nursing nightmares....

 

pretty much every nursing dream i have i am overwhelmed in the dream and on some sort of race to get somewhere.  always way behind, lost and with a wide assortment of bizarre obstacles to are blocking my way forward. i wake up exhausted and in a lather from running around like crazy. 

last nights was the same.  I started in the Pediatrics hospital, which was a separate building.  a doctor wanted printer paper that wasn't reused with old stuff on the back.  thus began the chase.  i was dressed for work and headed out looking for this paper.

at some point this turned in to me trying to get to the Resource pool to get my assignment for the day.  i went up staircases that turned into cliff edges with no escape. at some point i was horribly late for the start of my shift and i was now wearing a dress. 

i woke up calling my boss to let them know that i was hopelessly late because i was totally lost in the building and unable to get to the Resource pool room to get my assignment. 

these are from family and friend visits late summer.  i may have a few visits slatted for this next summer.  always fun.  get these floors done Betsy!! i still need to finish the details on the stair rail.  i do think that worked well.  not all of my project ideas turn out how i want, and they are a mess if you look at the details..that is me though. i'm a mess if you try to look at the details of my life. i've always seen myself as an organized mess. it's all there, it's organized underneath it all, but it looks like a scattered mess from the outside. 

my work week was low on the work. that is rare so i will take it. 

many of these are the road to Kennicott. 

no first night as i had it off because of the education. the second night i got both my patients transferred and then just started working on more education stuff as i waited to see what the house wanted to do with me. they had opted to hang on to me in case the ICU got more admits....that was at 11 pm.  by 4 am my education stuff was done and they let me go home. 

my first lazy day and i did not take the dogs for a walk.  did toss the toy out in the back though.  weather was eh so that was easy.  i've been pretty dang good about walking though.  it is usual to miss a day on occasion. 

my last night was the 13 hour shift due to day light savings.  

i ended up being a sitter on the 4th floor. super nice staff up there and my patient was confused by pleasant.  i read nearly all of a novel, "little bee" i think.  i finished that after i woke up yesterday afternoon before heading out to Ruths for a rock/walk. 

so many amazing rocks out there.  i came home with a few but i wanted to snag so many more. it is a great little thing this rock stuff.  you do have to select your very favorites.  at times you return some back into the woods after you've held them a bit.  i haven't taken to putting any info on the back like many others do.  may just stick my initials though. some do like that at least as they like to keep 1 or two from the same. 

it's fun to see which of my rocks get picked up almost immediately and which just keep circling.  i put some of the flowers back out that were at the resting place with "freddie". the animals seem popular. the kayakers are snagged and the paw prints and hearts also seem to find homes. helps me to know what to paint more of the next time.  

i bought a tray basket for my collected rocks and i have another for the ones i've painted.  it's fun to put a little bit of art and happiness out there and see where it goes..or not.  most of the time you never know. oh the whale tales do well too. 

one fellow rocker posted that he ran across a woman out there with an akita...he smiled and said some greeting like how's it going?  well she went off on how she's "just trying to survive the f...ing liberals out there".  imagine having so much hate inside that you would say something like this to a total stranger whose views you have no clue about. 

it is amazing how often these are people who claim to be Christian and who claim to follow Christ.  i suspect if you have allowed that much hatred into your soul it is not Jesus you are following. from what i have read Jesus and lightness go together and darkness/negativity goes with a darker religious character. fear/hatred/loathing are just proof that many have allowed the darkness to overtake their souls and have forsaken the light. hopefully, one day they will wake up to that.

one rocker painted several rocks with positive/happy messages aimed at this negative person out there.  the best way to fight hate is to surround it with love.  one match can light a darkened room.  we all choose whether we allow darkness or light into our hearts and souls. 

some of these are also from a walk i took with my friend up Arc Angel road and at Independence Mine. the colors change so rapidly and are so beautiful

i have gotten the cat litter cleaned the pets fed and the bills paid.  one bill was overdue because i didn't notice the previous bill said October so i had two bills, one for October and one for November. oops! when i was young if i didn't have the money in the account i may send the check without the signature....now i have the money but just forget to pay it.  

i'm hungry.  forgetting to eat is a common issue in my life. i'm not anorexic, just forgetful. 

i'll eat soon

it's another cloudy day out there. need to plan for todays walk.  haven't done too much exciting so most of my photos of late have been of rocks i've found. 

wrote a poem today.  i have had periods of time in life where i write poems and times when i haven't.  i have been thinking it's time to get back into it.  my thoughts are that i should start a separate blog, maybe called "Misfit Poet" and post one of my photos with one of my poems. some older and some i try to write that are recent.  the goal being to get a total of 365 posts in the space of a year.  i probably have that many poems and i could post several posts in one day and none on others but it could be a fun goal to work towards. 

Ivy is acting more and more like herself, complete with leaping more.  i have noticed she does limp on the non surgical leg a bit more some days. 

the critters bring me a lot of happiness.  they are the constant in my life. 

Alaska is a lot of open space interrupted by the occasional road or community. 

i do love this place.  

above is Independence and below is Kennicott...those mountains across from the moraine used to not be visible so those who worked at the Kennicott mine did not know of their existence...the glacier was much higher and the river of ice was so high it obstructed the views beyond. 

that moraine is deceiving though.  it looks like it's all rock but all you need to do is dig just a foot or less and you will see that the dirt is really just a thin layer over ice. 

should hit the pet store today and my tires are in so i should plan on getting those put on.  will need to beg for a ride after i drop off the car. then a ride back.  the sooner the better though.  

that to do list never ends in life. 

most of it doesn't matter that much.  tires are some level of freedom though.  makes winter driving safer. 

there have been several landslides along the turnigan that have covered parts of the trail along the coast. love the colors above. 

the reds in the fall on the tundra!

i will post the blog to fb for any who are interested in the poetry. not sure how popular poetry is these days.  i've been told i'm pretty good at it.  perhaps after i finish looking at the pictures from the big camera and get the card/calendar made...then the poetry begins!

wrote a poem this morning. 

my friend hauls our gear across the bridge. 

do the things you enjoy/love and happiness will follow. 

share those things with others and happiness will spread. 

when you share happiness, more happiness returns to you. 

life is pretty simple that way.

i see some blue skies popping out...sucker holes or a start of a new weather pattern? 

i think she was both anxious and excited about this adventure. stuff up here can be pretty unique. the getting to and from the stuff can be part of the adventure. 

i've only been here a few times.  it is a pretty place.  worth the adventure getting there for sure.

always love to change it up and take some black and white images. 

my friend TO got me started back in the film camera days.  she bought a few rolls black and white and gave them to me before one adventure. the world just looks so different in black and white.

we walked past this huge boulder to/from the glacier at Kennicott.  there are all these smaller rocks embedded in it.  you can just imagine this huge boulder rolling down a hill with such force that these rocks all were taken up inside the large boulder.  pretty amazing really.

CR walks past the main mine building. it looks pretty unstable compared to last time i visited and i can't say it looked all that stable then.  one good sized quake and that whole thing comes crashing down. i better go eat and get the day started. enjoy that sun while it lasts. 

grateful for A.  having more light than dark in my world B. bursts of sunlight C. the occasional easy night.