some things will never fix....

 

people are just different and think differently and see the world differently.  some demand answers and some ask no questions and if they do and that makes them feel uncomfortable they do not ask more.  i was always one who asked questions and then i demanded more answers if those questions weren't answered or if the answers seemed suspect. some would rather live the life they have then dream of a different life. 

watched the FDLS series on NetFlix "stay sweet, pray and obey". the regular Mormon church i was raised in was not at this level but there are some similarities which feels a bit creepy.  it's just mormonism on steroids and gone more mad. the mormons have plenty of bizarre beliefs and actions. 

even with all that came out about warren jeffs he still has thousands of followers out there in the communities he built and groomed. many are just more comfortable, like i said, in what is known to them. 

at this point, as i mentioned in a previous post. i feel sad for those who stay with things and don't ask the questions.  it's how they choose to live and the truth is they feel sad for me because in their mind i walked away from eternal life...of course, there are so many scare tactics and threats to keep you on the path to this eternal nirvana that you can spend your life on earth in hell with no real assurance that you will obtain this eternal glory.  

in the fdls cult he would kick boys out at age 13 just because boys would grow up to be men who would complete for the wives.  when you wants over 40 wives you gotta get rid of the guys.  kids were taken away from parents as well and sent off to the zion location in texas. also fathers who were competition to the leaders would be kicked out and their wives and children dispersed.  

there is a whole lot of sex going on but none of it sounds like it's good sex. 

pretty lazy today. did get to the dog park. there are some fires burning some place so Anchorage was pretty hazy and smoky. not great for activity and lungs. gas prices are high so not feeling a big desire to drain the tank too quickly.  the past few days i've been pondering getting the little inflatable kayak up and running and hitting the pond.  perhaps tomorrow will be the day. 

still coughing up crap.  mostly clear to white.  thick at times.  sats and lungs seem good. still the coughing is exhausting.  no meds except the inhalers  and at night i tend to take a bit of the stronger cold medication. get the rest. 

i just do not buy in to the idea that God requires special names and gestures and handshakes to get into heaven. seems pretty petty if you lived a good life to have you stand there at the pearly gates being denied because you don't know the proper handshake.  i'm not really clear on the whole spirits having sexual identity or hands for that matter. 

in the mormon world being a female in heaven sounds like reproducing new spirits for eternity. again...male and femaleness seems a strange ask for a spirit. i'd be more of a reincarnationist, come back in different lives for different experiences, those life experiences could be as a male or female or even as a trans or any other possibility. there is way too much to learn in life experiences for there to just be one chance it seems. 

those fdls folks and others in high demand religions or cults basically give up their chance to learn and grow as they jump through bizarre hoops trying to obey and pray and whatever...but perhaps there are things that one wanted to learn and being in a cult was just the way that those things will be learned.  i'm happy i was a question asker though. i like the journey i'm on way better than the one i was headed for as a mormon. 

i questioned things at a pretty young age. so many things just didn't make sense or didn't seem at all fair or right. the older i got the more i questioned. thankfully, i ran into others who helped me see the world differently.

the back deck pots are potted now.  there are many projects i should be working on.  do some repairs.  stuff i can do. just have to youtube a few things. just have to get out of lazy mode.

one brother i didn't expect to visit is going to visit and one i thought was going to visit isn't. i never believe much until i know tickets are bought. should be fun.  i do enjoy visitors.  

did some rock painting last night. haven't done too much of late of that. of late though i was sick so sleeping is probably normal when you are sick. 

i can get pretty hammered by cold bugs. 

these are from a trek to Valdez. the summer is already flying by.  we are already to the 12th. 

the worthington glacier has receded a lot.

liked this adorable drawing for Ukraine. 

russia is slamming them hard.  destroying everything they touch.  using torture and rape as weapons of war. sick jerks. 

the hearings on the Jan 6 riots/coup attempt have started so that is taking up air time. many just won't watch, but many are tuning in.  of course, faux news has opted to just not cover the hearings at all but instead tell their watchers what to think of what they tell them is on there. 

people in high demand religions/cults/conspiracy crack addicts are groomed to not ask questions as i said.  so this is how it will go for them with anything trump. they will mostly ignore any facts or truth and instead believe what makes them feel comfortable.  they do not want their world view questioned or altered.  they see things how they see things and nothing like facts or evidence will sway them. 

the rest of these are from March. 

Iditarod restart.  always fun.

not sure where this hat came from...i think off a dog toy

found a bag of rocks as i was running low this was very nice find. 

sunset at the dog class.

not sure what disasters await us all next.  putin is still nuts.  gas prices are nuts, the cost of groceries is nuts. 

so far other than the gas and groceries i'm hanging in there.  enjoying my simple little life with the pets. 

the annual iditarod event below. 

Sunny had fun chasing a new friend. his legs were so short just a few months ago. he's got a big poofy head of hair now.  he does look more like a poodle now.

made this cart for my rock painting supplies

some of my rocks. still make some rainbows. i think i always will.  i've lost so many great pets over the years.  have been lucky with the greatest dogs and cats though. they never live long enough.  it gets harder to say goodbye to them the older i get.  they are more of the family now.

shot of the neighborhood.  the sunset varies where it happens up here.  in the winter it's more easy to see, in the summer its more in the back yard.  

yesterday my friend and i walked powerline pass. it was perfect out. as we were headed back it started to rain.  i love rain and it just made me so happy and lifted me up so much yesterday.  we met many nice folks along the walk. we got back to the lot and one couple had a cute puppy.  they were nice enough to just let theirs off leash so the pups could chase each other and play. some people you just meet and know you could be friends with them.  as i drove down the hill after the walk i stopped to look at some flowers on the side of the road. they pulled over to make sure we were okay.  just seem like really good people. 

had a lovely meal tonight of some salmon.  i'll get some more salmon tomorrow from friends, thanks GT. i had gotten some out this morning to thaw out. my lucky dogs got the salmon leftovers.  that is how sweet it is to be an Alaskan dog. fresh salmon. 

in our one class. ill have to get him signed up again when the summer ends. 

he's smart and i need to encourage myself to challenge him more. i was really good with Blossom and Tusker/Ivy but i have been more of a slacker with him. not that he's terribly trained just that i want to get him better trained. it's fun to have a well trained dog.  

he's helping walk his new friend. 

we saw a moose and her two calves yesterday on the trail. they were far enough off, like this one.  

i know Sunny will bark.  he's a bit of a barker. 

Covid Cat has a productive morning yesterday.  caught and killed two shrews/voles.  not sure what they are.  at least they were both outside and not brought inside. 

he seemed quite proud of himself. 

such a good boy though. 

the now annual igloo in the bog.  

chilling in class

love to watch the animals sleep.  they are so peaceful. i best head to bed. 

thankful for A. that i was not raised flds. B. that i have a questioning mind C. that i never got further indoctrinated. i'll take my chances at the pearly gates.