I'd rather be an ass than an idiot....

 

there are so many idiots out there.  clueless and foolish.  i know of what i speak i see them come in after refusing the vaccines but taking the ivermectin. many will never make it out of the hospital, some may survive but have issues for years or just die months after the infectious portion has ended.

some idiots accused me of hating those who do not vaccinate...they are incapable of seeing anything that exists that isn't either love or hate.  that is pretty idiotic. i don't love everyone.  love is not really an emotion that exists to be used universally. that isn't how love works. hate doesn't work that way either.  not agreeing with and/or objecting to ones foolish decisions does not mean hating them.  

i just believe they are being idiots and are in effect potentially causing not just their own deaths but the deaths of others.  if you go online and make claims to love those who do nothing to help their fellow man just as much as you love those who do...all you do is give them a justification, a soft place to land. 

it's time for some tough love as it were.  these anti vax fools need to be made to see the error of their ways....if nothing else they do not need to be coddled into believing they have support for their choices. people are dying, hospitals are full.  so full.  we are packed with unvaccinated covid patients.  

that means there is little to no room for the patients that used to pack our rooms...you know, trauma's, heart attacks, strokes.  we are understaffed and that puts patients at even more risk.  we have higher than normal patient ratio's. 

yes, you idiots...people who have had the vaccine can still get ill.  with the vaccine your chances of getting hospitalized or dying decrease a great amount.  we still do not know how long these vaccines will protect us...i'm ready to get a booster the day they announce they will given them to us. 

in the meantime i do try to walk and keep myself as healthy as i can.  due to masking and distancing...i have not had a cold bug at all since this started. that means my lungs will be at their best, hopefully, if and when i do get this.  i have also been able to build up vacation time.  

now that my guests have left i can finish the stair rail project!  and start again on the plans for the floors in the downstairs bath and a new toilet. 

i have little patience or empathy for the nonvaccinated patients. i do hold my tongue a lot, not saying the things that i so want to say as they whine about their current predicament.  

occasionally i fail and i am short.  i pissed one lady off. she kicked me out of her room.  i had been honest with her as she whined about  the 6 L nc blowing too hard.  i said, it starts with 6 L, then it will be 20-40 L flow with the high flow nasal canula, then she will move on to a face mask and after that it will be intubation.  my prediction was correct.  she passed away i heard. i did apologize for my rudeness.  she apologized for her behavior.  it's sad to watch something that could have had the worst of it possibly prevented play out over and over. 

then to see how those who talked crap about medicine and the CDC and the FDA now beg for the very treatments they mocked 

we are pissed that this seems to have to be a one person at a time realization, often too late for their survival and no doubt their relatives and friends will not heed their death bed warnings to get the vaccine. 

our idiotic trumpy mayor has not been vaccinated and says, there is just nothing he can do about covid.  really?  there is so much he could do if he had a spine or any intelligence.  if he and so many of them weren't so afraid of upsetting their idiot base and not getting votes.  it's so ridiculous.  most of those in power have gotten vaccines but still won't support the vaccine.  they are killing off their own voters.  it's bizarre. 

survival of the fittest in a nation that has existed on survival of the least fit for generations now. it was bound to come back to bite us.  i have said it for years.  there is only so much any society can survive.  you can't save everyone in this world...at some point you need to have healthy and somewhat intelligent society members or the society will fail.  we've wanted to prevent all death in this nation and it has weakened us immensely.  

i will head out for  a walk again soon and then rest before i head back to work.  which unit will i be at taking care of covid patients?  when will we have to make decisions to limit the amount we will do for those who couldn't be bothered to be vaccinated. 

when will the things that i want to say but don't come flying out of my mouth, a cruelty to those who are already doomed to death possibly.  i don't want to be an ass but some of these fools make you want to be an ass.  

you are whining about getting a lovenox injection to prevent clots....well, you refused the vaccine and here we are, you are free to refuse the lovenox as well and we will just have to treat the stroke, heart attack or pulmonary emboli when it happens...stop whining.  

you took ivermectin, a treatment you have read about on your phone while ignoring what the experts have been imploring you to do, then when you are too ill at home you come in and demand all the treatments the same experts recommend that you wouldn't listen to yesterday.  it's insanity upon insanity.

still, we go in to work and we do our best with our assignments.  this is what we are here for, why we signed up...to help the sick...we just had hoped they wouldn't be such idiots. that they wouldn't want to put our very lives at risk because of their idiocy...but that is the job.  

