another month another litter of kittens...

 

i know, i was not going to take another litter until late fall. my little trips are over for the moment, and the shelter assures me if i have any little trips they can board them there.  this group is now 2 day old kittens. grey and white, black and white polydactyly's. i picked them up yesterday. Mom already has a cold bug. she is pretty congested and not eating. today i did a steam with her and tried various foods. this evening i syringe fed her some water. 

this mom is super sweet and snuggly. i'm calling her Biscuits since she is always kneading and has extra toes.the babies are tiny! they seem to feed forever so i started giving them some bottle time. want them a nice healthy place before this cold bug hits them. i hope it skips them though, wouldn't that be nice. 

that last litter came later, and the mom was pretty poorly, but they had never had a bottle, so it does seem easier to get them used to a bottle. helps with transition to solids too.

just returned from a few nights in Valdez. they had contacted me about a different litter but i told them i was headed out of town but would take litter in fall. i was missing kittens. with my anxiety and all, the kittens have helped me schedule my day and focus my energy and anxiety into something more tangible and positive. it's stressful. i worry and fret over these little critters but it's a positive worry if that makes sense.  one i have more control over i guess.

things in our country just keep deteriorating it seems. bounty hunters have been commissioned to grab as many undocumented people as they can. the bond is $1000-1500 per person. they are masked and have no warrants, drive unmarked cars, basically they are kidnapping kind, hardworking individuals. its state sponsored human trafficking, i fear. they are building camps to hold people in. none of this is good. people are disappearing. 

they are not targeting the "criminals" at all. they are going to courts, where folks are going through process the correct way. they picked up hundreds of undocumented children from foster homes and put them in general camps. they have shown up at events like graduations, jobs, Home Depot. the communities are fighting back. glitter, getting cars towed, just standing up to them and turning them back once they are found to not have any warrants or will not identify themselves. the people who voted for this...i really just have zero tolerance at this point. many voted for these horrible people 3x. it's not just trump it's the cruel, racist, greedy people all around him. Miller is the worst in many ways. these immigration policies come from him, and he's been with trump since the beginning. i tried to warn those who were supporting this bull but i was literally told i had trump derangement syndrome and treated like i was hysterical. 

for years and many lost lives, we were told that we needed all these guns to prevent a corrupt government take over.  well, here we are and we are using glitter and scissors to cut off the nozzles on tires. all those lives lost over the decades in the name of being able to take on a corrupt government seem even more pointless. that was their argument though. 

my mark is all over the place. clearly, i am 100% against this. i couldn't hide if i wanted to. they can easily get our information and use it against us. 

these crazy hard right Christians believe Jesus is coming.  the sick thing is that these fools believe Jesus will find them to be great people worthy of a place in heaven while all those who are not Maga fools will be going to hell. i do not believe Jesus is coming and if he did, the guy i read about in the bible, i'm pretty sure these arses aren't headed where they think they are.  they are rounding up other Christians mostly, who just have different skin color than them, but they are not racist.  news flash, you are racist. you voted with the KKK, the nazi's, the white supremacists. 

this guy had the same hair do as Sunny, rare. 

will these people who still stand with the taco ever wake up to what they have allowed to happen in their name? doubtful. many live in a little bubble. they want to do away with any healthcare.  they do not want any money to go to regular people.  they want to tax us and then split the money amongst the ultra-wealthy. they want the money that goes back to those who paid in to social security. they want to take away Medicaid and Medicare. in Mcconnel's word, they will have to get over it.  a bunch of folks in wheelchairs protested at the capital, i think. they zip tied them and arrested them. 

they certainly want to make sure the midterms do not happen. while i was in Valdez the idiot dropped bombs in Iran.  he didn't get permission from congress. constitution? what constitution? these folks only care about the constitution when it impacts their right to own guns i guess. Iran has let us know that they already have sleeper cells in place ready to commence terrorist attacks...so i got a litter of kittens.

