i was up in the wee hours of the night. went outside, mostly to help me breath, but the lights were out so i figured I'd snap a few shots anyway.
it was a strange night. at Kaladi's i started to cough yesterday and it just never stopped. last night i sounded like i was speaking in a tunnel. my airway seemed to be closed up a bit. eventually i hit the inhalers. I'm starting to suspect it may have been a bit of an allergy? i wasn't breathing through a straw but it wasn't my normal airway either. i couldn't find any benadryl in the middle of the night. i did finally manage some sleep and found some benadryl early this morning.
i was out until after 2pm but my breathing was much better by then.
i did manage to get ready for a walk but then it just sounded like too much so i just threw the tennis ball out back for the dogs and headed back to bed. our bodies are strange. no idea. the breathing was making me a bit nervous last night, but it did mean i got to watch this lovely Anchorage light show. supposed to be pretty decent again tonight. still tired so i doubt I'll head out any place though it is tempting.
not my best week. haha. great to have my airway feeling normal again. still coughing, but that at least is more normal.
we shall see what tomorrow brings.
so a short post just to show off my pretty lousy aurora shots. i have not really bothered to hone my aurora skills. there are some amazing photo's out there though. fun to check online and see what folks come up with. I'm usually pretty happy just to watch them from home...go inside and warm up on occasion.
it's been in the 20's during the day. feel bad that the dogs missed their walk today. it's not been their best week either...they suffer when i don't feel great. they honestly don't appear to be suffering much though. they are pretty easy to please and were happy with yard play time and tennis ball chasing.
gave me a chance to fill the bird feeders and pick up the yard. between naps and such they got a few hours of tennis ball time...not too shabby.
not sure what i may have been allergic too. maybe it was just an asthma things. i rarely actually have it escalate like that though. felt like croup. the upper airway spasms freaked me out a bit. deep breathing outside in the cold air seemed to help a bit. they were saying in the ER class that often kids breathing may improve temporarily when they go in the cold night air to bring them in....
anyway...enjoy my lousy aurora pics. it was fun for me to watch anyway. it was all across the sky...imagine how great it was away from the city lights.
thankful for: A. random aurora shows in my back yard B. some basic skills for taking pics, thanks Karen, C. pups who are tolerant when i am under the weather.
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Monday, September 29, 2014
sunshine and puppies!!
seems like i've been chilling more with my dogs than humans aside from work. today we did mix with some humans as i hit the dog park. there was a 13 week old great dane pup there today. pups are so fun!! haven't looked at pics from playing with this new little camera on these short walks i do between shifts. bog, up to creek, dog park...got fresh ink and am printing off more letters to finish up on the mailer. not looking good for non-profit rate at this time. minimal donations coming in at this time as we still wait for the IRS to come through. stamps it is though.
these are from walks last week. powerline pass and hatchers pass. so many beautiful places to walk up here. was lunching last night and a travel nurse walked in. she probably hasn't left the Anchorage bowl yet and seemed disappointed in what she'd seen so far in Alaska. hard to imagine, but i did have a brother who got a basically free trip to the Galapago's and when i asked him how he liked it, his reaction was, "it was okay" not really his thing...something like that. would be a dream trip for me, but not everyone sees the world the same way.
work this week..ER, Peds icu and then back to adult icu to run a continuous dialysis. it's never dull at that place.
soon after i got to the ER i needed to get a patient ready to send up to the floor. as i was trying to remove stickers and monitor stuff i must have given a tug. this lady curses, "dammit that hurt" and then begins to pray for forgiveness for swearing and then apologizes to me repeatedly. now i started dropping the f-bomb myself in 4th grade so dammit doesn't even really qualify as a swear word. i think i said something like, "no big deal, don't worry about it" cause i hear swearing all the time!!
this lady then says, "no you don't understand, I'm Mormon, we don't swear!" i wanted to say i grew up Mormon and i heard the word dammit come out of plenty of Mormons mouths. but i just again said there was really no need to apologize for saying dammit in my presence...at this point she insisted i forgive her for saying dammit....so you are forgiven...turn back roll eyes.
