each day an adventure in alaska: too much early Christmas shopping, mostly for me. :-)

late night, tired and Etsy/Amazon. what can i say. shopping happens.

not that i need more stuff. i really need less stuff. it's for sure time for a purge or crap. make room for new crap.

just the two nights this work stretch. i got super lucky the first night and a regular patient that drives everyone nuts got a room early on. the next night i got another annoying patient.

i do feel bad for morbidly obese people but i also struggle to be kind and compassionate to this particular population. i will admit. in these cases i can be less than patient. they wear me out though. so much whining and crying. at a certain weight you will be uncomfortable. i just can't position often enough to ease all pain. one leg probably can weigh 50-75 pounds, depending on the size of these patients. if you look up morbid obesity on line it will just say the bmi over 30-40. it is funny they don't put a number on it. height is a factor for sure. a person can weigh 400 pounds but be 6'4" and be fairly healthy. a person who is 5'weighing that same amount, not good.shifting that weight is really hard on my back and body. i was super sore the next 24 hours. it's a major work out. this patient wanted to dangle..this patient was unable to move a leg and it took 6-7 people to shift this patient from a stretcher to a bed. if the leg moving was any indication this would have become, back to bed, back to a dangle, back to bed...every 30minutes. we do not have the staff or time to do this.

it's frustrating for everyone i'm sure. like i said, i do try to be kind but at some point you do have to be a bit blunt. we cannot adjust your weight every 15-30 minutes and manage all our other patients.

i have managed to get up and out on the trails each day this week. the dogs are itching to get out again today. i'll get there.

busy doing CEU's last night as our nursing licenses are due this month. perhaps all that study caused me to have the shopping desire.

i also paid bills, made cookies, did laundry and dishes...so not totally lazy and unproductive.

the temperatures right now are in the 30's. looking like snow so i really should go pick up dog poops in the yard again. will walk first though. that is my life.

one brother did call yesterday. some days it does feel like a glimmer of hope. i suspect that i just want more than others are willing to give or capable of. i figured with 6 siblings i would just have more people there for me, checking in. it's always tough accepting what is instead of what you hoped. expectations are the worst. always loved the movie "leaving normal" because it was this reminder that disappointment is tied in with expectations and it's always best to move forward without those expectations and just be happy with what comes. easier said than done some days. especially when we were in the height of an epidemic and i was scared and feeling isolated.

i probably need to eat some breakfast as well. getting hungry.

spent some time brushing this guy last night as well. always relaxing.

catching up on what is going on out there beyond my life.

Ukraine got some good news, Kherson was liberated. can't trust putin but for the time they are free. much celebrations for the moment. will take any good news for the Ukrainians.

Iran protesters are on eek 8 at least. the corrupt government there seems to be going towards mass executions of any protesters they have in their custody. it's so easy for them to just kill, to have zero mercy or be completely unwilling to negotiate or bend on anything. once your freedom is taking away it is a monumental task to ever get it back.

our elections results are still being determined across the states but overall, it was not the gop wave they had hoped for. they will gain some but did not gain nearly as much as they assumed. they are of course, blaming others for that. can't be their inhumanity and lack of any sort of actual plan. hate and control are just not all that attractive. white women are a huge disappointment as they just go along with the gop really against their own future freedoms but they are on board with their station in life as they believe that is what god wants of them i guess.

my sweet pup keeps coming to me for snuggles. he wants to play. i know, i know. will write, then i have to eat something.

portage lake last spring. i wasn't too keen to risk travel on the lake that late. it's deep and there is an active glacier at the back end of the lake

bear poop, lots of berries

my friend and i on the hike out to root glacier.

Musk is taking a load of crap. he bought twitter then fired half the employees suddenly. it's a mess. he was then trying to make people pay money to prove they are them? others were managing to take over wealthy businesses and individuals names and post crazy crap. musk now wants to remove them and take away their free speech, which was one of the reasons he wanted to buy it...to give fools like trump back their accounts. he's a believer. it's all back fired pretty royally and the many who have amazing computer skills have had a blast screwing with him and his new twitter company.

morraine.

i think my friend loved the walk. it's long but overall pretty easy

the area has limited access so a great place to escape to.

and you can walk out on this glacier. always cool

it gets a bit further way each year as the glacier recedes a bit more

the old mine is always being worked on to keep it standing. one big quake would probably wipe it all out.

a blend of some of my dogs ashes and a rock. i left a rock yesterday. i had a ukraine support one in my pocket so i put that one out.

still tired and hungry so i'm not sure what the typing will be. probably lots of grammar and spelling errors. apologies.

others out on the glacier. they do tours. you can also just walk around.

closer of the rock

love all the various colors in the rocks out there

our local elections didn't go my way much....no surprise there. not sure if Murkowski will survive or if we'll get our second trump gop senator. hoping the dem holds on to the seat in congress.

on the plus side there have been a few grumblings of lack of support for the orange fuck. he seems to always come through it all. will it be a run off between trump and desantis, both horrible people. desantis more effective politician so in some ways more a risk.

crus made it through as well as texas governor abbott. how is this possible? even uvalde voted him back in after he did nothing to help the victims and their families there really.