overall, i feel like i'm more myself. it was a mini meltdown, brought on by covid and the clarity that came with covid.  who was willing and desirous to actually be a real part of your life. who was rude as hell and needed to be moved away from. i'm backing further and further from any trump supporters. certainly, those who are crazy maga hat wearing types. it's a cult. they wonder why we don't worship biden or take their cuts at him personally. we elected him we never worshipped him. 

a crazy maga dressed like a cop and killed a Minnesota representative and her husband and dog, also injured another and their partner.  those hateful maga people basically have cheered. they have become intolerable humans.  Biden has cancer that has spread, they had nothing but cruel things to say.  even old Republicans that they no doubt voted for are trashed if they do not act loyal enough for the toddler ruining our nation. it's about more than a vote at this point. it's a matter of ethics and kindness and morality. they can scream Jesus all they want.  their actions and words and tweets show they truth. 

they can also scream patriotism but patriots would not allow such desecration of the constitution.  there was a huge protest on the day the taco had his Birthday military parade.  the no kings protests had between 4-6 million.  the parade that wasted millions had like 10,000. i was between shifts that day. many i knew did attend.  thank you all .

Valdez was a long drive but we stopped a lot and it was a chill visit.  lots of short walks, chilling and napping. tons of no see ums.  i've got the bites to prove it. 

i haven't really planned much. figure some day trips. hopefully, find a good low wind day to go whale watching. the kittens could be a bit of a bother but they really have been great for my brain. with all the chaos out there and the bad news, i can go in that room with the kittens and just escape. 

animals have saved me. the dog that was murdered alongside the democratic representative will lie in state with the owners at the state capital. Gilbert, a golden retriever. horrible maga. 

all it takes in any society is convincing people that they can do terrible things to this person or that person because "those people" are bad people, evil and when you live by vertical morals you can justify everything. this has happened in genocides for generations. 

trump probably took direction from Israels horrific leader on these bombings. they are trying to act like Iran was super close to nuclear bombs.  we are the only nation that has dropped a nuke. in the end, like Iraq, lies. also lies that this bombing "obliterated" their capabilities.

for generations, Israel has had sympathy from most of the world because of the holocaust.  it's only taken one terrible leader and their own genocide in Gaza to obliterate that sympathy. with the bombing there just wasn't much support.  the idiot taco seems to believe that he can direct every nation on the planet. 

it's taco now because i guess that was becoming his nick name on Wallstreet because he keeps threatening tariffs all over the place then backing off. "trump always chickens out".  great memes and songs. 

guess i needed a rant session. 

i do not support this idiot and his band of fools.  if you are maga you are in the wrong space. i believe immigrants of all sorts, documented or undocumented are a benefit to this nation.  i welcome them. i support the LGBTIQQ communities right to not just exist but to thrive and pursuit happiness. i strive to counter racism in myself and in this nation. i believe in a women's right to choose. i believe in universal healthcare and free education or heavilly supported education. our population, all populations do better when they are healthy, educated and secure. 

i have no interest in playing nice or having conversations that make people who believe in this bull comfortable. 

we spent far too long being careful with our words, not speaking of things that would make others feel uncomfortable.  we avoided things like politics and religion and money, and this has only increased the divides between us. everyone found their own news sources that made them feel comfortable and this just lead to misinformation and disinformation.  

sand dollars and their tracks. 

i have been getting out. not the big hikes or big adventures i've had in the past.  still fun. you adapt as you get older. i've done different things all through my life. outdoors/pets those things always stay. how i experience it changes though. as you get older you aren't invited as often. i do a lot alone but i do have some core friends to hang out with.  i'm grateful for that. 

loved this star below. so often,they send messages to me by how they are positioned. this one exudes power and bravado. we are down, we are fighting thought.  we won't give up or go down without a fight. i have to believe that the right side will win eventually.  sadly, many lives are already being harmed. so much is already lost. the destruction has been rapid these last few months since the thugs took office. have to have faith in good. 

