sometimes people try to figure out what is wrong with me. why did i not marry and all that. i'm not sure lack of marriage is a sign of failure or of some personality defect. i've seen enough married people to know that just the act of getting married doesn't make one normal. who you are before you married is still who you are after you marry.
there isn't one reason i never married, it can't be figured out in a brief conversation. for me, i just never met the person i felt i could be married to. does that make me too picky. for some i guess yes, that does. i've observed that relationships are difficult in the best of circumstances and this is made even more difficult when the two people aren't a good match. i've also observed that very few of those blissful relationships exist. i suppose it's dreamy of me to have such lofty expectations. have always just felt being alone beats being with the wrong guy. having not found the "right guy", well that left me alone.
i'm not totally alone though. i have the best animal companions a girl could ask for and many wonderful friends. men may come and go, but my friends have lasted for decades.
so yes, this is all to make me feel a bit better about valentines day.....the one day i'm forced to face my aloneness.
for today, it was me and the dogs out n. bivouac way watching a dog sled race. love my little spot out there. i just have to hike in a few miles and i'm the only spectator. the dogs actually quite enjoy watching the teams race by. rio must listen for the silent sounds of dogs through the woods. often you will hear the musher call to thier team or it's just quiet and all you hear is the dogs breathing and thier paws on the snow.