it was a beautiful day. did enjoy the walk with the dogs. we just walked up patterson and through the trail that connects the streets and then to cheney lake and back to the bog. i got to the pool early and did my laps thinking that would free me up for the game. don't know why i get a day like this. just get stubborn i guess, wanting to do what i want and wishing i had someone in my life that wanted to just hang with me and do the stuff i like sometimes. i have loads of friends, but right now i feel a bit like the second string with most people around. like, i'm cool to hang with if the person they usually hang with isn't there or if what i'm doing is what they like to do. just the old theme of life that haunts you some days. felt a bit like an afterthought my whole life, i suppose that inner child escapes and ruins a day every so often.
i think the pictures reflect my feelings of the day. in addition, i looked up the beach house of my youth. the beach house in laguna is owned by someone new. the sweet beach house i rented in ketchikan is on the market. looks like they somehow combined the two side by side cabins and remodeled it to one. they are asking 425,000 for the little place. was sweet living on the water. maybe that was all a bit depressing today. spoke to someone who often talks, but doesn't listen. some days you just want to be heard. i suppose that is why i blog. we all just want to be heard some days.
I liked this post. Definitely have days like this sometimes. On days like this sometimes it is just better to do your own thing. It was on days like this that I would just go see some obscure independent movie and wander around shops by myself. Nowadays, when I feel like this, I just sit around the house with the kid and do nothing or splurge on a big chocolate shake instead of what sounds like fun, but that's what happens when you are toting a toddler around with you everywhere.
ReplyDeleteIt's true that blogging is nice just when you feel like talking about what's on your mind. People can read it or not, but at least it's out there and said and no one can interrupt or make you feel like you're taking up too much of their time by talking about what you want to talk about. And you don't have to wait for subjects to "come up".
Loved that the photos captured the mood of the post.
i'm so happy that days like that just come up on occasion. it makes me think of people who have chronic issues with depression and how debilitating that could be. i would think the toddler could give you that excuse to just kick back a bit. the dogs are great motivators to get me out and about, but i agree on those days it's probably best to just be a hermit.
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