i tell myself that in the end the ship will right itself and this last hurrah by those who live in a past world will be squelched.  maybe Christianity is failing or just changing. 

there have been many different god/religions worshipped and the ones before evolved into the ones now and the ones now will eventually evolve into new beliefs. these Christian churches have gotten more and more corrupt and greedy. guess my old Mormon church just lost a case because they have covered up sexual abuse for decades. who's surprised? not me. 

apparently, their insurance companies did not want to pay out, the church sued them and lost.

well, i'll go check the kittens and mom one more time.  then off to bed

stay strong, fight and if that doesn't work foster kittens.

grateful for: a. the people in my life that see me and know me and still like me, flaws and all b. the animals and nature that always bring me peace. c. outlets for my stress. 

in my 60's now....crazy

 

seems like my entries are more on the monthly basis. i think that is a reflection of a calmer brain. much less craziness. growth, maturity. who knows. some days i keep fairly busy and other days i get less done. i try to just allow my brain/body to guide me. 

this month i did get to Denali National Park and back down to Homer for my Birthday week. both trips went well  and i had great views and the dogs and i were all exhausted after.  Denali, the big mountain made a showing. in Homer, i found a new spot on the spit to explore during a nice low tide. 

i'd heard that there were sand dollars there.  i had nice -5.2 low tides. i spent the first morning at Bishops Beach and the second morning at the new spot behind the pier one theater on the spit. not disappointed either day.  there were thousands of sand dollars, especially once you got into the more sandy section below the tide zone. picked up a few shells as well. i have bleached those and put the nicest ones in the coffee table.

other finds, a nudibranch, stars, cucumber. always fun. weather was supposed to rain the whole time but really it was great.

my only complaint was that the hotel in Homer had tv set again to revert to faux news. i mentioned it again and they seem to be attempted to fix this. it used to revert to music. i like to leave the tv on when i fall asleep. the noise muffles any sounds outside the room which may make Sunny or Ivy bark. i tend to leave it on a station that plays friends or big bang or some other inane tv program. wake up to faux though, ick. they do actually seem concerned and baffled why it is doing this. 

my hotel in Healy called on my full day there and asked if  i was  staying, saying that when they went to clean the room was empty. odd as i was in the room taking a rest between drives into Denali and all my stuff was there. happy i was there when i got that call or i may have been very anxious about it. 

there are stars at the end of the spit but less than previous years and you really need a good low tide to see them.  

did not see any big animals in Denali, at least not close up.  there were loads of ptarmigan that the dogs wanted to chase. maybe the fact that they were still changing colors they were easy to spot. the road was open to mile 30 for all. 

that is always a fun time to go and you never know what you will see. still pretty and the big mountain was out. the drive out and back is long but we had a good time.  i always make lots of stops. 

now i have an overnight with friends at Dolly Varden cabin for June and also just booked that cute cabin at the KOA for June. no great low tides the rest of the summer anywhere it seems. was looking at Yakutat. maybe just find a low tide in general. it's been on the explore this place list for awhile. 

the painting on the shed is nearly done.  i painted it non-mellow yellow with brown trim.  still have a little trim to complete. painted some birds and birdhouses on there. 

got the railing on the back deck repaired and he will come back and put some sort of awning up over the back door and repair that wall where water and dogs damaged it. i also want to get sand and pavers in the area next to the shed and perhaps a planter on the other side. 

this keyboard is sticky, kind of annoying.

i have planted some flowers, which always perks up the place. 

look at the pretty sun star!

i also had a company come out to look at replacing upstairs windows. way too spendy for me. he mentioned a 40 year warranty. laughed as at 60, a 40 year warranty feels like overkill. i'll be dead. it's not that you are planning your death but you do realize that some things are really not going to matter. 

i think dropping eternity from your constant thoughts also makes some things matter less. 

