enjoying my local fall walking....so much bear poop today.

 would love to get out and explore more as well. fall is fast but it is so amazing.  look at these colors!!

 it is changing fast.  above is Beer Can Lake...otherwise known as Little Campbell Lake

 tougher to find mushrooms out there...still there but hidden under leaves, rotting, tiny...

 a few quick jaunts to Potters.  have just seen this one pair so far. 

 the colors have changed a lot between this time and the next time i went by there.

 rain started today but not until i had gone for my walk.  i got out of work a bit early.  was in CICU.  was actually put on call initially but got called in at 7:15 so a nice overtime night again.  they were staffed pretty fluff so when i weaned my one patient off of a neo drip i was free, but i stayed until after 5 am since ICU wasn't sure if they would need me and didn't want to let me go...thanks MW, haha!!

 always great to turn a 12 hour shift into a 10 hour shift.  gets me to bed a bit earlier and then out on the trails with the pups earlier as well. 

 so today we did Spencer Loop. I'm guessing it was close to 6 miles and lots of hills.  not sure my friends all like to join me on this one.  they claim i under advertise the amount of hills that are involved.  i think i tend to just think of the one big hill and forget to mention all the other smaller hills. 

 my first night of work i was put on call but never did get called in.  i mostly used that time to sleep expecting to get called in.  sleep is always good

 a salmon swimming around near the swans.

 these are at the dog park, University Lake.  we won't be going there for a bit.  Ivy has the Kennel Cough.  i think Tusker has been heard a few times with a rumbly cough but he seems more sub clinical.  Ivy has it but so far not awful.  hopefully, she kicks it fast.  she doesn't appear impacted by it at all except for the coughing.

 have stuck to trails out in Bicentennial Park this week.

 still a few flowers out there to enjoy.  our fall was pretty late this year.  seems like we have gotten the gift of an extended fall.  nobody is complaining.

 the light is dropping pretty rapidly at this point. 

 my middle night was pretty eventful at work.  first off i forgot my name badge...that always make the night a big pain.

 then as i was almost to work i was distracted waiting for my turn at the stop sign. there was a patient in a wheelchair headed away from the hospital. i was trying to figure out what pump was on the wheelchair and if i needed to let someone know when i got inside.  the patient was headed back in towards the hospital as i walked in..but in the meantime, my distraction caused me to just follow the car ahead of me through the stop sign without stopping for my turn.

 some pictures of those tiny blue mushrooms that help wood rot and turn the wood a blue color while it does it's thing.

 i started out my night in ER with a very busy assignment.  all three of my patients were pretty sick so i was just working hard to get them all taken care of.  while i was doing this my phone rang yet again but it was my boss.  a few months ago i guess i was one day late finishing an online class on Hippa stuff...so that prompted me to have to be formally written up for an oral warning...i always find these write ups for oral warnings ridiculous. i mean if you are writing up an oral warning isn't in not oral but written?  whatever...

 I'm not sure i was giving my boss the attention needed.  she's cool, just getting told from those in the offices above her that i needed to get a talking too.  this will apparently stay on my record for a year and could impact me if i tried to get a job in house elsewhere...of course, honestly i think I'm a pretty dang good nurse, if you don't hire me because i was a day late on a class, but got it done anyway, you are an idiot and i would have zero interest working for you.

 for those in the offices, away from all patients though, this is all they know of me.  they have no idea who is a good nurse or a bad nurse.  who goes the extra mile for those in their care or their co-workers....all they see is the check boxes of which classes you attend. 

 when your boss comes and speaks to you, the real fear in this line of work is that you have made some horrible mistake that has caused a sentinel event....so when they then say you are in big trouble because you were a day late finishing a course...well, I'm sorry if i have a tough time giving a crap.  hippa violations can get you fired though so it's serious stuff in hospitals. 

 since i was swamped and scheduling a time to meet and have an even longer conversation about this day late class, i just asked her to come down and I'd sign her written oral warning paper.  i think it was good as she saw how busy i was...doing the work that really counts...taking care of the people.  felt bad for her though as i know this is not the part of her job that she enjoys...we all have those parts of jobs.  it is annoying for me and makes me nervous i guess...you hear of hospitals trying to ditch aging workers to save cash...you have to worry about anything like this on your record.  it can just be used against you if someone wants to get rid of you. 

 we are all replaceable.  it doesn't really matter if you are good or bad at work.  it's ultimately about the bottom line.  money. 

 so not my best day...but you have to always try to keep crap in perspective.  lots of folks have much worse days than this.

