another quick note before work..

 

i paid for two somewhat easy nights with a hell night. that is how it works.  first night last stretch i was in the ER for holds but i had an orientee so she did most of the heavy lifting.  the next night i was in the cardiac icu with just one IMCU patient...all night.  one patient!!  

my last night...well, i had one easy patient and then i got a trauma admit.  had a bad feeling from the get go.  super nice patient.  i'm not sure that patient is alive now.  coded in the wee hours..

got the patient back from that, but it was a night of continuous motion.  in the end i didn't stop to eat all  night.  the morning i just crashed without eating and then i got up and took the dogs for a walk. 

i had grabbed a few cheese and crackers before the walk and i think half a banana.  so by the time the walk was done i was super hungry. i'd also heard that the patient may have passed. 

admit i started to weep and and cry a bit at the Outback as the lady brought out my food. it was the 4th of July. 

the plus side is nights like that remind me of the things i do like about my job.  how you put your heart and soul into the care of a total stranger and hope for the best. 

the stress of covid had taken much of that away.  i mean we did it but now there was this other threat to us that seemed to work its way into every shift we had. it was easy to forget the raw power of what we do. 

the patient went into a soon to be unsurvivable rhythm  but was still with me...i think we actually called the code right before the patient coded.  i looked up at my co-worker, he asked should he call a code, i said yes and when i looked back.  agonal breaths, no pulse. we had just been talking to the patient. everything changes, slows down. 

sometimes i worry i react to slow because i am generally pretty calm...maybe too calm.  i think i've just learned to be calm and hold the anxiety inside until later.  later was at the Outback Steakhouse as i stopped to pick up a meal. 

i watched "the big year" that night.  fireworks all over. the dogs don't seem anxious as much as they are hyper vigilant and barking. so i try to just be a bit louder.  closed the dog door for the night. 

so happy 4th. i for sure made my money that night.

met up with LS for a walk yesterday.  after i was determined to put this desk together.  i told her i might need a bit of help...she's helped me on several projects over the years. 

i got done with several steps and then called when it was time to flip the table over...no way i could do it alone.  it's a large and pretty desk really...adult.  so she and her husband came over...i mentioned i had another project he could work on if he was bored and then we could call him if we had issues with the desk.  the project i gave him was the rack for the new car.  it's on!!

so many thanks to L and J!!  i was up late starting to organize the office and revamp things. still a lot to do and now i'm getting a call that the carpet folks are ready to set up a time.  need to get the railing ready prior to that.  always a project. 

in pulling the old desk out to put the new on in i must have pulled out a cord for the internet.  so no internet last night.  that is why i'm doing a quick blog now. 

i was super careful but something wasn't right.  there had been a few spare parts not connected to anything which last night i just figured were from when the gci guys added this new box. 

today while out walking it occurred to me that one of those cords may have been pulled as i pulled out the desk. i was right and now i'm back up and running. 

should be getting ready for work and i shall soon. 

just a quick blog before i go. 

not thrilled to head back and hope it's a better night.  

can't believe we are in July...my calendar isn't even flipped yet. 

no parties this year.  just deep sleep once i crashed, which was late.

will have to make a run some place on my stretch off but i also need to call the carpet folks tomorrow and get that arranged. will make the place look a bit less ghetto if i have carpet on all the stairs.  haha. 

Ivy and Tusker are usually very helpful when i make the bed.

half of the office is starting to get back to normal. 

always great to get rid of all the extra crap and to enjoy things from years ago that you haven't looked at for a while. i have a few old scrap books, fun to see all the fun stuff i have done over the years. 

life is pretty dang good. 

better get myself ready for work.  rain today.  i did manage the dog park with the beasts.  

thankful for A.  friends who come to the rescue on projects that are tough for singletons B. walking in the rain.  C. great co-workers who help you when it takes more than one nurse to save a life.