one in four females have had some sort of sexual assault. victims are all around us and yet it's rarely really discussed.
me...lets see there was the time the man pulled over in his car next to me to "ask directions" when i was around 15. he was jerking off. the times i've been flashed, front and back, i've lost count of that one. i was house sitting for some fellow church members when their son snuck into the room i was sleeping in and felt me up. date rape with an ex boyfriend. he broke up with me but apparently he still thought that was acceptable.
it's not so much the act of the assault the worst is the lack of reaction from people who should react. the feeling that you should just keep your mouth shut as the parents of said boy are already dealing with enough...we go to church with them so lets just pretend none of it happened and keep everything nice and pretty. the rape...the guilt of knowing i could have easily stopped it, but i kept quiet so as not to cause a scene...not to cause an embarrassing and awkward situation. it's what you do.
makes me think of women across the globe the indignities and assaults they have suffered. do i have trust issues, yes. it probably didn't help that i had self esteem issues. i think those who commit these acts can deduce who the vulnerable ones are. i'm not vulnerable anymore....i learned to speak. the girl in the movie finds her voice too. that which doesn't kill you makes you stronger. i am stronger now, more confident. does that make me safe....no...even old ladies get raped out there in this world. when you see the horrors that happen to people on this earth you can put things in perspective. you can move on from events in your life and find your peace. the girl in her movie used her art to help her move forward...i used poetry. haven't written for some time. i should i guess, but i no longer am in the hole . i found a safe passage home.
life is good at this end. today was a great day. i woke late and got the dogs to the bog. then i settled rio in with her peanut butter and television and took blossom to campbell airstrip trails. we did rovers run. just a nice day out there. not as chilly as yesterday. has snowed a bit off and on this evening. the snow looked so nice that i through the ski's on after we'd walked rovers run and did about 45 minutes of skiing. blossom is tired. no toys tonight.