4pLX22CwbdpAt0SA/s320/288416067_10160166971161197_3016403690494601222_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i still need to get the final touches on the decorations. put the candy slide out there. the "door bell". looks like it will be snow free and sort of warm. maybe there will be some trick or treaters. Sunny Boy may go a bit nuts out there.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi19o89zM4KFf21S0JyrjygeEhMno2-enx9rSLeET7gQV-4FHs5ZxB7Qx68buO-RgdFlJaVVhP-QdxBET_Zov8JrgLLoZVkWO5dXXh9jC3U_6X4EC8FS8tgTZXZCra-KBycJzrtU3Oai0zhXI_DyLSgw_asaDc32EzXH_Kv4M5GkIX49ZXGx5ihyphenhyphenNpNCQ/s2048/288399685_10160166971291197_8293413846398405577_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi19o89zM4KFf21S0JyrjygeEhMno2-enx9rSLeET7gQV-4FHs5ZxB7Qx68buO-RgdFlJaVVhP-QdxBET_Zov8JrgLLoZVkWO5dXXh9jC3U_6X4EC8FS8tgTZXZCra-KBycJzrtU3Oai0zhXI_DyLSgw_asaDc32EzXH_Kv4M5GkIX49ZXGx5ihyphenhyphenNpNCQ/s320/288399685_10160166971291197_8293413846398405577_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>a little sad today....the old Monday walk has mostly run it's course. the last few years, the coffee part has been much more the thing. thinking i need to expand the invites again. it has altered over the years. the people who come change a bit. that was part of the reason for the walk. just needed to remind myself to expand the invites and see if anyone else out there wants to walk. the coffee is good too, just i need some motivation to walk and to socialize. i'm not the best socially so the Monday walks were a good way for me to push myself into the social sphere. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8lU0a2dmW2V0YNMvHO5xjinAcWYUI6de-ulUsqjwJguL0i7k3CvnJ-Cpt8OPuQNdpf5JmA12wREaGM-blATIPR1bv1VPIV66ZoeltijJytUKAlpgpW0cjg5vSlYGJwIVaQMInBxlXFRu-DNIc6haCyKpvvK7yU96uwWp4pQPonb3QUgkOnkCBCA8x8g/s2048/288282342_10160166970951197_7597721609342872485_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8lU0a2dmW2V0YNMvHO5xjinAcWYUI6de-ulUsqjwJguL0i7k3CvnJ-Cpt8OPuQNdpf5JmA12wREaGM-blATIPR1bv1VPIV66ZoeltijJytUKAlpgpW0cjg5vSlYGJwIVaQMInBxlXFRu-DNIc6haCyKpvvK7yU96uwWp4pQPonb3QUgkOnkCBCA8x8g/s320/288282342_10160166970951197_7597721609342872485_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i'm still not clear why they would do this brutal attack knowing that Israel would do exactly as it is doing. feels like there are just more parts to all this. a terrorist attacks, you react. i can't really blame Israel for that. they have some brutality in their history with Palestine, so it's a general mess. it's like, after surviving the Nazi's they are more apt to be proactive in an attack than take a wait and see attitude. not sure what answers there are. the brutal terrorist attack just would serve to make the Israeli's be even more controlling so i'm not clear what the end game was supposed to be. now thousands have died in Gaza. Israel says it's going after hamas leadership, but i'd guess the bulk of anyone in Hamas with any "leadership" was either never there, took off to save themselves or they are hiding in a bunker that would take massive explosives to breach. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiKXK4AP12d1vMxCfZiRwwovwLV1zggjjeyn5A96yRIBPHNfPtpEAReyySwMUdDvv9sIGjqgHFASKRCfVQg88cg1qfOsyCVCxSy7YNmOvcPvJVACxr6WP2DHPNte3-_5ap2BtRhWS-_GzMNT4e8WkYb6aFHgFDm4Cpo6Sjt0p167X7qrFW0lJUSKI9R7Q/s2048/288266779_10160165464976197_7199969582117439860_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiKXK4AP12d1vMxCfZiRwwovwLV1zggjjeyn5A96yRIBPHNfPtpEAReyySwMUdDvv9sIGjqgHFASKRCfVQg88cg1qfOsyCVCxSy7YNmOvcPvJVACxr6WP2DHPNte3-_5ap2BtRhWS-_GzMNT4e8WkYb6aFHgFDm4Cpo6Sjt0p167X7qrFW0lJUSKI9R7Q/s320/288266779_10160165464976197_7199969582117439860_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>the puppet masters that get everyone else killed are generally tucked away in some bunker while the young are sent off to kill and be killed. they are probably off in some safe place, drinking and partying. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4KJDQZ8B-7VBVSpOY6keBB5rfZWHs4I7fLmfK66l8WSEzc15vcyvNqpVYwo1llz8VuUF2CCdwKY-OYPWHL4sOPmKjCXb8HEbp7B1ThtDsLl-6gCflvhUAgCFmKvBpu0_xiJkvgG6ClLjqh8KTEy0LLN1pyKh00SStifBmuUysa2btXBASZ6R09te4oA/s2048/288251844_10160165465136197_6233210431962942252_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi4KJDQZ8B-7VBVSpOY6keBB5rfZWHs4I7fLmfK66l8WSEzc15vcyvNqpVYwo1llz8VuUF2CCdwKY-OYPWHL4sOPmKjCXb8HEbp7B1ThtDsLl-6gCflvhUAgCFmKvBpu0_xiJkvgG6ClLjqh8KTEy0LLN1pyKh00SStifBmuUysa2btXBASZ6R09te4oA/s320/288251844_10160165465136197_6233210431962942252_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i've long thought one reason they want to outlaw abortion is they need cannon fodder. how dare women choose to not give them young people to send off to war. does anyone believe the people in those bunkers, who direct the wars, give a crap about those who fight the wars for them? <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRX0nddZr_jaxKHU3GDhre4oPuLUN9ncTxDPjI8UVLh08atc585omCj21r1fO2_m3HZZwExkvFhrjVWaYwf5_g2uTI9Cu18D23nhHsXks7b7PUGOPTB3LsVt8YkUa6g4PGP_yo-df7NtEO742rFbEuevCFiBGsixk4i9OZhss55vwvrsvP4gJI3tuJng/s2048/288243632_10160165169331197_6735729521813425504_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRX0nddZr_jaxKHU3GDhre4oPuLUN9ncTxDPjI8UVLh08atc585omCj21r1fO2_m3HZZwExkvFhrjVWaYwf5_g2uTI9Cu18D23nhHsXks7b7PUGOPTB3LsVt8YkUa6g4PGP_yo-df7NtEO742rFbEuevCFiBGsixk4i9OZhss55vwvrsvP4gJI3tuJng/s320/288243632_10160165169331197_6735729521813425504_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>Israel says all the deaths in Gaza are the fault of Hamas. that may be true, ultimately for their brutal role in starting all of this, however, Israel doesn't control the narrative in Gaza and most of those who will watch their loved ones die, will not see it that way. it's a never ending cycle, you kill, you risk creating more terrorists that will come back after you another day. no matter what Israel says about the bombings, they will be held to account in their own way. also who believes they would just go peacefully into the night if Hamas released all the hostages tomorrow. after the Olympic killings, Israel systematically went after each killer. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMbePkdJdUmmyOSftJeUP7QSN6GHXry8FQEHXse9ZBNv82KB9O9UeOeAdTOQz_l3hg2zatpkec9z-4pkRG494pIjT-TQQdgSpDT2dPoDA4dLSvdbBbFJYcUdF-YZbhE-ykW_WE50Nub-XrLZEmo9OiGJ4LhiOT8-yVhjiMkLNlUqoa1wRhTSDaoj6oVQ/s2048/288240365_10160166971636197_407784498873424895_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMbePkdJdUmmyOSftJeUP7QSN6GHXry8FQEHXse9ZBNv82KB9O9UeOeAdTOQz_l3hg2zatpkec9z-4pkRG494pIjT-TQQdgSpDT2dPoDA4dLSvdbBbFJYcUdF-YZbhE-ykW_WE50Nub-XrLZEmo9OiGJ4LhiOT8-yVhjiMkLNlUqoa1wRhTSDaoj6oVQ/s320/288240365_10160166971636197_407784498873424895_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>Hamas was informed that their way out was to release the hostages. talk of a cease fire but what will that do? allow Hamas to steal supplies, make new plans. there does seem risk in that. Israel rejects that outright though. US is supporting Israel. the people in Gaza...they seem to just be cannon fodder themselves...to everyone. at least that is how i see it. i don't see anyone coming to their rescue. the population is young, children have been killed. Israel using bombs, Hamas burning babies in cribs, cutting off heads...that feels way more brutal. how does such hate exist....? <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikTo6uIE00ECXYhg1Bkg7PORy_9eZSxF9HBB1nZBmmdZDwJGkCTut58xAwnKFLrSv4LIkfOQMyDMM4oo8lQdyyHASeo3L99OxSJDEMf4e8htUTFnwU_Z-4ljfdANZfdcKXqVRj2TxkketYn1OQmkK7b7uQQD6zd5v0_Ue-dS-1gWnz-atFaPiZAbH0iQ/s2048/288231019_10160165464986197_7152371293117619839_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEikTo6uIE00ECXYhg1Bkg7PORy_9eZSxF9HBB1nZBmmdZDwJGkCTut58xAwnKFLrSv4LIkfOQMyDMM4oo8lQdyyHASeo3L99OxSJDEMf4e8htUTFnwU_Z-4ljfdANZfdcKXqVRj2TxkketYn1OQmkK7b7uQQD6zd5v0_Ue-dS-1gWnz-atFaPiZAbH0iQ/s320/288231019_10160165464986197_7152371293117619839_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>religion mostly. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgdqzUUfhtdcN0gYELN5csIKJ-d4xQGcAqhVWjnfP2B-PSXmjU0D92XuJAhmSMaBiqSX62KQGvwLUgQzN51ml5kvK1Uia-xuSduPq2MZvcH9qsbgKLulRK7_kML8aLfaUv5ImPWKRVYkN8Cx4fR1KTy-xmYZ6kK6iVu5MuHlyT4BywSWf76BUCtYtvzbg/s2048/288228495_10160165168251197_3097087190204185902_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgdqzUUfhtdcN0gYELN5csIKJ-d4xQGcAqhVWjnfP2B-PSXmjU0D92XuJAhmSMaBiqSX62KQGvwLUgQzN51ml5kvK1Uia-xuSduPq2MZvcH9qsbgKLulRK7_kML8aLfaUv5ImPWKRVYkN8Cx4fR1KTy-xmYZ6kK6iVu5MuHlyT4BywSWf76BUCtYtvzbg/s320/288228495_10160165168251197_3097087190204185902_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>who has the better god, who does god think got the fairy tale correct. i have to figure that just because a place is predominantly this religion or that religion doesn't necessarily mean that all of the people are just as into the dominant religion as they may appear. i suspect at this point to other nations we appear to be a nation of crazy evangelical christians, when truthfully a higher percentage of our population doesn't attend any church on a regular basis. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEixwEsIpY0IhGDVgkaqkgV53qhdT09-Ydlx0rHEeELYv6CteQq-X4Mj3e9kQWWxywuDUS3nF9ylLLyeR70bxalsrpfy2QzJI_4Hq7mrUhS-iE1RKwRWMbbyS1Zkkxcm4sIB1ame17D_ByW8gJTCGxeUv8UO9mmhfkDNw3qbcPMP27iOQdOskPSa5m69bg/s2048/288227399_10160165170221197_238153254353486424_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEixwEsIpY0IhGDVgkaqkgV53qhdT09-Ydlx0rHEeELYv6CteQq-X4Mj3e9kQWWxywuDUS3nF9ylLLyeR70bxalsrpfy2QzJI_4Hq7mrUhS-iE1RKwRWMbbyS1Zkkxcm4sIB1ame17D_ByW8gJTCGxeUv8UO9mmhfkDNw3qbcPMP27iOQdOskPSa5m69bg/s320/288227399_10160165170221197_238153254353486424_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>we all get put in the same category and then you have "leadership" that puts on this show of being so religious. look at our idiot trump. he has all those evangelicals believing he is as gaga for God as they are...when in reality the only god he believes in is the one he sees in the mirror. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgMMxT8g2OaNYcdLNUVEa3xwa8MuW_wCX107wuXLE_h95TYB825xkefcCayPWSxK602lhn4idemaMUc8MQI-xWlUlkPogGzxIMqddLYxw1zrgGSbFZ-W6115__l-ZWjyHNVT2cHlGQWG4s4JwCD0hLJ2Mfsk5OoB7P4Ixr_ODkV2rWDmmkjoqMx9SyqDw/s2048/288217019_10160165463231197_3213583849087366258_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgMMxT8g2OaNYcdLNUVEa3xwa8MuW_wCX107wuXLE_h95TYB825xkefcCayPWSxK602lhn4idemaMUc8MQI-xWlUlkPogGzxIMqddLYxw1zrgGSbFZ-W6115__l-ZWjyHNVT2cHlGQWG4s4JwCD0hLJ2Mfsk5OoB7P4Ixr_ODkV2rWDmmkjoqMx9SyqDw/s320/288217019_10160165463231197_3213583849087366258_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i just don't see the appeal of him. he's a freak really. orange, hairspray, rude, crude, misogynistic...i have trouble finding any redeeming qualities, even more trouble finding any of the messages that i read about in the New Testament....and yet, here we are, he's treated better than Jesus would be treated if they shared the same stage. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEih8wfLrl-d_r88aSeHgcXxeW1BCFBDp2vBO7rWxL985-3YPMKmmp5Rk6R3LhyphenhyphenOUnhQfkNgw5TRZf50tZZG_swOumm1qJoSFJvAqmjS8TvOEROoVIlYpjXY8R_qF1rRs7_k3M37ZuaM-P-5NqTQBpY0Q97p2xmv41XSgPth6ftUQy4Qcjnt-ylNZLcVTg/s2048/288215079_10160165463076197_8650960102268617579_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEih8wfLrl-d_r88aSeHgcXxeW1BCFBDp2vBO7rWxL985-3YPMKmmp5Rk6R3LhyphenhyphenOUnhQfkNgw5TRZf50tZZG_swOumm1qJoSFJvAqmjS8TvOEROoVIlYpjXY8R_qF1rRs7_k3M37ZuaM-P-5NqTQBpY0Q97p2xmv41XSgPth6ftUQy4Qcjnt-ylNZLcVTg/s320/288215079_10160165463076197_8650960102268617579_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i can totally see him tweeting about Jesus. picking on him to try to raise himself up in the polls. saying all his usual tropes. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEizSl1hqXbzBRnRTSZYeCaOhWnJfD5LAvqg9Ui9kY01vqeZd7tVs0WihXgmyRR1J32HmWGbPa2kxe4LK3ik-Ef_sbczvmqrL4Cg2f5mYfV3ieCGfKF9dps06bPlaGbYKPh_hQlBYc7MtD3cvK-YfF52U_0vvNqtvlYDIDmVg4beyBWIECfwu01FnTSvnQ/s2048/288196865_10160165168746197_7346116445176433188_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEizSl1hqXbzBRnRTSZYeCaOhWnJfD5LAvqg9Ui9kY01vqeZd7tVs0WihXgmyRR1J32HmWGbPa2kxe4LK3ik-Ef_sbczvmqrL4Cg2f5mYfV3ieCGfKF9dps06bPlaGbYKPh_hQlBYc7MtD3cvK-YfF52U_0vvNqtvlYDIDmVg4beyBWIECfwu01FnTSvnQ/s320/288196865_10160165168746197_7346116445176433188_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i've no doubt, if Jesus did come down here, he would be rejected outright by these evangelicals and they would nail him to the cross all over and continue their trump worship. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2T-V-m1AKeZ10xn_Qb3k5zHS0qhfGQlb5rv5kJocg6eV1_1RVRTMJ1pbzn4rTgewjM2dCfah0Fgsi9UPrXl9GDBIeI_ccr3Wue2OxdVSFyMSG_cbVabYz75FzLXPUK5VBUk0Si2LdDB4Ka1fY_u58Re-tcPrRl59uFoyi6w6t6aO2XpNWeEgoQRezOw/s960/358493432_10161058714346197_6527186784115851513_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="720" data-original-width="960" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2T-V-m1AKeZ10xn_Qb3k5zHS0qhfGQlb5rv5kJocg6eV1_1RVRTMJ1pbzn4rTgewjM2dCfah0Fgsi9UPrXl9GDBIeI_ccr3Wue2OxdVSFyMSG_cbVabYz75FzLXPUK5VBUk0Si2LdDB4Ka1fY_u58Re-tcPrRl59uFoyi6w6t6aO2XpNWeEgoQRezOw/s320/358493432_10161058714346197_6527186784115851513_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>they really got pretty lucky weather wise, considering how much rain we got this year. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1XhJvmrDqZVnRi_GTfe8LtEHKequCzmb8QNAEneIZ2gxAJTKKnUoYwc_9WHcDjSYCT5s1nFp8ndUilAizlbBwnYmp-mOtswH2B_Hq10O77mWd6QhDQLxhJE6_-_4HesSmoy5O6n-iMYOZnyRhYZS18IjWgrb9ssFcev4E3kX2y0zx1jgcNVvaWwc-TQ/s960/358481457_10161058718371197_2488830707620917307_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhi5zM2nglf2L3jGVHjCmOnHe1T4pfsnkkZOM5bRjI_tJ7piVVD9JcyO4N5Qul5xxbUuo8Gy9v8HqxP9cCSH1BmSQ4wKQb_CB5EGfIaa9UcpTthWK0-XglMQrQ1sl7dUTJRsQGiYtHMWcTZ68Fg87Vhk0chA96m6vfxiZ_cOt6UcTPpX3TgQMExqZNERg/s2048/358462661_10161063127141197_5715445760077123699_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhi5zM2nglf2L3jGVHjCmOnHe1T4pfsnkkZOM5bRjI_tJ7piVVD9JcyO4N5Qul5xxbUuo8Gy9v8HqxP9cCSH1BmSQ4wKQb_CB5EGfIaa9UcpTthWK0-XglMQrQ1sl7dUTJRsQGiYtHMWcTZ68Fg87Vhk0chA96m6vfxiZ_cOt6UcTPpX3TgQMExqZNERg/s320/358462661_10161063127141197_5715445760077123699_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>we deal with a lot of death and dying. we are expected to just be okay with that. we aren't asked if we aren't okay. we aren't asked anything. we just get back to work, take care of the next patient, move on to the next death. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgesYtmKFIAITUUfYsdiA5BT8aUi0A-BYFWjHoZgol419qZmQu2qo2rg02-9kVC4WZsuGBcTwimU7raveVkwmp7kwpvrxNJkSCsPEiBE3_2qwlHpcxFQltWh0CmCBD8Ap0igHXeRYeDqmg0ECdjBe1fpdtUZZ90hksP8bur1QpVppJAArdEsh3y-U5nFw/s2048/358461369_10161063123226197_3117767036204691614_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgesYtmKFIAITUUfYsdiA5BT8aUi0A-BYFWjHoZgol419qZmQu2qo2rg02-9kVC4WZsuGBcTwimU7raveVkwmp7kwpvrxNJkSCsPEiBE3_2qwlHpcxFQltWh0CmCBD8Ap0igHXeRYeDqmg0ECdjBe1fpdtUZZ90hksP8bur1QpVppJAArdEsh3y-U5nFw/s320/358461369_10161063123226197_3117767036204691614_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>don't get me wrong. it can actually be one of the most rewarding things being there for that time in life. being there for the patient, for the family, for your co-workers. i suspect we have all pretended far too often that we are tough as old leather and we just move from death to death not impacted in the least. we are impacted. some deaths are more impactful than others. the young ones, the sudden ones, the unexpected...