one screw per day...

 at least that is how it feels. I'm pretty inept at demo apparently.  i have just 2 screws left in the next cabinet to take out. a snails pace. the corner cabinets I'm thinking maybe i can put in the shed.  as a distraction for myself i finally painted the daisies on the shed...turned out pretty cute and it just makes me smile every time i look at it.

 the garage is a bit more full. below is a selfie from someone on last weeks Monday walk, maybe JM.  anyway, thanks for taking and sharing it.  we had a great turn out and lots of fun for the start of yet another season of Monday walks!!

 this was the first cabinet, which took me several tries to remove. 

 discovered some areas where there are lots of my favorite tiny mushrooms.  the ones that turn the wood blue...they are so pretty.

 just finished my work run of three.  all in the ICU.  different patients every night.  they changed my assignment last night and after i asked why they had they did give me the option of switching back.  the charge was Dag though so i think i figured she had a reason, even if she really didn't want to say. 

 in the end i had a super sick patient and i think she wanted the experience that i have.  we all joked though that i made the wrong choice as my assignment from the night before was pretty sweet and we were all super busy in the area i was in.

 i just had one patient long enough to transfer to another unit except as soon as i walked in his room he and his brother both went off on me.  i got the brunt of whatever they were pissed about...not unusual in this business.  later as i moved the patient to his new room he was saying how he and his brother were a bit rough on that first nurse...i then reminded him that i was actually that nurse.  he turned around and really looked at me and then apologized. 

 people are sick and emotional and as a nurse some days you just get vomited on with all their negative stressful crap.  i survived....not a great start to the shift though. we all got through it.  nurses work as a team when it's working right.  we are in the trenches and overall it's a career where if you meet a nurse anywhere you are immediately in the club together as it were.  old and new favorite toys laid out on bed.  Tusker is the lambie lover, the flat critters are Ivy Rose's. 

 enjoying that last sunny day in a long stretch of sunny days up here!  it was an epic few weeks. 

 my first night of work i was put on call.  thankfully...as i honestly had lost track of the days and i was sure it was Wednesday night, not Thursday.  i would totally not have shown up to work that night.  i got called in between 10-11. i almost had opted to drive to Hope since the day was so beautiful, thankfully i didn't.  i watched the swans at Potters marsh and then headed home to take a nap.

 old and new..she's taken pretty good care of her old one though.

 so this little letter was found the other day as i was started working on cabinet number 2.  it's a 3 page note and was found tucked between cabinets and from behind...so it really had to have been put in by someone who was helping with the build of the house. 

 it's written by a teenager who is pregnant and is written to the baby's father.  not sure why he tucked it into the cabinets.  everyone seems intrigued...what happened.  did he stay involved or walk away.

 i had just posted the first page on fb, but it seemed everyone wanted more so i posted all three pages.  a glimpse into someones young life. 

 today i finished up by little shed decor project.  i think it came out pretty adorable.  :-)  i love putting some happiness into every day life.

 i think Ivy has some green paint on her now.  i ran out of green and needed more yellow for the sun so i hit the Michael's after we played at the dog park. 

 it was not raining out there, just cloudy but it rained through the night i think.  just a few items remain in the free pile of last week.  everything found new homes. 

 the supreme court pick is not going well.  i suspect the GOP will just bulldoze through and confirm him, their agenda has clearly become more important than anything else. so many excuses...

 a woman came out to say he had groped her and attempted more when they were all teenagers. 

 seems she came out publicly today.  before she had tried to stay anonymous but now that she is out there will it delay his confirmation?  will some yes votes now sway?  hard to tell. 

 the rest are from the last bit of the Denali Highway drive.

 i know the inclination is to say, it was a youthful act and he should be allowed to leave it in the past and not be judged by what he did when he was a teenager. i also get that this may have been a one time act and that it may seem to have more bearing if it had become a trend...like some Presidents we know.   i hear that.  i mean we do seal the records of many underage crimes so that it doesn't destroy the rest of their lives...