thinking i should pay off some crap with some overtime.  take advantage of the constant stream of idiots coming in.  do i hate them, no.  i just have never rolled my eyes this much in my life....the stupidity of it all.  that so many defend them and support them.  

that they do not see that they are supporting death of the people they claim to love and support.  

it was older people the first rounds of covid.  now it's younger and seemingly more healthy people.  

how old will covid cat be before this is under control.  he's a big handsome cat now. 

the republicans continue their path of destruction.  taking away rights while claiming they are on the side of freedom.  they never admit any wrong doing and blame the Democrats for any and every thing. their followers buy in and believe that the liberals, the blacks, the cdc, the fda, the government....you name it they are all at fault for it all.  they want freedom over their bodies to not wear masks or get vaccines but want to take freedoms from others.  their battle against abortion rages on.  the stupidity of that is the easiest ways to prevent abortions are out there and available but they have rages against those options for generations.  education, access to healthcare and birth control.  support of the poor so they can afford the children they have...they refuse all of this and blame the parents and the left of course. 

save the fetus but it's okay to shoot children in schools, it's okay to prevent them from getting access to healthcare or education or food or shelter.  

we are out of Afghanistan but they have nothing but blame for the Dems on this.  they started this war and they avoided getting out of it as i'm sure it was easier to set up Biden and have him do it, knowing that it would be a rough exit.  i give him credit for having the guts to just do it.  it was pointless. they were never going to be able to change their political mayhem in Afghanistan no matter how much money and effort we poured in there. those that can left or will continue to leave. 

this is what we are left with.  a nation ruined by the GOP in their desperate attempts to maintain power as their views of the world fade away. they are living in a fantasy world that hasn't existed for some time now.  it was only a fantasy for a certain segment of our population...it's time to find ways to be more inclusive and less exclusive.  those days are gone.  it's better for all.  there are many great minds out there of all religion and color...they have been prevented from being allowed to thrive and shine...what great inventions/treatments/adventures have we all missed out of by these minds being prevented to thrive. 

now they are killing off what is left of their utopian view of the fantasy...allowing them to be mired in idiocy. refusing to mend the bizarre black hole of conspiracies for fear they will be found out to be the greatest idiots of the idiots. 

sadly, the rest of us must endure the lunacy. we are caught up in their spiraling death fall. they will take good, decent and intelligent folks down with them...destroy a nation that brilliant minds created. 

amazing what damage a few idiots can do at large when given power.  how has this nation given these fools power. how is it that they continue to hold power? when will the tables turn....?

it feels like we are powerless against the idiocy some days, especially as i go to work. 

i am faced with the idiocy each day. 

i will try and stand strong.  i am alone.  

people have been lost to the battle...followed the message of the idiots...those relationships may never be mended. 

i have clarity now though.  i can see those that have become lost to the conspiracy crack and i have been learning to just walk away. you have to sometimes to save yourself from madness

it's sad and it does sadden me to have to accept the loss. in the end, i find my self esteem being rebuilt, i find my power and strength re-emerge. i am enough. i will survive. 

nature is always resilient and i take my lessons from nature.

living here.  everything changes so quickly.  winter will take everything down to ice and spring will rebuild it all back up again. 

for now we are enjoying the mushrooms....

the dogs, the people who do support and accept me, the cats...they are who i rely on to keep the insanity at bay.  

to lift up you have to have support....it was easy to be dragged down by those who never wanted to see me succeed anyway.  

by leaving the church many needed me to fail.  to not be happy...how could i be? what did it mean to their faith if i left and was just fine, stronger in fact. 

i am a nurse. i am good at what i do. there are people who respect me and others who refuse to even see me let alone grant respect. 

at some point you have to walk away from that negative, the need for you to fail in order to make others feel empowered. for that...for the clarity, i will forever be grateful to covid.  

better get these pups walked. 

go see what i can see out there in the big world 

the days are getting shorter. there is snow on the mountains. it's colder.....change is here again

i don't hate the unvaccinated.  i pity them.  they have been made fools of and many will pay for their foolishness with their lives and the lives of those they love. 

grateful for A.  the people who see me and still want to be around me B the animals who adore me...it's great to be adored. C. mushrooms and the diversity of all things on this earth.  truly awe inspiring.