the next night i had a kid that needed spine precautions. these are things that go much smoother with adults...for the most part. i mean if i tell you as an adult that if you flail around the bed you may do further damage and never walk again...you will probably lay pretty still. this is not the case with small children...with them spine precautions are more of a suggestion...which is what i said to the neurosurgeon the next day when he stopped in...he laughed. he knew it was true. all is well though. kids are great recoverers.
i have a memory of dropping the f-bomb to one of my brothers...who then said something about girls not saying words like this...which i felt was a bit sexist. i mean yes it was a bad word, but why would it be worse for a girl to say it than a guy. it was my earliest memories of some feminist leanings. not sure that i called him a male chauvinist pig but i do know it wasn't too long after that i did call my father one.
this wasn't appreciated by my father though and i believe this was a rare spanking that i received. this was my reaction to my father taking my male siblings to yet another sporting event...this time the Lakers. in retrospect it really had nothing to do with my desire to go to a Laker game, it did have everything to do with my desire to spend quality time with my father. that didn't happen and instead i got a spanking. i've never been to a Laker game in my life. fyi.
not sure where i learned the term male chauvinist pig. my thoughts is that this had been directed at Archie Bunker in an old show "all in the family". who says television isn't educational!!
cosmetic surgeries can be great at certain ages. i haven't had any..a near 90 year old woman is an example of why i'm nervous about many of these. like the 90 plus lady who was wearing spanks...this woman was thin as a rail. i thought she had a growth under her arm but it just was very perky breasts that had migrated to an area closer to her arm pit than the top of her chest.
a few of Blossom and a selfie with my girl. Rio skipped this hike, but did go to Hatchers.
i didn't wear my knee supporter this week. my knee still feels stiff but i feel like i need to make an directed effort to walk with my usual swagger. find yourself walking off when you have pain and a brace and it seems no matter what you should try and walk your normal way. found myself using my arms more and my legs less so this week i've been trying to do more stretches, deep knee bends and yoga poses through the day. joint feels stiff but better...so just doing my own PT and hopefully i'll have good results.
will need to start the Monday walks soon. maybe the second week of October. wanted to play a bit more before i commit. a few folks have been asking . we do seem to start in September most years. always fun times though.
love the lichen and rocks covered with lichen out there.
a volcano erupted in Japan. there was so much ash! there was no warning it seems and it appears to be a very popular hiking area. the rapid moving plumes of smoke sent hikers running for cover. there were at least 30 that succumbed probably to the ash cloud. many others holed up in a building over night and were shaken up by overall ok. i imagine that would be very scary.
of course, i think we say some of the first reports in the wee hours last night. the story read a bit odd. 31 people found unresponsive, not breathing and without pulses...a medical examiner would need to determine if they were dead...
i'm in Alaska and from that sentence i can tell you those poor people are dead...you don't need a medical examiner for that diagnosis. the original article went on for many sentences/paragraphs in this vein. it doesn't appear they are breathing...not sure if there are fatalities at this time. strange but i wish i'd printed it out. we are sick i know, but it was pretty strange and funny.
was happy my filter never clotted on my dialysis machine last night. it wasn't a bad night over there. people often ask me where my favorite unit is to work. i'd say no matter where i work, the ICU is still my home. i do enjoy the variety and ER has become a fun place overall as well. it's more tasky than brainy so it's a nice break...that being said, i dam good ER nurse will pick up on stuff pretty quickly and react. a lot of guts and instinct i think.
as with many things medical..it's all about your medical team and in crisis situations some of that is just luck.
pictures of bull moose in this area in the paper, it is about that time. this valley fills up with moose on the hunt for females to mix and mingle with and it also fills with photographers looking for good bull moose photos.
i'm not opposed to legal marijuana...but i'm thinking we all sit back, relax and let Colorado be the test pilot on the whole thing. i've never taken a puff of marijuana or even a regular cigarette. i grew up in Los Angeles smog so i think my lungs have had enough. if i i had cancer and nausea that wouldn't go away or needed an appetite stimulant i can't say i wouldn't give the weed a chance.
