rumors were out regarding me changing jobs. wanted to get it all out there before i headed back tomorrow night. i am transferring to the float pool ( now called the resource pool, though oddly, it's listed as a job in the float pool, the managers card says float pool). the bottom line is for me to go back and forth between two units i really have to have the support of both management teams. i definitely got that this wasn't going to happen on the one end. it got busy and i felt like i was the scape goat. i fear this will only happen again and again each time it gets busy. so i've had a great run at doing both units. i will continue to float to both units though now i will also float to other units. i will miss going back and forth between the two units, but life is change and you have to be adaptable. i don't believe in staying longer some place than you should. if it brings you unhappiness you can leave.
i waited several weeks and pondered this decision. there were no attempts to meet in the middle. i found myself feeling irritated and angry. my job is stressful enough without having to deal with silly interpersonal issues. it's not worth the bother. i don't want to become one of those angry people, stewing over trivial things because i am fearful of change. so i am changing. i've learned a lot, made some lovely friends and have become a better, kinder person through this. change is always a bit scary and difficult, but i know i will look back several months from now and realize that i made the right choice. if not...i can always change again. thanks to my many friends who have been supportive and have listened to me drone on as i try to make this decision.
today, i walked with the dogs out rovers run to moose meadow. we've had a light snow falling off and on for a few days now. i did manage to get the ski's into the car finally, but didn't get out for a ski yet. they had groomed the base coat at rovers, but hadn't tracked it.
i did manage to finally get to the POOL!! you gotta start somewhere. i did 60 lengths or 30 laps. it felt great!! change jobs, get my leg fixed and get back in shape!! that is the goal anyway.
my cats stay indoors. an article in the paper today gives me another reason to continue to keep them inside. the headline, "us cats kill about 2.4 billion birds, 12.3 billion mammals annually". those are crazy high numbers!! many of the cats are ferral cats and not pet cats, but still clearly there is an issue. my old cat kotenouk was crazy and eventually i let him out on occasion. one day i think he left 3 tiny birds at my back door before i got him back inside...that was his last trek outside. i felt so guilty. not sure how they actually got this data though. hmm?
the battle over the name of the big mountain in alaska begins again. i'm all for it changing as are most alaskan's i believe. it's known as mckinley, but that is after a president that never actually set foot in alaska. before it was renamed by politicians, it was called denali, or the high one in athabascan. this comes up over and over and a few people in ohio continue to battle it out. one day we will succeed i think. maybe we can switch the titles...denali mountain and mckinley national park?
up to 100 young males have been found shot in the back of their heads, bound in syria. both sides are blaming the other side. such a sad mess syria has become. those poor people are trying to escape the madness at alarming rates. makes me grateful to be where i am. so fortunate. mali is still under taliban rule in some area's. one gentleman was saying all music was banned, even cell phone rings.
so my little job change seems pretty small by comparison to what many across the globe are dealing with each day. i have so much to be grateful for. so a mildly stressful day getting all finalized and arranged and then writing emails to both managers to let them know of my decision officially. the one i had the issues with wished me well and was pleasant in her response. i think sometimes people just are embarrassed and prideful and it's just hard to admit they may have handled something better...at least she didn't make it worse, i gotta give her credit for that.
back to work tomorrow. will have to start getting my new schedule sorted out. hopefully i can do a similar schedule to the one i have enjoyed. asked to change it up so i may get to the iditarod. if not....oh well i guess. we shall see. figure i'm just orienting probably so what does it matter what days i'm there. perhaps i'll find some nice comfort movie to put in and enjoy.
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I'm sorry it came to that. I just turned in my notice yesterday if it makes you feel any better.
ReplyDeleteGo as a river... Thich Nhat Hahn Bets you will make the right choise for you, sorry for the grief you had to deal with for the change to come about. Marcie
ReplyDeleteBest of luck with your transfer. Hope it provides you with a more harmonious working environment. PJ
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