company in the bog...

woke earlier today, but then began coughing and headed back to bed for a bit. eventually, i got the girls out to the bog for a loop. this bull was chilling out there. his ears went back as we walked by, but as long as he doesn't rush to a standing position all is well. i let a woman go before me just in case the dogs spooked him. thought the picture came out well. only one i took. a rough year for our moose population. the snow is deep and heavy. blossom has a rough time getting out when she retrieves her frisbee, i can only imagine what it must be like for moose. i'm officially bored with myself and ready to re-enter life a bit. still coughing though so that could be limiting til that settles a bit more. at least i don't feel like such a germ and i haven't had a coughing/puke thing for a few days. there is hope...the eternal light at the end of the tunnel. speaking of lights. i was in my 20's when i finally was directed to a very good pulmonologist. he was able to convince me that i had a serious illness in this bronchitis and that i needed to take it seriously. oddly, low self esteem kept me from believing that anything about me was important enough to take note of. i figured as long as i was walking i was doing good. at one point i had bronchial pneumonia like this time, bad, but i kept biking and lifting weights and all that. i even headed to mexico to do the rosarita to ensenada 50 mile bike ride. when i returned i went to see the doctor. he wasn't impressed that i'd riden 50 miles like this and instead stated that i was to either head to bed or he'd admit me to the hospital. i was shocked. i'd never taken this lung stuff seriously. he was finally able to get it in my head that this was a serious issue that i needed to manage. i remember once after talking with him i realized that this was possibly how i would die one day. complications of my bronchitis. that woke me up.
above is some neighbors dog who apparently isn't taking that 6 foot fence around his yard too seriously. the snow must be piled up pretty good in that yard. i was just surprised to see him out there this morning.i'm sure i will make up for my lack of pictures this week on another day. maybe i'll do a little driving tomorrow. i start to go stir crazy sitting around the house. i'm trying to go without the hycodan tonight. i may end up awake at 2 am taking a dose, but at some point i have to try without. helps you recover if you don't have that hycodan hangover to bog you down. the animals love having me around all the time i think, though blossom could use a few longer walks. so i'm recovering, i'm bored, i'm sick of feeling like a shut in. when i get sick is when i wish there was someone in my life who gave a crap. it is what it is though. soon i'll be back to my normal self mentally and physically. wallowing in self pity is a good sign though, most of the week i just didn't feel up to it.