 it does occur to me though that as the victim we never are allowed to just leave these acts in the past.  they stay with us all. mostly women, especially young women, feel pressure to just stay silent when these things occur.  you can't prove anything, it's just he said, she said, and the he said is the one most likely to be believed anyway...while the she said will be accused of lying or having caused the event anyway. 

 i can totally understand if one day many years later you see someone,  who committed an act upon you that scared you and damaged you for the rest of your days, and you see him living his life, with no ill effects from what he did to you...well, i can see being inclined to finally speak your peace.  even if it only makes people treat you like you are horrible for bringing up something so remote it seems on the surface hardly  worth a mention...but the truth is, it's never remote for the victim...it's always there on the surface.  it impacts you.  it made you lose trust in those around you.  the victim doesn't get to just move on and put the bad boyish act in the past.  they must find a way to live with the violation of their body and their trust.

 I'm sure all sorts of theories are already playing out on Faux about why she did this...not really sure anyone would put themselves through the social media tirades and anger if it hadn't happened.  i can totally see myself getting angry all over again if i saw the kid who attacked me while i was sleeping, as an adult, being put in a position of power such as this.  not sure if i would speak out, but I'm sure I'd be stewing in my head over it.  doubt I'd be brave enough to name names and put myself in a position of being attacked by the "evangelicals".  (who in my mind are our nations radicalized Christians). it does occur to me that this administration is what hell happens when a conspiracy theorists ascends to power.  chaos.  facts people....

 i have always wanted to find an old canoe or kayak and put it outside with flowers like this.

 tiny church on the way home from the Denali highway Drive

 it has this cool peacock stained glass.

 a little girl in Kotzebue had been missing for several days, sadly, she was found deceased.  i think an arrest has already been made.  she was only 10....

 at the dog park today i had a cool sighting of a goshawk i think it was.  flew right over.  no photos of it.  as i headed back from attempting to locate it i saw some dogs rolling around on a dead fish...there are salmon in there so that may have been what the hawk was after.  saw the dogs owners and told them about the dead fish...haha.

 the big hurricane was downgraded to a storm i think.  loads of rain and flooding though so still a mess.  the media does get a bit nuts in the coverage.  they don't really help themselves or their reputations when they do this...there is other crap going on in the world, cover it.  always frustrating how all news in our nation rarely or barely touches on the news of other parts of the globe...they have 24 hours coverage, seems they could divide some into national and then international. 

 i tend to head to BBC or NPR for more news of the world. 

 reading about one of the largest tsunamis ever recorded....it happened in Alaska in 2015. a landslide of 180 million tons caused a believed 600 foot wave.  it's perhaps the 4th highest tsunami.  it was in a fiord in Icy Bay.  the glacier in the area has retreated some 10 miles between 1961 and 1991, according to the article in the ADN.  this fiord did not even exist 30-40 years ago....it was ice then.

 a higher tsunami has occurred in the past...also in Alaska.  would not want to be out there kayaking when these waves hit!!  that one was over 1700 feet high!!  deglaciation can trigger these slides.  destabilized mountains.  more adventures in climate change...

 a bit of the sunset. 

 always a beautiful drive..guess the colors along this route are pretty amazing right now.  may need to take a drive after the Monday walk...may also need to attempt to get a few cabinets out and speed up my demolition!! 

 anyone with anger that needs to be released is welcome to schedule demo therapy!! :-) 

 not sure i have enough pent up anger to destroy stuff...more fear over what damage i could do still.  may pick up a jigsaw so i can try and peek into the area above the cabinets and make sure there isn't anything i can damage before i really take after it.  hopefully there is only the note hidden in there and no bodies.  :-) 

 well, i should go. i have been reading Woodwards book.  it is interesting.  he does get a few digs in on other Presidents for those of you who enjoy that.  night

thankful for: A.  being able to brush off patient attacks on me  B.  each screw that allows itself to be easily removed.  C. my happy shed...