as far as working in a hospital i see much worse outcomes from alcohol than i do from weed. used to excess alcohol is pretty terrible to a body. those iv drug abusers do a number on their bodies as well. all that stuff may be cool when you are young, but it ages the crap out of people. i'm often amazed when i look at some people in the hospital and see their real ages.
this are from the drive down turnigan.
the only shot of the lights i took that one night last week. mostly i enjoyed the dancing lights....then i figured what the heck i'll go grab the camera. took this before i could find the tripod and get it all set up. hate thinking when i take pictures. haha. so this is pretty blurry light action. several friends get out and get really nice pictures. many folks in the area get pretty obsessed with the lights and will be out in the wee hours driving all over looking for the lights and the cool places to get pictures of them. many of them are pretty successful at it too.
our political races up here are brutal. so annoying and a bit frightening...fear the wrong people will get into office and our animals and environment will suffer. seems like too many running for those positions do not hold the beauty of Alaska dear and instead or more driven by money and power.
back in beautiful Hatchers pass.
a guy who had been fired returned and attacked a few of his ex-coworkers, beheading one. i had just said last week to a co-worker that there was no doubt that in the not too distant future there would be a copycat beheading on American soil. didn't take very long at all. we are surrounded by crazy people just waiting for their moment. a human life means nothing to them...notoriety does though.
was happy to read that the mosque that he worshipped in condemned this act and was clear that this behaviour is not a part of Islam teachings. it is good to hear more and more people of that faith speaking out.
in other news...apparently a group of students from BYU were protesting on that church's ban on beards for their students. they have in the past had a fairly long list of rules of conduct and dressing and such for their students. i remember when i was trying to pick a college way back then the idea of going to a school where i would have more rules to abide by than i did living with my parents did not appeal to me. the beard thing does seem a bit silly, many of the leaders of the church sported beards, especially in the early days. beards don't equal moral decay...i think it's all just a leftover from the 60's and 70's.
the local shelter has re-opened after hours drop off cages where the animals will remain safe and warm not matter how cold it is outside. it's meant for strays only, but no doubt people will use it to drop off unwanted animals.
will do a bit of envelope stuffing before i hit the sack tonight. still debating a drive to Seward...if it looks like this i will load up the pups and see what we see. it's been so beautiful this week..don't want to miss out on a drive before the cold weather cabins us all up a bit more.
the other day as i was doing the bog loop i noticed loads of firefighting trucks in the neighborhood nearby. i don't remember smelling any smoke but apparently there had been a fire and a few firefighters had suffered injuries.
thursday morning i fed the dogs and returned to bed. was hoping for some good sleep before heading to work that night. i woke to cats flying and the house in a good rattle. knew immediately it was a quake...a bigger one somewhere. wasn't sure if it was just getting started and going to get worse. it went on for quite awhile it seems and so i got out of bed and put my slippers on in case i needed to leave. the shaking slowed at that point so i figured it was over and crawled back in bed, but then the shaking started up again. turned out to be a 6.2 quake...i think about 80 miles from anchorage and then another 60 miles below us. if it had been more surface it would have been pretty brutal.
just had knick knacks fall over and the cats flying. you never know when a bigger quake will hit though. guess we followed up with another 4.7 quake which was more like 30 miles deep, i think ithe same distance away. i was at work for that one, but never noticed it.
best be off to stuff envelopes...keep looking outside to see if any lights appear.
thankful fors... A. puppies...they always make you smile B. chicken saltimboca...yes, i actually made a tasty meal for dinner tonight. C. chocolate...so nummy!!
these are from walks last week. powerline pass and hatchers pass. so many beautiful places to walk up here. was lunching last night and a travel nurse walked in. she probably hasn't left the Anchorage bowl yet and seemed disappointed in what she'd seen so far in Alaska. hard to imagine, but i did have a brother who got a basically free trip to the Galapago's and when i asked him how he liked it, his reaction was, "it was okay" not really his thing...something like that. would be a dream trip for me, but not everyone sees the world the same way.