 walked with LS the other day then she helped me get an old cabinet up in the garage.  so i painted that and put the doors back on.  the doors are off all the cabinets now.  took another cabinet down today. 

 had a nice patient who gave me some tips in the area of the heating vents....always helpful.  he was saying he was impressed that i was doing what i could. 

 which was nice because i have had folks look concerned and encourage me to find another contractor to do it all.  makes me think, if i was a guy, they would probably just say you can do it. 

 our small minded iitoo couldn't stop himself today and tweeted about the woman who made the accusation against this court nominee.  the GOP who delayed and prevented Obama's choice for the court for even getting a start are acting like they must hurry.  party boy's behavior may have come back to haunt him though. takes one to know one and the iitoo is one.  he's made it clear that he is a groper and a grabber and that he has on many occasions used his position to get a little here and there when he could. 

far too many guys count on women not speaking out. like this woman now, you will be blamed, you will be shredded. it's just your word against theirs and in our society...the males word means more.  if it isn't rape, who cares i guess.  even if it's rape though, you can't always prove it or you must have done something to cause it...you had a drink?  you wore sexy clothes?  you lead the guy on?  victims get victimized over and over.  this woman has become a target...those radical Christians back at it...

 boys will be boys is the excuse when they are young but why do boys get to be boys if it means girls must become victims? the boy gets a pass from society because we wouldn't want to destroy their future for what is deemed typical boy behavior...the girls, well i guess our society just could give a crap if they carry it with them.  they don't get to walk away from the bad behavior of the boys though.

 she will be berated by a group of elderly white men who do not believe her anyway.  they have an agenda so she is simple an obstacle. 

 our current potus basically said in his tweet, sure he may have done this but if she didn't go to cops back then it must not have been a big deal.  the GOP would be hard pressed to find a more disgusting character to push their agenda.  they really have put their faith in the devil.   so the GOP caters to white supremacists and molesters of all ages...I'm sure this would please God.

 somehow i doubt that Jesus had a get drunk and molest women phase.  truly good guys do not have a phase where they get drunk and fondle women and attempt to force themselves on them.  it just seems like the GOP has forgotten what good and decent is. 

 just feels like so many have decided there is only one right way for the world to be.  we all have to fit in the box that is labeled for us and if we don't they just have no clue what to do with us...but attempt to force everyone into their box. 

 they have become uncomfortable in a changing world and instead of finding ways to adapt they seem to be fighting with all they have to push their will on everyone else in society. 

 we don't all fit in a box.  we don't all look the same or think the same or love the same. 

 look at these sweet mugs...so cute.

 they were a bit sleepy after today's walk. they run a lot,chasing the ball.  so much bear poop on the trail today, but thankfully, no bears. no moose either.

 it's getting close to time to disconnect the range, the sink and the dishwasher...

 a 10 year old was found dead a few weeks ago in a village up north, Kotzebue.  a 42 year old man is in custody...she didn't get a chance to tell anyone. 

 at least 1:4 females are victims of some kind of sexual assault.  that is too many.  it's not the same guys over and over...these are acts done by family members, friends of the family, boyfriends...what most don't want to admit is this is a lot of guys getting away with little stuff and bigger stuff.  what are we teaching boys in our society..especially now that we have such a disgusting and cavalier potus...what can this nation do better?  quit giving males a pass, quit attacking victims would be a great start, but it probably won't happen.  boys will continue to get away with this crap and girls will continue to have to try to move forward as victims. 

 here is the blue wood that comes form the little mushrooms.

 back to another Monday walk.  we've had some incredible September weather.  crazy really. 

 my friend KR was able to join us for the walk this past week.  love all the reds this time of year

 Skelly is taking a bubble bath this month.  he looks pretty dang cute out there.  each Halloween i now debate if i should get Skelly a buddy or not...i mean he has lots of Skeleton buddies but do we want another human Skeleton?  hmm....tis the season to add Skeletons to the deck.

 Wow....in a letter to the editor a trumpie wrote, "President Trump is in good company, because Jesus, the Christ, was also rejected by many, even though God the Father was well pleased with him".  really clueless that these rabid evangelicals can somehow equate this iitoo with Jesus.  leagues apart...this comparison just disgusts me...i would hope it disgusts Christians, but i know there is a segment that does see this lunatic as somehow sent to them by God.  i read it in their posts...all the time.  i highly doubt any God is smiling down on this shit show.

 well, i guess i should go.   bills to pay and a few more things to do before i crash for the night.

thankful for: A.  having a voice and being able to use it still  B.  that midterms are approaching, hoping for some balance to calm this madness  C. my sweet canine companions