each day an adventure in alaska: always great to wake up crushing skull...thank you Covid Cat!

the joy of pets. was super happy i was wearing slippers for this mornings crunch time.

busy cleaning and packing for this next little adventure. leave in the morning. the shrew was beheaded. it's guts sitting just a few inches from the head that i crushed. looks like Covid Cat is getting back out there, exploring and hunting. he and Miss Breezy have had a few tiffs of late. too much indoor time together perhaps.

so we are going to take a water taxi a very short trek to the cabin. seemed easier than risking losing gear on the steep/icy switch backs. when you are older and more settled in life financially...some times you can just throw money at a thing. not worth the risk of injury. that risk goes up as we get older as well. we both said, if we were in our 20's we wouldn't have thought twice about it. we would have just gone for it. we were also in a more restricted financial situation.

so a few water resistant/proof bags. one for dogs, one for my stuff and one for food/kitchen, plus the sleeping bag, plus cooler plus a dry bag with the camera.

Ivy just put her weight on my knee. so far it seems okay. you never know. so easy to tweak stuff as you get older.

i guess TikTok is being banned in Montana i think it was. so stupid really. they have not given any real indication that there are issues and their interview with the ceo was at the least a shit show of embarrassment. just showed the leadership of our nation is old and out of touch with how any of this works. we just had a 21 year old kid get arrested for releasing secret information from the government. spy lists, Ukraine stats. not for any pay out of anything...just wanted to show off to his on line friends.

i have really come to like tiktok. i get more information there and before it actually shows up on other news sources. most just believe tiktok scares those in government because it is so easy for regular folks to get information and share it with each other. easy for them to meet others like minded.

they are clearly ill equipped for this level of tech. i am, i'm sure of that. watching them with that ceo it was really clear that they are even less knowledgeable than i am...and they work in the government with top clearance. of course, the idiot insurrectionist congresscrew are saying he was set up because he's a white male...we are apparently profiling white males now. so stupid really....so stupid. and yet these idiots hold office and get re-elected!

so we will be at Tonsina Cabin. just a few miles in. hoping the water is perfect for this quick trip. i may extend and make an overnight drive down to Homer after we get back Tuesday from the cabin. home Wednesday and then back to work again on Thursday.

haven't painted for a bit....time to get some of that done. get my painted rock pile ready for some drops this summer.

we have had more snow this week. it feels more and more like spring though. warmer weather. the constant dripping of snow melting.

been to the dog park a few times and there has been a pair of swans out there. seeing the birds return is always a sign of spring. they beat the Canadian Geese even.

Sunny and Ivy will hopefully enjoy another boat trip. his first was last summer over to Seldovia i think. i gotta find a pet sitter for when my family comes up.

work, not much work. i was out with a sinus bug and then Tuesday i got put on call. did work ICU on Wednesday. steady night. lots of unfamiliar faces. hopefully, it's starting to settle down

watched a miniseries last night about the Boston Marathon bombings. it's the 10 year Anniversary. my friend is on her way to do the run again. go Speedy!! her first flight was cancelled due to a volcanic eruption in Russia this past week. the ash cloud was over us so flights were cancelled. she did get out today with her family. Run, Speedy, Run!!

i remember the manhunt. i hadn't really remembered the big shootouts that happened and that the younger brother, who still sits awaiting his death sentence, ran over his brother. also forgot about the poor guy from China, who got carjacked. he took off right at the right time otherwise, i'm sure they would have killed him. he was able to help a lot by giving his cars gps coordinates. it was a new car...i hope someone bought him a new one!

there were a few more wild bullets than probably should have happened. luckily no one in the surrounding homes got injured. lots of lost limbs and lost lives, including at least one officer. i was packing last night as well so i suspect i may have missed a few bits

some people just do not have a curiosity drive. it's frustrating for me. more so now because they still vote and that is voting without all the information. i have to remind myself it's not that they are cold, hateful people. just people who live in a box happily and do not want to question things. they do not want their kids to have curiosity either. curiosity drives you to change. my curiosity in life and drive me to change so much of how i was taught to think and believe.

i always believed that if the church was true, it should stand up to some research. the base history just couldn't be as awful as it turns out it was. if the foundation of a thing is taped together with lies, well then, the entire structure is destine to collapse. it has collapsed for so many out there. some, like me, leave and don't look back. others have got more of an anchor pulling them to stay. i was younger, and more free to just be me.