work this week..ER, Peds icu and then back to adult icu to run a continuous dialysis. it's never dull at that place.
soon after i got to the ER i needed to get a patient ready to send up to the floor. as i was trying to remove stickers and monitor stuff i must have given a tug. this lady curses, "dammit that hurt" and then begins to pray for forgiveness for swearing and then apologizes to me repeatedly. now i started dropping the f-bomb myself in 4th grade so dammit doesn't even really qualify as a swear word. i think i said something like, "no big deal, don't worry about it" cause i hear swearing all the time!!
this lady then says, "no you don't understand, I'm Mormon, we don't swear!" i wanted to say i grew up Mormon and i heard the word dammit come out of plenty of Mormons mouths. but i just again said there was really no need to apologize for saying dammit in my presence...at this point she insisted i forgive her for saying dammit....so you are forgiven...turn back roll eyes.
the next night i had a kid that needed spine precautions. these are things that go much smoother with adults...for the most part. i mean if i tell you as an adult that if you flail around the bed you may do further damage and never walk again...you will probably lay pretty still. this is not the case with small children...with them spine precautions are more of a suggestion...which is what i said to the neurosurgeon the next day when he stopped in...he laughed. he knew it was true. all is well though. kids are great recoverers.
i have a memory of dropping the f-bomb to one of my brothers...who then said something about girls not saying words like this...which i felt was a bit sexist. i mean yes it was a bad word, but why would it be worse for a girl to say it than a guy. it was my earliest memories of some feminist leanings. not sure that i called him a male chauvinist pig but i do know it wasn't too long after that i did call my father one.
this wasn't appreciated by my father though and i believe this was a rare spanking that i received. this was my reaction to my father taking my male siblings to yet another sporting event...this time the Lakers. in retrospect it really had nothing to do with my desire to go to a Laker game, it did have everything to do with my desire to spend quality time with my father. that didn't happen and instead i got a spanking. i've never been to a Laker game in my life. fyi.
not sure where i learned the term male chauvinist pig. my thoughts is that this had been directed at Archie Bunker in an old show "all in the family". who says television isn't educational!!
cosmetic surgeries can be great at certain ages. i haven't had any..a near 90 year old woman is an example of why i'm nervous about many of these. like the 90 plus lady who was wearing spanks...this woman was thin as a rail. i thought she had a growth under her arm but it just was very perky breasts that had migrated to an area closer to her arm pit than the top of her chest.
a few of Blossom and a selfie with my girl. Rio skipped this hike, but did go to Hatchers.
i didn't wear my knee supporter this week. my knee still feels stiff but i feel like i need to make an directed effort to walk with my usual swagger. find yourself walking off when you have pain and a brace and it seems no matter what you should try and walk your normal way. found myself using my arms more and my legs less so this week i've been trying to do more stretches, deep knee bends and yoga poses through the day. joint feels stiff but better...so just doing my own PT and hopefully i'll have good results.
will need to start the Monday walks soon. maybe the second week of October. wanted to play a bit more before i commit. a few folks have been asking . we do seem to start in September most years. always fun times though.
love the lichen and rocks covered with lichen out there.
a volcano erupted in Japan. there was so much ash! there was no warning it seems and it appears to be a very popular hiking area. the rapid moving plumes of smoke sent hikers running for cover. there were at least 30 that succumbed probably to the ash cloud. many others holed up in a building over night and were shaken up by overall ok. i imagine that would be very scary.
of course, i think we say some of the first reports in the wee hours last night. the story read a bit odd. 31 people found unresponsive, not breathing and without pulses...a medical examiner would need to determine if they were dead...
i'm in Alaska and from that sentence i can tell you those poor people are dead...you don't need a medical examiner for that diagnosis. the original article went on for many sentences/paragraphs in this vein. it doesn't appear they are breathing...not sure if there are fatalities at this time. strange but i wish i'd printed it out. we are sick i know, but it was pretty strange and funny.