<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjUYlx5dS0dql0KGBmSzEApCdwKZJx0FgVOa-DeREz5Gk4UPnARFfmhbDAUPO4H_KsxITtj2SAbvhi2GXTyyms7zDnImaQ9KMlWCJdwNGbpAAoeb6whH_yRfKtZZwkUZ9LQ2qNqifGN-lTi9KzwpNsv1lFzFtVnEpS1qjoT1dOUsK-abToJqA8Rj7MFhQ/s2048/358461032_10161063123596197_8190114533243122891_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjUYlx5dS0dql0KGBmSzEApCdwKZJx0FgVOa-DeREz5Gk4UPnARFfmhbDAUPO4H_KsxITtj2SAbvhi2GXTyyms7zDnImaQ9KMlWCJdwNGbpAAoeb6whH_yRfKtZZwkUZ9LQ2qNqifGN-lTi9KzwpNsv1lFzFtVnEpS1qjoT1dOUsK-abToJqA8Rj7MFhQ/s320/358461032_10161063123596197_8190114533243122891_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>we aren't encouraged to take care of ourselves and our own emotions related to the deaths we deal with. the opposite actually. they need us to be at work. they need us to suck back any feelings we may have and be there for the next patient. there is never enough staff members for us to just deal with our feelings. to be in the moment of a death. to admit that we aren't okay being okay this time or that time. there have been times they are trying to flip the bed quickly and give you another critical patient after you just had a death. you are expected to just flip a switch on the one death and move on to another. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjrAP5pTD02l7uqkB0LDYHugMFKfONzOq0zvrM980qzWCS89nUnF7MCGrSAXsey_ddtSJhksa7qdqSKDvheLKBUCxRZS984hiE89MleObWaMUEM7UJfZ8ySYLOXDH3Lyxer2CL_vSBr29rII2kBuC8ScIjjUaixyB2EpRfyLIcHCdEKRJJ1gARB0-daA/s2048/358460176_10161063107126197_2200886639707597796_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjrAP5pTD02l7uqkB0LDYHugMFKfONzOq0zvrM980qzWCS89nUnF7MCGrSAXsey_ddtSJhksa7qdqSKDvheLKBUCxRZS984hiE89MleObWaMUEM7UJfZ8ySYLOXDH3Lyxer2CL_vSBr29rII2kBuC8ScIjjUaixyB2EpRfyLIcHCdEKRJJ1gARB0-daA/s320/358460176_10161063107126197_2200886639707597796_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>the song by Nightbirde comes to mind often. she was young, she died of cancer. the song is "it's ok". it's true for us all. "it's okay, it's okay, if you are lost, we are all a little lost and it's alright". <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEibn10sV42KYVnt5YTdoW3gDfQTGKDtChm_YpWkPsl7lOQWB6XUT43DzFBI58_P2dVYi5Eg3vxOKRCYAPuDYIzGVxLsJqCJcDacpRYxJtQCoaBgeN14uyKPNHlLfc-dLc8dqVwNDxOYi5oq0wy72TPj8CGKr-d5V0xmtwIcUnrxe6l_5ZRWokHSOB9DWw/s2048/358458941_10161063120336197_1602117039787407253_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEibn10sV42KYVnt5YTdoW3gDfQTGKDtChm_YpWkPsl7lOQWB6XUT43DzFBI58_P2dVYi5Eg3vxOKRCYAPuDYIzGVxLsJqCJcDacpRYxJtQCoaBgeN14uyKPNHlLfc-dLc8dqVwNDxOYi5oq0wy72TPj8CGKr-d5V0xmtwIcUnrxe6l_5ZRWokHSOB9DWw/s320/358458941_10161063120336197_1602117039787407253_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>does it get harder to deal with the death? not sure. i think you learn to tuck it in deeper over time. it never means it's not there, brewing...<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLjTTlGaCd6PHleC2kqUAEgA6fALZe9CR3RzCh_qMrF0cIc3jMdeFTGU1EE8nHS73pQ4D7Ut3u4sOyuv4ZAVhrvO6d0UE7bc4YWqtQlo16uDu0uSPu8yiwpXJe_aMXukaBzO09uTCuPx32HeAgPhbGp0fFFO_1QYDbsWcK82K8MeXVGRHg_HwQQUr9zA/s2048/358457717_10161063127421197_762983177596319495_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhLjTTlGaCd6PHleC2kqUAEgA6fALZe9CR3RzCh_qMrF0cIc3jMdeFTGU1EE8nHS73pQ4D7Ut3u4sOyuv4ZAVhrvO6d0UE7bc4YWqtQlo16uDu0uSPu8yiwpXJe_aMXukaBzO09uTCuPx32HeAgPhbGp0fFFO_1QYDbsWcK82K8MeXVGRHg_HwQQUr9zA/s320/358457717_10161063127421197_762983177596319495_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i've seen the videos and photos coming out of Gaza and Israel is not doing themselves any favors. they are not winning the social media war by relentlessly bombing an area that is predominantly children...as the life expectancy is quite low in the area. this situation is proof of the futility of it all. the terrorists come and destroy lives in the most brutal fashion and then they are bombed in a rage that seems to defy rationality. supposed proof that hospital wasn't targeted, perhaps not but they are going without power, water, fuel. incubators full of babies that will die without those basics...not a great look to have out there. there is no good side in this conflict. it's all horrific. what Hamas did was horrific, what Hamas continues to do by using their hostages as cover and tools and by also using the people of Gaza as their shields and social media fuel. they don't care about those poor people any more than Israel does. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirHQOX60fHW-oBAS4E0kyw_IxtZZ7oZTgq2PLbb92F5j_2YO1MLbpGl-Pm_s-yqMAmiv2UX0hypCqUK5PrM4jRv58zuHKEOckPyqt3bq5V74I0xNieRS3LHD65l8zc4Z85vgoM1zPRg9XRFdXygK-ivrkpe4Cx956Y9Jl_ieXED4QbqDITlDl4CjqgOg/s2048/358456387_10161063140676197_3768888682941086357_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1400" data-original-width="2048" height="219" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirHQOX60fHW-oBAS4E0kyw_IxtZZ7oZTgq2PLbb92F5j_2YO1MLbpGl-Pm_s-yqMAmiv2UX0hypCqUK5PrM4jRv58zuHKEOckPyqt3bq5V74I0xNieRS3LHD65l8zc4Z85vgoM1zPRg9XRFdXygK-ivrkpe4Cx956Y9Jl_ieXED4QbqDITlDl4CjqgOg/s320/358456387_10161063140676197_3768888682941086357_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>we were made to believe we are professionals. each time i clock in and out, now with the added in/out for our lunch breaks...it's just a reminder that we were tricked into believing we were professionals. nurses are blue collar workers. we punch a time clock, professionals are not on a clock. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5jfcagtNT-C2WsWSVsN9ELsBOplEZXxmOzY0tdfF4BDzBRGyaJ1uplEVvIerNT5ek9QX37OEVZ_HdZ8ZlBQwB0tz2AqLzm24s-cB8pHYaQQUAxcehyphenhyphenl591QpXhobcoMxHVxBzxbO2QV4UxRY_BI3iUPmNC4WCN4fxegfdI0PL7Q8DAlNVmyXC0nfXaA/s2048/288096663_10160165462871197_3976174094926467747_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5jfcagtNT-C2WsWSVsN9ELsBOplEZXxmOzY0tdfF4BDzBRGyaJ1uplEVvIerNT5ek9QX37OEVZ_HdZ8ZlBQwB0tz2AqLzm24s-cB8pHYaQQUAxcehyphenhyphenl591QpXhobcoMxHVxBzxbO2QV4UxRY_BI3iUPmNC4WCN4fxegfdI0PL7Q8DAlNVmyXC0nfXaA/s320/288096663_10160165462871197_3976174094926467747_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>on the plus side the world has frozen overnight here. i love the ice time before the snow covers up the ice. i do love snow as well. but it is fun to get a good ice time. so many cool ice formations out there. the lakes are freezing over fast. it's wild how sudden it can all be. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4fZtFLFc_ARjWEjcyda-Z0dLQ0tNFPQ_kMDEhJ0eK34sjezvoh0Z-lscjDHM9xP4h1pTAzHwrxlDya5qpfp3PZbgKQnCJWilTvmAJRjaWXA5vbIyj2v1vvgg_0kKy8IQeY0xF3GmXDdisZll-F06vLxcXb_AGzuVsaL6SRKMDBrGDNHx0SSwtEajApw/s2048/287998112_10160165170261197_6144616407938083398_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4fZtFLFc_ARjWEjcyda-Z0dLQ0tNFPQ_kMDEhJ0eK34sjezvoh0Z-lscjDHM9xP4h1pTAzHwrxlDya5qpfp3PZbgKQnCJWilTvmAJRjaWXA5vbIyj2v1vvgg_0kKy8IQeY0xF3GmXDdisZll-F06vLxcXb_AGzuVsaL6SRKMDBrGDNHx0SSwtEajApw/s320/287998112_10160165170261197_6144616407938083398_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>grateful for A. not being a healthcare worker in a war zone B. being in a position to be able to take care of myself C. the kindness of strangers who helped me this week. at employee health, gci and shutterfly. got some discounts as well. take care of yourselves out there....<p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-32239209689275079892023-10-18T23:15:00.001-07:002023-10-18T23:15:47.876-07:00just say yes....! <p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Top Gun had come out and all of us wanted to meet fly boys. i always joke that i did service to the nation....Army, Navy, Air Force and Marines....never met a Coastie though. lol. we snuck girls on to base for ladies night. we'd make them get into the trunk and snuck them on base. this was before 9/11 so things were a bit more chill. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGJxufe51R47NH7JH5ihsg2A5Rrk81GA5K0h6f06USMASzNA8_dl-iOMBOR_A9m2XuPJe86SvZhRM-ExaejgZUx55MyY-GOvAEksxTPeWHHVWOjWdnalOqK4BSseoPm7z58fi9SmSnq_qmeZHjaAXC0ejP9I2L1QOSPPXo-xPt3KxvUXE8LIt50QHhNA/s2048/287954467_10160161720911197_5681711103245616776_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGJxufe51R47NH7JH5ihsg2A5Rrk81GA5K0h6f06USMASzNA8_dl-iOMBOR_A9m2XuPJe86SvZhRM-ExaejgZUx55MyY-GOvAEksxTPeWHHVWOjWdnalOqK4BSseoPm7z58fi9SmSnq_qmeZHjaAXC0ejP9I2L1QOSPPXo-xPt3KxvUXE8LIt50QHhNA/s320/287954467_10160161720911197_5681711103245616776_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i did lots of bike rides and took many road trips. my mother was always so scared. a girl out on the road with just her dog. she would ask me to find a pay phone and check in every day. i rarely did though. must have aged her some. i would sleep in the car or in a tent on the beach as i did my many coastal treks. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgI830VpkIb5UOUD6c4ESjJb2C8aKVkn2gI4ivfLyMNDfkVaLheF2wKJyI66QctXDBVPspI2-IhztcEis28Trpqv_S430mojmA0lO5vYVVawwVPJV44rI6fVtj2M6aR5OLCPzPgYdApzZak5s2YQA4CHA57LKT0W_N896yGBp0nhKH_BQPnR0xAp5-Bvw/s2048/287952011_10160165170066197_9164622361691533841_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgI830VpkIb5UOUD6c4ESjJb2C8aKVkn2gI4ivfLyMNDfkVaLheF2wKJyI66QctXDBVPspI2-IhztcEis28Trpqv_S430mojmA0lO5vYVVawwVPJV44rI6fVtj2M6aR5OLCPzPgYdApzZak5s2YQA4CHA57LKT0W_N896yGBp0nhKH_BQPnR0xAp5-Bvw/s320/287952011_10160165170066197_9164622361691533841_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>that adventurous spirit took me to South Dakota eventually and then on to Alaska. i didn't know a soul in either place. i remember being in a hotel in South Dakota debating taking a job there. would i be lonely? i decided that in truth, i felt lonely surrounded by people i wasn't supposed to feel lonely around. so i went. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGHKbit1qcwKK4sl7vpTSNssSUINCkydr52qk8iNLqBwPPAATMfXf60KqAcRevMDWRFLhsXaw21-ueaqmUas5N71VS-IdUlj-pj9Vm8bkXNTw_hKOB1u4QFAI1BFwhS_m8woVtO7iAs6DVXXz3SBS7nqBiF8biM8TOAHfR5fdpe-1kOfRBUquNSCuWpw/s2048/287950082_10160165170286197_1259754643499478093_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhGHKbit1qcwKK4sl7vpTSNssSUINCkydr52qk8iNLqBwPPAATMfXf60KqAcRevMDWRFLhsXaw21-ueaqmUas5N71VS-IdUlj-pj9Vm8bkXNTw_hKOB1u4QFAI1BFwhS_m8woVtO7iAs6DVXXz3SBS7nqBiF8biM8TOAHfR5fdpe-1kOfRBUquNSCuWpw/s320/287950082_10160165170286197_1259754643499478093_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>when i was getting ready to head to Ketchikan, Alaska, i was walking the dogs and stopped to talk to a random stranger. i mentioned i was moving to Alaska. they looked shocked to find a girl moving to Alaska on their own. "what if you hate it?" they asked...i remember i just said, what if i love it and it turns out to be the best thing i've ever done and i say no and never experience it. so i went. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg5yjc81hBMrs_9dKGw3RN6yg4rsYCZ3UAcSliUmzyCpVzOt2_9aVjsSLGL-G_Sh6zwPjNGFpwcPdEDp69ANEFD1TBOvws3_Isp6LFd-ykNYHIaAquS92YsG6lpfVgExYAAeRnZtJMzCWEyHc5woSczkJ4BkaDXB78jhNnEKWRKrfAeYumFkDrpnBqS5A/s2048/358456319_10161063127226197_964276025562901387_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg5yjc81hBMrs_9dKGw3RN6yg4rsYCZ3UAcSliUmzyCpVzOt2_9aVjsSLGL-G_Sh6zwPjNGFpwcPdEDp69ANEFD1TBOvws3_Isp6LFd-ykNYHIaAquS92YsG6lpfVgExYAAeRnZtJMzCWEyHc5woSczkJ4BkaDXB78jhNnEKWRKrfAeYumFkDrpnBqS5A/s320/358456319_10161063127226197_964276025562901387_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>when everything tells you the church you grew up in is crap, you walk away. the thing is...stuff is still there. you can always go back, but people rarely do. once they free themselves and say yes, they just learn to say yes again and again. in truth, new stuff is scary and exciting and it takes a few months to get your footing, but you do. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcPCNqmsAU7fZnkOinXLI9caxgbP-u35ImvqwNEfEPhSCDnuUU5rtXkNa0ru0e7uKWehX5Twu0ihwnhnQEd9fii5h3vzFyJIvQHg-N6yNn0A5QgxQGRDUkAOSTT2cmcJv49_XZk3N7iZEhCcLW7Uq5zzOti9jnUEj72_8nn11Jlo_UYK2B3nfGbsdeug/s2048/358451677_10161063120726197_5330212268783804320_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcPCNqmsAU7fZnkOinXLI9caxgbP-u35ImvqwNEfEPhSCDnuUU5rtXkNa0ru0e7uKWehX5Twu0ihwnhnQEd9fii5h3vzFyJIvQHg-N6yNn0A5QgxQGRDUkAOSTT2cmcJv49_XZk3N7iZEhCcLW7Uq5zzOti9jnUEj72_8nn11Jlo_UYK2B3nfGbsdeug/s320/358451677_10161063120726197_5330212268783804320_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i ditched people. i still am fast to snooze people on social media or just ditch them too. you get to decide who you keep in your life. you remember who was there, checking on you, caring about you and you remember who was not, who was antagonistic even. we divided a lot but in some cases, dividing was good because we had spent far too long believing those people and those relationships were salvageable. in truth...once people become conspiracy crack addicts they become disconnected with reality. so just say yes...to letting toxic people and situations go. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiTVk4YO_p2R75f5f9zAVcWITBZN5H99WRDS3oKrbIRiKvDTGLCoiAS4GpTYpWCvI5aJhGk10MuYBFMF46l7rFWaR98JGjGkIBJb3t9aEuthLnqxGaIU1DGAyrt8CGLF_vFnwad2CJjEZRGUQrNCP_LHt2YZcyAO-8cLggXGhLlyB8yVh2w3aS1epCUSA/s2048/358451363_10161063127556197_1702219742002054905_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiTVk4YO_p2R75f5f9zAVcWITBZN5H99WRDS3oKrbIRiKvDTGLCoiAS4GpTYpWCvI5aJhGk10MuYBFMF46l7rFWaR98JGjGkIBJb3t9aEuthLnqxGaIU1DGAyrt8CGLF_vFnwad2CJjEZRGUQrNCP_LHt2YZcyAO-8cLggXGhLlyB8yVh2w3aS1epCUSA/s320/358451363_10161063127556197_1702219742002054905_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i appreciate my freedom, both past and present. the freedom i have from the burdens of what i thought should be. the truth in what is. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi1B4iKYJpyY14n_TLP16IttxWvfmKREwZUvpmjASynsJnITFE3jEYaNlXDlBrBiI9s-1FhF87kwbKmxseyL75CMJ7ZGRT_FROiLRBQ87PgINPSUYhhoAUDbYUBevxsphFkDJrtYCrVuugORrqh57z6OOR4RrK-rwXVTivra3HurNb1wPyNfeHjLfbmxQ/s320/287947819_10160161721316197_5468842577909105946_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>admittedly, i do like to stir the pot a bit. i mean i live alone. i gotta have some arguments from time to time. spice is life. can't argue with myself. mostly, i just like to toss something out there from time to time in an attempt to allow people to think things through on their own. i get it. most, especially these days, will not get it. they don't want to. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgGpJ8sCLCh0taArVkRmptI9WSEPDpr6cpehiPhrpZuotcv7nU6QDuFgBKmfK3VJz0cyRDdlSlQ3k4wWNtjvu1300EALdtPmII5A05mFymTPZf71oQmDtsJtP2KPFsqQ7NZVhoApodRJFiJVOYNsgbX9g4vDBQUWN2f3uXS3qDmRcObankV1XEOs80n7Q/s2048/287911247_10160161730336197_1789000139124202189_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXpY5PmvRBxbDQvMxA0MfvlAlrsC0FKZtTQ3BgYw4e_-whGSeGgqLBavbMHEPFh2bQoTD_-MVmrOTtKdwZcPFayiTuL2LU-dUm94kipRJmzKIT3DzzigsPlhjCmgh3mxRijwWGbfyUbkMX5nBRO6HqCIqqjdnnfbn63DNK-Ncb49RKAe49Jc9QX7Wgag/s320/287901663_10160166971876197_7133956940022451221_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>a short pot stir will stir up my brain. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTz_4VShSaHlF48074YphMNnjyyE7Yw-4gaTWGvYM4C1gX6OxYj85vxQBaYpq0UiVN73UIZUR8IO7TFQ-3cNQDOnlwtRfgv9FRSLZAeeyVxLesYCu9-ajXp6Pk4qg0NH9QS5qVLWLxoap-K-lmSFfO0BASUEZ9rqe4ecZJ9avdrTwLf1O2pGz1zMo_Yg/s2048/287898817_10160161720796197_1149623708843534894_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTz_4VShSaHlF48074YphMNnjyyE7Yw-4gaTWGvYM4C1gX6OxYj85vxQBaYpq0UiVN73UIZUR8IO7TFQ-3cNQDOnlwtRfgv9FRSLZAeeyVxLesYCu9-ajXp6Pk4qg0NH9QS5qVLWLxoap-K-lmSFfO0BASUEZ9rqe4ecZJ9avdrTwLf1O2pGz1zMo_Yg/s320/287898817_10160161720796197_1149623708843534894_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>example this week....it was about eternal marriage. a great niece is on a mission for the Mormon church. in the old days, missionaries were only allowed to call home on Christmas and Mothers day. they could only write home on prep day, Mondays i believe. now i think they are sometimes even encouraged to be on social media. to use their personal social media to boost the church. of course, for most this is pointless because the bulk of the humans they interact with on social media are in the same mind on all things and ideas. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhUQDg2gIIoa1-xJVKg8XpxkCcxlVTVyLrBaXTkujrv6AIkGE7XMk6JQju6AW-wbGd6WcQ8S6iYf5MJNS55AZeDvpEkdixPZx-0ify297XnQaiSu-9WA_nPE1YClH7XozADRz9IFEOHErbZxYUWe8Ozu-_2At7o7r-nvMQPbJNidO5ulkfOQleF_KwLxg/s2048/287879221_10160165463001197_46339333407709787_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1884" data-original-width="2048" height="294" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhUQDg2gIIoa1-xJVKg8XpxkCcxlVTVyLrBaXTkujrv6AIkGE7XMk6JQju6AW-wbGd6WcQ8S6iYf5MJNS55AZeDvpEkdixPZx-0ify297XnQaiSu-9WA_nPE1YClH7XozADRz9IFEOHErbZxYUWe8Ozu-_2At7o7r-nvMQPbJNidO5ulkfOQleF_KwLxg/s320/287879221_10160165463001197_46339333407709787_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>anyway, she posted about Halloween and how she likes to binge Halloween movies and one of those spoke of a dead girl that can't get married because she's dead. this led to the eternal sealings that are done in the temple. they seal dead people. all i responded was that in the afterlife of the Mormon faith they will have multiple wives because they believe in polygamy in the next life. don't worry, nobody responded. i wasn't even unfriended. i suspect my family just rolls their eyes. like, that's your crazy great aunt Betsy. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQxNHv5GbrGQ8puICpzh77m5rn-FdulSVCfOeDdkGTrE5i7kU93Ujjr5QrE0wnse1ZnzTUCXbjl3dy4L4pMBU1OeUwTgAjB07Ps8GRdqOb25pjZ6jt5wQnPfl7rZzJNQQg6KcXSjBvI1E2qBwUA0IW0YMF7c5RRj_vcSQ3UBbpwMhONWznH8QWwsOfog/s2048/287853174_10160165463461197_3934118943448263242_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQxNHv5GbrGQ8puICpzh77m5rn-FdulSVCfOeDdkGTrE5i7kU93Ujjr5QrE0wnse1ZnzTUCXbjl3dy4L4pMBU1OeUwTgAjB07Ps8GRdqOb25pjZ6jt5wQnPfl7rZzJNQQg6KcXSjBvI1E2qBwUA0IW0YMF7c5RRj_vcSQ3UBbpwMhONWznH8QWwsOfog/s320/287853174_10160165463461197_3934118943448263242_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>anyway, that got me thinking about how these multiple wives end up sealed. it's been awhile since i've been out of the church, but it seemed that the single women who were worthy would end up being married off in the next life...thus some of the plural marriage..of course, this goes into my thoughts of why plural marriage would be needed in the first place. babies are born basically 50/50 M/F....did God just expect men to fail at a much larger rate than females on earth. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5UpJHl2jUJK8JtvUufzqPDzAX_cVEr4PkTsucM2-Esr3QlyoCGscqfGaYfj12A63GhtfCmw6mqlxAURQplsojqulbCKkeN9jMEHKe7VHCejHLoonPGA6yLlwytAHlscYTDMkj2hTqzfvPaq8huat2QHZC0lelTtJrO990lrmaTGlQMAe3Z-1Bi0a9Gw/s2048/287800171_10160161720961197_2835126594033318928_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5UpJHl2jUJK8JtvUufzqPDzAX_cVEr4PkTsucM2-Esr3QlyoCGscqfGaYfj12A63GhtfCmw6mqlxAURQplsojqulbCKkeN9jMEHKe7VHCejHLoonPGA6yLlwytAHlscYTDMkj2hTqzfvPaq8huat2QHZC0lelTtJrO990lrmaTGlQMAe3Z-1Bi0a9Gw/s320/287800171_10160161720961197_2835126594033318928_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>as far as i know they do not seal unmarried dead women to random men in the temple though...so how does this happen? does this happen in the next life? if so, then why wouldn't all of the dead people sealings just be done in the next life? if you must have a body to be sealed then why don't these single women require a body to be sealed as second, third or 60th wife? <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhP4-ZdsxCZA5qxQ_SCO9VhG6VlDTf0znn1sJFsBxmHiOSfOYls_KGjDOKHyBCilibd4xoKsfVuCHgqyO-oCSKqFxONvqkgNnpXCaORKInLh51Cdr9IFyErTthfVDJLKDGTwF7S8m5ilPZuGCIVx_nGbi7CaSbHqGWH1oUUO5oXG-TBY3evO06axSiAjQ/s2048/287783514_10160161730521197_5804673513804671673_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhP4-ZdsxCZA5qxQ_SCO9VhG6VlDTf0znn1sJFsBxmHiOSfOYls_KGjDOKHyBCilibd4xoKsfVuCHgqyO-oCSKqFxONvqkgNnpXCaORKInLh51Cdr9IFyErTthfVDJLKDGTwF7S8m5ilPZuGCIVx_nGbi7CaSbHqGWH1oUUO5oXG-TBY3evO06axSiAjQ/s320/287783514_10160161730521197_5804673513804671673_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>of course, it could be that i just distract my brain with these silly internal arguments/discussions since the world is just getting way too crazy. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjL2hGR0SvaNu7zhoy09LuiwlfApvjVzeda366Ds9Sw0AVuPLawYeIMYiF5dzenp207COKEhA7OAt4fB54TG5le9Z58btzJSFtQp6Gy4nLfZ1sd3Z3JZ67EoJPe36SdK5TF_LmBLwuxTjErDRUpJPRp2arpYbqGTZAu0dnB_orEYaX9RUkFwj1KkH3X2g/s2048/287741127_10160161720601197_1365677944789124534_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjL2hGR0SvaNu7zhoy09LuiwlfApvjVzeda366Ds9Sw0AVuPLawYeIMYiF5dzenp207COKEhA7OAt4fB54TG5le9Z58btzJSFtQp6Gy4nLfZ1sd3Z3JZ67EoJPe36SdK5TF_LmBLwuxTjErDRUpJPRp2arpYbqGTZAu0dnB_orEYaX9RUkFwj1KkH3X2g/s320/287741127_10160161720601197_1365677944789124534_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>the Israel/Hamas stuff could spiral out of control and become global...or has it already? <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIGh4jiwImI4at_a_TagTBZ2hT194daDRsJSvYqDbefqxr1CrN2iCFln3JlYpDmf0UM-Akf0OLSti2PuNXax4lllWCeWANUDOMHt2e3Yyz4N9pQZW7s-hgPeHty_la1naAg7oztIunvg9ATzPLEfo_qfvxdNYGhGjwQrcfNsb7Vc7N-l2RmruU-K-kLw/s2048/287723342_10160161739966197_3582673987959786670_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIGh4jiwImI4at_a_TagTBZ2hT194daDRsJSvYqDbefqxr1CrN2iCFln3JlYpDmf0UM-Akf0OLSti2PuNXax4lllWCeWANUDOMHt2e3Yyz4N9pQZW7s-hgPeHty_la1naAg7oztIunvg9ATzPLEfo_qfvxdNYGhGjwQrcfNsb7Vc7N-l2RmruU-K-kLw/s320/287723342_10160161739966197_3582673987959786670_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>we are bound to Israel as they are our only real ally in that region, we are tied to them. we would fight for them so we have to accept some of the bull they hand out to those around them. in truth, nobody really fights for the Palestinians. they are tools being used by multiple parties in a global game of chess. hard not to feel badly for them. they are trapped. Hamas has no problem recruiting them and using them as human shields. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg4uCGsY1WJz7q_nyFjTeHd2NQJP9jeemmciogQKzCsRAp4xOL9lQgCacKt_Ge_Y8BO7sJBMUZbd22BK8kDWS1xSciGfCpUyxKQKBMw7LI7ZHvLASzLRV4Ordsb0935cpZ-kBPeOJs6vj4nhwfir0lSmdOa1ZfBy7Sukq0Vy_BlKR_t3FliHCZ0xWJjSA/s2048/287706705_10160161740071197_7805652783598179731_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1360" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg4uCGsY1WJz7q_nyFjTeHd2NQJP9jeemmciogQKzCsRAp4xOL9lQgCacKt_Ge_Y8BO7sJBMUZbd22BK8kDWS1xSciGfCpUyxKQKBMw7LI7ZHvLASzLRV4Ordsb0935cpZ-kBPeOJs6vj4nhwfir0lSmdOa1ZfBy7Sukq0Vy_BlKR_t3FliHCZ0xWJjSA/s320/287706705_10160161740071197_7805652783598179731_n.jpg" width="213" /></a></div>we are all just the puppets being played by "leaders" at the top. power hungry and greedy no matter what side they fight for. they are always safe in their castles while the poor schmucks are out there getting killed. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhbmjgCeTgS80ifLttrTJAkjHGJJIVhyphenhyphenyzjSBbs4jJjx3ii6tviTZkIc07rdanhWKFyCV6h0ZE09adWYq4gcTEf-c_a2FIAL7u3OWzmPSjFB-Z3v7HIJ1AKFcfj-n8q22B6OKrN-8nIy5JlKu1d9eaPA7hM-IAn_0NqaXKkH4HgH40fAnvX9MEedFeBMA/s2048/287705953_10160161721101197_5620671840819162797_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhbmjgCeTgS80ifLttrTJAkjHGJJIVhyphenhyphenyzjSBbs4jJjx3ii6tviTZkIc07rdanhWKFyCV6h0ZE09adWYq4gcTEf-c_a2FIAL7u3OWzmPSjFB-Z3v7HIJ1AKFcfj-n8q22B6OKrN-8nIy5JlKu1d9eaPA7hM-IAn_0NqaXKkH4HgH40fAnvX9MEedFeBMA/s320/287705953_10160161721101197_5620671840819162797_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>in the big picture, Hamas is just a small terrorist group too being played no doubt by a larger terrorist. did Iran and Russia send them off on a suicide mission to engage Israel and the US into a larger confrontation. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTF2SVouGa89KNsqjE9OM_RhNipi7IyiGd-xrOe9XNQPw3Z0vwHLW-pcC0tPoKFqGCwrqKB8AKxz0AhSUyfrMr1PPCnG9OAwq06UtHWJMBfBPJxjoPqUF6AYHcQXBeaZwAD6VH-3VHGuSz6l3_NbmawII31BYcAGvUozr80h3KUJTr2U0e2eFH37o7wQ/s2048/287698462_10160161720626197_148017790099175009_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjTF2SVouGa89KNsqjE9OM_RhNipi7IyiGd-xrOe9XNQPw3Z0vwHLW-pcC0tPoKFqGCwrqKB8AKxz0AhSUyfrMr1PPCnG9OAwq06UtHWJMBfBPJxjoPqUF6AYHcQXBeaZwAD6VH-3VHGuSz6l3_NbmawII31BYcAGvUozr80h3KUJTr2U0e2eFH37o7wQ/s320/287698462_10160161720626197_148017790099175009_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>time will tell how many secrets were handed over by our previous potus. secret documents kept in a bathroom....this will be spoken of for generations...if the world survives. Kushner got billions from the Saudi's after they cleared out their desks in DC...it's never been said why he was gifted all this cash. what was the exchange? trump did give Russians secrets about Israel early on in office and he had several hours private talk with putin that has never been accounted for. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_M4yhAmnWI3SAunSXm-ezT4ExHcdL4Uh_w2GlzlBZmGx551ndyro1xt_lwVApp1mSW9Y2zN_emFW0BQDlsrqC7BeDAgHVg4zKnAJEyZeGwra5Vy_09BTIQIgN7RCaEEEsdbBUTmaKLaxrJ8mHO3qMOaX4UhD2OO8eb-87w7EhfIrlHTMOzjivpgyrTQ/s2048/287697486_10160161720586197_7513512937297265930_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_M4yhAmnWI3SAunSXm-ezT4ExHcdL4Uh_w2GlzlBZmGx551ndyro1xt_lwVApp1mSW9Y2zN_emFW0BQDlsrqC7BeDAgHVg4zKnAJEyZeGwra5Vy_09BTIQIgN7RCaEEEsdbBUTmaKLaxrJ8mHO3qMOaX4UhD2OO8eb-87w7EhfIrlHTMOzjivpgyrTQ/s320/287697486_10160161720586197_7513512937297265930_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>Hamas is holding at least a few hundred hostages, many from other nations. will this end up in history being a crisis averted or the start of a larger global war...we may know soon. Hamas was brutal with those they killed, the stories are horrific. no way Israel was going to go quietly into the night after this...so why? <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiTfbkWiEd3PMqfEyM0i_pdwroXJW5qEpWJ34ugw5oK9BnRVsrIaHj8VeBQnSp_EFOayF6km8IaJKv98btbS2KK1ex5jaCkUzf1Qtr_T5RL6E4BNf82Djk-gPoHH-XBHcM1dvW_joxyllIip_vmIMWeFZ4CM2eqxw4XKdTYNF4HTEWeTDM6VV1FzB6Y_A/s2048/358449665_10161063160766197_1198212478397467528_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiTfbkWiEd3PMqfEyM0i_pdwroXJW5qEpWJ34ugw5oK9BnRVsrIaHj8VeBQnSp_EFOayF6km8IaJKv98btbS2KK1ex5jaCkUzf1Qtr_T5RL6E4BNf82Djk-gPoHH-XBHcM1dvW_joxyllIip_vmIMWeFZ4CM2eqxw4XKdTYNF4HTEWeTDM6VV1FzB6Y_A/s320/358449665_10161063160766197_1198212478397467528_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>these pictures are of happier times with little thought to global issues. just laughter and joy. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjLaeifvQ2sxX4CO1s0OBxmOdtb7oGSB-sdFbNIq-mMvwuGwOS1Bn0qEpLtIPmCVkH-KJDzewcWZgOYbzhvFT1LzuZwA4vuVzBrqx1XkdPRog119bm7PHlF5XEp_S3QNygtyCigjLyE-Dz49ncAaeFnNhnRarNENhquTALjVpV-IF6kqKnQ1Plv__c3Lg/s2048/358449239_10161063120696197_759285529958505292_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjLaeifvQ2sxX4CO1s0OBxmOdtb7oGSB-sdFbNIq-mMvwuGwOS1Bn0qEpLtIPmCVkH-KJDzewcWZgOYbzhvFT1LzuZwA4vuVzBrqx1XkdPRog119bm7PHlF5XEp_S3QNygtyCigjLyE-Dz49ncAaeFnNhnRarNENhquTALjVpV-IF6kqKnQ1Plv__c3Lg/s320/358449239_10161063120696197_759285529958505292_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>enjoy each day, each moment because you just don't know. i have retirement monies now, but will it remain or will any of us remain. it's all unpredictable at any given moment. you can plan and plan but the world takes its own turns and you are just going to be carried along whether you want to or not. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9MJGxM856-SbMnlq5XLSL80WiNCr77w8da-JLxRdaVkAMaevfQUzA7I4xUBleiFv4JJJ9thSIsW7J2pkFWYtoPpVoAU6BxXZqY2oa_0jai0E64XmMmOx9HVIqcRD8WNHTFyqlBlZITJ6eB913X4sdTRNtMWIZxPyglmER6O3Zy-y9Ka4q94uA76oImw/s2048/358449025_10161063101151197_2572423604460765893_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9MJGxM856-SbMnlq5XLSL80WiNCr77w8da-JLxRdaVkAMaevfQUzA7I4xUBleiFv4JJJ9thSIsW7J2pkFWYtoPpVoAU6BxXZqY2oa_0jai0E64XmMmOx9HVIqcRD8WNHTFyqlBlZITJ6eB913X4sdTRNtMWIZxPyglmER6O3Zy-y9Ka4q94uA76oImw/s320/358449025_10161063101151197_2572423604460765893_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>so i carry on and hope that this will be a crisis averted, that hostages will be released and that, like an earthquake fault, some pressure is released until another day. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijLSMK2HKwoOZpjuezCOn1clpVr_pmg0U7y3HDbxMSdP92j0Dw5AqInkMvkUgpAsbMF-Lbdi4dc6KbRm65U_VzyFZeNDb8lpLcA7dQtcYhLkSJsJHlFI-m59pOP0z_xt-poYEN4sWKt-fHPCKtSKYJOLpPP1zriwzUnIvdoc-PrKrZ4HHVP2zmWSEfQw/s2048/358448779_10161063120451197_7929054970412957323_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijLSMK2HKwoOZpjuezCOn1clpVr_pmg0U7y3HDbxMSdP92j0Dw5AqInkMvkUgpAsbMF-Lbdi4dc6KbRm65U_VzyFZeNDb8lpLcA7dQtcYhLkSJsJHlFI-m59pOP0z_xt-poYEN4sWKt-fHPCKtSKYJOLpPP1zriwzUnIvdoc-PrKrZ4HHVP2zmWSEfQw/s320/358448779_10161063120451197_7929054970412957323_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>can't help but think they are trying to take what they can before plots get discovered. the walls are closing in and they must fire while the iron is hot as it were. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiHQuzER1B1MZ3MZg6KGQc27t-Uqzs4ZC0Q6TZLKXmdmWqYpPmUgGGCvqT95N4_WdaHANl5is_kBxePVBVYEiwMkxc_raGm2Lu7kL-7Z7UHWLqywKdJlwgQJV23wVPcKOAR5VvWa1WA5JM27L4JPWGpKYOuD6wrx6a3OHcd5OEgkJU4dfGTGKUgpOvdag/s2048/358448771_10161063120376197_3461684515600188348_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiHQuzER1B1MZ3MZg6KGQc27t-Uqzs4ZC0Q6TZLKXmdmWqYpPmUgGGCvqT95N4_WdaHANl5is_kBxePVBVYEiwMkxc_raGm2Lu7kL-7Z7UHWLqywKdJlwgQJV23wVPcKOAR5VvWa1WA5JM27L4JPWGpKYOuD6wrx6a3OHcd5OEgkJU4dfGTGKUgpOvdag/s320/358448771_10161063120376197_3461684515600188348_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>Israel and the US have had internal struggles that have distracted our governments. divisions sown in, in part, by other nations but also internally. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjADU9Gv4ZiwlzhWK4C3R8-prGJvVmOo4x3iowd57eiCQqkxcuBr2ll-spaKXyx98FZMsuNjcZYAQFDXNp5etQJoufnzYi-YorrfflKVnngn_nJVZQUY8J62e0wa6WsLBmST8QU5EdO6NkUWJg-iiYR9k4FOXCFDwat97Ja0MtsnpUWA3i1TMuihYeNRw/s2048/358448755_10161063118196197_208190982984067708_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjADU9Gv4ZiwlzhWK4C3R8-prGJvVmOo4x3iowd57eiCQqkxcuBr2ll-spaKXyx98FZMsuNjcZYAQFDXNp5etQJoufnzYi-YorrfflKVnngn_nJVZQUY8J62e0wa6WsLBmST8QU5EdO6NkUWJg-iiYR9k4FOXCFDwat97Ja0MtsnpUWA3i1TMuihYeNRw/s320/358448755_10161063118196197_208190982984067708_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>it is odd that the GOP supports both Israel and the anti Jew groups in this country, which is it? of course, many evangelicals believe the Jews must collect in Israel so Jesus can return. then the Jews are given a choice to accept Jesus...or go to Hell?? is that how it works? not sure. there are so many crazy Christian beliefs floating around out there, who can keep track of it all. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyNQ1SgGpC_xU46nyyt62N2RUUBMkCiiKXNkj19OT62YuifM1BZMK27TsxWVTjISu8IPkIm3uVlvD3Jk3So3vohDEBRq3MTrFD3EZxY9Z99lbsCGlEt8Soplid1u8zebPp_er5lX47KTr_jMwp9xziaf7wCnGbO3_bo50DY5u0KiiAoJfVsHLTbJMcNA/s2048/358448648_10161063104826197_4249665860445788618_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyNQ1SgGpC_xU46nyyt62N2RUUBMkCiiKXNkj19OT62YuifM1BZMK27TsxWVTjISu8IPkIm3uVlvD3Jk3So3vohDEBRq3MTrFD3EZxY9Z99lbsCGlEt8Soplid1u8zebPp_er5lX47KTr_jMwp9xziaf7wCnGbO3_bo50DY5u0KiiAoJfVsHLTbJMcNA/s320/358448648_10161063104826197_4249665860445788618_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>how these people make any sense of the religion and the complex conspiracies is baffling. the stuff they have to buy into, the hoops they have to jump through...and yet, the most common sense argument is impossible for them to believe. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Hillary and Biden are both dumb as fuck and masterminds. they are credited with both. this isn't possible. they are either dumb as fuck or masterminds in these scenarios and yet the conspiracy crack addicts have to straddle the fence in order to make those conspiracies work for them. Hillary and Biden must be both. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEia4K7ncGVR-c5dJ3vpXRnzoCoedDaea29dA8Ahi4VFWuzEM5IFadMCBOAQzGUYqqKhC6gTvMGLBQUXBm0r0jl6oGECPAVy_-kAn-YFAZ98O2WtHdDbkSCPG6IlEvIhMtzRhoPQOGUBL_vrkKurUuuVLIz0VDSinK1WK8BgcSs2dCH8F6-DowS06GSznQ/s2048/358447646_10161063101941197_1086952287463540926_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEia4K7ncGVR-c5dJ3vpXRnzoCoedDaea29dA8Ahi4VFWuzEM5IFadMCBOAQzGUYqqKhC6gTvMGLBQUXBm0r0jl6oGECPAVy_-kAn-YFAZ98O2WtHdDbkSCPG6IlEvIhMtzRhoPQOGUBL_vrkKurUuuVLIz0VDSinK1WK8BgcSs2dCH8F6-DowS06GSznQ/s320/358447646_10161063101941197_1086952287463540926_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i have figured, after decades of intense investigation Hillary, Obama, Biden...well the left must be incredibly brilliant and capable or the right are the most incompetent investigators out there. then they are also baffled that their people are getting arrested...must be a conspiracy because they have investigated the left for decades and nothing! <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqbuKRpJM1XbiDQzQ2nzg0qghML6gjrvYt1wB-tvHBHXZDBUZ9XQDDJqTAK3r9y-NeDPOgkQIVYtyhW5b9nc8zz5SlUDI08_-q-6jGvUUW_-iVdpFU7DfGIgftYjQwpYMWdgL9Cr0gxx368jlqpekgCs-tXQNmJuXZAUTjZJQRf_mYaY3iSP2FiY5XbA/s2048/358447615_10161063127341197_6420742128942747168_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqbuKRpJM1XbiDQzQ2nzg0qghML6gjrvYt1wB-tvHBHXZDBUZ9XQDDJqTAK3r9y-NeDPOgkQIVYtyhW5b9nc8zz5SlUDI08_-q-6jGvUUW_-iVdpFU7DfGIgftYjQwpYMWdgL9Cr0gxx368jlqpekgCs-tXQNmJuXZAUTjZJQRf_mYaY3iSP2FiY5XbA/s320/358447615_10161063127341197_6420742128942747168_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>they can't conceive of any scenario in which they could possibly be wrong about anything, no matter how nuts it appears. that was my childhood in religion. it was a no win argument/discussion. there was only one correct answer...the church was true. any other answer that you came up with was clearly a sign of weakness, laziness, stupidity or just a need to party on your part. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtLq78OFwZsGSNdgdPOcUlxT8dGwzMbJDElicg2npJL1XRNcxJ9PLsyDJEwhIOIhJ75E9TZFJ1kkfX5_TDts5qoMobr2GfJmb3ioyvQpNmy68KygkYycu2Mdc0bKIUhZEGWTFwSyk7zcKvJ5xNXHXQtuPsQsAmf9o7hEniBnkaYWRsFHjfDiFzcoHL1g/s2048/358447532_10161063101991197_2406620805853387636_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtLq78OFwZsGSNdgdPOcUlxT8dGwzMbJDElicg2npJL1XRNcxJ9PLsyDJEwhIOIhJ75E9TZFJ1kkfX5_TDts5qoMobr2GfJmb3ioyvQpNmy68KygkYycu2Mdc0bKIUhZEGWTFwSyk7zcKvJ5xNXHXQtuPsQsAmf9o7hEniBnkaYWRsFHjfDiFzcoHL1g/s320/358447532_10161063101991197_2406620805853387636_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>power stance. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgrZQ-vG77cugg-Gs3wRIwoDKhhjAxU8umDuqUm8Mg8SYXPtnpKsd67wkEU-pnaZopVc55PyNyQ8i6QscEUL1aEfNt9vmsAwnhIpg7ajYyxuo92cGidB98pn15M_mJ8YkRSKmOgwt1BvNH1LMsukI8zrsVH6OJPLVnwpvGQLg7QpBmJqj1DwMxvuWJYdA/s2048/358447277_10161063123056197_4596888429716048220_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgrZQ-vG77cugg-Gs3wRIwoDKhhjAxU8umDuqUm8Mg8SYXPtnpKsd67wkEU-pnaZopVc55PyNyQ8i6QscEUL1aEfNt9vmsAwnhIpg7ajYyxuo92cGidB98pn15M_mJ8YkRSKmOgwt1BvNH1LMsukI8zrsVH6OJPLVnwpvGQLg7QpBmJqj1DwMxvuWJYdA/s320/358447277_10161063123056197_4596888429716048220_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>that is how God works too though. God gets all the credit for the good stuff that happens and none of the blame for the bad stuff that happens. bad stuff is blamed on the victims or Satan. the all powerful God clearly has no power over Satan though. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTxrD1ki1pzANx9UhOkZdWrEHB3rVJGHJXtWqnZtNLxnaayHE4_ukQ3Qg7kzpkzFjp396FKaMvMFw2BmC7uRhtBANvAR5dcAUDfO3pC4POmV7pPdxd4tzYASwyqXdFkxN1iIyHMlTH_CuNsF0zw_2PDjAIflkjorwxA3fBhqwfBp_lzYxay5TxDUZHxg/s2048/358447217_10161063117951197_4414046523623678765_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTxrD1ki1pzANx9UhOkZdWrEHB3rVJGHJXtWqnZtNLxnaayHE4_ukQ3Qg7kzpkzFjp396FKaMvMFw2BmC7uRhtBANvAR5dcAUDfO3pC4POmV7pPdxd4tzYASwyqXdFkxN1iIyHMlTH_CuNsF0zw_2PDjAIflkjorwxA3fBhqwfBp_lzYxay5TxDUZHxg/s320/358447217_10161063117951197_4414046523623678765_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>is God good and kind? that's a tough call really. according to the bible stories he doesn't seem to be all that kind or good. he flooded the entire earth, killing nearly every human on it. the plan is that most humans will not make it to the good place. they will go to the bad place. i think, in truth, hell and satan were added in later in Christainity as added incentive to get control. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsMwgFOvHyH9VhQtMN5C7U1kHlka-MnaGMD4oGAaie1_m0LQxkusZR2PVInlOnYjtlW4-Cu79OnNsE3V1KgBs7nC4iUjJWnV6PrZCLM1X9rN3bwMhIATkl-jnth_-jMTn6nsGWjpp8lCldfxdu0-ZKAGgG75_XJLeEQAp-XMQ8NquVWkKf_7ibIu7qTw/s2048/358447036_10161063127086197_5468552812841293934_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsMwgFOvHyH9VhQtMN5C7U1kHlka-MnaGMD4oGAaie1_m0LQxkusZR2PVInlOnYjtlW4-Cu79OnNsE3V1KgBs7nC4iUjJWnV6PrZCLM1X9rN3bwMhIATkl-jnth_-jMTn6nsGWjpp8lCldfxdu0-ZKAGgG75_XJLeEQAp-XMQ8NquVWkKf_7ibIu7qTw/s320/358447036_10161063127086197_5468552812841293934_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i have rambled a bit, sorry...it's why i blog really. clear my head of all the ramblings and musings. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCypjD4c2MPONCUXQ0MyQQpAafuqEd3Yba5ZeLULr31rDa2G6De7MJLGtIqce9SE7kWLX9au-bI8l_BAFY6B5VpcTwTCsLuS8JsazN_atUqNspXfLN_G7sTIxrBuj0bMXPcSHm0eaUL1__J1tXWWMPTu9blDHhO0_Cj0YEBYqw5XRea-ltS_bGF3FekQ/s2048/358446757_10161063101251197_2326171439039314934_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhCypjD4c2MPONCUXQ0MyQQpAafuqEd3Yba5ZeLULr31rDa2G6De7MJLGtIqce9SE7kWLX9au-bI8l_BAFY6B5VpcTwTCsLuS8JsazN_atUqNspXfLN_G7sTIxrBuj0bMXPcSHm0eaUL1__J1tXWWMPTu9blDHhO0_Cj0YEBYqw5XRea-ltS_bGF3FekQ/s320/358446757_10161063101251197_2326171439039314934_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>my brain doesn't shut off some days. constant vortex of thoughts and ideas and questions.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJLrRSnm86VYyfwRqiy_fu8kypKXvVZnoo0r1JCUbSSOdDzJGbzAsIAex9Mvdaxtp3j-nLxEGplzs4RQ8P1H7dx5neI76qcs0jkR2SCNjkEX9eHnaKr0IZrJ7oz3bpTscDjqT8QYVbsZB1T-lCJq5DljSGPxrteF38KEe-A9acYWGMN5YJd64gaYAbdg/s2048/358446700_10161063101696197_6526380608474190718_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJLrRSnm86VYyfwRqiy_fu8kypKXvVZnoo0r1JCUbSSOdDzJGbzAsIAex9Mvdaxtp3j-nLxEGplzs4RQ8P1H7dx5neI76qcs0jkR2SCNjkEX9eHnaKr0IZrJ7oz3bpTscDjqT8QYVbsZB1T-lCJq5DljSGPxrteF38KEe-A9acYWGMN5YJd64gaYAbdg/s320/358446700_10161063101696197_6526380608474190718_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>in other news. we had a lovely pumpkin massacre. the annual gathering. Halloween is my favorite, mostly because it's just about fun and candy and being strange. i put the pumpkins i carved out front...not sure how long they will last, there has been a mother and calf moose in the neighborhood this week. they love a good pumpkin. i made some pumpkin bread today so i'll have that for breakfast tomorrow. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVlz-AGC_uQDgOyRE3T9TCHnqAPcMSOBEe_NBkuufsJ5FCM5JX5RpcOEGVqztcxXjKu_VasHSzVpuJtuUnWXNSPec99DlF59aNInH5nKCgHCtrDLFfBn1NJQdrOdU_5crv113n-UZ34sGJ7d5Ou2fFk13AqTGlIwkqKvRRf6cOxhnIJ2MqW1uDzgJxpQ/s2048/358446533_10161063106691197_2830094171115429168_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVlz-AGC_uQDgOyRE3T9TCHnqAPcMSOBEe_NBkuufsJ5FCM5JX5RpcOEGVqztcxXjKu_VasHSzVpuJtuUnWXNSPec99DlF59aNInH5nKCgHCtrDLFfBn1NJQdrOdU_5crv113n-UZ34sGJ7d5Ou2fFk13AqTGlIwkqKvRRf6cOxhnIJ2MqW1uDzgJxpQ/s320/358446533_10161063106691197_2830094171115429168_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>My Christmas cards are ordered. it was a long and frustrating process as right after i ordered them i discovered that all the photos i'd loaded had disappeared. the first order got cancelled and it's redone now. takes time to find all the photos to load...so grr!!<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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B. pumpkin fun C. 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that is the tricky bit....trying to guess when you die. also a strange and uncomfortable part of planning your life in retirement. guessing your age of death. insurance could cost upwards of $10,000/year. i'm not really wanting to give that up. could look into switching over to Prov's urgent care set up to i guess. there are lots of options as a nurse so that is good. may end up doing something like that part time eventually and then take a different job on the side for extra cash or various different jobs and have summers more free. lots to consider.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZ-tEQ3dV2AdDEtDKcf28fxmm9eCtak1k4_FkYAQM7ogDML_dsBC4r2AMso4KS0OFqlD9bgWYrCALQNj5_nrXyRZvpVB6P5vs-ZsrE98Ft8_U53sU0b591MPUg-lLxVBTq7hbvCcxWJDGFFS1WvnwycrerLj-N5vpNds4Ii1EOSCuyjjklWtRJOye98w/s2048/287667171_10160165169151197_1629818244519224362_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhZ-tEQ3dV2AdDEtDKcf28fxmm9eCtak1k4_FkYAQM7ogDML_dsBC4r2AMso4KS0OFqlD9bgWYrCALQNj5_nrXyRZvpVB6P5vs-ZsrE98Ft8_U53sU0b591MPUg-lLxVBTq7hbvCcxWJDGFFS1WvnwycrerLj-N5vpNds4Ii1EOSCuyjjklWtRJOye98w/s320/287667171_10160165169151197_1629818244519224362_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>good to know there is money...barring any catastrophic world event that causes the stock market and thus my retirement account to be totally blitzed. that is always a possibility in this world. of course, with that i may be blitzed as well. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeHljRuxpXhl73XDgrXaS7wW-f09DIWil41RMD6a3wHrfRD7tVXKMauHMWkKuc0OuCXuQPZBjGBOR-vkSP1pvD7t6Ft6aAuaon4B8bz7KRJXJ71pFPaAf51ts1KGA-0MF5ZpAWzMbDcWZWloW3piZ07IWAdudysoyM2XvKFkmNTI1VtHOzjP5zcD7OUQ/s2048/287664287_10160161721111197_1951618328208686267_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1530" data-original-width="2048" height="239" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeHljRuxpXhl73XDgrXaS7wW-f09DIWil41RMD6a3wHrfRD7tVXKMauHMWkKuc0OuCXuQPZBjGBOR-vkSP1pvD7t6Ft6aAuaon4B8bz7KRJXJ71pFPaAf51ts1KGA-0MF5ZpAWzMbDcWZWloW3piZ07IWAdudysoyM2XvKFkmNTI1VtHOzjP5zcD7OUQ/s320/287664287_10160161721111197_1951618328208686267_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i have never really been one to live the day to day worried about the remote possibilities. you can't really and stay sane. someone once said their Dad always said to not cross bridges before you get to them. it's sage advice. hard to follow at times. covid created stress and anxiety that didn't exist before. i do feel it loosening a bit and i have also had less of that numb and tingling stuff. still sl anxious right before my work run starts. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJHaQNEB9ZlUtwyTbmfJru7PzFnrDweeLdhXF6zBkx3svtQncqqG4UmFX2nhGsYIDty3wBUcjCiPD8rC0_u4uEpuXFkNL2prZCxIr8J_gc-NXRbDeAlRfQxHeo2ewYQfe9Eo3zhmT8-GLAuDndsL2QSw7p-Hvf-nyU4nsD-ThkYiLyew0IPkNKjYqVKw/s2048/287656783_10160165463386197_3653735047577218260_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJHaQNEB9ZlUtwyTbmfJru7PzFnrDweeLdhXF6zBkx3svtQncqqG4UmFX2nhGsYIDty3wBUcjCiPD8rC0_u4uEpuXFkNL2prZCxIr8J_gc-NXRbDeAlRfQxHeo2ewYQfe9Eo3zhmT8-GLAuDndsL2QSw7p-Hvf-nyU4nsD-ThkYiLyew0IPkNKjYqVKw/s320/287656783_10160165463386197_3653735047577218260_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>a terrorist group has taken hostages in Israel. the history in that region is complicated and the hero/villain lines can be a bit blurry. i'd lean towards Israel for sure on this event. Hamas is a known terrorist organization. Israel has it's own long history with the Palestinians that is cruel and Apartheid like. at some point you do have some responsibility for your actions when consequences happen. that never means the consequences are deserved. there are also Americans who have been killed and taken hostage. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgsyxXmk-OVldypJtDrz1KUzlnNNUgbfkfUdV7aAbmHwK-9bfFm5iNwXQ9fm1VTgfIPLtO13ZAyVLKigeIC_o-7u5SRMZy8q7A-MzFeedp5bhgiA4zirQPMgliKCnUUMUB7il4hEJ6EVBtNsdwEZDoBBvH4u1aTX1d9DmrTvhyphenhyphenkg-KcLuLgkW2nOqGJqQ/s2048/287646115_10160161730101197_8591152266895822616_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgsyxXmk-OVldypJtDrz1KUzlnNNUgbfkfUdV7aAbmHwK-9bfFm5iNwXQ9fm1VTgfIPLtO13ZAyVLKigeIC_o-7u5SRMZy8q7A-MzFeedp5bhgiA4zirQPMgliKCnUUMUB7il4hEJ6EVBtNsdwEZDoBBvH4u1aTX1d9DmrTvhyphenhyphenkg-KcLuLgkW2nOqGJqQ/s320/287646115_10160161730101197_8591152266895822616_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>some have tried to compare things with Ukraine. there is no comparison in my opinion. Russia/Putin clearly just have tried for a land grab with no concern about innocent human life and borders. the Ukrainians have a right to self determination. many would argue so do the Palestinians. i would probably argue that as well. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhewAJiNSqGqyI7hyphenhyphenrT23vH0K3FEdgvZg1Ov8EjDHpy-SMUsToYCCXb0ZM3NYu5H2GuySQXoUQfS0jg86KZcTM7su39nJktYFXARHfZMZFtzlwCWYk9BEyZzLhgUjT6XJ1e6lI8cyGm0c0MbYj0JFC9FXej45ZsMmL3RSWjwUXwgmW3ReU9bqTpI7TIWA/s2048/287636633_10160161721401197_5119206801276208808_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhewAJiNSqGqyI7hyphenhyphenrT23vH0K3FEdgvZg1Ov8EjDHpy-SMUsToYCCXb0ZM3NYu5H2GuySQXoUQfS0jg86KZcTM7su39nJktYFXARHfZMZFtzlwCWYk9BEyZzLhgUjT6XJ1e6lI8cyGm0c0MbYj0JFC9FXej45ZsMmL3RSWjwUXwgmW3ReU9bqTpI7TIWA/s320/287636633_10160161721401197_5119206801276208808_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>our involvement across the globe is coming back to bite us in some ways. we have had good intentions at times in the past but our involvement may not have always been helpful. creating Israel without any thought to the current occupants of the area. probably a bit sketch. i mean that whole region wasn't really involved in WWII from what i can gather so then we just choose to give part of that space to a group. not just us, of course. looking back, what a crazy plan. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhenNsLiENZIylp9-L8Hnc6BiB1KiPaFJGIGktUW36s-ms0mNrDGfDCPWFp2gEgGyitiIE2IdIdjRY_31qpjv4PDobLw4btgMEkkTIDBzN1M9LNNMuYOTRU8eO5EPrxidMTK0YFDhR_TvdxJw2rtfvMsxHe0ZZbqZOrW0PDKluNWNjASvLlv3J_klgCwg/s2048/287634146_10160161729916197_469060957001704455_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhenNsLiENZIylp9-L8Hnc6BiB1KiPaFJGIGktUW36s-ms0mNrDGfDCPWFp2gEgGyitiIE2IdIdjRY_31qpjv4PDobLw4btgMEkkTIDBzN1M9LNNMuYOTRU8eO5EPrxidMTK0YFDhR_TvdxJw2rtfvMsxHe0ZZbqZOrW0PDKluNWNjASvLlv3J_klgCwg/s320/287634146_10160161729916197_469060957001704455_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>that has put us in line with Israel so that is where our loyalty tends to lie. we do need to push back more on the cruel treatment of those especially in Gaza. holding people hostage in their own way was always going to have some repercussions. like the parents that are totally strict with their kids, rebellion is predictable. people will, amazingly, tolerate a lot before they will rebel in these situations. sadly, in this case they have learned to rely on horrific terrorist groups. in their lack of any power, they turn to others who are full of hate and behave with no morals, values, kindness or discipline. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhKplExT1jdiVTEIf0GpbG3TVapAcEPMg7gE_4LhReudvnKr_Xu5_dtJUUx9hU2uMHTTbAGya6T1Dld3cZhs-mw1P3M1ydtEeOdSfnVgyH1yeATlKYEx224VqFyUH2XM5j2wtmK86xvBioAH_nXT7lc84PKdH-l_DOQJeHHGQhrXAoVTPNwDL65UOYjIg/s2048/287606634_10160161730841197_6092818858109537447_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhKplExT1jdiVTEIf0GpbG3TVapAcEPMg7gE_4LhReudvnKr_Xu5_dtJUUx9hU2uMHTTbAGya6T1Dld3cZhs-mw1P3M1ydtEeOdSfnVgyH1yeATlKYEx224VqFyUH2XM5j2wtmK86xvBioAH_nXT7lc84PKdH-l_DOQJeHHGQhrXAoVTPNwDL65UOYjIg/s320/287606634_10160161730841197_6092818858109537447_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i have no answers for the major issues that plague our globe. these things are very complicated. it is interesting that trump is, more and more, proving to have been a big secret teller. he told labrov of russia things about the Israeli intelligence. he's told people from Australia about our submarine positions off of the n. korean coast. he had boxes of classified materials. he spoke with putin for several hours in Geneva i think it was. more and more we are discovering the depth of his treason really. giving away secrets for cash no doubt. who still supports this fool? it's really baffling. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Halloween is fast approaching. i did get the Skelly's prepped for the season and bought full candy bars to hand out. will probably do the candy slide again...cause it's fun!<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-i9s2G_F-qivfpAjZiH3sQrThmjW1DdI706Vam1it89WyS0y8f723UnYTbyVk9zJ6Nhm4QVtm9LbM4eb_8UOZ43d42Gzem3aTsEFJvFSExBS3blhKlLWVdB-IfOm0A-ECHxRQo5zeCGClT-tZd9UWyHk6KjvWQ7Yo6JG1rvysOSu_ssM_s2e9fYXpWg/s2048/358441283_10161063118216197_259682717712612183_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-i9s2G_F-qivfpAjZiH3sQrThmjW1DdI706Vam1it89WyS0y8f723UnYTbyVk9zJ6Nhm4QVtm9LbM4eb_8UOZ43d42Gzem3aTsEFJvFSExBS3blhKlLWVdB-IfOm0A-ECHxRQo5zeCGClT-tZd9UWyHk6KjvWQ7Yo6JG1rvysOSu_ssM_s2e9fYXpWg/s320/358441283_10161063118216197_259682717712612183_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>gives the kids some distance from the dogs and me as well....haha. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Ivy actually went after this dog the other day. no blood but she gave that dog a scare. thankfully, the owner of the dog has seen how annoying their dog is to Ivy. they have cheered Sunny Boy chasing said dog away from Ivy and seemed happy to see that this did seem to fix the issue of obsession. still sad to see Ivy had to resort to this. hard to watch...though it really was more scary to watch and wasn't really an attack. she's way bigger and if she wanted to do harm...she could. she's mostly a lover though. just pushed too far. that dog kept it's distance after that though. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-flGLoJ5utOAnt573XpfFXvfkN2T47Jx1h0ThCOResws49gHH85lf8VuDoAXOIy6bdULZDtZc0uBOZL3lvEgKRJK6VYHhlMWYNy9Lv-anAU4y8aNM8EJrgAVLHcc9Fao_yahMtRycIQ7iva6bP5eo1PMyt4J0bZVJOLq_Xw0QUO8IWrKZ9g4d7-ag6g/s2048/358439970_10161063121066197_4763620919630701551_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6W_cIGBr6Hc8E4SrFjTylpjTerWNlqTTtOV73EMbB-AIFolr8Ltt3Br775Rl2BGFselBVo_cNdQNeeFQMPF9nbSt3V1WMs2KoklZHxJtDymaVOGuwNm3U8LdbtaXpVJPhgvdcpOAD9OeJ41ULbWnd1IacSq1Vjn1Gag13VJPEAzBe0Wn1kIKuasVqEw/s2048/358439460_10161063123346197_2335353340403044660_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi6W_cIGBr6Hc8E4SrFjTylpjTerWNlqTTtOV73EMbB-AIFolr8Ltt3Br775Rl2BGFselBVo_cNdQNeeFQMPF9nbSt3V1WMs2KoklZHxJtDymaVOGuwNm3U8LdbtaXpVJPhgvdcpOAD9OeJ41ULbWnd1IacSq1Vjn1Gag13VJPEAzBe0Wn1kIKuasVqEw/s320/358439460_10161063123346197_2335353340403044660_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>would be cool to get out there in front of the glacier when the lake is frozen though. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiS8hEerado8CW1kO-FmFn-yb2HNX3iP-JfpqrjU4KJiY9us3HM0_YoL5u37msij1F1gCG9UF1TfQAJCuX10vgsFzNj3QztayMUDJ4wlaJlslkuIT67Po3QWXyiUUhrUloVoRGLullM9ELDVBkcH8hqWNFHVeZhRsJVLdHZaP9cmCBBnGykCOKAMdkDLA/s2048/358439402_10161063127001197_5559451481123021210_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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B. a curious and questioning mind. C. little bits of fall colors still and the oncoming ice designs. <p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-66174565215674146752023-09-30T14:51:00.001-07:002023-09-30T14:51:30.663-07:0015 miles that will haunt me forevermore. lol<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-vSOA0tM860xOlL-gvkkj2giA8itml8-b4g2nSErCT58Gx54TSlJb6MHNZf41agTL6pXalzD6nh_qlulW8WIjDYHmGygKTWy5v0CRPG4hY2K3uDL6LknMtCNv7rV7hoUG34G16-WUmTiA-FKKtLXKrwTMw7gXe9LXyLMFOIB0OLbKk0nLbXWgWfOZEg/s2048/287512361_10160161729946197_6324776428315108987_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh-vSOA0tM860xOlL-gvkkj2giA8itml8-b4g2nSErCT58Gx54TSlJb6MHNZf41agTL6pXalzD6nh_qlulW8WIjDYHmGygKTWy5v0CRPG4hY2K3uDL6LknMtCNv7rV7hoUG34G16-WUmTiA-FKKtLXKrwTMw7gXe9LXyLMFOIB0OLbKk0nLbXWgWfOZEg/s320/287512361_10160161729946197_6324776428315108987_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i am impossibly behind in the blog. just caught up loading photo's onto computer. this computer is old at this point. thinking it may be time to ponder a replacement. means backing up everything in here in hopes to save and move to a new computer. will need to get new printer and router at that time as well. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyekMglNL2Gae0E0RBdPjtzF1SIkDhPc1xTkvinjSWn1VE9_3EuTW3OSt_Gu9x2sZlYaMR_D424kQ0KMbXppGEPDDJQLgVPjfKwohw1QdAyHIDUnFnpfsKMHrGZgBigyxdWGlHSirHbEE7E5YyJ3LjqDVB7OOE5flAHggSLZSGWcZFThdA6nRdL94adQ/s2048/287442163_10160161739916197_5604630493851238192_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgyekMglNL2Gae0E0RBdPjtzF1SIkDhPc1xTkvinjSWn1VE9_3EuTW3OSt_Gu9x2sZlYaMR_D424kQ0KMbXppGEPDDJQLgVPjfKwohw1QdAyHIDUnFnpfsKMHrGZgBigyxdWGlHSirHbEE7E5YyJ3LjqDVB7OOE5flAHggSLZSGWcZFThdA6nRdL94adQ/s320/287442163_10160161739916197_5604630493851238192_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>the 15 miles...well it was one of my more blonde moments. yes, i still have blonde moments despite turning more and more grey as the years go by. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQgR5rXcKejTthoLGHx22KQj3UkJRK982GWNFH4M9y5z-8R3Wscg4iUfHqkka30vOTCOba-5xNarb17MUUkjZJJNIv0b8us_6RMXdon26aPHhM1eaAJIJm9pcx5k8HlK4z-gI171Apear-b4PhU51cSGCgY0hLoPpk5lK4XJMv6imVbc_FQFZcc7YfiQ/s2048/287442163_10160161721066197_1162856050028480946_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhQgR5rXcKejTthoLGHx22KQj3UkJRK982GWNFH4M9y5z-8R3Wscg4iUfHqkka30vOTCOba-5xNarb17MUUkjZJJNIv0b8us_6RMXdon26aPHhM1eaAJIJm9pcx5k8HlK4z-gI171Apear-b4PhU51cSGCgY0hLoPpk5lK4XJMv6imVbc_FQFZcc7YfiQ/s320/287442163_10160161721066197_1162856050028480946_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i did make the run up to Denali from Talkeetna. like a good patron i only drove to mile 15 in Denali National park, only to return to Talkeetna and discover that the day i went the road had been opened to the public to mile 30! the colors in Denali were perfect fall peak colors. this fool missed out on that extra road and probably a million more amazing photos. i'm still kicking myself. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiE8RXpoahp9fT-LKUQt10KEcIXtQy65Rtb9FbcjVTMF3zdauUpqLRwSSDrkV80DuLhggbKYFFqrshjytg0Z9BMZEQQ3vqQZ890FSRCtX6uZ54HsYeTMK1QogrzmGzZ_scFvdFbsh256LxLDg8eH1VZi4AbcvVt9jBfPpQR2k2H0-V-3DR6pmpCZhdWgw/s2048/287378587_10160161730876197_6352323180738583402_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiE8RXpoahp9fT-LKUQt10KEcIXtQy65Rtb9FbcjVTMF3zdauUpqLRwSSDrkV80DuLhggbKYFFqrshjytg0Z9BMZEQQ3vqQZ890FSRCtX6uZ54HsYeTMK1QogrzmGzZ_scFvdFbsh256LxLDg8eH1VZi4AbcvVt9jBfPpQR2k2H0-V-3DR6pmpCZhdWgw/s320/287378587_10160161730876197_6352323180738583402_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>the weather and the colors got more and more beautiful the closer i got to Denali. not a lot of wildlife spotted...it was all, no doubt, in those extra 15 miles. there was even a guy at Savage that asked if the road was open. we both noted there was a lot of regular cars driving through. why that didn't prompt me to ask the question...we shall never know. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRi_sBNZUhZWzhT1u6at5PiQonxzoSWK7-LnpG70HLXNKsnmE0i06iPa0gQ3htAjuXT99bwOqB89F4akZu9YUxOAOoGcglgyFHZr7AX03eRPP0tFc61Kod71Mapb3wDZKJ6FUUIY8RA3wQ3WFjXQs40bA0mkQEJeS7ls5PmLC9uAgR25Ddu4nyFpBIDw/s2048/287297865_10160158309206197_5153180864966961787_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRi_sBNZUhZWzhT1u6at5PiQonxzoSWK7-LnpG70HLXNKsnmE0i06iPa0gQ3htAjuXT99bwOqB89F4akZu9YUxOAOoGcglgyFHZr7AX03eRPP0tFc61Kod71Mapb3wDZKJ6FUUIY8RA3wQ3WFjXQs40bA0mkQEJeS7ls5PmLC9uAgR25Ddu4nyFpBIDw/s320/287297865_10160158309206197_5153180864966961787_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>other than this gap it was a beautiful road trip. these road trips do wear me out more than they did 10 years ago. stuff you think will never bother you as you age...well surprise they do. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhH3dqSe0JzDbCbTtjMIvQzYDZkBFWHQkm7WCH-yFFlFdHqmjFM8lnymO7lIchVk9SbEfvZ2AC1YpFRcop4AOEOJHB8MIl6-YKcTGKFoJHJmeg0spQF-gDQ63v4Fhzepk7NrWZPnJccaBi8ocmeWzARqxVBmf20n14hoXox6SxVeWGirjf5Ji7JLXPipw/s2048/287257532_10160161730821197_260215139441710256_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhH3dqSe0JzDbCbTtjMIvQzYDZkBFWHQkm7WCH-yFFlFdHqmjFM8lnymO7lIchVk9SbEfvZ2AC1YpFRcop4AOEOJHB8MIl6-YKcTGKFoJHJmeg0spQF-gDQ63v4Fhzepk7NrWZPnJccaBi8ocmeWzARqxVBmf20n14hoXox6SxVeWGirjf5Ji7JLXPipw/s320/287257532_10160161730821197_260215139441710256_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i debated returning to Denali the next day. debated requesting another night at the Meandering Moose, it was near empty so i'm sure that would have been fine. the idea of driving another 6-8 hours though....tough but heading home was the best option. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjleyBgupB26FlX0fjzav6UU8VHFEJ_FKdeQzTrDRvbk77a-H5zRzQvIT88YQN79vj6ziO1UbyDlc8dnp6rpzt_VmY8iPMd5immIsT7L_wgWt3Pt7GC0yo1ur7LV5RrLIi1gvkUFhIGzdFeblIVOga1lwAw8VF41d7jhtZs4aN6UMyVc78_bJiMqT1EPA/s2048/287165835_10160158308231197_6836586682018552370_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1600" data-original-width="2048" height="250" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjleyBgupB26FlX0fjzav6UU8VHFEJ_FKdeQzTrDRvbk77a-H5zRzQvIT88YQN79vj6ziO1UbyDlc8dnp6rpzt_VmY8iPMd5immIsT7L_wgWt3Pt7GC0yo1ur7LV5RrLIi1gvkUFhIGzdFeblIVOga1lwAw8VF41d7jhtZs4aN6UMyVc78_bJiMqT1EPA/s320/287165835_10160158308231197_6836586682018552370_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>these are just some snaps of the pets. so cute. Sunny had his 2nd Birthday last week. we had a little celebration at home...the pets and I. the next day i drove the dogs out to Matanuska Glacier for a drive and romp at the glacier. they are totally stained grey, but they had a great time. the drive was beautiful. for sure off peak but still enough fall colors to make it worth the drive. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjSVf3iFeb8p8tlXgorqfbiylvDL9IjZeg9JDhJBKaYKg71ZC0IANGHpUQ4-Ku7cv-2mJjCzjLUKdw2dLDW2HsR7HC7TicZPbFh_UxHI-hbh0FboMBqXO9KTat3E0n4TxZBBMmHMTe0Vx-evYMIEFTt2U2ePBeNN767K5nAgnmnAC3yH8C1JZq6jSLIdg/s2048/287163548_10160158329911197_1514401539201531189_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjSVf3iFeb8p8tlXgorqfbiylvDL9IjZeg9JDhJBKaYKg71ZC0IANGHpUQ4-Ku7cv-2mJjCzjLUKdw2dLDW2HsR7HC7TicZPbFh_UxHI-hbh0FboMBqXO9KTat3E0n4TxZBBMmHMTe0Vx-evYMIEFTt2U2ePBeNN767K5nAgnmnAC3yH8C1JZq6jSLIdg/s320/287163548_10160158329911197_1514401539201531189_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i took them for a dog wash the next day but there was no change in the color of their fur. we started to work on Sunny's groom the other day. still some touch up to do. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwihOrZqkB_OxkYjAIRpR3olddZTyDTjCqsntCi5TX-d7OH_hopqpRx5JsvVx9hwWq8JXhQg3m4VUHm1g-0tZk099HFukyFu9IJjx2h2J0pvX6TtyhCmhjK4je-XVIlpUAwxc1HZ0xWDr23FoNm6T5REWlmhdI7pzdnZKOlGVKBn85_29vDifix0NdJQ/s2048/287002773_10160158309231197_836665180204650984_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiwihOrZqkB_OxkYjAIRpR3olddZTyDTjCqsntCi5TX-d7OH_hopqpRx5JsvVx9hwWq8JXhQg3m4VUHm1g-0tZk099HFukyFu9IJjx2h2J0pvX6TtyhCmhjK4je-XVIlpUAwxc1HZ0xWDr23FoNm6T5REWlmhdI7pzdnZKOlGVKBn85_29vDifix0NdJQ/s320/287002773_10160158309231197_836665180204650984_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>it's always funny that the right at one level views Biden as feeble and incapable while on the other level view him as some mastermind. their conspiracy crack has never had any consistencies. the crazy they have to stoop to and the crazy they have to somehow commit to memory is beyond comprehension...yet they are incapable of seeing irony and reason. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbyhDqEcMkk1BMnDCNge8tDn4YW12abR4J4Bde8LQ1OwZfMRQhf5Mo_GzFJv8cqwkRiM7xjG_EQ5tong4krebEbtFONAfI6Z_cFXw9uqGhHzOKZ1mE_uoHnIs3qcvNaKjmqvaPkpjnqvStK7HGMFnXDqE6cHd1zHIwu4rm2gpqABVUiEdT8WxUnxXCDQ/s2048/286994629_10160158309286197_6345146959731832274_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbyhDqEcMkk1BMnDCNge8tDn4YW12abR4J4Bde8LQ1OwZfMRQhf5Mo_GzFJv8cqwkRiM7xjG_EQ5tong4krebEbtFONAfI6Z_cFXw9uqGhHzOKZ1mE_uoHnIs3qcvNaKjmqvaPkpjnqvStK7HGMFnXDqE6cHd1zHIwu4rm2gpqABVUiEdT8WxUnxXCDQ/s320/286994629_10160158309286197_6345146959731832274_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>the conspiracy crack addiction is real and it's taken so many in our society on some crazy ride. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVmZYVWWSXjQU1KXlFhylre6i6FpyyT5FY-o-GeJuZgj42300kKiqMHH1P9lL9NHIGM7nomBA4MojqjGJp3hENIJtgVrHlH_58mej3KreDSEv5rJP5m2wFBguAMBxiWTDS1fLJvRZ5gpxqcRJAI-zwA5ue4GshXhQISYFjq0elsi5Asjh5uLZ8EP20dg/s2048/286987827_10160158330841197_3306942554669761206_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiedTPgW9qkpYYwgaNXfpYJVyqH0-JsfsAdY1ME4NbDJ1hDwr1Bzu3R5t9zwUaXkCq67q7EJL55Sv1GM0W31HyeojvG3VItHZogT6Go5z1AoehXWbvQHY6BHgMGL6o02wGo1WFPc5CN8r_iQpbBjUApWFc7S3kRRrzwLfASMb1vUsk-tno15hTNIIKhMw/s320/286937978_10160158308661197_5096246601279905015_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>one such thing that was recently brought to my attention is how people from Europe in the US are specifically known by which nations in Europe their families came from. this is not the case with African Americans...they are just known as African. the individual nations with their unique characteristics and culture are ignored. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqvW48zYMZZi2SNIrrRnvdN9zfy7178P7RDwVrD8ccP7PD6edb3te77PFhuTv8RKfc2rspEiq_htAzHMZzSSLP5zyojo0SQ_1KOZ9tTrpzhTU4SU_QG1EaeWjQd8Rx6gEfyOWrxv00rB-No5RHrJapP7-wttQ_COvJCcKIJy0r3ABsvOoFih4a-sD2Ag/s2048/286914198_10160158308741197_3838306281270030175_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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Sunny happily chased down ground squirrels and Ivy chased her toy. at one point the toy fell into a ground squirrel hole. i always knew this would happen one day. Ivy got very determined and she dug and dug and dug. she did come up with the ball. we'd lost 2 other balls to the fast moving creek before that. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjqYf9K_No32QxpHL5as6YKmknx8S0ARpvfOTktU5UEGkNQNZZ89pOhQl_fPmmfrdl-xFy5KAb9TdcKekKYCjByPulOfO9_5UvjpHvaQCutctF_8Y348bgSyAiiiPUKxz-rSxrkdh11S6sMo9IH2VFGGkMG_nAioEI8LV3Uxrfycj_2u7xcxbcJD-GMFw/s2048/358438540_10161063120321197_5074576994056166262_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjqYf9K_No32QxpHL5as6YKmknx8S0ARpvfOTktU5UEGkNQNZZ89pOhQl_fPmmfrdl-xFy5KAb9TdcKekKYCjByPulOfO9_5UvjpHvaQCutctF_8Y348bgSyAiiiPUKxz-rSxrkdh11S6sMo9IH2VFGGkMG_nAioEI8LV3Uxrfycj_2u7xcxbcJD-GMFw/s320/358438540_10161063120321197_5074576994056166262_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>it won't be long before winter is here. it's almost October. time to make the calendar and Christmas cards. i always wonder if i'll have enough pictures to fill the calendar. it's nice to look back on the year and see that i did actually get out there more than i imagine i do. others see that i do a lot but for some reason i always feel like i don't do very much. probably because i can be so lazy between road trips and adeventures.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEivEa9wcPh4FxITrvs5LouALSXMbXcWblKcVAG0mi5P7lmRJMx8-e8R-xM6dwAZKw-Nmc7B95xHWJEX4OHHilflnO0MBg3zIrHToB-QGMIKdhPcx3Gl2L7P2pCBdba5_ZwY1x08ubbo0Fu2tMFBROD6VMUCjTSzTKxAEFIukXm3GtqoKPY0BeGbQIWDAw/s320/285694750_10160144010346197_6108235396531811018_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>watched a program about pain meds, specifically oxycontin. the push to sell those was gross. many got addicted and sadly, we still push them like candy at the hospital. made me feel bad about giving them as prn's to so many out there. we convince ourselves that since it's for pain, nobody is going to get addicted but who knows what happens after they leave the hospital. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBGJ17huCc18z5LK0vsLpEON-sNCxm074ZmW7KdHpgGGDUpB6Y_cTMbNibrv35Jg_MH3KFaMekho260858VlvE30xFn8j-oJ128I_CMAWzU2iw-ku9ElEohanej7HBSThHvfWYgUaCmZBhaxKU_q_akr2aH6E-FksveoB695M6o3IdFe_Y6n8D6LUA-w/s2048/285692370_10160144010116197_3736823907970856206_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBGJ17huCc18z5LK0vsLpEON-sNCxm074ZmW7KdHpgGGDUpB6Y_cTMbNibrv35Jg_MH3KFaMekho260858VlvE30xFn8j-oJ128I_CMAWzU2iw-ku9ElEohanej7HBSThHvfWYgUaCmZBhaxKU_q_akr2aH6E-FksveoB695M6o3IdFe_Y6n8D6LUA-w/s320/285692370_10160144010116197_3736823907970856206_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i hadn't realized that one of the owners lawyers was none other than Rudy Giuliani and the trial was taking place while trump was in office. Rudy just called up trump and trump put pressure on his doj to force a settlement that did little harm to the family who owns the company that produced and pushed the drug. i shouldn't be so shocked i guess. just further proof of the corruption that exists in our nation. i still find myself hoping we can somehow clean this nation up and make it a better place for the humans that come after us. i doubt it will be improved in my lifetime. who knows. it could also get much worse before it gets better. more freedoms lost. a Christian Nationalist state...so many horrific possibilities. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjohHLFKlAIHcHMcm6BqPyW38tjZ_qpX9fMDREnZe0Ya1B0VC5WKilrXiFwyIRCexXi16u0lBStnQgGf1qV0Xl-PwFfL0temcL1023yqKraRIeCCl63CT1yial3p6AhqXR4ovYKtQlCf2bp870T2_GRUlHBeDD0zN6eq5j-tWDR1umZkChcCCu66SUfDA/s2048/285684860_10160144012786197_8864412767933181782_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjohHLFKlAIHcHMcm6BqPyW38tjZ_qpX9fMDREnZe0Ya1B0VC5WKilrXiFwyIRCexXi16u0lBStnQgGf1qV0Xl-PwFfL0temcL1023yqKraRIeCCl63CT1yial3p6AhqXR4ovYKtQlCf2bp870T2_GRUlHBeDD0zN6eq5j-tWDR1umZkChcCCu66SUfDA/s320/285684860_10160144012786197_8864412767933181782_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>yesterday was Sept 11. it's been 22 years since the planes flew into the towers. nearly 3000 died that day and many more died as a result of inhaling all the chemicals/dust from the collapse. i was protected as i was in the process of moving from Ketchikan to Anchorage. i entered the Yukon Territory on September 11 and re-entered the US on September 12. the roads out there have signs that say leaving 911 zone. there is or was very little contact with the outside world for much of that time you are out there. it was a gift really. when i got to my place i was without a tv for several weeks so all i had was newspaper and npr for news. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaOx9wPpvazNYEub1thK0l4JC4dCG2YXD6DV_CNu759jtPzhJ5FqNGtcrMkNDdjuJImfpp1nMKckl_IgcCAmOsWsKE9d77n8oyeyI_i6jEySD-98cqRH2Hrs2YYuTWSX1G-Q0lNjxt4k4v5jONYdbShoqtFhKOv4bVxto8-bRrOdWWTAY5x7f03oG6wQ/s2048/285682270_10160144006111197_7407240312248789162_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaOx9wPpvazNYEub1thK0l4JC4dCG2YXD6DV_CNu759jtPzhJ5FqNGtcrMkNDdjuJImfpp1nMKckl_IgcCAmOsWsKE9d77n8oyeyI_i6jEySD-98cqRH2Hrs2YYuTWSX1G-Q0lNjxt4k4v5jONYdbShoqtFhKOv4bVxto8-bRrOdWWTAY5x7f03oG6wQ/s320/285682270_10160144006111197_7407240312248789162_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i would still have to say, the terrorists won that day. for decades the right had pushed for a good chunk of our tax dollars to go to the military. they wanted to be safe and the bigger the military the better. that day it was proven that it didn't matter how big your military was you could be vulnerable. the right especially seemed to spiral. they became more filled with fear, guns were bought, they wanted more money to go to the military. they wanted war. all of this has come at the cost of basic things for our citizenry. i believed, like so many, the lies that iraq had weapons of mass destruction. in truth most of the terrorists responsible for what happened that day...came from Saudi but Saudi has never really had to take responsibility. Iraq and Afghanistan did. wars dragged on for years and Bin Laden was eventually killed. ultimately, the terrorists won. it was a long, slow process but we have become a nation waring against each other. paranoid, paralyzed with fears. loaded with guns, killing each other off, hate, fear, ignorance. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXiVI9QKX12nEgYzJRmR72lbrGTF7p4AKbj4spCrMEKsKd-yx7frKkBy6tHcBCFmTij2MFvIvx3o7G3UAzxZ5rn3MVgRiehwiHvtX1WkhkFLZP7QHIA_SVkIzL8qlcg593j7OzWdq1hQyTAwA1RyU5XaJDniIT1xyk-fomNUZBvc8wBmIoXGGVSanmjg/s2048/285677214_10160144005991197_3436427591518085829_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1738" data-original-width="2048" height="272" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXiVI9QKX12nEgYzJRmR72lbrGTF7p4AKbj4spCrMEKsKd-yx7frKkBy6tHcBCFmTij2MFvIvx3o7G3UAzxZ5rn3MVgRiehwiHvtX1WkhkFLZP7QHIA_SVkIzL8qlcg593j7OzWdq1hQyTAwA1RyU5XaJDniIT1xyk-fomNUZBvc8wBmIoXGGVSanmjg/s320/285677214_10160144005991197_3436427591518085829_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>the biggest losers are our own citizens, the children the elderly. we have plenty of money to fund healthcare, education, for the elderly to have dignity. for the sick to not become homeless and bankrupt in order to try to heal. we could do so much. i've watched the infrastructure crumble. other nations have developed parks and roads. we have just watched them wear out. there are no bathrooms out there anymore for public use it seems. this just forces people to shit outside. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Aramaic doesn't have a J. that name isn't Aramaic. she countered with the Angel said what to name him. anyway. the man said his name was Yeshua. she said no, that was a Jewish name. the guy laughed and was all, he was Jewish. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbOaYquDWib-C245FEuHN8BIKKbOjgNLr8b8IDANd_0gHzoinMmTTHYZlVNlSTvBfgHOUBAzWNWOkBuH1ysE1FU-5ZV4R8T0Zfz9te7jyZ5iNQIA2AF8R3OOVkG7pAIZtzsUFdFjAR6-8VVbiMELD523fHVQPoapmMekx372lTc5wOAP-lR46420ozfA/s2048/358437348_10161063106706197_1516616980117714233_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbOaYquDWib-C245FEuHN8BIKKbOjgNLr8b8IDANd_0gHzoinMmTTHYZlVNlSTvBfgHOUBAzWNWOkBuH1ysE1FU-5ZV4R8T0Zfz9te7jyZ5iNQIA2AF8R3OOVkG7pAIZtzsUFdFjAR6-8VVbiMELD523fHVQPoapmMekx372lTc5wOAP-lR46420ozfA/s320/358437348_10161063106706197_1516616980117714233_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i wrote that down on a tiny bit of paper. on the other side i'd written, 'thought terminating cliche". i've heard many of these in my life time. just seemingly rehearsed lines that stop the conversation from proceeding and stop the person from having to further examine things that make them uncomfortable. there were so many of these growing up. "things we just aren't meant to understand in this life" " you just have to have faith and trust in God and the prophet". things like that. i just liked how it was called that. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijLgq2A76spg8Lul9XwfVM9u6riqHf4-LXyMrZbQ2sbErW9ayQ0Zn9o-v-z-aOha25IfQ7uJnGIm8r1Fn4qwU6JPPxfek0BqJ6mNg173IIDlyPyYcTaQIzZKOz9Q8UfUoObrawNCyikfP6nc0zceJ1t6H65aoMMMxv7e47NbBW1uM7o9EKZoSATZn2Kw/s2048/358436903_10161063104396197_2599319364888336534_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijLgq2A76spg8Lul9XwfVM9u6riqHf4-LXyMrZbQ2sbErW9ayQ0Zn9o-v-z-aOha25IfQ7uJnGIm8r1Fn4qwU6JPPxfek0BqJ6mNg173IIDlyPyYcTaQIzZKOz9Q8UfUoObrawNCyikfP6nc0zceJ1t6H65aoMMMxv7e47NbBW1uM7o9EKZoSATZn2Kw/s320/358436903_10161063104396197_2599319364888336534_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>always funny hearing them now from adults i grew up around. the lines haven't changed since they were programmed into me as a kid. always feels so strange now. they don't even bother to try and intellectualize those responses. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLj4GWAz9XXhD5AhBhyOypLh0Tr71qdu6Dq5c20E9NqMUZv4lnCKDOE4qhDjRRfhK2zVyQMs9yu1Eb-RoZqU535XIWFyT3gtA0HgYX4f3W9n6UVwUd2LS4QZuQdhZK5xGo55mC0Neejl7tyUtlbvwhq_wbY3QodmljG3rjH34CGpbqFNzRiwEdWXtuFA/s2048/358436829_10161063121026197_5045459564942916457_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiLj4GWAz9XXhD5AhBhyOypLh0Tr71qdu6Dq5c20E9NqMUZv4lnCKDOE4qhDjRRfhK2zVyQMs9yu1Eb-RoZqU535XIWFyT3gtA0HgYX4f3W9n6UVwUd2LS4QZuQdhZK5xGo55mC0Neejl7tyUtlbvwhq_wbY3QodmljG3rjH34CGpbqFNzRiwEdWXtuFA/s320/358436829_10161063121026197_5045459564942916457_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i was always surprised that the answers to the questions i had never evolved. never matured even as i did. seems they should. i mean you speak about sex very differently with a 3 year old, or an 8 year old or a teen or an adult...but not in religion. it's all the same canned responses. responses that really were geared toward a child and never evolved. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Gods that have been brushed aside, upgraded i guess. i often think that we may be in a transition to a new Gods emergence. maybe the Christian God will fade away and be replaced like all the others have. get changed into some mythology. no God seems to work for the masses and it seems Gods are created and pitted against each other. my God is better than your God.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQedN_Vt_ArDjolTay87_PwbLEVItuB7Rl8_3CDi_bdo6IeoQxCrXhVL6Psa7ZLO7eQ1hTPvUZFJyTRYf3huN3gfFQin7LmPt-hR8K52Sg8Zs2VgYbXeLnZ_ZK3f0P0ahCDRHGQTpXXshjrEmcYZhA-0oeGTrV2jS0pf8_AVYH8nZLOb6NwZNJ9CGOZg/s2048/358436693_10161063127316197_7609392357176016681_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQedN_Vt_ArDjolTay87_PwbLEVItuB7Rl8_3CDi_bdo6IeoQxCrXhVL6Psa7ZLO7eQ1hTPvUZFJyTRYf3huN3gfFQin7LmPt-hR8K52Sg8Zs2VgYbXeLnZ_ZK3f0P0ahCDRHGQTpXXshjrEmcYZhA-0oeGTrV2jS0pf8_AVYH8nZLOb6NwZNJ9CGOZg/s320/358436693_10161063127316197_7609392357176016681_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>there does seem to be some failing of the current Christian complex. in many cases they just have gone to far in trying to control their flock. perhaps, they have just gone to far in making them turn against people they once loved. hating gets exhausting i imagine. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjcN7tNscn-GmAq5Ji2Uzn6IikVlXIAVWjw3lt2O96yT_smzcGacXvIqHTma2rCN-liji48erULOPzk7bRyfnXroSaNIiGq5oQ9wmaCbn1F8ue6-S7aLxNGdUVlA56Gm4Ww_jb4WcdsCxw3DzpRn4pRxxf4KlXSTKS12tE_rsCIPX1g9wYfQ46-TQ_rGg/s2048/358436327_10161063118251197_4805883183932864995_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1884" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjcN7tNscn-GmAq5Ji2Uzn6IikVlXIAVWjw3lt2O96yT_smzcGacXvIqHTma2rCN-liji48erULOPzk7bRyfnXroSaNIiGq5oQ9wmaCbn1F8ue6-S7aLxNGdUVlA56Gm4Ww_jb4WcdsCxw3DzpRn4pRxxf4KlXSTKS12tE_rsCIPX1g9wYfQ46-TQ_rGg/s320/358436327_10161063118251197_4805883183932864995_n.jpg" width="294" /></a></div>Mormonism is morphing into just one more Christian church...which is always amusing to me since Joseph Smiths angel visit included being told that all the mainline Christian churches were totally wrong and that was why he needed to establish this church...now they are just morphing into the others. seems to negate that whole vision. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh14lodAKxyID4Uff1inurYDz31b89wo1e-Rqbh0gTSPJuakM99F8hWE5stSqon-7K7yI06TIxGnpYuVX6pgiFp-kZSLnJGEEhSRW0E8Nw6H09NFvsx3Zgl78TaTwcN8hv0kh-Kw7UXTaXDgtM1UaAIJRof2BThHKw00G1_6Q5-_xL1F9UGlbrv2_ms1g/s320/358434730_10161063160686197_132740496244584808_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>well, i better get off this computer. not sure if i covered all the stuff cluttering my brain or if i make any sense in these blogs. my brain is just a mess of thoughts running through it at any given time. i come up with great things in the shower but no doubt forget most of it by the time i get the day started. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDZpQc8L5Xk9E-dCwJ9nEvhVkveMums0ZNGcAdFySTA42c7IGv-3h9ifXKRzhHEP6LeevbJhRpGKJbwv9XO0eX0X9tiHDWZyZEPIsWSEolgMHcXzZCNoU83W7rZqhAPguQo0yRQGAtNvg687OjBDK6bR0E4IX3OTkjHZi1IgVXDaBoWri4XuW6uHm8-Q/s2048/358434514_10161063101211197_919527030295089586_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjDZpQc8L5Xk9E-dCwJ9nEvhVkveMums0ZNGcAdFySTA42c7IGv-3h9ifXKRzhHEP6LeevbJhRpGKJbwv9XO0eX0X9tiHDWZyZEPIsWSEolgMHcXzZCNoU83W7rZqhAPguQo0yRQGAtNvg687OjBDK6bR0E4IX3OTkjHZi1IgVXDaBoWri4XuW6uHm8-Q/s320/358434514_10161063101211197_919527030295089586_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>grateful for A. the awakening that happened through 9/11 and the subsequent wars. i certainly changed many of the views i was raised with on politics. B. that i was in the middle of nowhere when all that was happening. protected from it. maybe that saved me from spiraling like so many others C. chill time with the pets. mushrooms and views of the tiny world around us. <p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-18394622568733894292023-09-01T13:55:00.003-07:002023-09-01T13:55:38.184-07:00Happy September!<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhzVYx8lSPK48UtJExlpc1SSTxE88WfWdIO8DusQcN1JDDKeRRsD6CGUczFTfKlDtWNx1PMSIJYwX_GYzNv2RrJO5iT1GWN-7G6ELdXiw25mjfn9UZKOZ35Bk9dB42VlOVpmmLbTbAKfrm8y8Zi-yWsqxPz7loeRQ8lpWWbmBVwJ-zcANpxMz-ow-DLBQ/s2048/358434329_10161063124346197_7285117338278551708_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhzVYx8lSPK48UtJExlpc1SSTxE88WfWdIO8DusQcN1JDDKeRRsD6CGUczFTfKlDtWNx1PMSIJYwX_GYzNv2RrJO5iT1GWN-7G6ELdXiw25mjfn9UZKOZ35Bk9dB42VlOVpmmLbTbAKfrm8y8Zi-yWsqxPz7loeRQ8lpWWbmBVwJ-zcANpxMz-ow-DLBQ/s320/358434329_10161063124346197_7285117338278551708_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>of course half of these photos are from July this year and May last year. great visit with the people i belong with. so wonderful to experience total acceptance for me. to belong is a great feeling. i have not always felt a part of much of things. in church and in my family i often felt like the odd ball. spent way too many years working to try and fit in. fitting in is the opposite of belonging i read. belonging is acceptance, fitting in is trying to be accepted. in the end, fitting in is just too stressful and honestly not really worth the effort. when you have to try that hard you have to accept the cold truth. nobody is right or wrong, just sometimes not right with each other. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiIhJsEE6CdEWXe0lsmnNTgJpVeEi92yXd97w8qzH-n5DZIkx5E-FZMTMWlRU5q4hlAzujrQBceb4UitpHsjoGs3fRC3kRxGCrSwO6-nO2iewLGPSry53dSXiuYSd1F7eXg1dwZA8N8NPDEMvezoWwlVlGPT_DOw9PdtrN9I5YvIGOhUDybRB9rgNZNaA/s2048/358434328_10161063104181197_9071440704172765545_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiIhJsEE6CdEWXe0lsmnNTgJpVeEi92yXd97w8qzH-n5DZIkx5E-FZMTMWlRU5q4hlAzujrQBceb4UitpHsjoGs3fRC3kRxGCrSwO6-nO2iewLGPSry53dSXiuYSd1F7eXg1dwZA8N8NPDEMvezoWwlVlGPT_DOw9PdtrN9I5YvIGOhUDybRB9rgNZNaA/s320/358434328_10161063104181197_9071440704172765545_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>finished my two nights of work. it's so dry in the hospital and talking irritates the coughing so i was beat and coughing but i got through it well. had decent nights. just wore a mask all night. worked IMCU and then ICU with patients waiting to go to lower care units. no room though. we have consistently had holds all over the place. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEglGt2yaFiX6MIJbuOja8PAMSHvgfsSR6-p743OtV-1rsqviC9sM-ktXhHIFqGFnUadKtXRKd8G7GgofmGz-QjM6JekovD64p5Lc0vgrdIc7Y4fwV58_ofICEyMDK79fgEjElVjXzvzDv9DWe6k-kr5PW30VG2mI-o9zE5ZNWg6PJKkyZOUhPbKgeE1Wg/s2048/358434274_10161063117931197_2600668413448091918_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEglGt2yaFiX6MIJbuOja8PAMSHvgfsSR6-p743OtV-1rsqviC9sM-ktXhHIFqGFnUadKtXRKd8G7GgofmGz-QjM6JekovD64p5Lc0vgrdIc7Y4fwV58_ofICEyMDK79fgEjElVjXzvzDv9DWe6k-kr5PW30VG2mI-o9zE5ZNWg6PJKkyZOUhPbKgeE1Wg/s320/358434274_10161063117931197_2600668413448091918_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>briefly pondered a trek to Homer yesterday as the tide this morning was pretty low. -4.4 i think. would be great. weather...not so great though. super windy yesterday. fairly windy today still. spitting at times. branches came down here so i still have to clean that up and lost power for a bit yesterday. just felt tired all day. no room at the Driftwood where i often stay. i'm sure i could have found something for the dogs and i. too tired to search and really...it's a long drive. may head north tomorrow. see what i can find. talkeetna one night, Healy the next? will look later i think. do some walks/mushroom hunts up north, see if there are any fall colors popping out. love those fall colors. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgnXyWMrVj_QcATgjpCOOP1RZbHzSNi7F0k8g6tAn9Y9tk0-ztzrGrwKOD-go83z7zrYfU9IjCOAVnAbJYhbTiPLdPUX897gHebEzgn6jGl-fShAn3uV0RNNA2QcFITpDLNCAavkeSEfF6tC9EU7n48AtVK8-OOB9gx5twI9LE3rF_FTtl1yXdfUl6qZg/s2048/358433901_10161063106916197_1747261682195370927_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgnXyWMrVj_QcATgjpCOOP1RZbHzSNi7F0k8g6tAn9Y9tk0-ztzrGrwKOD-go83z7zrYfU9IjCOAVnAbJYhbTiPLdPUX897gHebEzgn6jGl-fShAn3uV0RNNA2QcFITpDLNCAavkeSEfF6tC9EU7n48AtVK8-OOB9gx5twI9LE3rF_FTtl1yXdfUl6qZg/s320/358433901_10161063106916197_1747261682195370927_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>not 100% yet but much improved. when you don't feel totally well, it's nice to just be home and comfy really. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijPboNrdI5oTtpvGO6AAHuC9FW_OEyohgfFf02d6IDfU6u9Efvrm04a6nLnhFclbapFFOkj9F4xJHYkeyRsXsEQD3YLO1B-3KKs9RTPLsSy4ejDGE7_s1c2D7fNd_F2l6WkFJgbWIOqJJrCf4ArznYF6f2pjb8ytLCxO8W_O5qJ6AYEyq81T1BhQPg7w/s2048/358433878_10161063104511197_7750965535360453343_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijPboNrdI5oTtpvGO6AAHuC9FW_OEyohgfFf02d6IDfU6u9Efvrm04a6nLnhFclbapFFOkj9F4xJHYkeyRsXsEQD3YLO1B-3KKs9RTPLsSy4ejDGE7_s1c2D7fNd_F2l6WkFJgbWIOqJJrCf4ArznYF6f2pjb8ytLCxO8W_O5qJ6AYEyq81T1BhQPg7w/s320/358433878_10161063104511197_7750965535360453343_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>made it out finally to the dog park yesterday. the dogs were thrilled. Sunny Boy found a few dog buddies to play chase with, he loves that. Ivy got to chase her ball. had to wait for the wind to settle down. the dog park filled up pretty fast at that point as i think many were waiting out the wind. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIWfLGdY02EKdjBFKwU41qXxhTpcDKwf2rx1BNnYYHnGFDn1uModUzn1YXq1wyHsT8ZdTpXbA1Ys-DebvysgZve8r_oe-YdPCWLuy5z_twOWbcuTHq-spGMz1anY2RIfSipYRg2X0vPsH4BfTtD1uXqwXBpF_X3RGbz8E1AM9VzimKJa6n2biGFu20iQ/s2048/358433830_10161063163431197_8632612363822474315_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIWfLGdY02EKdjBFKwU41qXxhTpcDKwf2rx1BNnYYHnGFDn1uModUzn1YXq1wyHsT8ZdTpXbA1Ys-DebvysgZve8r_oe-YdPCWLuy5z_twOWbcuTHq-spGMz1anY2RIfSipYRg2X0vPsH4BfTtD1uXqwXBpF_X3RGbz8E1AM9VzimKJa6n2biGFu20iQ/s320/358433830_10161063163431197_8632612363822474315_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>last night i watched a bit of a limited series about aging and folks that make it to 90's-100's. everyone seems to always be chasing this. what makes some live longer than others? always trying to find the magic answers. i don't think there are any really. some of it is luck and good genetics. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Satan wanted us to all just do exactly as we were told and return to heaven i think it was and Jesus wanted us to have free will. of course, the irony to me in this teaching is that they then come to earth and are in a religion that tells them they have free agency while at the same time telling them to not use that free agency. especially not to question the things we are told to believe. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiySPjOQjnx-wK4IsHMBtRFr8Ffken9x_dC8TLeakv7MFYNfrMn5QQX9Vdn9ELqd0g_4oGK6YiBS36s9cNtJx_xrI7bYKAX3lvgkXMXHA89sg8AOYxkoFyq3mCGL51k-mZVu-S8TI1wylGhdSFi6dTTUbxRd-iCaeqESCiVoaZBIai1gn_s6XXuV7gnjg/s2048/285568717_10160144005636197_1836118499111989108_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiySPjOQjnx-wK4IsHMBtRFr8Ffken9x_dC8TLeakv7MFYNfrMn5QQX9Vdn9ELqd0g_4oGK6YiBS36s9cNtJx_xrI7bYKAX3lvgkXMXHA89sg8AOYxkoFyq3mCGL51k-mZVu-S8TI1wylGhdSFi6dTTUbxRd-iCaeqESCiVoaZBIai1gn_s6XXuV7gnjg/s320/285568717_10160144005636197_1836118499111989108_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>we were told we had free agency but also drilled to hold fast to the iron rod...do not use that free agency. it felt nuts to me. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Covid Cat was happily napping. a mug shot was taken. he was sternly reprimanded and then got pets and treats...that is the tough justice system here. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjchbvAwsMzdouRkX1KSSBa2N2AVzq0gDBefa84UvQiI_x5TVLCy83TYpZNfa-qciISCz4UJY4iOWT7zyoSaCR5WThjWPUVERLEcl-wtyIgMxiIn0w_o_x5CR-U2-wuNVoBhXNwqmWy3CHgsgbpFO0RrIz_rpEK-2FWD0mx5TA5RhJlnWDWChV65hZ54Q/s2048/285490516_10160144005476197_3548642700149921825_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjchbvAwsMzdouRkX1KSSBa2N2AVzq0gDBefa84UvQiI_x5TVLCy83TYpZNfa-qciISCz4UJY4iOWT7zyoSaCR5WThjWPUVERLEcl-wtyIgMxiIn0w_o_x5CR-U2-wuNVoBhXNwqmWy3CHgsgbpFO0RrIz_rpEK-2FWD0mx5TA5RhJlnWDWChV65hZ54Q/s320/285490516_10160144005476197_3548642700149921825_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>did some grooming on Sunny Boys tail and feet last night for a bit. would love to keep him all fluffy like he is below but he gets mats super easy. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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KR above. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1EP2iF3uQ8hqhK5kDiDHJ5cRXP0FshWerh7Bxc9UjChWoFoLiIml3Jvvn2069Uen3FmueyYLXbHzUslA9FZptJHJx4WRKkYPg7_WUNYMbZNZjq3MIjuatMEdhPl2qPu76YcF3H8K9n842U2vAjhsZU45036yDJMX1tUnA7vehwlz7PYlVegpbQVgJcA/s2048/358432072_10161063106656197_2193976601372027361_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1EP2iF3uQ8hqhK5kDiDHJ5cRXP0FshWerh7Bxc9UjChWoFoLiIml3Jvvn2069Uen3FmueyYLXbHzUslA9FZptJHJx4WRKkYPg7_WUNYMbZNZjq3MIjuatMEdhPl2qPu76YcF3H8K9n842U2vAjhsZU45036yDJMX1tUnA7vehwlz7PYlVegpbQVgJcA/s320/358432072_10161063106656197_2193976601372027361_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>CB and I<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg2FZdHx3m_H9Po3bDB4TZfMmiLP1maiSS2CFtKP5pX-hxQgWa3vvU-wG3lHP0BEPzKxH1DzaK44bCPaj2DDbmgQJDYP98S8pKdXXIjliLsnT03p-DK4I0mUyxzfK0z2A3aq19uOhhyxvf-5xYeGqTaRzCpPzXZjYFtifnZTSBVsyYGmFarzMHW2iVKZg/s2048/358432070_10161063163326197_7613586343851332942_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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Alaska dogs are like that.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgZAdIGal6b5Fy_l7yz45JL2WBTvQAJze5pyjvvW-KyA5NLYDY0uCYBkr1U0m_kmOjQG5AoKmoDdcmXTySV72CFE318hvcE5DeNAspiA9T9-1cMfN5bWtXZP57AwqKtNSu-Wtp1i_1aPKNi89QblayxyesQ_3vtSCHnrSCDb3goSubHYMAP5xG6P9p_RA/s2048/358418371_10161063160746197_6614315423202479112_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgZAdIGal6b5Fy_l7yz45JL2WBTvQAJze5pyjvvW-KyA5NLYDY0uCYBkr1U0m_kmOjQG5AoKmoDdcmXTySV72CFE318hvcE5DeNAspiA9T9-1cMfN5bWtXZP57AwqKtNSu-Wtp1i_1aPKNi89QblayxyesQ_3vtSCHnrSCDb3goSubHYMAP5xG6P9p_RA/s320/358418371_10161063160746197_6614315423202479112_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgrrIa4oEEvD7fMu5fMZBEM4zheW-oOX7vo-gunBVdqFGBorpwpdb8jyoUv7BW0bHEuHiKRvPfbEFr9gYFu7WwKp8-zpN5QGeMlj858dBEdMcjW42b8JHqK4Zj3KmmdN-iQt5iNl65dgTfYI1JPK5YR7Tg526pq_Tks71-pFAsFteeczx8TFW6aiyFqrA/s2048/358411767_10161063106561197_815977307872798599_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgrrIa4oEEvD7fMu5fMZBEM4zheW-oOX7vo-gunBVdqFGBorpwpdb8jyoUv7BW0bHEuHiKRvPfbEFr9gYFu7WwKp8-zpN5QGeMlj858dBEdMcjW42b8JHqK4Zj3KmmdN-iQt5iNl65dgTfYI1JPK5YR7Tg526pq_Tks71-pFAsFteeczx8TFW6aiyFqrA/s320/358411767_10161063106561197_815977307872798599_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>well, off to nap for a bit. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjx35Qm7l6Mg6skgFp-2a4A9hCAACKhkfq0nNlyNghd6mqGngMR_8BsFTQP-zAG8jMjjKDeNb9Rm61yjhGVxkOSqcFDbRKZSXFhnr0n-OrfGtfK87FidX4FPa6oTZS2yUZ17WpAiSbaP-AcFVPi0cSduiLJgWN9vF8NvmhXoSL1WjuqQl7hnhldIgbx7A/s2048/358411669_10161063120891197_6825315016745077554_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjx35Qm7l6Mg6skgFp-2a4A9hCAACKhkfq0nNlyNghd6mqGngMR_8BsFTQP-zAG8jMjjKDeNb9Rm61yjhGVxkOSqcFDbRKZSXFhnr0n-OrfGtfK87FidX4FPa6oTZS2yUZ17WpAiSbaP-AcFVPi0cSduiLJgWN9vF8NvmhXoSL1WjuqQl7hnhldIgbx7A/s320/358411669_10161063120891197_6825315016745077554_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>thankful for A. being off work while i cough my arse off. B. sweet furs to keep me company C. the daily shower to de-snot myself. <p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-92073057126888197282023-08-21T14:00:00.002-07:002023-08-21T14:00:12.599-07:00should be driving north right now....dang it!!<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkNMLxWxQDcuDyyu4QIB3tmsIL4NM25HKfaaWfOaaHPRWPhS1b23lgyefXK8d-MCXdnRfjucvLsg4AuMJB7zLuk_0yxGhTe8y93T-VWP03v5cF8BMAg8qumolh-nSXyMdBIZ9RIjrQbjj--x04gHeDjl0pgrhix-eoJqM8Ycf9ayZO9L2tmKoodE221w/s2048/285489248_10160139817061197_2513897031801628529_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjkNMLxWxQDcuDyyu4QIB3tmsIL4NM25HKfaaWfOaaHPRWPhS1b23lgyefXK8d-MCXdnRfjucvLsg4AuMJB7zLuk_0yxGhTe8y93T-VWP03v5cF8BMAg8qumolh-nSXyMdBIZ9RIjrQbjj--x04gHeDjl0pgrhix-eoJqM8Ycf9ayZO9L2tmKoodE221w/s320/285489248_10160139817061197_2513897031801628529_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>debated back and forth going/not going. probably could go today as i no longer have a fever and feel a bit better. i got the Hunter cabin about 3 miles north of here in Denali State Park. it's beautiful up there and would be awesome this time of year. mushrooms, sandhills flying past. perhaps a drive up to Denali National Park...<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Saturday i didn't get the dogs walked at all. just rare tennis ball time in the yard. i had fevers just under 101F and felt pretty crappy. i did get the lawn mowed between naps.<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPmzDiY3U6TgLOrVnqPUu3P7qWlE2h5oO3olK22Z4IhXiqhRfmN-f7hxWszgOiX_xlNpFb0ch2N8NrchfXgJVhDX7UP3xqcwy4vIP93khCnQaN7If71gJ9k1IwNYnBx42T4qo1EBP7RRKkaNZXbUSdEyJyuoHFTh-J5lzHa-FMzq54vv03ROj7czG8Bg/s2048/285480905_10160136076736197_4019481130160488446_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPmzDiY3U6TgLOrVnqPUu3P7qWlE2h5oO3olK22Z4IhXiqhRfmN-f7hxWszgOiX_xlNpFb0ch2N8NrchfXgJVhDX7UP3xqcwy4vIP93khCnQaN7If71gJ9k1IwNYnBx42T4qo1EBP7RRKkaNZXbUSdEyJyuoHFTh-J5lzHa-FMzq54vv03ROj7czG8Bg/s320/285480905_10160136076736197_4019481130160488446_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>yesterday i got a lot of stuff done at home between rests/naps. fever gone but still just felt really tired. i even got showered and dressed and had great intentions to walk the dogs. instead i ended up not walking and did multiple tennis ball play times in the yard. litter done, linen changed, vacuumed, groomed Sunny Boy, dishes, laundry. that was enough to exhaust me as it turns out. today i do hope i can get the dogs walked! a slow walk and mushroom hunt. good for the lungs and the soul i think. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEinuIwi0dcZ9zP4wNR5-J_mq0yImOGUhDse7fClII5-VErBQRi6Wnwu1shnJLsA_fVrDCiqvmwtax-hMZ-Y0SEGnghSZz049cBIOQw3FXJ2RseIUKX5J6-Z2Yqyn3T1GJ0X5jI1hpXr5xWk-FXTTffbaBa2VXgBwA1gMlw6YTRDfX_hXUXjkvV90zlKHg/s960/358363211_10161058714936197_6037741992695065479_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="720" data-original-width="960" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEinuIwi0dcZ9zP4wNR5-J_mq0yImOGUhDse7fClII5-VErBQRi6Wnwu1shnJLsA_fVrDCiqvmwtax-hMZ-Y0SEGnghSZz049cBIOQw3FXJ2RseIUKX5J6-Z2Yqyn3T1GJ0X5jI1hpXr5xWk-FXTTffbaBa2VXgBwA1gMlw6YTRDfX_hXUXjkvV90zlKHg/s320/358363211_10161058714936197_6037741992695065479_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i suspect for years with many i have tried to nice my way into the relationships. prove that i am a kind, good, decent person...because in reality, when you leave the church you lose that status. it's assumed you aren't those things and i now think you try to prove you are. people will see you how they chose to see you. you can't change that. you can't nice your way out of assumptions about you. great to let go of all that baggage i carried for so long. goals you could never achieve. other peoples expectations or your presumptions of their expectations. covid was a blessing in that way. life became more clear. who is really with you became more clear. what is valuable. what to value. who to value. that is true in and out of the church. if someone decides something about you and walks away...then you are best off just moving on. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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Sunny was great about the grooming last night despite no big walk for 2 days. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNEu30JVzacO9yqj_pfaysfFaYWxtBmO56BTlYXKGuEObylj7Eo8NR78WWYOSaqSWJAk09GOrqjerty2xeHRAsp5h9Uzx2MjfExMiGVsdQ31ddo9eQxQFX2GW9lynQIPKGBrpDdJVNGzqOiZLQt4jp99Pc6B--Df_joDsMoCSiHhKuhKGB6r-cVV1MdA/s2048/358147766_10161054181981197_111491151418968908_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNEu30JVzacO9yqj_pfaysfFaYWxtBmO56BTlYXKGuEObylj7Eo8NR78WWYOSaqSWJAk09GOrqjerty2xeHRAsp5h9Uzx2MjfExMiGVsdQ31ddo9eQxQFX2GW9lynQIPKGBrpDdJVNGzqOiZLQt4jp99Pc6B--Df_joDsMoCSiHhKuhKGB6r-cVV1MdA/s320/358147766_10161054181981197_111491151418968908_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>figured i'd pop in for a blog then head out for a walk. the mushrooms are always changing. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh8gJTL7AgPZ6xqBqQ66R0F63EahlBIHALjct2Q4m1RMchsPQRtfD2dTycNfP5kzRwg29GgOtd8abPUlRz8HvAL7vr7qQ8iD2Vsb7YWMKRhJk9AWtS4vpX-sk7LI5Vsnqawf8UO_2t4yrBLdsVmqSbRhUU8MlbiZD1n7zTui8reAh1MwpyIffwf5lRuTw/s2048/358146970_10161054181556197_6849881446952319475_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh8gJTL7AgPZ6xqBqQ66R0F63EahlBIHALjct2Q4m1RMchsPQRtfD2dTycNfP5kzRwg29GgOtd8abPUlRz8HvAL7vr7qQ8iD2Vsb7YWMKRhJk9AWtS4vpX-sk7LI5Vsnqawf8UO_2t4yrBLdsVmqSbRhUU8MlbiZD1n7zTui8reAh1MwpyIffwf5lRuTw/s320/358146970_10161054181556197_6849881446952319475_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>these were at the botanical gardens near my place. i generally forget to go there in the summer. may have to stop by there and mushroom hunt as well. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVyeTYpZOliRegW8c_kLlOtXtkIZjr-TSnadIzy6YhK3XF42zxVIlul8OTGYr_TJDalA66UJmnHMI2LNB8SIl2GqJ4CArgRlsrsjTT4bA3d6dXPg6NaDM1U7Bd1oiDNlT5XZwWkofE3ncZm6YXXR8JHFT-U2JZEYPAg07XffP_hEJ0vJpacDPQgWrI4A/s2048/358146800_10161054181506197_3551431319687058369_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVyeTYpZOliRegW8c_kLlOtXtkIZjr-TSnadIzy6YhK3XF42zxVIlul8OTGYr_TJDalA66UJmnHMI2LNB8SIl2GqJ4CArgRlsrsjTT4bA3d6dXPg6NaDM1U7Bd1oiDNlT5XZwWkofE3ncZm6YXXR8JHFT-U2JZEYPAg07XffP_hEJ0vJpacDPQgWrI4A/s320/358146800_10161054181506197_3551431319687058369_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i stopped by crow creek mine but i'd missed the main flowers. they always have amazing flowers there. i also have not been to Hatchers Pass at all this summer. that is totally not normal. so much rain early on....who wanted to drive out there, spent the gas just to walk in the rain with minimal views i think. strange summer for sure. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh07hISHVBMW7CmLfVPHr90WiFYjP-9MZVbRjVHbgnWefs2Wngu9xgvcz3B2IG-t-g4X375mYFaXWDNjD4z022aeobIf8zktygT312ZhcMfvNQGpKI2D9-A96SIhDvi7OXug1og6hO6jRPEzn7GF-WSL8sjzgJzFLig1TgJpbxKTtlKQmrwcKyjNYmB_A/s960/358145977_10161054178431197_8730136040309621604_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="720" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh07hISHVBMW7CmLfVPHr90WiFYjP-9MZVbRjVHbgnWefs2Wngu9xgvcz3B2IG-t-g4X375mYFaXWDNjD4z022aeobIf8zktygT312ZhcMfvNQGpKI2D9-A96SIhDvi7OXug1og6hO6jRPEzn7GF-WSL8sjzgJzFLig1TgJpbxKTtlKQmrwcKyjNYmB_A/s320/358145977_10161054178431197_8730136040309621604_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>politics is still nuts. that orange idiot is still out there. he still has mass following. so strange to see so many worship such a terrible person. it is a cult following. i do not see the appeal but i see that others have been sucked in. religion does something to an individuals ability to see things rationally some times. i have heard some pastors are getting grief when they actually preach the words of Jesus from their pulpits. Jesus is too woke, too weak. shouldn't be surprised really, but there it is. the sermon on the mound is too woke for the evangelicals. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0tmj4IBYPRlCDW-kUMvqEEb2mPj59JCCesERfKw6_ie4H59asKFpk600b6cBSspzCEdgsmTtZc7sT-nCjh3XFXgR8YWu_DjSMf0bix6JvP9YKN_kv5AJ_61BDKJIIRwK7gKbX0wXmmG6s7xhV32j-UsmwVhbBAigW_RpnUzXrH1leQVyEJRkNOyTzEw/s2048/358144837_10161054182231197_168966096806485415_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0tmj4IBYPRlCDW-kUMvqEEb2mPj59JCCesERfKw6_ie4H59asKFpk600b6cBSspzCEdgsmTtZc7sT-nCjh3XFXgR8YWu_DjSMf0bix6JvP9YKN_kv5AJ_61BDKJIIRwK7gKbX0wXmmG6s7xhV32j-UsmwVhbBAigW_RpnUzXrH1leQVyEJRkNOyTzEw/s320/358144837_10161054182231197_168966096806485415_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>the indictments are mounting. most will never read or believe anything bad about this fool but will instead go to their graves believing he was somehow brought to them by God. i wouldn't believe it all myself if i wasn't sadly living through it. watching people who i would have thought were rational be irrational when it comes to this one person. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1560" data-original-width="2048" height="244" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiGcV2YpBtMEN33I7STFrKjcLE3rMdkTniQPqXi7kWb4hn2VbUnhyH8oMJM599eXu2cEZVuGJOBKo7qG1Dqeiw_Wnjw-m5356MwcJg1T-d0MK0pNUdsnCS7YUH7c3QHEtyK_tkZjTcE4PD5HdQhMNKLVu8faKsmeI0M4TJDJF_kEJZBfWpdZlHj5VoSTw/s320/358088056_10161058718086197_8321437331896152470_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>thankful for A. to be at a stage where the loss of the money for this cabin is survivable. bummed i am not going but probably for the best. B. sunshine here in Anchorage to enjoy even when you feel a bit under the weather. C. sweet furs to keep you company when you are home<p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-67724972559628915912023-08-09T15:44:00.000-07:002023-08-09T15:44:18.560-07:00questions....<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPjIGPZVYTByDcbUeLTf1tNL8zqWiBoumS_CceTLf_i9vlOfg3gmAMpMX8Ip9Se4YVurqT3sm21b2UOMFcxZZOdauig-4bG6jqWDgwphDM5O1q3Kj82Dr6NEEIA-lztajG9lCMyt1UVSEDibbq1tNp12aaQ_dgFimL8WKvU07YuC0MWfAhKfeTMYHhOQ/s960/358086294_10161067954221197_155998628831585076_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="668" data-original-width="960" height="223" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhPjIGPZVYTByDcbUeLTf1tNL8zqWiBoumS_CceTLf_i9vlOfg3gmAMpMX8Ip9Se4YVurqT3sm21b2UOMFcxZZOdauig-4bG6jqWDgwphDM5O1q3Kj82Dr6NEEIA-lztajG9lCMyt1UVSEDibbq1tNp12aaQ_dgFimL8WKvU07YuC0MWfAhKfeTMYHhOQ/s320/358086294_10161067954221197_155998628831585076_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>got asked a few questions while this crew was here and also my friend was asking me a few questions so....i'll see what answers i can come up with. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiO4dwnZw0FG5YEoH4nAaPCMgkk_Wd8KIse8Y32HKyml-dhB637z_s6B-b9qZKurYhCOOP2lZD6wD-OL8b_LBJuOlmjh_F2rIuomQp1ZC6QbtpespJmLCRf1jcakfmWIsHYj_iNzPPcOb3ZYCekfBcJ98X8eTPOJgcBj6bqb-Olb_Wkqj55V3tQBoZfZw/s2048/358083386_10161058724621197_1356787769991082509_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiO4dwnZw0FG5YEoH4nAaPCMgkk_Wd8KIse8Y32HKyml-dhB637z_s6B-b9qZKurYhCOOP2lZD6wD-OL8b_LBJuOlmjh_F2rIuomQp1ZC6QbtpespJmLCRf1jcakfmWIsHYj_iNzPPcOb3ZYCekfBcJ98X8eTPOJgcBj6bqb-Olb_Wkqj55V3tQBoZfZw/s320/358083386_10161058724621197_1356787769991082509_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>i don't think we always have actual answers to some questions. we can never really know. relationships...i have had many short term relationships. in retrospect i suspect men were fun, toys, companionship but i never met one that i really felt was the guy. i'd seen enough not so great relationships to not want to risk that. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIjBq2HDDZsNInDMAX7h5uK7xbprRq-5QSZJALfpae68WF4_sekiBdg8DgI8vB25jQAnNajcYFVa6XpsmdQ-I_RGmKryW_dvJX7cB5hsw4IUx9befLdkDZK0HdexkGGkOgWM3tkG8e7aUHDaIJDDEvdXmcP6y5VuP-qNrY2RtW066ujM76zOLxr7D-qw/s2048/358079332_10161058727206197_5887059224410219210_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhIjBq2HDDZsNInDMAX7h5uK7xbprRq-5QSZJALfpae68WF4_sekiBdg8DgI8vB25jQAnNajcYFVa6XpsmdQ-I_RGmKryW_dvJX7cB5hsw4IUx9befLdkDZK0HdexkGGkOgWM3tkG8e7aUHDaIJDDEvdXmcP6y5VuP-qNrY2RtW066ujM76zOLxr7D-qw/s320/358079332_10161058727206197_5887059224410219210_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>mostly, my 20's and 30's i just flit around, dating multiple guys, none of them really sticking or me probably pushing them away. i was independent. the average guy, especially, religious sorts, are not that keen on independent, outspoken, opinionated females. it takes a confident guy to accept that, to take on a woman like that. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_nWxPsTTRkbImP3EjlXIi0C9tGRGLNcvbRwa2uaBvvKeVThr4dz9zp3ByN4o3QlZTgOHq-onA2uFQS_Xu2KjQ0lOz-bvxUFNniri2T6SpDGli36p5Obw_ephRKfddWhkVZCbmiD4NtQcHxLgp45eIAEW5y4uV58FSuZ8a14RKvNDjFE-xDYPWoolpDA/s2048/358076819_10161058724651197_1183538111953989295_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi_nWxPsTTRkbImP3EjlXIi0C9tGRGLNcvbRwa2uaBvvKeVThr4dz9zp3ByN4o3QlZTgOHq-onA2uFQS_Xu2KjQ0lOz-bvxUFNniri2T6SpDGli36p5Obw_ephRKfddWhkVZCbmiD4NtQcHxLgp45eIAEW5y4uV58FSuZ8a14RKvNDjFE-xDYPWoolpDA/s320/358076819_10161058724651197_1183538111953989295_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i just look back now and suspect that the truth that i didn't see in myself was that i wasn't all that keen on finding a mate. i mean, people who desperately want to get married or have kids...they do it. they are often miserable, but they reach that goal. i think having that need actually puts people in a terrible and desperate position of settling for a partner who is not a match but is available and willing <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisU9LwnYvyk2Sru2ce6R1TJ-QA_-gO9HLBPDZOansTgW6CdX8FMxU5ix8CFhdnsbS6fcDHcdYxaAVoxZfFMbCenHbDdoCBG2ay3qgYy0Q_iqDgtvsmAYoLqcauldwKWJLxAPRXUH7VTNNBlz4OvK8ivzuhLCDKBazNlzzd94pPPB0PFLl5OyZhVmhhHA/s960/358073918_10161075678681197_6263793908112863837_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="720" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEisU9LwnYvyk2Sru2ce6R1TJ-QA_-gO9HLBPDZOansTgW6CdX8FMxU5ix8CFhdnsbS6fcDHcdYxaAVoxZfFMbCenHbDdoCBG2ay3qgYy0Q_iqDgtvsmAYoLqcauldwKWJLxAPRXUH7VTNNBlz4OvK8ivzuhLCDKBazNlzzd94pPPB0PFLl5OyZhVmhhHA/s320/358073918_10161075678681197_6263793908112863837_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i felt lonely much of my life. i was surrounded by people and yet i felt lonely. i learned a long time ago that being alone is much better than being surrounded by people and being alone. i just never fit in with the life i was in. it was a crowd and i have never been keen on crowds. i started to fit in once i started putting distance between myself and the church. the only place i did enjoy with church 100% was the girls camping program. back then it was geared towards basic life skills, camping skills, friendship. i stayed with the camping program even as i left the religion. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_TuZydHz_jX0RtDbtka2lEBhJA-lOsT3wz_xUnzUVEuAwTuklvE4lGW4_6nvERcSg8gxnLvIgpHhf32KMml_ZxV6lP4-ju6tzZW8k80DGieGhhGKtHDmNGVKhE1iTuE_L_H_LJ_RAUwqjd30vxAPwYs1cmuKUgI2ctoYYrF-1PsVoctbg_3jFGOGHIQ/s2048/358066093_10161058719106197_8074109104592467773_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_TuZydHz_jX0RtDbtka2lEBhJA-lOsT3wz_xUnzUVEuAwTuklvE4lGW4_6nvERcSg8gxnLvIgpHhf32KMml_ZxV6lP4-ju6tzZW8k80DGieGhhGKtHDmNGVKhE1iTuE_L_H_LJ_RAUwqjd30vxAPwYs1cmuKUgI2ctoYYrF-1PsVoctbg_3jFGOGHIQ/s320/358066093_10161058719106197_8074109104592467773_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>being a nurse has allowed me to have a great life experience. i could support myself. i could move anywhere. it got me to Alaska. it got me nearly 2 weeks off each month to live life. it allowed me to support myself. it is also a constant reminder of how precious life is, how fragile. a reminder to enjoy each day we are gifted and our health to be able to live a full life...we see all those who do not have this. we see the people who worked their asses off only to finally retire and have a medical issue/accident take them before they ever enjoyed much of this gift of life. being a nurse also allowed me to meet some of the coolest people. many strong and independent females just like me. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6u5zZMJsV1qo9PN8S4ch4rcTb0Bog-uBMsvU2svo2y60JszZG0CYBUxvW_hZR4AWFyoO7jebPHtqtuPq8-3q1z6h9VQ9F_7z_fEaeX2rW7e8R0m-UeZV_-Nysqlh_qh3uJX8bvbhTMwLbqocHj-5QaPeFsIGCZwtttdX9OCkcjwyHR9yXQPbKFA8vyw/s2048/358064494_10161058749396197_914757182927957763_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj6u5zZMJsV1qo9PN8S4ch4rcTb0Bog-uBMsvU2svo2y60JszZG0CYBUxvW_hZR4AWFyoO7jebPHtqtuPq8-3q1z6h9VQ9F_7z_fEaeX2rW7e8R0m-UeZV_-Nysqlh_qh3uJX8bvbhTMwLbqocHj-5QaPeFsIGCZwtttdX9OCkcjwyHR9yXQPbKFA8vyw/s320/358064494_10161058749396197_914757182927957763_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>it's been very complex as far as family and i should have figured crap out sooner. should have detached emotionally much sooner. it was a no win really. i was always going to be viewed as less than, as an other. honestly, in many ways it would have been easier to have just been cut off. at least it would force you to move forward and not have all this misguided hope. the relationships can be tough with people who believe. the worst is often assumed of you. i don't even know that they are aware of it really...i think it's just how it happens. so i was lonely being surrounded. once you leave, there tends to be a gap that forms that is nearly impossible to bridge, no matter how much effort you put in. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigPyZOu5hSbjvobdiU6eZQPSMW7g53qTp-9zmoZ_xPwnLqEikdQh4j-KzqsppcRlnTUqrKnubpDPKlHiF6w0x2gR_r4u7HU1zjI04-WvulRxbCbtqTqYYPkmgUL6wExM2BD4ZPE_fAMFLA3RGkc5aEnOlC-uBdDjfisPNM_BoFywRveHAJfAUKGXtOwg/s320/285387963_10160138371031197_4815672127953032070_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>grateful for A. another relaxing trek to Homer tide pools B. the octopus sighting C. places like SeaLife Center to try and rescue baby walrus and other marine creatures. <p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8440759996050512.post-76192905902986201802023-07-31T11:16:00.001-07:002023-07-31T11:16:38.628-07:00no life is perfect, but the imperfect is the time to grow...<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtfYqf7VWwZFhemeK9VSmdIde8d-NC1SDSdFlLkdR6Js1ulJxjSsXwNrOIGXzI_yfRMr2GsJfJqKdDgnVm4xgM5S_-LkHeVPnGgGfgApQMVcwOuyGNz1zHBWv7SncTpG_YxVOITcVYgYUoT6rPmslPZwWXEqv0SH26u1C_eDQNKckTpW4uwX7EFgRzqA/s2048/285381930_10160136075946197_4517847032289799000_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjtfYqf7VWwZFhemeK9VSmdIde8d-NC1SDSdFlLkdR6Js1ulJxjSsXwNrOIGXzI_yfRMr2GsJfJqKdDgnVm4xgM5S_-LkHeVPnGgGfgApQMVcwOuyGNz1zHBWv7SncTpG_YxVOITcVYgYUoT6rPmslPZwWXEqv0SH26u1C_eDQNKckTpW4uwX7EFgRzqA/s320/285381930_10160136075946197_4517847032289799000_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>so hopefully, i'm coming out of one period of growth and entering another period of life and living. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpUjQXX9v8nuqA0swpSIikvVoJW0t7lMXGKYx_uYKWQu-XzRMbEzrKgq-ZADBQzaCr0ZOiey0DPKvw2bViP5wgukOvrDo3-dzkuCfEKv7sRt0yt_ggkRHBqY4GBz7IBOUB2R_u4JI5Mx8za4bTfpddjwnlKU7ah9ujG5Stu5ZbhwUnYb05DwlNw9IdkA/s2048/285379955_10160144010191197_2053040164898181911_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjpUjQXX9v8nuqA0swpSIikvVoJW0t7lMXGKYx_uYKWQu-XzRMbEzrKgq-ZADBQzaCr0ZOiey0DPKvw2bViP5wgukOvrDo3-dzkuCfEKv7sRt0yt_ggkRHBqY4GBz7IBOUB2R_u4JI5Mx8za4bTfpddjwnlKU7ah9ujG5Stu5ZbhwUnYb05DwlNw9IdkA/s320/285379955_10160144010191197_2053040164898181911_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>it is easy, especially with social media to see others lives as perfect while critiquing our own as so flawed. first off, a perfect life can actually be dull and lacking in personal growth. it may also just be a mask of the truth....more likely it is. you just never know what others around you have endured in their life. so that perfect life may have had a lot of trauma in years past. things people have overcome and are now just in a different time in their life. their life may be in a rest and joyous time while yours is in a period of tribulation and trauma. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjewTfoW28prRI32CexjrrpZxzM7hGYVE_0ZtozQ1eNvoH56l59hcvclUHv1b9XEYKQt5th8vg2sInmfUt2UQ66sTpRajZwWh2r4RODWQICd5LVsIcHvU8aa4vq7IjuyaZ8jqJRHUZGbTlQ-6cD2lOeD4HmmnGd_rcEd5D6hAy_Bwh35FGE2dBAfGT-ig/s2048/285372480_10160136052131197_8912628891707686536_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjewTfoW28prRI32CexjrrpZxzM7hGYVE_0ZtozQ1eNvoH56l59hcvclUHv1b9XEYKQt5th8vg2sInmfUt2UQ66sTpRajZwWh2r4RODWQICd5LVsIcHvU8aa4vq7IjuyaZ8jqJRHUZGbTlQ-6cD2lOeD4HmmnGd_rcEd5D6hAy_Bwh35FGE2dBAfGT-ig/s320/285372480_10160136052131197_8912628891707686536_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i feel like i am in a good place at the moment. work, well, not my most favorite. not sure if it will get better there. i think it's just time for me to enter a new space. that doesn't mean tomorrow i quit and do something else, but i think it does mean that i have done what i needed to do here and it probably is time for me to brave making a change in the next year or so. i think it's time i step away from others trauma's and death and pain. perhaps find something a little calmer to round out a very good career of helping others. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFpENItaYYfCC8vhB3ZmdomfJS7wtibzLFtzQ9PxIbwEvofZKqqxH0otQLEo0o4MoDjrfxHuAdn_Q0a-ZQNqvSwm6CwKuG708DV3H8B1UbYtFP-YkCJA2UlgES6xgdLWVNeVzADFYepUTUj8CsPYn8rFTjTd3rV-EnG_ZnUV2ZOM_MKxIPUz3pfcmVyQ/s2048/358054050_10161058718381197_7881284982394084681_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiFpENItaYYfCC8vhB3ZmdomfJS7wtibzLFtzQ9PxIbwEvofZKqqxH0otQLEo0o4MoDjrfxHuAdn_Q0a-ZQNqvSwm6CwKuG708DV3H8B1UbYtFP-YkCJA2UlgES6xgdLWVNeVzADFYepUTUj8CsPYn8rFTjTd3rV-EnG_ZnUV2ZOM_MKxIPUz3pfcmVyQ/s320/358054050_10161058718381197_7881284982394084681_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>i really don't know what, if anything, comes after this life. i am actually more at peace with the not knowing than i ever was as a kid with the "knowing". the big plan seems cruel and ridiculous to me. the current God seems pretty petty and mean. imagine docking people for such trivial things. also sending some people to hell for seemingly small infractions while sending horrific people to the same hell for brutalities. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsiJt4zjZvjnJSpCdnurbVSA73mFtFnmNQl14jPYavTptnph7KhOX6hSGGZIL3VosTRIXJC_uLVCxccET_lf_vAqBNSNwZys48tu6jPefiPFw0oiVZbuZgLKTG1oITTEB7wbSgwK6rkypFQHOiliu5mbkFnwWYUpA08cWG0OjKKm-UOm4McaQb6EKU1Q/s2048/358052064_10161058727261197_2692222829745913302_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjsiJt4zjZvjnJSpCdnurbVSA73mFtFnmNQl14jPYavTptnph7KhOX6hSGGZIL3VosTRIXJC_uLVCxccET_lf_vAqBNSNwZys48tu6jPefiPFw0oiVZbuZgLKTG1oITTEB7wbSgwK6rkypFQHOiliu5mbkFnwWYUpA08cWG0OjKKm-UOm4McaQb6EKU1Q/s320/358052064_10161058727261197_2692222829745913302_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>the ferry is in town. i've been on most of the states ferries. always fun. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMQwKxXaXwyOb1m5bWAEYFRoLeUpAHAh1lo6jCrFGU2Oc5pb-cUek776twH4Iv48b91DKff5nMncNZmpLgpSgYUxg8Mxp92APGFccsPb445rED5q-71H5YVqqeWxQTrVHbTKVJ12lJAB-9T0WamXDKGcf08kfGlDWtFie-3Pox1Bl7SwC1_JPWWg67-w/s2048/358051867_10161058749206197_1798520538298626178_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj_uW4IeabRGELI5WN0LmPQBPtu1OSmyksNc-cO3r9nAiJ-WfU2QfGA_-bdtnGI1V4eKelLG0WaTeLee34q-Y41Tf8bBAI_Rv0xDkYx-nuxg9SXmeImtBC239cF0xbpmyIL5AQMc3SBXKiLlRfXNbrHpk1aPkSWQSlRHwa0iiExT7SwaUdsw1IJD9JKuA/s320/358050450_10161058725251197_6322512255687228207_n.jpg" width="320" /></a></div>it's time to get back out there and make more new memories. we certainly did that last week with my relatives. we made some wonderful memories. <br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9qJLCBfCI7jZkMMM_BTBjzRY9mDTzraG_l5La6DkCB-gvZ3gndqbTfP93fMy1b3gIc5SdmgVguws-uNqF-ue0hFV5PvMqnyvLfP5O1DTjSnzYgvV8XQFUodhtx9gNCRf9VhRe3sdiyYCdh6ZQnl704hLl4X3XQGk1mLF4aCV1JA7oT4EEMvpWhF69Nw/s2048/358050081_10161058728061197_6107715411986627579_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; 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text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbUN2PBuaUoHtnqBCUKdaoekrnou6sNd_bP498ab4_4Ejviu5WAxr7Ic5Ntq_t8CG4kbIBHovHms6iBWrM-lKNJSq7-ozqTnLz4prDR3BBCCT3nyq2nxZ_n6VPvaM9FMneheHXIakgQ35dAR0HSrfxB_YrZuX9IxzjHAszw4-PHuPneklGJwQpPxECyg/s2048/358048060_10161058724686197_3261536235969498549_n.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1536" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbUN2PBuaUoHtnqBCUKdaoekrnou6sNd_bP498ab4_4Ejviu5WAxr7Ic5Ntq_t8CG4kbIBHovHms6iBWrM-lKNJSq7-ozqTnLz4prDR3BBCCT3nyq2nxZ_n6VPvaM9FMneheHXIakgQ35dAR0HSrfxB_YrZuX9IxzjHAszw4-PHuPneklGJwQpPxECyg/s320/358048060_10161058724686197_3261536235969498549_n.jpg" width="240" /></a></div>thankful for: A. love, laughter and nature B. sleep, deep and lovely. C. the creatures that share my life and always accept me for who i am. <p></p>Betsy, Ivory Rose and Tuskerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11480812640046788425noreply@blogger.com1