each day an adventure in alaska: more from Homer....

already getting behind on summer and it's still spring.

have felt better the last two days. i do have those days at times, we all do i think.

above is where the ice was pushed up by the wind and the water. looked cool.

i wrote a note on the beach and sent it off to the universe. I am not Vile. it's tough to not let words from others ruminate in your soul and from time to time they win and they own you for a moment. it's more about making sure it's only a moment and the bulk of your days are yours, free and clear of their hate filled message.

very much appreciated my friend messaging me and telling me the words i have needed to hear. he was an ass in that moment. thank you MJ! one of my oldest and dearest friends. we met in Jr High. she was always curious and asked out loud the questions i had been asking inside for years, even as a kid. she never did it with any animous or judgement. just curious. question all things.

most just don't want to get involved or want to pretend it never happened. it really is kind of nuts though. that someone could drop that much of a hate and rage filled message on another and then act like nothing is askew.

i think when i see him just welcomed and participating in events it annoys me. pisses me off really. that he is given excuses and justifications for his behaviour and in my case it seems to feel like the worst is expected of me....and in truth i am not a bad person. i am not perfect, but i am decent.

these last few days as i walked beaches in Anchorage and Seward i was reminded that i have so much more in my life that is positive and good.

i get to live here. i have the health and ability to get out and enjoy this beauty and to take photos of it that i can share and make others lives and days a little brighter.

i have people in my life who do not think the worst of me but actually enjoy being around me. it's easy to drift into the negative aspects of life and words are powerful. when someone bombards you with that hate it's easy to make it yours if you allow it.

the real trick is remembering where the hatred came from and finding some level of pity for the person who has that hate in their heart.

saw a quote that cracked me up..."if i cut you off, chances are, you handed me the scissors.". so true. it takes a lot to drop even the most negative people from your life but sometimes you just have to.

a quote a saw the day after i wrote that blog also struck me. "on particularly rough days when i'm sure i can't possibly endure, i like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that's pretty good". so i got through another rough day....and on the whole my rough days are a piece of cake compared to what some have gone through in this life.

had to say a little prayer of thanks to whoever is out there as i drove yesterday.

it was raining off and on as i drove and i debated each mile, go to Seward, don't go to Seward. i stopped at Portage and walked the dogs a bit, let them swim. then back to the debate.

i finally just drove up the hill towards Seward. it turned out to be really pretty there.

so i'm happy i pushed through. rain often means rainbows anyway.

i didn't see any photo worthy rainbows but when i looked at the pictures later...a rainbow had turned popped up just over the pups in one shot. it wasn't something i saw, it was a trick of the photo and the light...but it seems to me that it was souls who have passed, be them human or canine...come to bring me some peace. orbs, rainbows....there are those things that connect us.

we hit Lowell Point and the beach off of Nash Rd. no idea what it's called. the tide was out so it was good timing..planned that way.

a nice dog we met at Bishops Beach.

more of the ridge of ice in Cooper Landing.

driving is always relaxing for me...even more so in the new car.

wanting to buy a storage thing for the roof of the car. i may go soft and just keep things that are not smelly in there. basic camping gear to just leave up there for the summer. tent/sleeping bag....

the soft ones are more prone to bear break in's but a lot cheaper as well. was reading the comments after one and they said it had made the hatch not be able to completely raise up. could be an issue. good thing to think about.

collected some blank rocks and painted some other rocks the other day. another relaxing hobby. still want to get the guitar out. would be fun to work on some kids songs again.i have a few that just need to be spruced up.

the cats have an appointment. i tried to make an appointment for accupuncture but they are over 2 months out. not really helpful.

i should try and work on a few more appointments today....then off to walk the pups and stop by REI and get my park pass.

it's a bit cloudy out there today.

these two always keep me entertained.

they had such a great time at the beach. they slept the entire drive home it seems.

lots of room in the back for them and on the plus side she can't jump around like she could in the Element, which is safer and he's in the back, which is safer. if i can get a working engine into the old girl i can make more money if/when i sell.

have felt like there was a bit of mourning for the Element.....it's been a good car and i didn't have time to decide it was over for her. i suspect the only way that was going to happen was how it did...her dying suddenly. funny how we get attached to certain things in life. if i can make more money on her i can put that towards a travel van perhaps one of these days.

will need to seriously look for one over the next few years.

Homer sunsets.

we are in the 40's and 50's, Barrow is warmed up to nearly 20F. life in Alaska.

i was never a fan of the heat though.

love that it rarely gets over 70-75 F here. amazing how hot that feels here.

Covid outbreak at base camp in Nepal for Everest...oxygen is thin at base...that can't be fun.

India is a mess. our numbers here have so far been stable

Happy Nurses Week to all my fabulous nurse comrades out there. it is not an easy or simple job. you guys know it. you work hard. i think often we are rewarded in ways that are not very obvious.

i could care less what management thinks of my nursing most days since they aren't my patients. my patients tell me they feel safe when i'm their nurse. in many ways it's a thankless job. the work you do is mostly unnoticed. our names forgotten. it's like that saying though. they don't necessarily remember you but they forever remember your kindness. it's why the profession has been mostly respected for years.

most of us need the services of those in medicine from time to time and we all appreciate the kindness and compassion when we do. it's the golden rule really. treat your patients how you would want to be treated and hope to be treated if you are ever a patient.

i have met so many incredible people in the world of medicine. all aspects. i have also had my world shaken by the tragedy we see in others lives, by doing all we can to save lives or helping those who will be shaken when they lose the lives of those they love.

it's a reminder always of how fragile our existence is here. a reminder to appreciate the beauty we are surrounded by, the people who are in our lives and the gift of good health we all take for granted.

beauty is everywhere, kindness is as well. like myself. we all need reminders from time to time to let go of the negative. to remember that those who are cruel are that way because they are in their own misery. we do not have to accept delivery of others anger though. take care of yourselves and those around you.