was happy my filter never clotted on my dialysis machine last night. it wasn't a bad night over there. people often ask me where my favorite unit is to work. i'd say no matter where i work, the ICU is still my home. i do enjoy the variety and ER has become a fun place overall as well. it's more tasky than brainy so it's a nice break...that being said, i dam good ER nurse will pick up on stuff pretty quickly and react. a lot of guts and instinct i think.
as with many things medical..it's all about your medical team and in crisis situations some of that is just luck.
pictures of bull moose in this area in the paper, it is about that time. this valley fills up with moose on the hunt for females to mix and mingle with and it also fills with photographers looking for good bull moose photos.
i'm not opposed to legal marijuana...but i'm thinking we all sit back, relax and let Colorado be the test pilot on the whole thing. i've never taken a puff of marijuana or even a regular cigarette. i grew up in Los Angeles smog so i think my lungs have had enough. if i i had cancer and nausea that wouldn't go away or needed an appetite stimulant i can't say i wouldn't give the weed a chance.
as far as working in a hospital i see much worse outcomes from alcohol than i do from weed. used to excess alcohol is pretty terrible to a body. those iv drug abusers do a number on their bodies as well. all that stuff may be cool when you are young, but it ages the crap out of people. i'm often amazed when i look at some people in the hospital and see their real ages.
this are from the drive down turnigan.
the only shot of the lights i took that one night last week. mostly i enjoyed the dancing lights....then i figured what the heck i'll go grab the camera. took this before i could find the tripod and get it all set up. hate thinking when i take pictures. haha. so this is pretty blurry light action. several friends get out and get really nice pictures. many folks in the area get pretty obsessed with the lights and will be out in the wee hours driving all over looking for the lights and the cool places to get pictures of them. many of them are pretty successful at it too.
our political races up here are brutal. so annoying and a bit frightening...fear the wrong people will get into office and our animals and environment will suffer. seems like too many running for those positions do not hold the beauty of Alaska dear and instead or more driven by money and power.
back in beautiful Hatchers pass.
a guy who had been fired returned and attacked a few of his ex-coworkers, beheading one. i had just said last week to a co-worker that there was no doubt that in the not too distant future there would be a copycat beheading on American soil. didn't take very long at all. we are surrounded by crazy people just waiting for their moment. a human life means nothing to them...notoriety does though.
was happy to read that the mosque that he worshipped in condemned this act and was clear that this behaviour is not a part of Islam teachings. it is good to hear more and more people of that faith speaking out.
in other news...apparently a group of students from BYU were protesting on that church's ban on beards for their students. they have in the past had a fairly long list of rules of conduct and dressing and such for their students. i remember when i was trying to pick a college way back then the idea of going to a school where i would have more rules to abide by than i did living with my parents did not appeal to me. the beard thing does seem a bit silly, many of the leaders of the church sported beards, especially in the early days. beards don't equal moral decay...i think it's all just a leftover from the 60's and 70's.
the local shelter has re-opened after hours drop off cages where the animals will remain safe and warm not matter how cold it is outside. it's meant for strays only, but no doubt people will use it to drop off unwanted animals.
will do a bit of envelope stuffing before i hit the sack tonight. still debating a drive to Seward...if it looks like this i will load up the pups and see what we see. it's been so beautiful this week..don't want to miss out on a drive before the cold weather cabins us all up a bit more.
the other day as i was doing the bog loop i noticed loads of firefighting trucks in the neighborhood nearby. i don't remember smelling any smoke but apparently there had been a fire and a few firefighters had suffered injuries.
thursday morning i fed the dogs and returned to bed. was hoping for some good sleep before heading to work that night. i woke to cats flying and the house in a good rattle. knew immediately it was a quake...a bigger one somewhere. wasn't sure if it was just getting started and going to get worse. it went on for quite awhile it seems and so i got out of bed and put my slippers on in case i needed to leave. the shaking slowed at that point so i figured it was over and crawled back in bed, but then the shaking started up again. turned out to be a 6.2 quake...i think about 80 miles from anchorage and then another 60 miles below us. if it had been more surface it would have been pretty brutal.
just had knick knacks fall over and the cats flying. you never know when a bigger quake will hit though. guess we followed up with another 4.7 quake which was more like 30 miles deep, i think ithe same distance away. i was at work for that one, but never noticed it.
best be off to stuff envelopes...keep looking outside to see if any lights appear.
thankful fors... A. puppies...they always make you smile B. chicken saltimboca...yes, i actually made a tasty meal for dinner tonight. C. chocolate...so nummy!!