the bad part, imho, is that the voting choices of those who go vote and then basically look away, are impacting others lives. people who do not live in their box. they refuse to look at the science or accept science, unless they have a specific use for it. so you can say there are many more variants in human sexuality than just xy and xx. no matter what facts you show them, they will just "agree to disagree". saying that these are the only options.

there are so many things that can happen on genes and chromosomes. ignoring it ignores the existence of these humans. they do not fit in to the box that has been created. i'm not sure what the box people want them to do. live out their lives pretending to not feel what they feel. do they wish them to hide in shame and self loathing. pretending to be what they aren't. many had their sex chosen for them at a very young age. all this screaming about we can't allow them to transition as kids and adults...while ignoring that for many born with indeterminant genitalia, they often had a sex chosen for them. not always the one they ended up feeling more associated with. we chose, when they were infants. often because medically, decisions had to be made.

you have to pee. you have to poop. some basics need to be sorted out. having seen these infants it's been apparent to me for decades that sex and sexuality is on a spectrum. it wasn't as clear cut as many would love to believe. so kindness, patiences, understanding and access are really the best way forward

there was a huge gender research place at the time Hitler came into power. they were making big strides in the research of sex and sexuality and gender issues. it was one of the first places where books were burned.

the folks in the box of their own making will read about the Holocaust. but they tend to read the watered down version so they do not have to read of the extend of the evils. it really is the same of all the nastiness of this world. they avoid it. they want to keep things positive and light. i get that, but...

the thing is. those people that had to endure those times. they did not get to select the watered down version of war. the Russians decapitated a pow this past week. he was alive and screaming for his life and they video taped it all. they want to protect kids from learning the truth about our nations history with slavery and how terribly we treated the natives. kids who are black are well aware of racism at a very young age. they can't be protected from these things.

i recall after i'd read the book, "tomorrow we will be killed along with our families"..i got that title wrong but it was about Rwanda and it seemed the movie about Rwanda followed this book fairly closely. i went with a few friends to watch it. it is disturbing. my friend turned to me and said, i don't think i can stomach this...i said, they had to. we respect the lives of those lost when we are willing to learn the horrors they had to live.

it's true with the church and politics on the right. do not treat me like a child. tell me the truth and let me decide. i feel like the rights "news" outlets do not respect their viewers intelligence. that is why they shield them from truths...also it's because they have gotten them to vote and then look away, putting full trust into these fools to fight their battles. they do not want to fight actual battles, they want to carry on in their little box.

sadly those little boxes have gotten covered in barbed wire. they have hate and judgement for those outside the box. as i always say. ignorance leads to fear, fear leads to hatred. once that takes hold, so many horrible things can come of that.

i never will fully understand what it means to be trans in this world. not understanding it though doesn't mean that i would want harm for this group of people. they do deserve to have support as they figure out what it means for them. i was lucky, i didn't have any of this body dysmorphia. i really just can't imagine. surgery and even taking medication is not something people do lightly. it's years of misery and pain before these folks get the courage to just live. even more courage is required if they have been raised in a box that chants that the feelings they feel are not existent. they are not existent. God will fix it...God made it though?

i never comprehend how they can accept and even find ways to embrace all other genetic issues...saying that these are souls sent to bless and teach. hold these kids up as going straight to heaven...but somehow God never tinkers with the genes/chromosomes that have to do with gender and sex...only satan.

these whales are from a few summers back i think. a longer trek out on a beautiful day.

we got loads of action.

flipper wave.

better get back to packing and cleaning. some laundry to be done and of course, a few dogs that i should walk

i guess what i'm saying is have your own opinion but as soon as your opinion goes against facts and science AND makes others lives miserable...more miserable than they already are. well you have gone too far. the thing is. they seem to want these people to hide, to not exist. making people non-existent makes them easier to destroy, to kill outright. that is the slippery slope that we are starting to head down. this is how these mass killings begin.

certain segments of the population are deemed sub human and therefore killing them...well, it's not like really killing anyone of consequence.

in life, you want to be on the right side of history when things like the Holocaust and Rwanda happen. but many that are on the wrong side...just convince themselves these horrors never happened at all. that it's just fake news. then they go to their watered down news programs and are made to feel good about themselves again.