i always thought the idea of my dead relatives or God watching my every move was strange. i mean how would they know when to look away or do they view every odd human thing i do. taking a shit, having sex....so many things in life we really don't want any other humans to see let alone those in the afterlife. 

my Birthday is always an awkward thing. i mean i want and crave the attention and acknowledgement while also being very uncomfortable with any attention. in the end this year, i had a few lovely meals out with friends and took a beautiful drive back from Homer after a perfect day in the tide pools. i hung out with my dogs that day. 

a friend called while i was on a stop to stretch with the dogs. of course, i dropped the chuck it out there i suspect. it was gone.  i walked back but never ran across it. tried to find a new short chuck it in town and then ordered one online. hopefully it's the right one. 

it is funny that Ivy loses tennis balls constantly, hundreds really. i lose one chuck it though and that is a disaster for us. 

in between trips i've mostly walked at the dog park or Campbell airstrip. 

the dogs are happy with this. i have walked Sunny on leash at the airstrip since the bears area out and the moose are popping out babies all over the place. he actually does great on leash and it's just me that needs to adjust to having a dog on leash. will meet friends in a bit for a walk today. 

this guy is real pretty too

i'm a fan of big clouds and sunsets

i return to work tomorrow night. i took this week off to enjoy my Birthday.  i have always tried to avoid my Birthday being at work. i do recall one Birthday at work. had to call a code strong as my patient flipped out. i was dropping a foley cath when my coworkers stood at the doorway singing happy birthday. nurses and medical folks in general develop a very twisted sense of humor. love my co-workers.

the trees are all green again. i love that fresh and beautiful pop of green.

now the flowers are coming out. this place is just a constant barrage of change.

love all the drama. i don't like drama in day-to-day life but i love it in nature

beautiful sunset in Homer at Bishops Beach. there are horses in the horse paddocks now. tours being given. 

i should have asked if they had any tours for low tide, because the next day the horses were in the paddock while we were on the beach. that night a woman was on a horse and Sunny kept barking.  he seems better with just the horses. not the horses with riders.

these boots were added to the mix of planters as you can see the big cracks. i do wear these a lot up here in the summers. guess Ketchikan has had loads of rain this past month. over 20+ inches in May alone. 

more of the greens

our nation remains a mess. love that a reporter called the idiot out. apparently, he's being called taco over these tariffs. he's so thin skinned, as are his followers so this has really upset them so of course, it's going wild. so many great memes. taco stands for trump always chickens out. perfect. so that has become his new name...among so many others. 

they have to crash and burn on their own. we have to mostly just sit back and allow the final meltdown of these idiots.  sadly, this is going to cause suffering in many. i just hope that once their extinction burst is over things can be made better for everyone. all the things they have fought against will be codified as rights. healthcare situation will improve as will workers' rights, gay rights, women's rights, education, racial inequalities...there is much wrong with this place. believe me no God will fix any of it. 

praying hasn't shown to work to fix actual issues in any society. that requires laws. 

this is the new spot for tide pooling

a little double rainbow action. I'm seeing some sunshine out there right now. hopefully a good walk 

i have a few things on my to do list. a few appointments to make. i tend to group those and tackle those at one time. i'm starting to think my anxiety is also wrapped up in some adhd. wasn't something we were aware of when i was younger. just ordered a book to do more research. claims to help you get your life more organized and productive, which would be helpful.

should eat something before i head out. just snacks

Sunny may be on leash for the walk. my knee has been a wee bit sore. suspect all that slipping around in the low tide zone. i did one slow backwards fall.  caught myself and was just in a bridge position. 

there was still some ice on lakes when i headed north last month. sure, that is all gone

love those trails in Talkeetna for a break in driving 

may add a night in Tok after Valdez, take a drive to Chicken?  it's been a while since i've done that drive.

grateful for A. another year on this beautiful planet B. pretty good health for my age C. the people and pets that make my life more full.