Friday, March 21, 2014
mixed bag of march..
that is my girl of course...she's as cute in black and white as in colour!!
several of these are from the walk out to portage and then others are a walk to a beach and then a few northern lights shots from last night.
i was on call last night. man was i happy to get that call. i need to make sure i get paid though. felt very sleepy last night and that has continued today. i'm actually of the mind that i have a bit of a gastrointestinal bug. just ain't right today. no fever though i've felt feverish at times. the good thing about gi bugs is they usually move on quickly.
did make it out to walk the beasts. that tends to go a long ways to making me feel better. went pretty well and the day was absolutely beautiful. we meandered and wrote words in the snow...
rio was game for a walk as well, though she moves pretty slow. i did manage a subway sandwich. sometimes not eating will make you just feel worse. i'm sure i got a bit dry. oddly, ice cream sounded good so that was the other thing i've eaten today. so far...not bad.
my other two nights of work went fine. worked in PCU and ER. i rarely work PCU. my patients heart was taking big pauses as was he. the Dr and i had a bit of a disagreement about what should be done about it. eventually i won...he went to the ACC. those docs just need to listen to me. sometimes us nurses can't tell you exactly what is up, but our gut will tell us things are going downhill fast and...those docs need to listen.
i remember one Dr telling me another Dr had told him that if i told him his patient wasn't doing well he needed to listen. i do have very good instincts about these things. heart stoppage, no problem, vomiting copious amounts of blood, problem. go figure...
these are at the conservation center.
my work is strange compared to the usual jobs out there. i like that though. no two nights are ever the same. i am an associates degree nurse, which sadly these days is becoming like a leper nurse. seems the powers that be are deciding that my degree is useless and that any nurse who has that degree is clearly a risk to patient care and patient safety...no matter how experienced they are. read an article in a nursing rag and that was pretty much the gist of it as far as i could see....people who are care about patient safety are insisting that the nurses are BSN's not ADN's.
so do i bite the bullet and become "safe" or do i hope that i can skate by until i retire? i really dread taking more nursing classes. i like nursing ok, but the coursework was hell. so many hoops, besides, school is much different than it was years ago. huge learning curve.
i know i could figure it out and adapt. it's just a matter of desire. it may be forced on me at some point. of course, i could just get myself motivated to write a few best selling books. haha!!
medicine has been good to me. rough on the body some days, but overall, not a bad living.
these, moose included, are from a walk down on the coastal refuge here in anchorage.
watched a TedTalks given by an astronaut. it was about fear and imagined fear. how it can hold you back. i think he asked, "what are you most afraid of" which was followed by his tale of having all that firepower under his arse and being blown up into space. the odds of dying on his mission very high compared to the odds of failing on one of our earthly missions i guess.
fear is real though and it does keep many people from living the life they could live. not sure it was that effective to basically say, i went to space and that is way more of a real fear than anything you will ever encounter. fear is often imagined and much of it can be based on past experiences or even confidence. there are often complicating issues.
it can be sad though to watch others who are, as they say, paralyzed by their fears. who never come close to their own potential for happiness. i'm sure i take less fearful steps as i get older, but at the same time, my previous leaps over fear or fear conquered have brought me to a place where i do have happiness so i probably don't require as many life altering fear inducing moments now than i did when i was younger.
suppose i could decide to up and move to Iceland or something. or just write those books and take those chances. i guess i think that is laziness holding me back more than fear. do i fear success or failure?
when i walked out to the refuge that day i saw 3 moose laying down as i returned i only saw 2...no fear, but i did keep an eye open for that other moose.
slowly those to do list items are at least getting scheduled. of course, more items keep coming in.
i will be charged for my CT from my concussion. the hospital insurance called me to say that this would probably be covered by my car insurance. i thought this odd as i wasn't in a car wreck i just hit my head on my car. i told the woman, "if i hit my head on my house would my homeowners insurance be held responsible?". sure enough...my car insurance is the primary on this. so i have had to tell my sad and embarrassing tale several times again to various people from State Farm. so far all seems to be running smoothly. the bear story is more interesting to tell than the story of me not ducking enough when tossing crap in my car and giving myself a concussion.
still think it's weird that this is a car insurance issue and that if the bear had managed to get in my car and attack me, that too would be a car insurance issue. that is sandra above and myself below.
blossom was in both. rio stayed home that day.
got the dogs around the bog yesterday. would have gone longer if i'd known i was going to get an on call. never got called in. did stay up until about 3am or later. seems easier.
it's not that i accomplished much.
had a massage today. my knot count is less. still some lingerers. so she worked those out a bit.
these are clearly from the portage glacier.
no more iditarod news...it's in the past. til next year.
a nice dude out there took a picture of the group of us.
some friends in town so planning some meals out. that's good as sometimes i just can't get excited about anything here. if nothing sounds good i tend to just skip meals or just eat a slice of cheese and move on.
continuing with these bloody hot rushes. looking online for some natural remedies. perhaps dong quai? anyone ever used anything that worked. i really thought i'd be thrilled with being warmed but it's not consistent enough to benefit me..i tend to be chilly all the time.
so when i'm awake late at night i often will just pop out on the back deck and see if the northern lights are out. sometimes they are. mostly they are barely visible due to the city lights. last night they actually looked fairly bright so i finally popped out with my camera on the little used tripod.
not amazing photo's, but i must say i'm not sure i've ever really even attempted this so not bad for a beginner.
always fun to watch. tough to capture the dancing lights on one shot deals. i used 2.5-5 second times. wide angle lens at infinity.
so there you have it...dancing lights in my backyard. life is good.
they were really pretty active and bright at times. perhaps if i see them tonight i'll actually load up the car...though it is doubtful...as i said laziness beats out fear in my life.
i believe i shall curl up for a bit again. i've managed the chips i bought with the subway sandwich today...so almost a little cup of jello, subway sandwich, a few crackers and ginger ale and ice cream...and now chips..that ought to be enough for one day. good night.
several of these are from the walk out to portage and then others are a walk to a beach and then a few northern lights shots from last night.
i was on call last night. man was i happy to get that call. i need to make sure i get paid though. felt very sleepy last night and that has continued today. i'm actually of the mind that i have a bit of a gastrointestinal bug. just ain't right today. no fever though i've felt feverish at times. the good thing about gi bugs is they usually move on quickly.
did make it out to walk the beasts. that tends to go a long ways to making me feel better. went pretty well and the day was absolutely beautiful. we meandered and wrote words in the snow...
rio was game for a walk as well, though she moves pretty slow. i did manage a subway sandwich. sometimes not eating will make you just feel worse. i'm sure i got a bit dry. oddly, ice cream sounded good so that was the other thing i've eaten today. so far...not bad.
my other two nights of work went fine. worked in PCU and ER. i rarely work PCU. my patients heart was taking big pauses as was he. the Dr and i had a bit of a disagreement about what should be done about it. eventually i won...he went to the ACC. those docs just need to listen to me. sometimes us nurses can't tell you exactly what is up, but our gut will tell us things are going downhill fast and...those docs need to listen.
i remember one Dr telling me another Dr had told him that if i told him his patient wasn't doing well he needed to listen. i do have very good instincts about these things. heart stoppage, no problem, vomiting copious amounts of blood, problem. go figure...
these are at the conservation center.
my work is strange compared to the usual jobs out there. i like that though. no two nights are ever the same. i am an associates degree nurse, which sadly these days is becoming like a leper nurse. seems the powers that be are deciding that my degree is useless and that any nurse who has that degree is clearly a risk to patient care and patient safety...no matter how experienced they are. read an article in a nursing rag and that was pretty much the gist of it as far as i could see....people who are care about patient safety are insisting that the nurses are BSN's not ADN's.
so do i bite the bullet and become "safe" or do i hope that i can skate by until i retire? i really dread taking more nursing classes. i like nursing ok, but the coursework was hell. so many hoops, besides, school is much different than it was years ago. huge learning curve.
i know i could figure it out and adapt. it's just a matter of desire. it may be forced on me at some point. of course, i could just get myself motivated to write a few best selling books. haha!!
medicine has been good to me. rough on the body some days, but overall, not a bad living.
these, moose included, are from a walk down on the coastal refuge here in anchorage.
watched a TedTalks given by an astronaut. it was about fear and imagined fear. how it can hold you back. i think he asked, "what are you most afraid of" which was followed by his tale of having all that firepower under his arse and being blown up into space. the odds of dying on his mission very high compared to the odds of failing on one of our earthly missions i guess.
fear is real though and it does keep many people from living the life they could live. not sure it was that effective to basically say, i went to space and that is way more of a real fear than anything you will ever encounter. fear is often imagined and much of it can be based on past experiences or even confidence. there are often complicating issues.
it can be sad though to watch others who are, as they say, paralyzed by their fears. who never come close to their own potential for happiness. i'm sure i take less fearful steps as i get older, but at the same time, my previous leaps over fear or fear conquered have brought me to a place where i do have happiness so i probably don't require as many life altering fear inducing moments now than i did when i was younger.
suppose i could decide to up and move to Iceland or something. or just write those books and take those chances. i guess i think that is laziness holding me back more than fear. do i fear success or failure?
when i walked out to the refuge that day i saw 3 moose laying down as i returned i only saw 2...no fear, but i did keep an eye open for that other moose.
slowly those to do list items are at least getting scheduled. of course, more items keep coming in.
i will be charged for my CT from my concussion. the hospital insurance called me to say that this would probably be covered by my car insurance. i thought this odd as i wasn't in a car wreck i just hit my head on my car. i told the woman, "if i hit my head on my house would my homeowners insurance be held responsible?". sure enough...my car insurance is the primary on this. so i have had to tell my sad and embarrassing tale several times again to various people from State Farm. so far all seems to be running smoothly. the bear story is more interesting to tell than the story of me not ducking enough when tossing crap in my car and giving myself a concussion.
still think it's weird that this is a car insurance issue and that if the bear had managed to get in my car and attack me, that too would be a car insurance issue. that is sandra above and myself below.
blossom was in both. rio stayed home that day.
got the dogs around the bog yesterday. would have gone longer if i'd known i was going to get an on call. never got called in. did stay up until about 3am or later. seems easier.
it's not that i accomplished much.
had a massage today. my knot count is less. still some lingerers. so she worked those out a bit.
these are clearly from the portage glacier.
no more iditarod news...it's in the past. til next year.
a nice dude out there took a picture of the group of us.
some friends in town so planning some meals out. that's good as sometimes i just can't get excited about anything here. if nothing sounds good i tend to just skip meals or just eat a slice of cheese and move on.
continuing with these bloody hot rushes. looking online for some natural remedies. perhaps dong quai? anyone ever used anything that worked. i really thought i'd be thrilled with being warmed but it's not consistent enough to benefit me..i tend to be chilly all the time.
so when i'm awake late at night i often will just pop out on the back deck and see if the northern lights are out. sometimes they are. mostly they are barely visible due to the city lights. last night they actually looked fairly bright so i finally popped out with my camera on the little used tripod.
not amazing photo's, but i must say i'm not sure i've ever really even attempted this so not bad for a beginner.
always fun to watch. tough to capture the dancing lights on one shot deals. i used 2.5-5 second times. wide angle lens at infinity.
so there you have it...dancing lights in my backyard. life is good.
they were really pretty active and bright at times. perhaps if i see them tonight i'll actually load up the car...though it is doubtful...as i said laziness beats out fear in my life.
i believe i shall curl up for a bit again. i've managed the chips i bought with the subway sandwich today...so almost a little cup of jello, subway sandwich, a few crackers and ginger ale and ice cream...and now chips..that ought to be enough for one day. good night.
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